Hi! Back again to ask for your thoughts on the panels where Orihime finally shielded Ichigo from Ulquiorra’s strike? Why do YOU think she hesitated?
You mean this moment in chapter 341?
I think it's very important to take in the context of everything that came before this. This fight and what came before are broken up for a long time by the Fake Karakura battles between the captains and espada, but:
From the beginning of the arc she's felt Chad and Rukia's reiatsu fade on the battlefield where she can't help and been upset about it. She's WATCHED Ichigo be near death several times and been unable to help and upset about it.
She's been beaten bruised and bloody by Loly and Melony once by this point and been saved by Grimmjow.
The Grimmjow vs Ichigo fight where she was TERRIFIED of Ichigo's power happened just before this fight began.
The Nnoitora and Tesla fights where she watched a drained Ichigo get beat around and his arm violently broken while she was held back with fingers violently shoved into her mouth to silence her happened JUST before this.
She was suddenly and unexpectedly kidnapped from where she was and teleported to Aizen's throne room by Starrk, then frightened by Aizen suggestively touching her face and telling her to smile before telling her he's going to destroy Karakura, that part of his plan to divide the shinigami forces so he could destory her home more easily was using her as bait, and then leaving.
She is frightened, riddled with guilt, has abysmally low confidence in Ichigo as a person in general, but in his strength and ability and trustworthiness in particular NOW, and knows none of her other friends are coming to save her because they're down for the count.
This whole ordeal, and particularly the last few hours has been nonstop violence and fear and Kurosaki-Kun came for her like she secretly wanted (and the guilt of having subconsciously deliberately done this to test if he WOULD come like he did for Rukia is certainly eating her up inside), but he's not heroic. He's scary. He didn't really come for her, he's grinning while he fights, and fighting instead of saving her.
And very literally JUST before the fight began: this happened in chapter 315:
In all that chaos, Ulquiorra showed up, and just like every time before, he's a moment of space and quiet and clarity.
All the danger is gone when he arrives. He's the one being in Hueco Mundo whose main purpose up until this point was to protect her, and he makes it clear that to him she's included in that order to protect Las Noches while Aizen is out.
Then Ichigo arrives, and it's looking like it'll be the same thing as the Grimmjow fight.
And despite being closer, more easily able to interfere, she stays back and watches. With Grimmjow she could be moved to comment and tell Ichigo not to fight or get hurt because he was fighting just to fight, but here they're both fighting for her sake in this moment. Ulquiorra to keep her and keep her safe, Ichigo to take her away - and that has a whole can of worms with some of her OTHER prior hangups.
She came of her own free will. She was manipulated, but to her POV she still made the choice and wanted to be there, and she's STILL freshly dealing with the knowledge her brother took her from her family. She's previously questioned Ichigo if it was right to go get Rukia, had Rukia thank her for coming for her when she'd actually gone there to follow Ichigo, and is dealing with the full weight of the mistake she made coming here.
So she's hanging back and THINKING.
She's definitely anxious and worried here, but she really, truly doesn't know which side she's on. She is torn on who she wants to chose here and kind of just freezing in place.
She latched onto Ichigo as someone who could be her protector and has been dreaming up a perfect boyfriend in him for years and has just suddenly and violently been exposed to how much he is NOT that dream guy. He's a good guy, but there's a hollow and ugliness and bloodlust hiding in him she' doesn't like's terrified of. A nice exterior over something rotten. He's like Sora all over again in her eyes. Her perfect brother/guy suddenly being washed away into a monster that wants to eat her.
Ulquiorra is a "bad guy" and a hollow, but he's been upfront with who and what he is. There are no dark secrets, he wears his darkness on his sleeve and what she's been finding underneath that is someone caring and good - an inversion of Ichigo. He's done nothing but protect her from every danger that's come her way in the way she's been wanting someone, and Ichigo in particular, to do since her brother died.
Who do you pick? The guy you've been hoping will be all you want and is socially the "right guy", or the guy who's been being all you want but is socially the "wrong guy"?
So she's subconsciously waiting to see who comes on top or who she feels drawn toward more strongly here.
And she doesn't act until Ulquiorra is about to deliver a hit to Ichigo from behind, but that's more her hangups with violence and people getting hurt than picking a side. It was more of an automatic thing rooted at the heart of her personality and psyche that spawned her powers.
She does not like people getting hurt.
She was fine watching Ichigo get beat around a bit and even taking one cero to the face, but a blade strike to his unguarded back is more viscerally an INJURY, and Ichigo IS someone she knows, so she acted to defend him.
This is NOT the look of a girl who's decided even half-heartedly to pit herself against the person she's looking at:
And then Ulquiorra responds to her with words again instead of any harm and calls her on the hypocrisy and implications of waiting to act.
And she fumbles when it's pointed out like that.
Like always, when she's challenged to put her darker feelings into words and has to really look at and understand the flow of her thoughts, feelings and actions, she freezes.
She didn't know how to express the loneliness, couldn't articulate the switch in her too-cheerful public mask to her at-home loneliness and gloom, couldn't speak up about and didn't understand her various guilts and jealousies and angers and just shoved it all down, and in the moment she's asked about it can only reflect on her self and think "why" and "I don't know".
And Ulquiorra, like always, is uniquely able to look into her and see and understand her.
He says "You don't know." right ever she stutters out "..because..", not a question, but an acknowledgement, and then he tries to tell her to help her work through it.
Ichigo interrupts, but I'm certain he was about to say something along the lines of her being one of them (one of HIM and HIS) and point out that she was conflicted between them because of a past attachment, then probably walk her through how her actions do prove she's at least partially chosen Ulquiorra.
And I think she followed his thoughts because she looks like this immediately after:
That's not the look of a girl who's chosen the guy speaking to her. That's the guilty, conflicted look of someone realizing they've been standing back on purpose and and let Ichigo get hurt instead of acting to protect him from the beginning because she doesn't see them as on the same side for certain now, didn't want to protect him from those prior hits and maybe doesn't want him to save her anymore.
It is, in fact, the same doubtful look she'd later have in early TYBW when Urahara scolds her for thinking Ichigo would run away from a fight.
Ichigo dismisses her and she backs up to near a doorway and out of the way like he tells her to after this, and the look on her face is anxious, but not in the fear-based way of the Grimmjow fight or the terror that will come later when Zangetsu takes over. She looks like someone teetering on the edge of a big decision.
She never rebukes here Ulquiorra like she did in the past on behalf of other characters and she's not even pretending to cheer Ichigo on in saving her anymore.
Externally she's at her most passive in the series here, interally in the most turmoil.
She's hovering on the cusp of telling Ichigo to leave I think.
Very telling to that is that when she gets attack and Loly is threatening to rip her eye out, she doesn't call out for rescue even when her mouth is uncovered, and just before her mouth is uncovered, Ulquiorra saves her from Ichigo.
She didn't protect Ichigo until he was about to take a devastating injury because she was subconsciously leaving who she would go with up to the fight's results because she was genuinely torn between Ichigo and Ulquiorra here. I think if Ichigo had been the one to pull that back-striking move she would have saved Ulquiorra.