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I think things, sometimes. Sometimes, I even say them out loud. https://archiveofourown.org/users/Jazzythursday 5+ fandoms in a trench coat Please scream at me in my ask box or dms if you like, as long as it’s friendly screaming

[jazzythursday]

Handy links for all my wesper fics:

Everyday, Just a Little or a Little Bit (42K, T) - the scenic route to the Van Eck reveal (multi-chap Wylan character study)

Heart Of The Country (ongoing, T) - a series of happenings at the Fahey family farm, one year post-Crooked Kingdom.

No Right Way for the Blue or Black Days (4K, T) - Jesper has a run in with some debt collectors after a solo job, and comes back to the Slat bruised, bloody, embarrassed and, despite all insistence to the contrary, not fine. Neither of them take it well.

Fashionably Late (1K, T) - Date night, or the precursor to it. Jesper has certain thoughts about punctuality and surprises, and Wylan has thoughts about Jesper. Themes of identity and self acceptance.

Aubade, in Bed (1K, T) - Jesper wakes up to Wylan tapping silent melodies against the ridges of his ribs, over the apex of his heart. Geldstraat fluff.

Call and Response (1K, T) - A night out in the Barrel. Clubs are loud, and Wylan is quiet. Neither of these things are a problem.

Cutting Losses (1K, T) - obligatory Wylan leaving the morning after meeting Jesper fic. Stroopwafels meet-cute backstory with a side of angst.

Questions, Unasked (396 words, G) - short drabble about Jesper listening to Wylan ramble and noticing how he puts himself down.

Science and Magic (2K, G) - s2 filler, Wylan falls asleep in Jesper’s lap post-adrenaline crash after the battle in Ravka. Vaguely hurt/comfort adjacent but mostly just fluff. Hair petting.

In careful moderation (of all good things) (2K, G) - post-s2, Nina talks to Wylan about the importance of cake, and accepting love without fear. Jesper cameo at the end.

Call to Rest/Call to Wake (3K, T) - post-s2 soft mornings at the Slat. Jesper wants to go out for breakfast and Wylan is not a morning person.

I Need to Leave (Please Stay) (1K, T) - a short Wylan character study on leaving and being left, struggling through his first year in the Barrel, and meeting Jesper. Light angst with a happy ending.

Careless Is the Fall (3K, T) - Wylan character study about perfectionism and making mistakes. Chemistry accidents and hurt/comfort.

When I Try to Find My Way (4K, G) - show!wesper post-ck. Jesper goes up to the roof of the mansion for some air, Wylan goes up to the roof of the mansion for Jesper. Wishing on shooting stars and talking about feelings ensues.

Taste of Home (3K, T) - show!wesper Geldstraat years. Wylan comes home from a council meeting and Jesper has taken up baking. Dancing in the kitchen and fluff ensues.

Flight of the Butterfly / Symbiosis (3K, T) - s2 filler. Travel time between Shu Han and Ravka. Nighttime conversations on the deck of the Hummingbird.

Familiar Strangers (2K, T) - s2 filler. Jesper’s pov of the night the Crow Club blows up, and what happens after.

Gifts Wretched and Devine (815 words) - short ficlet about Wylan’s feelings on receiving gifts. Domestic fluff with the slightest tinge of backstory angst.

From the Moment I Opened My Eyes (2K, T) - tipsy kisses in the workshop. Jesper’s having feelings and Wylan’s coat has too many buckles.

List of my GO fics here

My drabbles on here can also be found under #a drabble for your troubles? And any snippets/updates are under #jazzy writes and #jazzy writes fanfic and my rambles and rants can be found under #jazzy's thinking too much again

[hermitmoss]

I love you autistic people in star trek. I love you the outsider metaphor spock, maybe the original "autistic alien," who always wants to help. I love you data the android crewman and officer and artist and poet who loves his cat. I love you montgomery scott who loves and knows his ship more than anyone else can and who treats it as a family member. I love you sarek, one of the most important and respected figures in vulcan society and in the federation, who is a computer geek who has a semi-public meltdown. I love you julian bashir, who had a learning disability. I love you worf who participates in klingon culture by following the rulebook. I love you jim, who was a "stack of books with legs" and is the only person who consistently looks directly at spock, sees him for who he is, and loves him for every single bit of that. I love you leonard mccoy with your bad bedside manner who literally writes the book on alien physiology and will break any rule and risk anything to do the only thing that matters to him, being a doctor. I love you amanda grayson who helped develop the universal translator and who marries an alien compsci geek and goes to live on his planet. I love you saavik who is so so so angry and who wants to learn how to be a 'real vulcan.' I love you surak who ran away to be a hermit, realised the joy of people being vastly different from each other, and thought so differently to others in his society that he completely changed the trajectory and identity of his species. I love you sulu, with his botany hobby and plants with names and special interest in ancient weaponry who can pilot anything. I love you t'lyn, whose neurodivergence makes her "vulcan as a motherfucker."

