Kimagine

Hello! I am Kim, a 90's Filipina kid, who explores a lot by any means of creative and imaginative transportation. 

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She waited, you waste it.

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This is a Tita selfie. Yung tipong selfie out of nowhere.

Selfie pag katatapos lang maglinis, magluto (which is hindi masyadong ako yan).

Yung bumangon ka naisipan mo lang magselfie (mas ako yan),

Or either kakatapos mo lang magayos at hindi ka pa late kaya magselfie ka muna, or kakauwi mo lang and swerteng di pa tunaw ang bb cream kaya magseselfie ka ganern (yaaahn akong ako na talaga yan).

Medyo walang pake sa background, medyo closeup, wala masyadong filter, hindi artsy, may malabo. Tapos hindi makapili ng isa, iuupload lahat, yung caption kung hindi “good morning” e kwento ng buong araw mo.. Or in simplest form, selfie-ko-pag-hindi-ako-blogger. Charot hindi naman talaga ko blogger. Tita lang. Tumatanda na ko guys di na ko makapagselfie ng mala-Laureen Uy hahaha!

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Cold is for the beer, not for feelings.

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"Love is seeing you coming home" — from your furbabies 💕🐶

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Today marks our 1-year long distance affair. I’ve never thought we can make this, never had I imagined myself to be with someone who’s very far from me. I’ve experienced it thrice before, and it always, always failed me.

It became my fear. I would always tell myself it will never workout.

So the moment you told me you really want to pursue this, I was really saddened.

I cried a lot.

I felt alone.

Hopeless.

I was so scared that I might lose again the feeling. I was so scared to lose our love. I’m afraid of losing you. And of losing us.

I tried to stop you, but you were so sure. I didn’t knew when to be ready, until the day came..

This is your dream and I can’t be that selfish. I braved myself and supported you. I trusted our love. I trusted you. I conquered my fear because of love. It’s a decision I made to have you in my life, however far away, rather than not have you at all.

You would always say “magiging okay din ang lahat” then so be it.

Days passed and I started to like you more. The fear of losing the feeling has gone. The kilig cells are getting stronger.

I’ve never been this in love with you.

Talking to you makes me giddy. Seeing you happy makes me happy. I remember I was the selfish girlfriend before, but the moment you leave, everything has changed.

I am so happy I’ve learned a lot, I am so happy I found contentment with you. I am so happy we’re both strong to hold on.

I am not saying we are in a perfect long distance relationship, we are definitely not the perfect type. But we are bonded with

love,

trust,

and dreams.

These are the things we believed in, the things that made us not fantasies, but real.

You’re still not here. And we’re still not together. But I know we will make it happen, one day, soon now. I strongly believe in our love, I know we will survive this phase of our relationship. And when we did, I will be very proud… for only few couple can experience the struggle, as well as the irreplaceable bond that comes with amazing comfort, and all the greatest realization of this so called LDR hits.

I will not stop waiting. I love you so much, Rico. ❤️

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For a healthier relationship: play with them 💕🐶 (Not applicable to humans)

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Do not stop when he doesn't do the extra effort. Stop when you've already done too much effort.

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Okay so I’ve watched Ms. Universe again, and just to end the debate let me share what I’ve just noticed. When Steve announced “Colombia” as a winner, the camera was focused to Ms. Philippines. Aside from the host, it’s the production people who should know the real winner is. So because they knew it ahead, basically the cameras, lightings, blocking, music etc. will focus on the winner. Tell me if I’m wrong, but from my observation that’s clearly showed that at that moment it was only the host who was not well-instructed about the winner. There’s no cheating or fraud happened there. It’s just Steve who has been very honest about his mistake. Also take note on this: usually right after announcing the winner, contestants will go in front to congratulate the winner, but in this case they didn’t (maybe because the floor director didn’t say so?) Even the girls behind knew it, they’re not even clapping.. And as Ms. Australia said from her last interview, they already saw from the teleprompter who the real winner is (of course they will, because as I said production people knew it. They prepared everything ahead of time (prior to the announcement). Everybody who work from that stage knew it except for Steve. It is also noticeable how the hype is not on during Colombia’s crown moment.

And here’s my take bout that controversial card, it’s really confusing though. I find the design really complicated. Rather putting the word “Philippines” at the right bottom of the card, they should’ve aligned it. Of course there will be confusion as they wrote it not how Steve should announce it, that’s for 2nd point. They shouldn’t put “1st runner up Colombia” there if they’re going to announce straight already to the Ms. Universe winner. It is not properly ordered or wrote on how the host will say it.

