Chronic Illness, why?

Researching for sparkles!

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Graduating, no more #piccline I will miss my nurses. They changed me, the were my angels for months #nurses #chicken #strongwomen #happyday (at Buffalo Hospital, MN)

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Bringing to life what have always giving ME life. L.O.L HAPPY MAKEUP 💄 I will start a #makeup club for adolescent girls that love makeup like me. We will talk about self esteem and how this art of painting a face can “COLOR OURSELVES HAPPY” 😀👩🏻‍🎨🌈 #lolhappymakeup #makeuptutorial #selflove #selfesteem #makeupjunkie #makeuplovers #artofmakeup #art #loveyourself #donations @lolhappymakeup @abbylatour07 @onepeace1.2 @manu_rpoh (at Minnesota)

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We BuY things We DONT need, With MonEy 💰 We DONT have, To ImpressEd People We DONT like 🤪 #money #beyourself #mickeymouse #cash #selfworth #quotes #dakota #lessonslearned #toys #disneyland #lifestyleblogger #parenting #kids #boymom

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Results, results and more results. I only need 15 supplements that I’m very low. Mammogram came back normal THANK GoD🙏🏼 cardiovascular no so good but again Exited about the process of healing. I’m here thinking about my passions and I think I should do #makeup again but don’t know how with my physical limitations 🧐🤯🤔 #makeuptutorial #makeupjunkie #passion #makeupartist #hope #autoimmunedisease #heart #fibromyalgia #ptsd #costocontritis #flare #cfs #chronicillness #chronicpain #warrior

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Story #15 Whatever he wants. Pink hair? 😜That’s fine by me. I had pink hair in college about, omg I can even count. Over #20 years ago. Holy crap. Anyways, I had the exact piece of pink spot and that wasn’t acceptable back then. I was the crazy fashionista in the entire catholic university. Imagine that. I wasn’t crazy thou, never did anything bad or got in trouble but because of my Fashion statements, I know parents were scare I was crazy for their kids. I just innocently love hot pink. So, when my son was offer to pick a color for his hair cut and hubby asked if it was ok? Ask me how long did it take for me to say, YESSSS hahahah. #pink #parentingstyle #fashionsta #lifestyleblogger #life #hair #cute

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I nominate my friend @naiajanice because she is my cyber support, I actually lost all my friends when I got ill and she has always be there for me to explain the unexplained medical challenges as she fights her own. Also, I love my mask and I know that when we support each other in the #chronicallyill community, we don’t feel that alone. 🙏🏼💜🤔🌈@chronicallyillkrafts #chronicallyillkrafts #dysautonomia #fibromyalgia #spoonie #spoonielife #mask #mecfs #give

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New compression stockings for #dysautonomia and #ivs plus #glitter #shoes #lularoeirma relaxing #chair I’m sure I’m bitting this 💪🏼🙏🏼💜#chronicillness #spoonie #mecfs #millionsmissing I’m changing and changes are happening (at Buffalo Hospital, MN)

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Story #13 The spiritual energy is making a total shift, #aboutlastnight 🌒🌓🌔this triangle of #love were watching our very #first #Christmas movie 🎥 together and I was feeling myself. The healthy, happy, goofy 🙃 me. I just couldn’t believe it. At one point I looked down and there we were, all holding into each other like with crazy glue. The night was #magical my heart was full; I will never ever forget this moment. I finally learned, I was alive and living the #moment Health and blessing keep it coming, I am ready 😉💜💪🏼🙏🏼🌈🕊 #happy #chritmas #christmasmovie #tomhanks #dysautonomia #chronicillness #fibromyalgia #spoonielife #mecfs #god #godexists #recovery #home

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Is time to take care of my self again, this doesn’t mean becoming selfish or self centered, is just that this girl needs self pampering, some love ❤️ I have been in this transition between Health and sickness for way too long and I’m slowly believing in me and what I stand for again. Is time to speak up, this is my healing process🕊🙏🏼🗣. Collagen infused lip 👄mask. Loved the idea of a lip mask but for ultra sensitivity skin or for people with #macs I think you should try it on your hand first and see if it doesn’t affect you. @boxycharm #lipmask #boxycharm #chronicillness #spoonie #sensitive #dysautonomia #cartier #storyteller #makeuptutorial #makeupjunkie #fibromyalgia #mecfs #millionsmissing

