Welcome.
This blog will contain links to official mental health resources, and to non-professional mental health resources.
Anything which does not have a source linked to it, is my own personal experience/opinion.
It is of utmost importance that you work with a mental health professional on these matters.
- Important Information about this tumblr blog.
- Who does this blog follow?
- Links and resources.
- What is the one best resource I can offer you?
- Answers to FAQS.
- Myths surrounding DID/OSDD.
- Definitions
- How to keep yourself safe from fear mongering and misinformation.
For a full list of posts, please click “Keep Reading”.
- More on misinformation.
- A Quick Look at Cognitive Biases.
- What is doxxing, and how to avoid it.
- What does endogenic mean?
- How do I know if I have DID/OSDD?
- What are DID, OSDD1a, and OSDD1b?
- What's the difference between DID and OSDD?
- Can DID/OSDD be caused by outside influences?
- Diagnostic Criteria of DID.
- What is the treatment for DID/OSDD?
- How is DID/OSDD therapy different from trauma therapy?
- What are comorbid disorders?
- What are Non-Epileptic Seizures, and how do they relate to trauma survivors?
- Integration VS Fusion - a definition.
- End goals of therapy.
- Functional Multiplicity as an end goal.
- Final Fusion.
- A system’s experience with final fusion.
- Is there a core/original?
- Amnesia - a quick rundown.
- Overt-Covert DID/OSDD.
- About Polyfragmentation.
- Why does everyone just say "See a therapist"?
- How can I find a therapist?
- Online therapy.
- What to expect in therapy and how to act.
- Five types of therapy.
- What if I can’t find a therapist?
- What can I do without a therapist?
- My therapist is forcing me towards fusion.
- Let's talk about self diagnosing.
- Anti-diagnosis fear mongering.
- How do I explain DID/OSDD to a little alter?
- I have a distressed little/young alter.
- Should I name my alters?
- How much Separation is too much separation?
- Does the ISST-D believe your alters are real?
- Solving internal disputes within your system.
- What is art therapy?
- What is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy?
- What is 3 stage work/ 3 phase therapy?
- Meditation and mindfulness.
- Grounding/Anchoring.
- Learning & practicing life skills.
- Relearning who you are.
- Self care.
- What is Inner-Child work?
- Alters with different disorders?
- About dissociation (not DID/OSDD specific).
- Why do some kids develop DID, while their siblings don't?
- Is DID/OSDD Hereditary?
- What is ableism?
- Is DID/OSDD a neurodivergence?
Emotionally driven posts:
- Am I being selfish by concentrating on myself?
- I’m too scared to try new things.
- I feel like it was my fault.
Personal advice with little/no evidence or citations:
- How can my therapist help me tell if I'm faking it or not?
- How do I deal with severe swings in mood/personality?
- How do you live someone else's life right after self-realization?
- The spider bag. AKA How I fight fears with logic.
- What is the difference between the DSM-5 and the ISST-D treatment guidelines?, or: Neurodivergence and seeking treatment.
Reblogs:
- A personal account about their negative experiences with Radical Inclusion.
- A personal account about temporarily identifying as endogenic.
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- What is the one best resource I can offer you?
After much deliberation I have decided it is time for me to leave Tumblr.
The primary reason for this decision was my inability to adjust to the new tumblr layout/UI.
The secondary reason is that I am just so tired. These past two years have had many challenges for me, and my disability has reached the point where I cannot feasibly continue such an energy intensive blog.
Thank you all so much for reading my posts, reaching out to me with questions, and most of all thank you to those who called me out when I said something inaccurate or harmful.
I have learned so much in my time on tumblr, and I really loved feeling like I was helping people.
I apologise to the users who asked me to look into certain topics, as I was never able to complete those requests. I also regret not being able to have completed my intended series regarding EMDR. Suffice it to say; EMDR can be extremely helpful, and you shouldn't let fearmongering keep you from helpful treatment.
I wish you all the best going forward.
Times may get tough, but nurture the sisu within you and you will be able to overcome anything. <3
Hi everyone, I’ve got to admit, I just can’t seem to figure out this new tumblr layout where everything is on the side instead of up the top, and frankly it’s making me dizzy every time I try.
I’ve managed to figure out how to make a post, unless of course this post doesn’t appear on my page, in which case I guess I didn’t figure it out.
I’m sure most people are adjusting to it with varying degrees of ease, but it’s triggering this issue that I have sometimes when I’m typing online. It usually only happens when I’m typing something emotionally driven, but it also happens when I’m trying to understand something that is upsetting me (eg new tech, or being thrown into an utterly un-intuitive new layout).