[timberwind]

you can post on tumblr even when you're trying to take a break from social media it literally doesn't count. it's like pepsi max, or pescatarianism

[juicydangler]

[trying-trying2lyk]

i love writing out numbers and then putting them in parentheses like "one (1)" even when i dont need to i think its funny

[justatiredlittlesnail]

[kedreeva]

If you're ever worried about whether your writing is too self indulgent, I just want you to remember that Sharknado had 5 sequels. I'm only partway through watching Sharknado 6: It's About Time, but already they've traveled through time and ridden a pteronadon into a Sharknado so they could use the magic teleportation portal inside of it to travel forward in time to King Arthur's time, where they are currently battling a Sharknado full of fire-breathing dragon sharks with Excalibur, which is a chainsaw sword that calls lightning. You're fine. In fact, be a little more self indulgent if anything.

[grandfather-paradoxx]

Is this a hallucination? Are you ok?

[robin-hood-for-freedom]

Its absolutely real.

Theres this thing that happens with a few too many franchises, where the constant need to one-up and raise stakes makes each entry slightly more unhinged than the last. Until you reach a point where what started as a fairly simple/grounded concept has become completely ridiculous(see Dragonball, Fast and Furious).

Sharknado is what happens when you have that tendency of escalation, but your starting premise is 'a tornado full of sharks'

[kedreeva]

You can put down the shovel, bud. It's The Asylum. Every movie they make is like this. And was like this before Sharknado and will be like this long after, because that's the kind of movie the company makes. They were making terrible horror movies before Sharknado, with just as weird and ridiculous premises. Sharknado was never grounded (and if you think so, you must not have watched it), nor was it meant to be. The POINT of their movies is to be ridiculous. They literally named the company The Asylum because they knew they were gonna make "crazy" stuff. It's not the same as a serious first movie that jumps the shark in a sequel or something. The shark was jumped way before they threw it into a tornado.

[the-uss-premise]

Leonard Nimoy as Mr. Spock | Star Trek (1966-69)

[cursedtrekedits]

kirk sandwich!

[goatedgreen]

i hate that when you try and look up shit for writing purposes it starts linking suicide hotlines and addiction advice articles like bro i just wanna know the information im not killing myself i promise. now tell me what i wanna know

[theofreakingbell]

thinking about Loki worrying post reconciliation about Thor trusting him again because while Thor trusts him a lot now Loki still does not trust himself enough around Thor to not feel worried and uneasy about how easily Thor trusts him again.

like as his protectiveness towards Thor returns so does his visceral awareness that one of the biggest past and possible future threats to his dear brother, that he did not protect him from, is himself. and he does not trust himself the way Thor does. the way he thinks Thor perhaps shouldn't

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[ripfic]

*putting my elbows on the table, head resting on my hands, and leaning forward* please elaborate~

Ok! 💚💚💚

So, basically, in the movies, none of the members of the royal family outright reject Loki, but everything about the way they treat hìm is screaming of rejection, or, more specifically, of rejection of him as living, breathing person with feelings rather than a convenient tool existing solely for the purpose of serving their needs.

Thor keeps saying how much he loves Loki, how he "used to" think the world of him, and how much it hurts him when Loki denies their brotherhood, but all of these words feel empty because every interaction he has with Loki, even the ones before Loki finds out the truth, can be boiled down to Loki doing what Thor wants or being mocked/threatened with violence.

Loki kindly suggests that starting a war with Jotunheim is not a good idea? - "know your place, brother". Loki doesn't want to drop everything and help Thor while never receiving any help back? - torture device. Daring to say something that upsets Thor? - Thor almost hits him. Etc. He also goes out of his way to mock Loki's skills and interests, and his desire to avoid fighting if he can. (Also, he suspects that Loki is under someone's control in NYC, but nevef does anything about it).

Odin only ever took Loki in because he saw potential use for him. There are multiple implications of favoritism, with mentions of "Thor never getting punished" and Loki being treated more harshly, and the moment Loki becomes inconvenient, Odin wants him dead. He also never put any effort into creating an environment safe for jotunns to live in, but rather made Loki look white and lied to him to "save him from the truth", because, in his eyes, Loki being jotunn is a terrible thing. He never said he wanted to protect Loki from violence or the space-racist society, no. From the truth itself. What is it, if not the ultimate rejection?

Now, I have to give Frigga some credit for taking time to actually learn Loki's interests (with her providing him with books on astronomy) and teach him magic, but she still rejects the idea of him having feelings: every time he has an emotional need, she resorts to reminding him that they love him, and that Odin "has a reason for everything he does". She doesn't only directly enable the way Odin and Thor treat him, but also goes out of her way to at very least hint thaf Loki should either suck it up because he owes them for loving him, or that he had brought the abuse on himself. She also is heavily implied to parentify him (with that "Thor is not ready but Loki will guide him" thing).

There isn't a singular interaction between Loki and his family that would signify their acceptance of him as a living being.

Moreover, there are a couple of scenes within the Thor's franchise that directly or indirectly compare him to a useful, inanimate object, with T1 having Loki himself drawing a parallel between himself and the other stolen relics in Odin's palace, and TR having a scene of Thor describing what mjolnir is to him (and emphasizing that it comes back no matter how many times Thor throws it away) and Korg pointing out that it feels like Thor is speaking of a person rather than an object. And within the context of the movie it's hard to interpret this as anything but a reference to Loki (especially considering that later in the same movie he tortures Loki and leaves him on Sakaar and then tells him he's late when Loki comes back to save the day).

