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Marchosias' Playlist (Me)
"𝚂𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚏𝚎𝚝𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚠𝚎𝚊𝚔."
Dia's Playlist
"𝑰 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆𝒏. 𝑰 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝑨𝒏𝒄𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝔾𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝑮𝒐𝒅𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑾𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏."
Ari Playlist
I ∂ση'т нανє яιzz. I нανє вιg ∂σℓℓ єуєѕ αη∂ мαηу υηѕєттℓιηg тнιηgѕ тσ ѕαу. ♥
Farmers Only guy is named Pitmaster and you won't ever guess what he likes to do...
Adding that we have a family of early hominids too, Ichi, Ni, and their baby San.
And Pitmaster is a Pig man who lives with Nic (Bunnicula) Bunny man and Didi (Clown Jack-In-The-Box girl) in their creepy shack in the woods on the Mountain in Moonside and definitely are exterminator types for fucked alters and stuff that Simply Should Not Be.
Also there are two labyrinths down there, not just the permafrost and The City is in layers too...
The Labyrinth on moonside is the place where things grow, old ruins, temples.
The Labyrinth on Sunside is where the Quiet is. Liminal pools with varying levels of color and overgrown ness.
The Labyrinths are connected and the one on Moonside leads to the Forgotten Quarter in the city, which gets progressively darker as you move inward through the rings.
Most of the kids live there now.
There is yet another labyrinth at the very bottom layer where the Auditorium is, called the Catacombs and yeah...Connected to Sunside, p sure the portal in the Library goes there.
New alter from trigger yesterday. Winged serpent, named Sayarathsa he said. So that's fun.
He's got a raspy spooky wizard voice. I bet I know why that is too.
e,.e' Iont like him.
I looked back behind front and there was a Slithery Presence TM.
So that's cool. Fuckin' knew that would happen.
Here's a bit of a moodboard of the core family (After much legit fighting and gnashing of teeth to gather the photos properly and not pick ones that they hate...). Syskids, Parentals (Me and my Twin Dia) and the pets.
The kids from left to right, descending: Ari/Aurielle age 9ish, Ronald, Infant - 1 yrs, totoro - Nonverbal but cognitively older kid or tween, This one I forget the name of but is living with Barrett and Asai and is around 14, Barrett around 15-16, St. Jimmy Fictive 17-18ish, Asai, around 16-17 as well, Gregory, around 7 or 8 but very shy and proper, Elda who is also non-verbal but is around 8-10 yrs.
The main system pets, same order: Stump, three legged Alligator, acts kinda like a dog, Yara, my seeing eye parrot and silly baby, the cool thing is she's actually fronted before, and yes, she's just as loud as parrots usually are, my warthog baby boi Jerry Swinefeld who also kinda acts like a big dog, Bernard (British Pronunciation) Ari's cat sized incredibly snotty frog buddy, is kind of unnerving...Noora, Dia's lamb, dunno much about em, and Tau, who has animal intelligence and cuddle headbutts of incredible power but is in fact a Minotaur.
Me, Dia and the vibe of our family. x')
As a note, there are way more alters than I'm aware of, and these are the ones that are commonly in, around, or near front that I am aware of when I am so that's really the frame of reference I have.
We have a cereal mascot-esque surfer shark in here.
His name is "Craig Gnarly"
He just POPPED UP AND WAS LIKE "Haha yea bro!!"
And I...Yelled out loud "FUCKING HELL!"
Done spooked me. He does seem kind and friendly though.
He's kinda 80s ish and likes Videogames and random acts of kindness...And really wants a game controller.
As a marchosias kin, I'm kind of a werewolf, kind of a demon, kind of a dragon, and kind of an angel and it all fits so well.
(Not to mention being he/him 100% of the time but having a form that is feminine at times.)
Like, I found out who Marchosias was maybe less than a month ago? Unclear. But holy fuck that's me.
(And to clarify I mean the demon from the Ars Goetia and not a character from something named after the demon.)
I've got it in my head to describe my physique as an alter/my true form so I'll be doing that here. I know it backward and forward since it's me but it's an exercise in unlearning shame and knowing that this is who I am and who I want to be seen as.