Basically I’m getting dizzy, the room is spinnning, and I’m getting a huge headache and some mild nausea.
I’ll keep trying to figure it out, so that I can come back and continue my blog, but it looks like it will take a while.
Sorry and thank you for your understanding.
Knowing your alters and knowing who you are is important, but it shouldn't be treated like this ultimately important thing to a point that it consumes you. Knowing who you are knowing your alters are is a process that can take a long time, and you learn more and more about yourselves - just like singlets do - as your life goes on. But knowing who you are and knowing your alters should not consume you/your life. Yes, knowing your alters is important and helpful - of course people with DID NEED to know who their alters are as a part of recovery, but I'm saying that it shouldn't be all-consuming. It is impossible and unrealistic to expect to know who you are at all times.
Literally all I do is go "yeah, when I said that/felt that way/etc., that was a different alter, because I don't feel that way anymore/etc.", stuff like that. I cannot figure us out/we can't figure ourselves out and we can't even put labels as acknowledgement because we are completely unable to determine which behaviors, feelings, etc. belong to which alters. All I can do is acknowledge "that is a different alter than whoever I am now" and acknowledge that those feelings and such are real and are held by different parts.
actually people do not have a moral obligation to 'recover'. they have a moral obligation to do their best not to inflict harm on others. these are two distinct but sometimes overlapping concepts.
When you're tired, stressed, burned out, depressed, or just busy, figuring out how to feed yourself multiple times a day can take more energy than you have to give. Here's a resource I've been leaning on lately so that feeding myself is easier.
I've never been a meal prepper because I don't like eating leftovers over and over, and taping a written list of snack ideas to the pantry hasn't worked for me in the past. When I tried a visual method by saving a folder of photos on my phone, something clicked. I'm a visual person---of course I would benefit from seeing a personal menu of food in my own kitchen! (I haven't tried it, but I imagine a visual menu would work for kids too.) Right now, my menu has a lot of appetizer-type finger foods on it because that's what sounds good and doesn't take long to make or reheat. Maybe I'll change my menu out seasonally like a restaurant...
Anyway, I hope this sparks an idea for you if deciding what food to make is a struggle. If not this method exactly, experiment and see what makes the task easier for you! I'm all for saving energy on daily, routine tasks so that I can spend it where it's really important.
You have options. I promise you, you have options. Even if you blow up your whole life, change your name and train hop half way across the country- you still have options. So long as you are alive you have choices and chances. If you can’t see them, ask someone else. Ask a stranger or someone who loves you. Anyone not in your situation will have different a perspective. Stay safe and stay alive.
A lot of people get hung up on whether their reactions to trauma are good or bad. It is valid to want to know, but morality is not objective. It may be more helpful to instead think about whether your reaction is helpful or unhelpful and whether it will help you meet your long and short term needs.
y'know what? fuck it! shout out to all my fellow "stereotypes!"
shoutout to my fellow autists who do feel like a kid in an adult’s body because their mind works differently. shoutout to my fellow systems who have alters that lash out, and/or alters of fictives from popular media. shoutout to my fellow bpd folks who get clingy and have abandonment issues. shoutout to the autists who act "robotic" and love trains or dinosaurs. shoutout to the people with OCD/OCPD who do get obsessions with cleanliness and orderliness, who do wash their hands over and over, who do lock and unlock the doors a specific number of times. shoutout to the people struggling with intrusive thoughts that do get the violent ones and the sexual ones, not just the self-injurious ones.
shoutout to my fellow flamboyant gays. shoutout to the lesbians who wear flannel and have buzzcuts. shoutout to the aces who like space and cake and dragons. shoutout to the aces who are stoic and don't have an interest in bonding with people even non-romantically. shoutout to the nbs with neopronouns and names like "star." shoutout to the queers(or otherwise lgbt+ folk if you don't use that term for yourself) who have dyed and cut hair, wear a shitload of pronoun pins, wear a rainbow binder that can be seen, and love talking about how much they love being part of the community.
shoutout to my fellow activists who yell and get mad. shoutout to my fellow activists who bring up the problems in things, even if it means "always making it political." shoutout to the feminists who don't wear bras or shave, and don't get along with men.
shoutout to the men who struggle with emotions. shoutout to the men who love blue and camo and trucks and fixing things and sports and hunting. shoutout to the women who cry easily. shoutout to the women who take hours getting ready. shoutout to the women who love pink and shopping and shoes and cooking and taking care of kids and cleaning.
i'm very white so i'll summarize the next one: shoutout to all the BIPOC fitting into "stereotypes" as well. if anyone who is BIPOC wants to give specific shout outs, go for it!
to anyone who fits these or any other "stereotypes":
You are not a stereotype. You are a person with traits and qualities. You are not doing anything wrong by being true to yourself, whether that means fitting expectations or not.