None of these people ever tell Loki they don't love him or that he isn't accepted, but there isn't a singular scene in the mcu suggesting that they actually do.

They love and accept his help. His compliance. The way his support and presence makes them feel about themselves. The idea of what he should be.

But not him. Not a jotunn. Not a living person who can have opinions, feelings, and can get hurt. Not a survivor of severe trauma.

And isn't it rejection?

[darkspaceboytoy]

Incredibly violent take of mine but I actually don’t think you need to relate to a story in any way to enjoy it. You can enjoy a story even if you can’t point at a character and insert some aspect of your personality or identity into them. In fact I would argue the need for a character like that to be present in every single story you experience is a sign of stunted growth.

[curiositysavesthecat]

Do you think it's weird and/or predatory for a 13 year-old and a 30 year-old to be best friends if they're not family members or related by blood? Assuming everything is innocent and platonic. Nothing romantic or sexual.

Yes, it's weird and predatory

It's weird. But not predatory

It's predatory. But not weird

No, it's not weird or predatory

Remaining time: 4 days 1 hour

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[creelson]

unpopular opinion but I don't think there's anything weird or predatory about an innocent friendship

[dianxiacantastemolecules]

The question is why the fuck is a thirty year old hanging out with a 13 year old if not in their family?? The only other relation that could have them interact is through teacher/student and bring friends like that would be weird as fuck

[creelson]

found family? the kid not feeling safe in their house? the adult wanting to help? family / teacher / school isn't always a guaranteed safe place. should the kid and adult each have friends that are their own age too? sure. but if their friendship is genuinely innocent then I think the problem isn't them but people who project their weird and predatory thoughts onto them

[the-bar-sinister]

Don't forget shared hobbies?

A 13 year old and a 30 year old could reasonably meet at a tabletop gaming store, a fiber arts group, a book club....

[audacityinblack]

They could literally just be neighbors. This whole isolationist thing of never even talking to the people you live closest to is new and weird.

[moniquill]

It is important to human social development to have extra-parental adults as advisors and role models!

[audacityinblack]

Something I really think needs noting is that this is very much a white people thing. I am always hearing people of color talk about aunties and uncles and mentors and elders who are not their blood relatives. These intergenerational bonds are absolutely critical to people's survival, particularly when you belong to a group that is treated violently simply for being who you are.

Systems of power have always relied on isolating people and turning them against each other. The current system we live under absolutely does not look out for or protect children, so it's absolutely critical that there be adults in reach that a child can trust outside their immediate family or authority structures. And it's just as critical that kids know how to find and connect with these people.

Elders are survivors. We have managed to live and even sometimes thrive in a world that has time and again made it clear that it doesn't want us to. We are proof of both a history and a future that young people desperately need right now. More than that, we can teach you how to survive and thrive, because we're living in that same world that still doesn't want you to.

[snommelp]

How are we defining "weird"? Are we meaning it as in unusual, uncommon? Or is there some sort of morality implied?

[plumebeat]

ANYWAY

its almost summer!

[science-officer-spock]

[tprings-hair]

production memo from bob justman to gene roddenberry concerning missing wigs post season 3. transcript under the cut.

source

Desilu Productions Inc.

Inter-Department Communication

To: Gene Roddenberry.

cc: Leo Pepin

Emmet Lavery, Jr.

Marvin Katz

From: Bob Justman

Date: February 5, 1968

Subject: MISSING HAIR GOODS

Gene:

If you haven't already heard about it, we are missing some wigs and hair pieces.

Bill Shatner borrowed all four of his hair pieces when we finished shooting. There are two new ones and two old ones. The new ones are worth approximately $200.00 apiece and the two old ones are worth approximately $100.00 apiece. Should "STAR TREK" go again next season, this no doubt means that we will have to construct new hair pieces again for Bill because he will have used both the old ones and the new ones to such an extent that they will not be photographable. This I guarantee, since it has happened to us before.

Majel Barrett's wig has disappeared. Nobody, including Majel, knows what has happened to it.

Nichelle Nichols wig has disappeared. She borrowed it when she finished working and claims that she returned it, but neither Freddie nor Pat Westmore know anything about it being returned.

That takes us up to here on missing hair goods.

Regards,

Bob

RHJ:sts

[beholdingslut]

in absolute tears about the pride module at my work

[dikdikpronouncedxylophone]

[bigfoots-biggest-fan]

HOLY SHIT GUYS, I WAS INSPIRED BY THIS POST TO TRY MAKE THE SONG AND YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE SCREAM I SCRUMPT WHEN I DRAGGED THE TRAINING AUDIO OVER THE BACKING TRACK AND IT LINED UP PERFECTLY

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Tempted to actually put this on spotify so I can secretly stream it at work...

Tagging @batshit-auspol because as an Australian you're the only big account I know who might share (sorry).