----- Ishim/Seraph Permashift ----- <- This is the form I'm most familiar with so it'll be the most wordy. Height: 6' 3" Weight: Lighter than a human of the same size but not by much? Idk how much exactly. Build: Athletic-ish but not like, ripped. I feel kinda like I lean a bit wiry but it's not so intensely slim that it's bony. Wings: I finally did the calculations on my own wingspan and it's about 35 feet from tip to tip and built for long-term soaring. They glow and twinkle softly in the dark like the night sky on the inside. Facial Features: I have a forehead eye that is VERY inhuman that only opens when I'm doing high level magic/healing and I can feel that very often in the 3d as well as the bases of my wings. I have one blue eye that glows in dimly lit areas slightly but that also glows more for things like teleporting and low level magic like heat manipulation which is more innate to me, and one dark eye which is kind of where Mathias is chained up, part of my subsystem which is very quiet right now and I'm wondering if it's not a thing anymore...We shall see. He might be a reformed persecutor now meant for protection which is why he's been quiet. I have kind of ragged/chewed up pointed elfish ears and my halo is kind of like a lens flare behind me that also glows softly blue in darkness but much brighter like that in light. Additional Features: I have light tendrils that I use for general extra limbs, doing small tasks, all that, that are invisible in my section of the inner world and resemble that of the Ohmu from Nausicaa in that they are warm golden light that can heal others and myself...And sometimes I have a tail that's sort of ambiguous in terms of vibe but is white and fluffy in spots even if it's not the size of a wolf tail. More serpentine but less long/more vestigial than Dia's. My skin is sort of deeper than I can find in art very easily, medium tan and scarred all over...There are some tattoos in a deep indigo color, not black, but blueish...I'm not sure what they look like fully I haven't really investigated that but they're there under the scars lol. I've had some roughhousing with other alters and tore myself apart once in headspace while not in front because I regenerate but I don't like thinking about that too much...The scars are from stuff like that. Oh yeah, and white hair. Yeah, I have white hair and trauma, who would have known...Lol. I'm also blind and see through the eyes of my parrot companion alter, Yara though sometimes I can see but it's a LOT. My guess is it's related to the wings over the eyes of Seraphs. ----- Winged Beast Hashmal/Dominion Shift ------ This is the most common shift of mine and it's a different form, it's kind of like, lycanthropic? Sometimes bipedal, sometimes quad depending I believe that particular 'demon' I linked is an example of what Dominions look like and is just a fallen one. Height: At least 9 ft tall. Weight: Heavy enough to cause problems with landing too hard. Definitely bulkier than my humanoid form in general...Idk, probably a good half-ton or more.
Additional Notes: Simplifying this part because I know slightly less about it. The wingspan is proportional to the height gain, the claws are black as is the skin underneath much like a normal white wolf. The musculature is far more pronounced and the eyes are both pale blue and glowing. The wings are much purer white as well and I retain my light tendrils and forehead eye though this form is more sighted in general usually and when quadrapedal is very nimble and more used for goofing around and doggo type behaviour, as well as sprinting through the desert where I live. Oh, and this form can breathe blue fire and control heat on top of that. My humanoid form can only create small flames with my hands. It's also easier to teleport myself and not just make small portals for items in this form. Idk if I retain the halo but I feel like no. I do have a blue glow in my chest under my fur in this form that whirs and shines brighter when I breathe fire. ----- Ophanim Shift ----- Sort of an extension of this shift but is far more rare...This feels...Very classic Ophanim but instead of an eye as the central point, it's me. I feel wheels of gold covered in eyes expanding out from me in this shift and beginning to rotate around me in a gyroscoping way, I can feel them whooshing past and around me. This one also whirrs and I'm 90% sure there's more but I've only taken time to observe this one once or twice. ----- Firey Serpent Seraph/Chalkydri Shift -----
This is basically a luckdragon mixed with a godkin type vibe. Massive. Fucking huge. Bigger than a skyscraper. Leonid features, mane of white iridescent fur, fur plumes around my many clawed limbs, halo like the GD sun plus the gold wheels circling around it slowly that shimmer with slight ultraviolet like they're slicing the air itself...Very dope. White horns, white claws, pearlescent like mother of pearl and similarly iridescent scales to the fur. Blue tipped wings. In this form I have more eyes all over my face as well. When I'm a firin my lazer the scale thing happens where they kinda pop out of my spine somewhat and glow bright blue. --------- WHEW OKAY THAT WAS A MILLION OF WRITING. Enjoy those who actually read my yammering.