As I have experience for both production and hosting I clearly understand this happened. Still a good job for Steve and the ladies! Congrats Philippines!

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Apple Jaylee Lagco

I really don’t know what is happening, it’s my heart that says there’s something wrong. Beyond friendship, there’s sisterhood. To the girl who called me “sister”, whom I assumed legit and unbreakable, whom I shared my loudest laugh and deepest secrets, whom I thought love life could be an option in terms of dating and chatting stuffs. Sisi, what has happened? What is happening? Where’s our friendship now?

I’m sorry to tell you, but yes you hurt me, and you’re continuously doing it. This breaks my heart like what my lover does. This tears me up knowing friendship should last than a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. This questions me a lot. I cannot help but be mad, extremely mad. Can’t help but cry, emotionally and physically cry.

I hate you! I’m frankly saying this words to you because I know this is the best way to let go of what’s inside me. I believe saying “I hate you too” would be more convincing than silence and betraying. Please make me understand, please tell me what’s wrong. I don’t have any idea of me offending you.

I don’t know when, where and how. It confuses me, a lot. Help me remember,

if you can’t..

Let me show a refresh for you..

We went to your family’s hometown, I expected a lot. The excitement, fun, adventures and great memories to create with you together with our friendship is so real, until we get there.. We get there, and felt home. I am very thankful to you and your family, you cannot question that. My whole stay warms my heart as your family treats me well, feed me well and make me felt safe and wanted. Everything wouldn’t happen if it’s not for you and Jonard there, of course. But then, I saw you.. You were so happy (to the point that you forget about us) and I understand. I understand because it’s your family, hello!!! Family comes first. I know that. You missed them a lot. I know all of that. We didn’t go a lot (as in, a lot) of adventures as I’ve expected, for some reason.. And okay I understand.

But you know what I cannot understand? 

We were okay back then, until one night.. One night you totally ignore me.. I can't understand the unwanted feeling I felt by you. It’s so heartbreaking. I even cried, I bet you didn’t know bout that? Yes, I cried. Literally and emotionally. I don’t know if Jonard told you, but I cried talking to him that one night. I don’t know what to do, I wanted to escape, but I just can’t. It breaks me. I cried for help and attention to my boyfriend that time, he asked me to go to our friends house at Albay, but you did not permit. Of course, I understand. I understand that you worried.

But hey, aren’t you worried about you leaving me wherever? Aren’t you worried about you ignoring me? A lot? Remember that?

Those were the times I felt worried about your behavior towards me. I knew all of it. I’m a friend, a sister, remember that? And you don’t do this to me!

I asked you what’s wrong, but you said nothing. Okay.

Now I’m asking you once again, can you please.. Just please! Fucking tell me what’s wrong? I have a lot of questions in my mind since that night I cried. I cannot understand you! I cannot understand why you keep on ignoring! I cannot understand why you have to distance yourself from me! I cannot understand why you need to block me on Jonard’s facebook account (yes! I knew about it. I also wanted to ask if it wasn’t you who have problem, is it Jonard who have his issue on me?) For God sake Apple! Please tell me frankly! Is it Jonard? Is it what? Who? Why?

I thought we were friends, and friends don't thinking shits like that to each other. Like really, what the hell!! If it’s about jealousy? Anger? Or just being uncomfortable? Again, TELL ME FRANKLY! I have the capacity to understand! 

Every time I see you on my feed, I feel irritated because you keep me hanging with these questions in my mind.

I planned to see you personally to talk about this, but I assume you will still deny. I know our personalities, we can’t talk like this in person, right? We can’t emotionally open up that easy, I know.

There’s this friend of mine who told me not to do the first move, because first of all why should I keep on reaching out to you if in the first place, you tortured me by ignoring me during our (“supposed to be”) adventure days. I know the word “hindi mo ko pinabayaan” of course (and again I’m thankful) but the word “pinabayaan” and ignoring is way way different! Because I'm a friend, I know when I’m ignored. You ignore me to the point I felt you wanted me not to be there with you, with Jonard, and with your family. That hurts! A lot! Second, I can’t reach out to you because I really don’t know what’s wrong. Or if there’s really something wrong? Make it clear! If it’s me who had offended you first? (That’s why you keep on doing this?) I really don’t know. How can I say sorry if you keep on your silence? How can we be like what we are before, if you keep on distance?

I am not sure if this friendship is really important to you. I’m not sure if all that I said is big deal and has impact on you as it was on me.

