Sleepless introvert bear trying to hibernate

[justannoyingbear]

Intro

I have no idea what I'm doing here.

But that's okay.

Because I don't know why I'm doing this.

Doesn't matter. Nobody's gonna read this anyway.

I speak/write english (not too good) and german (don't like to).

People see me as an adult, male human beeing.

(Honestly, I don't feel like any of that.)

I'm somewhere on the ND spectrum, very likely ADHD (inattentive) and probably autistic, although not professionally diagnosed yet.

And there are some anxiety & depression issues.

Life is just great, isn't it? 

If anyone cares about these things:

I'm Aro/Ace and I think I might be aplatonic as well.

A weird creature in a weird, weird world.

Why "JustAnnoyingBear"?

People call me "Bear" for my physical appearance.

Colleagues called me "Bear" because of "Don't poke the bear".

And because I like bears (the animals).

Aaaaand because I growl. At people.

The "Annoying" is self-explanatory.

I'm just annoying.  

You can call me whatever you like.

You can ask me whatever you want.

(I may take a while to answer)

I guess I will use this place to write about the things that make me think I'm not "normal".

Maybe writing stuff down makes it easier to sort my twisted thougts.

Or I just post stuff about my various special interests /fixations.

Hmm. I should make a list.*

Ah. I nearly forgot.

Since this is MY little corner of the internet now:

If you're a racist, homophobe, transphobe, anti-therian, ableist,....the list is too long. I'll just call them hate-people.

So, if you belong to the hate-people, you are NOT welcome here and if you enter this page, I will lay an ancient viking curse upon you which will make your life very sad, it will make you lose all you hair, it will make you smell really bad and.....oh.

I guess no one would notice.

*THE LIST OF INTERESTS:

BOATS! We've all heard of train nerds. Well, I'm a boat nerd. I like ships, boats and anything that floats. That's what my sideblog @justabearandhisboats is for.

KNIVES! I like knives, swords, axes and stuff like that. That's what my silly little sideblog @justabearandhisblades is for.

STEAMPUNK, UPCYCLING & WEIRD OR COOL THINGS! I like all that and reblog stuff like that on @justabearandcoolstuff. Maybe I'll show my own creations here one day. Let's see.

MANGA & ANIME! I'm a major manga and anime addict. @anime-and-manga-bear

FOOD! @justabearandsomefood is my sideblog for food that I found on tumblr. Some healthy, most totally unhealthy. I'm a bear, I don't care.

NICE PLACES! Reblogging pictures of places the bear likes on @justabearandniceplaces. No idea why it's mostly Japan.

CUTE ANIMALS! Pictures & Videos on @justabearandnicepeople

PLANES! I like airplanes. Helicopters. Zeppelins. I collect pictures of all kinds of flying machines in my sideblog @justabearandsomeplanes. Some pictures are mine. Most are not.

To be continued.

[thatsbelievable]

[anxietyproblem]

[wetheurban]

Sending love to those desperately trying to find their spark again.

[foxes-in-love]

[anxietyproblem]

[sugar-for-ashes]

[bitt-better]

[reluctanttree]

i kinda hate being both impulsive and indecisive

like im gonna do it but I'll dither for 3 hours first and feel bad about it afterwards

[oldmeisnewme]

I wish I was as confident in my ability to succeed as I am in my ability to fail

[oldmeisnewme]

Ugh as always I'm 1h too early and now I have to wait outside in the cold

X'D I always try to be early cuz I'm afraid something will delay me and then I end up being early to the early

[justannoyingbear]

[anxietyproblem]

[hometoursandotherstuff]

[eldritchbauble]

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You! Have been visited by the gnome of executive function! Reblog to send them along to make sure they visit the next person in need!

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[lazer-t]

A pigeon crosses your dash

[slow-drowned-angels]

“Do it scared” but please realize that, if you Do It Scared too much and don’t let yourself rest + relax + have fun in between, you will fuck yourself up. If you “do it scared” all day every day, you will burn out badly and quickly. Sometimes this is temporarily necessary but please keep this in mind.

[barnables]

When you “do it scared” eventually you’re supposed to be less scared, eventually doing it scared is supposed to teach you the worst won’t happen, or it won’t be as bad as you think it is, or that the best outcomes are worth it, or you’re more capable than you thought you were. If you do it scared over and over and you’re still scared and you’re always scared, maybe it was never about pushing yourself, maybe something bigger is going on and what you really need is to be kind to yourself while you figure out what that is.

[victusinveritas]

[black-crested-jaybird]

I always think of the description I saw years ago: Self-imposed deadlines don't help me, because I know the person who set them, and they're full of shit.

[makingtrouble]

Give yourself the treat before you start. I'm serious. And ideally during the task and afterwards too.

Executive dysfunction comes from a lack of available dopamine. Common advice is wrong. You need to provide your own dopamine before you can start. Otherwise you're trying to run your car on empty.

"But what if I still don't do it" well you already weren't getting it done anyway. Now you have a little treat. Try again later.

You deserve kindness and care even when you aren't being productive.

(Also read How to Keep House While Drowning by KC Davis)

[anxietyproblem]