Hm. He Has Apparently Requested That I Choose Some Of My Own Descriptive Images. I Will Allow Him To Explain As The Immaculacy Of His Particular Record Keeping Detail Is Quite Dull To Me.
Gee thanks...
So that was Dia, I spent some time out of front so she could find some pictures she wants to use to describe herself, and I, as the resident writing it all down guy will do my best to portray her accurately in the style that most suits her.
Funnily enough HER more divine form is a lot more angelic than mine.
This is kind of the vibe. She kind of physically darkens any space she's in by comparison. She only does this when she's channeling or is generally juiced up.
She has an eyeball swarm that is named Ku and is especially huge and visible in her Godform. (Consumed by The Sight tm.)
In this form she's usually holding the lamb Nooura.
Who I believe is an equivelent to my own warthog Jerry Swinefeld.
In her more humanoid form (once again ironically) she's much more serpentine. She has a snake tail and retains her multiple arms that are entirely morphable btw but has legs that almost seem partially vestigial since she holds her weight on her tail generally speaking.
She appears almost albino and while my general colors are white, gold and blue, hers is replaced with red, gold and white.
One other thing is we both bleed oil I believe. Like, holy oil. Like...Divine machinery ass, keep the fire burning and the big wheels turning ass oil.
Hers is red.
Mine is blue. (Though more viscous and translucent than the example in the picture.)
Inner World - Sunside
Areas:
Entry/The Study - South The Corridor - Northwards into the Library The Library/Central Chamber My Bedroom - West The Conservatory - North The Baths - East The Labyrinth (Sunside) - The Desert -
The Study. (Entrance)
Set into the base of the mesa on Moonside, hermetically sealed. Accessible only by lock which is only openable by a key I have.
When I am near it pops out of the door, appearing as concentric rings laid flat in the surface, begins to glow and spin.
They are both designed to be infinite in combination and solution, quantum if you will. ^^
The Study.
Large window with a seat that has an inlay of various celestial objects in brass and mother of pearl/abalone, various jewel toned throw pillows, that I make glass for for visitors out of sand but is otherwise open to the desert.
Drawers that are actually tiny pocket dimensions that I can store things in both on the walls and in the desk.
Specimen display cases for samples of animals, plants, fossils behind desk along the walls, no actual books.
100% constantly cluttered desk.
White walls and dark wood beams.
Small details on floors and other wood.
An entire alcove across from the desk which is further inward from the window seat which is directly to the right of the entrance dedicated to a chaise and a large rennaisance painting of something I can't remember right now.
The Corridor
To the north at the far end of the study is a sort of…Short hallway. There's an entryway of the same dark wood with carvings around the edges in celestial designs like stars and moons, inset with small stones. The hall itself is made of what looks like hewn and smoothed stone with painted plaster over it. On the left side is a naval battle mosaic I've never actually seen irl but is definitely past-life related that stretches most of the length of the hall.
On the other side there are windowed large cubby type displays framed in dark wood, one full of artefacts, ancient jewelry, pottery, neolithic tools, the other is filled with writing fragments, mostly papyrus and cuneiform but others that appear to be chinese in origin. There are more that I can't identify.
At the end of the hall there is an alcove in which is the arched entryway to the library with patterned tile around the arch.
The Library
When you enter the library from the south it's got very very high ceilings and there is a short walkway sectioned off by two sitting areas on either side of the archway from the corridor with velvet seats in varying shapes and colors. To the west is a longer walkway that leads to my room that is concealed by a heavy velvet curtain and has a door with a gold wolf's head on the center that is another lock and on the eastern side is the door to the baths in an alcove which is stained glass and always billowing steam. The floors are made of white marble with traces of gold and pale blue veining and there are pillars of the same marble at each edge of each sitting area.