But whatever, I’m doing the brave move anyway..

I don’t know if you still want to work things out with me. But I always remember you are a friend, so I can’t leave these things unsaid and unheard.

If you’ll just let me understand. Your answers are important.

And as a friend, (like how we talk about our love life problems, friends and family issues).. I’m asking “anong problema natin?”

Sealed with sincerity and high hopes,

Kim

Edited (12/11/2015)

You might read it by now, and I'm sorry if I have to leave (well just for now.. Yeah! I mean deactivating my facebook). I might offended you with some words, I don't care, I want you to feel what I felt. I’m leaving because I'm giving you space for all the stuffs that I've wrote here. Like what I’ve done, gusto ko pagisipan mo rin mabuti lahat before telling to me your answers. I don't want us to clash simple as that. Again, I have nothing against you. In fact you are really important to me kaya siguro ako sobrang apektado, and leads me to open up "these" things to you.

Again, sealed with sincerity,

Kim

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He’ll do whatever you ask of him and he's not in to fights. He doesn’t like advertising things like relationships and feelings, so don’t expect that of him, just know he does love you. He may not think of you at every moment, but you’ll cross his mind often enough.

He has bigger dreams than he is confident enough to believe in, so it’s your job to tell him every day how handsome he is and how smart he is, and that he is capable of it all. He won’t believe you, but don’t stop saying it.

He’ll make you see the world in a new light, and you’ll start questioning things you never knew. He can’t sing, so don’t expect him to. You’ll find yourself laughing at his little catchphrases, and if you do something he doesn’t like, he’ll look at you and will blink a lot, slowly blink a lot.

When you two are out, he’ll hold your hand the whole time and it’ll seem like you are the only one in the place. When you sleep, he'll watch you as if his guarding your dreams. With him you feel secured. He will wait for you at any place and you'll always find him sitting or sleeping wherever. He doesn't speak a lot, and in everything you say, you'll always get a smile from him. He has this superficial happiness for whatever.

He might forget some things, like plans and special dates, but he has ways. Let him do the work. He's not perfect, he might hurt you. If he did, I'll assure it's never intentional. He has pure heart, he'll make it up to you I promise.

Let none of this scare you and love him the way he deserves. He’ll tell you about the past and his mistakes, so it’s your job to take his hand and let him know you’re not judging him.

Allow me to let everybody know how to love the most genuine man I've known for almost 4yrs now. This is the life I have with Rico. I am sad that I can't share birthday cake and candle with you this year, but we are still sharing love, and with that I couldn't ask for more (oh except for your comeback). I wish for your happiness and success in life. Mahal ko, I love you so much. Happiest of birthdays to my favorite Scorpion!

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Zodiac signs' wake up time

Aries: 7 A.M

Taurus : 9 A.M

Gemini: *never sleeps*

Cancer: 10 A.M

Leo: 12 P.M?? 5 A.M??? It fluctuates

Virgo: 3 A.M but then goes back to sleep and wakes up at 12 P.M

Libra: 2 P.M sometimes even 4 P.M

Scorpio: ??????

Sagittarius: early bird so usually from 6 AM - 9 AM

Capricorn: Time is but an illusion and they sleep whenever they want to and wake up exactly 6.7 hours later

Aquarius: 10:30 A.M

Pisces: only wakes up if awakened

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Minsan ang pagpapakipot ay di nakaka-cute. Goodnight.

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First attempt of white dress on black canvas, and I am extra in love 😍💃🏼🎨✨ (Paperfashion inspired)

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I love you like I love the ocean, I memorize you like I do the waves. You're a tidal wave to my being, a crashing of noise into the quiet of my mind. I love you like I love you, and that's all you really need to understand. 💙

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Planning will always be great paired with chocolates. Plus uke ready, for the "just in case" ⬇️ parts (and no, di parin pro player 😋) 📝🍫🎶

• Just in case you get bored • Just in case maumay ka sa chocolate • Just in case wala ka ng maisip sa pinaplano mo • Just in case mapakanta ka • Just in case wala ka ng mapagtripan • Just in case ubos na yung chocolate • Just in case maalala mo yung tinuro sayong chords • Just in case mapa-selfie ka at maisipan mong magvideo nalang with your uke • Just in case mapa-Youtube ka at makita mo yung matagal mo ng inaaral na chords • Just in case makatulong yan sa pinaplano mo • And just in case, just in case lang talaga, na sana gumaling ka na tumugtog

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I like it fringe 👌

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Waddup yow! 👻