Anyone who hates whatever group you are in for these "stereotypes" would hate your group regardless; anyone who accuses you of "giving your group a bad name" is deflecting the hate onto you because it's easier to pretend that it's nothing they are doing that gets that hatred; the truth is, bigots are bigots and they will always find a "reason" to be hateful. You trying to avoid "stereotypes" will never change that.
(do not fucking clown on this post. you will not get a debate from me, you will get blocked.)
“You are not a stereotype. You are a person with traits and qualities. You are not doing anything wrong by being true to yourself, whether that means fitting expectations or not.“
The Conversation about mental health posts goes in waves - from "it's ok to just do nothing for a while" and "self care is lying in bed with a cup of tea" to a hard backlash against that ("those posts were so damaging to me") and posts like "acually self care is cleaning your apartment," and there's lots of reasons for that --
those posts are for different people. the person who believes that there's nothing wrong with them, they just need to keep going, or the person who believes that not washing dishes means there's something unfixably wrong with them needs to hear that that's unsustainable & a break will help, but the person who feels that everything's already ruined so there's no point in doing anything needs to hear that small steps are still steps.
those posts are for the same person at different times, because people need to hear different things at different times in their lives.
when you post on the internet you can't limit a post to only the people it will benefit - like when broad spectrum antibiotics take out beneficial bacteria. and people don't always know which one will help them, so the audience doesn't even self-select. "it's ok if you do nothing" will help some people and hurt others!
honestly the thing is that it's "you can't push yourself all the time, but keeping your space in a state that doesn't cause anxiety or discomfort is probably better for you," but hitting the right balance requires a lot of self-knowledge, which you can't get from a text post on tumblr.
i don't have a good conclusion here - just "nothing in excess," I suppose.
I’d just like to add, see how they behave when they’re angry/frustrated/exhausted, and if you see something that concerns you, wait until they’re calm, and then talk to them about it.
My husband used to yell when he got frustrated, but after I explained to him that I found it upsetting, he stopped yelling and started consciously working on asking for help before he got to that level of frustration.
When I’m upset over something, or just in a bad mood, I tend to withdraw. My husband explained to me that it makes him feel like I’m mad at him, so now when I need some space, I’ll tell him what I’m upset about, or that I’m in a bad mood for no particular reason, and I need to be alone for a little while.
See your friends and partners at their worst, but don’t assume that their worst is immutable. If someone loves and cares about you, they’ll try to accommodate you to the best of their ability.
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This is the best advice I’ve ever seen on this site, and it is so important. Communication is everything, and is 80% of the reason my husband and I have such a healthy, strong, and supportive relationship.
“ See your friends and partners at their worst, but don’t assume that their worst is immutable. If someone loves and cares about you, they’ll try to accommodate you to the best of their ability. “
When my parents were expecting their first child, they began building a very large model ship out of matchsticks. They did this as an exercise to strengthen their ability to be patient and deal with frustrations.
A few years back my dad asked me why we use “intersex” now instead of “slur”.
This year my mum asked me for tips on relating to someone who has BPD.
People who are committed to self improvement will put the effort in, over and over again, for their entire lives. And that is a wonderful thing.
Rejection-sensitive or not, you have to accept when people say “no” and realize that people’s “no” is not about you. A boundary is never about you, it’s about that person’s sense of security. Do not make people’s personal limits a matter of targeted offence.
I just wanted to add some resources cuz I have ADHD and struggled (still struggle) with rejection-sensitive dysphoria and no one taught me how to deal with it, I had to learn on my own.
Here are some resources for those who struggle with it and want to get better about it.
For understanding RSD
ADDitude’s How ADHD Ignites Rejection Sensitivity
ADHD Jesse’s What Is RSD?
For coping with RSD
ADDitude Magazine’s How to Deal with Rejection: Coping with RSD and ADHD
How to ADHD’s How to Deal with Rejection Sensitivity
ADD.org’s Rejection Sensitivity: Managing Feelings of Overwhelm and Rejection as an Adult with ADHD
The Mighty’s 5 Practical Tips for Dealing with RSD
My personal tip: Tell yourself it’s not personal. Tell yourself it’s not an attack, that setting a boundary is not a slight directed at you. Say it out loud or write it down.