On the northern wall, curving around to the northeast and Southeast are bookshelves with books in every language on every subject imaginable, bound in deep jewel toned leather that ascend with balconies surrounded by dark wood railings.
As the library gets higher up, the tiers start disappearing and the books begin floating like dust into a slowly rotating vortex of clouds with about a softball sized dark point at the very apex.
There are some tables and chairs some stacked with books on the ground floor of the shelved area as well.
To the north is the Conservatory, you can always hear bird and animal sounds coming from it and smell/feel humidity. It's door is made of self repairing clear glass that repairs with gold veins.
More to be added.
My Bedroom When you enter the bedroom from the locked door to the West in the Library the bed is on the left pressed to the wall, it's a massive wood four poster that has a large indian-style wood lattice going all the way up on the side pressed to the wall. On each post is a relief of a Gorgon woman in dark varnished (?) wood holding aloft deep blue silk fabric that drapes over the top of the bed and down toward the side facing the door. The far end of the room has a massive arched opening that is fully open to the desert unless I create glass for it out of the sand with my heat. The floor is made of rough matte terracotta or clay tiles and there are compartments beneath for my clothing and other items.
The Baths My favorite room...To the east of the library there is the Baths. On the left when you walk in there's a sunken pool that has about 3 ft margins between it and the white marble tile floor. The wall behind the pool extends out high over the desert and is actually a giant box window that has waterfalls cascading down from the tops of the panes down into the pool. There is a massive statue that matches another statue far across the desert that faces it that the water flows down onto that sits in the window. On the right side of the room, in a slightly thinner section through some simple white marble arches, is the sauna, which is a pale bamboo with white volcanic stones against the back wall. Between the Sauna and the pool is a small shelf with all manner of herbs, dried fruits, oils, flowers, and salts for mixing in with the sauna and the bath which is in this area closer to the door when you walk in and is raised, made of the same bamboo and always hot/full.
The Conservatory To the north of the library is the Conservatory. The conservatory has two sections, the entrance is on the tropical side. The tropical side is a large vicgtorian style greenhouse with self-repairing glass and a huge domed roof, filled with tropical flora and fauna to the point of very little sun coming in and being constantly filled with bird/lizard/insect song and animal cries. Most of the animal companions live either here or in the temperate side which is more like a manor garden and has a very high up bench on a scaffolding that looks over a giant orrery model of the spheres (like dante's divine comedy) located in the center of the courtyard.
The Desert The desert is sprawling, with no fixed end that stretches out indefinitely from The Temple (Which is where all this stuff is.). The sands are in all different colors, with dunes of singular colors all over the landscape in varying tones. The reason why it's called Sunside is that in this desert, the sun never sets, it only dips down below the horizon briefly, rises again, dips down below the other horizon then travels to the other side of the sky. The Labyrinth (Sunside) The Sunside Labyrinth is accessible through a door in the desert somewhere and is a winding maze of liminal pools that connects to The Labryrinth on Moonside and at the points at which they blend, the pools become more overgrown with plants and the tiles begin turning to old worn stone.
Since I want to explore my general kintype vibes some more, I want to talk about the wheels within wheels thing. I have that...In my chest. And when I'm meditating I can cause it to expand to many times my body size. And it also generates divine fire and I can feel it rising up my entire body. Let me kind of explain visually what it's like? It glows blue with my heartbeat and is gold metal and blue light. (Kind of like this but with gold. Yes, like iron man. Lol.)
It rises out of my chest when I'm in that shifted state for lack of a better term and expands while kind of rotating gyroscopically like this:
...but for the most part stays in there. When I'm really juiced up it starts to whirr audibly (Upstairs) and I've done things like blow up double walled mugs and fuses (Sealed Vacuums) and blow out internet connections and shit. And the divine fire...Well, I haven't figured out any other better way to describe it visually:
I still feel kind of silly telling people about this kind of thing. There's more features I haven't mentioned to many people but also, like...It's part of me and it's time to unlearn shame in the face of the truth goddamn it.
