The image flashed in Marinette's mind and her heart quickened, her breath shallow. Barely managing to pull out of her father’s arms from both their reluctances to let go, she looked down at her own clothing. It sparkled in the light, just like her father’s did.
She felt sick. She tried to will her panic away, tried to flush it out alongside her tears.
“Marinette?” Tom spoke softly, looking ready to forget about his own fear to catch her if she fell. She shook her head and shifted on her feet anxiously.
“Papa, I- This has to be an Akuma, right? This has to be- Everything has to be able to go back to normal, right?” Her voice sounded desperate even to her own ears, but the words seemed to pull them both just a bit out of their dark holes.
He sniffled and nodded, glancing at the bakery before tearing his eyes away and back to his daughter once more. “For once, dear, I really do hope there’s an Akuma out there, too.”
She nodded back and whipped at her tears. “There just has to be. Maman- she- she isn’t gone, she-”
He hugged her again, nodding even more. “She’s just feeling a little different right now, sweetie, she’ll be okay. I promise.”
Marinette held tight to that promise, a lifesaver in the mists of a hurricane at sea.
Chancing another glance to her balcony, she saw her fairy lights had gone out, their wires burned and frayed by the cloth canopy and wooden furniture that was not lit by flames. Her flowers were wilted. They looked sad.
Tikki wasn’t there any more.
A quick glance around proved that the Kwami was nowhere near. And no nudge from her pockets or within her hair came, either. Marinette’s heart pounded, scared that Ladybug might not make it to the fight soon enough.
Shaking the unwanted thought from her mind, she pulled away once more and looked at her father, looking like a giant that had fallen from his home in the beautiful skies. He was so small without Sabine there with them.
“Papa, we have to get somewhere safe.” He nodded and stood quickly, ready to get his daughter to safety. She shook her head, knowing his thoughts. “I have to go check on my friends, they need me.” He wilted and tried to counter, to tell her no, but she pushed it, needing to help her city, desperate to turn back the wrong and make her life right again. “Papa, I have to go. They’re going to be scared, and my- I was affected by the Akuma, too. I don’t want to put you in danger. I don’t know what it’s going to be, and I don’t know if I can run from it, or if you can keep us safe by staying with me. I need to be able to run, Papa. And my friends can help me, they know how to help me hide.”
“But Marinette, I- I can protect you. Can’t I?” He looked heartbroken, and the fact she helped cause it tore at her. But she still shook her head.
“The fire- If that comes back, you won’t be able to shield me from both our things. You’ll get hurt, I won’t let you get hurt like that!” She hiccupped as she cried out her final plea, and she stood shaking in her spot as she stared him down, renewed tears falling.
The moment between her outburst and his answer felt long, but he did finally speak.
“You’re sure they can help? More than me?”
She swallowed back her sadness and nodded hard, feigning confidence in her words. “We’ve been around a lot of Akuma’s, Papa. We’re good at keeping each other safe. I trust them with this.”
She tried to suppress her guilt at her own words. Yes, she trusted them, enough to hand them Miraculous as Ladybug. But the truth was, she wasn’t going to let them protect her here, either. She would check on them, yes, that wasn’t a lie, either. But to let them see Ladybug’s worst fear? She didn’t want to bear that thought. She didn’t want them to know.
Yet something in the back of her mind told her she would have very little luck keeping this secret for much longer. Something with blue eyes and an unringing white bell.
She was enveloped in yet another hug, and Tom’s voice came to her in a hushed whisper. “Be safe, Marinette. I’ll find you again soon.” He let her go, and she turned on her heels, dashing away. But not without looking back at him.
Her father was sad and frightened. But he turned back to the burning Bakery despite it. She could tell that he would do anything to keep his family safe. Even if that meant letting his daughter leave. Even if it meant facing what he feared most.
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