Turns out there are bouncers for the records which makes more sense. I'm more world wise anyway. I like learning but I do it much better in a more personal sense, it's hard for me to retain large blocks of information, especially written but I am definitely smart. I have an irrational hatred of career academics as well and I was wondering where that came from lmfao.
Okay so, some more pictures of my non-humanoid form I guess.
First thing's first I have healing golden like...Light tendrils like the Ohmu from Nausicaä, like this if you haven't seen it:
(I'm not into that, shut up.)
And I also kinda have a lot of lupine/canid traits to my more serpentine form. Kinda like Falkor, which, again, here if you don't know who I mean:
But showing up a lot more like these:
(Admittedly that last one is self-indulgent but let me just add some really accurate humanoid ones to seal the deal and go fully into the self indulgent zone because I honestly need it to not leave front and I need to keep my shit together atm.)
My left eye is black (I honestly can't remember which side but I guess left every time.)
I have dark eyebrows but my hair is white, my blue eye actually glows when I'm on my wizard business. My wings have eyes and my halo is more of a disc behind my head rather than a ring over it. My hair is usually kinda messy but not completely wild, uh, I also do the perching thing and even have a shelf in HS just built for me to have a little ledge to perch on.
Also, just as a note, this is like, stuff I've actively felt, known, or observed for a few years and then found rough vibey pictures to describe.
Fun fact, I sort of mostly know how to play the violin. Another fun fact, I asked for a violin because I didn't dare ask about the cello.
Yet another fun fact, I wanted to cover songs like Sunshine of Your Love and fuckin' Are You Gonna Go My Way with that B.
My favorite moment I had with that thing before I yknow, ran away from home and subsequently left behind most of my possesions about 4-6 discreet times...Was I was in an apartment with a couple friends who agreed to be roommates...One of them, his name was Felix, knew how to play the flute...We did a little cover of Stairway to Heaven right there in the kitchen...It's a pretty nice memory. :)
ANYWAY, all that to preface the idea of yknow how there are lyre angels, harp angels yadda yadda? Well, I'm kind of...A cello angel.
(Which makes sense because all of my angel stuff is one foot to the left because I don't have a Christian background at all so it's just fuckin' Godzilla King of Monsters x Kid Icharus via a Gojo Satoru reskin up in here. <- I fully have never seen this anime, don't @ me. I just keep getting him and gotdam Draco Malfoy looking for art that looks like me...)
Aleksandros Moodboard (Derogatory)
Since I'm out (Koda) right now some things about me...I'm the most connected to the body...The build is like the 3rd photo (With the additional arms and figure ya), the hair is like the 1st, the horns are swapped out with the 2nd photo and the Vibe is like the bottom 3.
Averniel and Tau are alters I was trying to remember the names of for a while and it finally came back to me.
Averniel is still around, he's a very genteel sort of Moth kemonomimi type and is from what was Shavij.
Tau is a minotaur he makes normal cow sounds and is aggressively snuggly and is basically a cow with a man body lol. Stinky baby. ♡
Some other alters I haven't mentioned here that are either dormant or far from front:
Evil twink bunny boy his name started with an X.
Koda, four armed and kind of shonen ninja coded gal, she's like 7 ft+ tall and is just jacked as fuck. She really wants to feel pretty and dainty.
Victoria and RAT. <- These folks were really early on and I can't remember much about them.
Mathias and Damien were from that same batch.
Trying to explain my kintype being seraph but not like...JUST six wings seraph but like... Firey serpent seraph, Beast faces living creature type seraph, holy holy holy type seraph. Bitch, hold my burning coal type seraph. Which to me is why I have 6 limbs that aren't wings sometimes but sometimes just tendrils of light (A lot like an ohmu from Nausicaä), it's why I have both lycan traits (I free shift into a bipedal lupine form with wings.) and draconic traits (Specificially 6 winged, serpentine canid type dragon traits.), and why most of the time I'm blind in headspace. (It's from the wings on my face probably.) (I also secrete indigo colored DEFINITELY annointed oil but-) Relevant Bible Passages:
Numbers 21:6-8
Ezekiel 1:4-10
Isaiah 6:1-7