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My dear loving husband knows how much I struggle with one of my horrible symptoms, sleeping for me is a nightmare. I either can’t sleep or I have nightmares. He brought me this cute Christmas angel to help me sleep throu the night. He felt this angel 👼 had a healing power. The importance of having a partner that understands and never gives up on you. #sleep #dysautonomia #fibromyalgia #fibromyalgiawarrior #mecfs #christmastime #thepowerofhealing #deep #family #chronicillness #pain #fibromyalgia #dysautonomia #lupus #spoonie #pray #angels #rojo #angel #ptsd #depression #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness

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Sharing this app for all the #spoonies out there to be able to track your flares. @flaredown I am looking forward to start analyzing the patterns of my #pain and maybe the whys’ some symptoms flare more than others. I know I’m extremely sensitive in every way so I want to manage my body and what I do for it to relief my cucú symptoms. 💪🏼🦋🤡 #dysautonomia #fibromyalgia #fibromyalgiawarrior #spoonielife #mecfs #millionsmissing #autoinmune #ptsd #depression #anxiety #chronicillness #health #track #flare #ill #chronicfatigue #migraine #fashion #blogger #lifecoach #lifebalance

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Story #12 A long time ago I was married for only 4 months and I was finishing my second bachelors when one night after finishing my second job at #sephora we decided to go to a friend’s bday gathering. We left the party and without to much detail because I’m super sick today, we got into an accident and my sweet husband... oh God I can’t even write this down but I have to. He departed. He died, “he didn’t make it” the police said. My life was messed up before but after this, my life became really messed up. Messed up for good and bad. It was the first time I dealt with #grieving It was the first time a #man treated me with respect and pure #love I really to this day don’t understand why this happened to me and his whole family, he was only 33 and I was 27. Our wedding was magical and only the two of us, in an virgin island. It was such a virgin island that we had to ask a couple that were just sun bathing at the beach 🏖 to be our witnesses. When we got back to tHe main land we told the family that we got engaged😉 but his best friend, his sister knew we got married. She knew him so well. It was our secret, “Our Love secret”. This story of love ❤️ was one of those you read in thick books 📚 anyways, I will write the whole story before I die for sure. Today, I have been super sick and for some reason I stared thinking about depression and how it has affected me. #depression is so hard and such a spiritual #cancer that I don’t know what kind of force or miracle must happen to me to be cure from this. I feel the urge of just start cleaning my body from all medications I take for emotional and physical pain and test myself. #add TALK: This picture is just an inspiration on how I want my new dinning area to look like. I want a #booth like if we were in a restaurant. I know, I’m so random. 🙅🏽 PS: DONT COMMENT that you are sorry for me. I’m sharing my life here because is #theraputic for me. Thanks 🙏🏼 #decoration #devotional #dysautonomia #love #dining #chronicpain #chronicillness #lifeblogger #life #spoonielife

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Migraine from NASA. I can’t even talk today. I haven’t had a migraine in months. I have been having chills and a bit of fever I hope is not my picc line. Anyways, I just wanted to laugh a little bit with this product I bought. 🤖#nasa #piccline #chronicillness #chronicpain #migraine #health #mecfs #millionsmissing #ivs #cars #macqueen #dysautonomia #auto #autoinmune #pixarcars #fibromyalgia #fibromyalgiaawareness

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My cardiologist said this week that I’m so decondition that I could get bed sores 🙈Has anyone experienced this? I’m asking to the chronically ill community? 🙏🏼 thank you. On a side note: I was advice many times to get into a pain rehab program or a rehab program from the people with cardiac problems BUT my heart is ok so insurance won’t pay for it. Those programs like The Mayo Clinic for example is $42k for 3 weeks. You go in the morning and leave at 4 pm and have to pay hotel for a month. What are people in my situation doing? I don’t understand our #medicalsystem ???? I will find a way to get stronger, My Family want me back 🙏🏼 . #chronicpain #chronicillness #health #yoga #loveyoga #yogisofinstagram #socialmedia #skeleton #yogalooksgood #fibromyalgia #fibromyalgiaawareness #dysautonomia #spoonie #millionsmissing #hospital #paradise #passion #bones

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Story #10 Is it normal to feel like you are normal again? Something very strange is happening to me; is almost like I needed to be sick to understand “Those kind is people” I always helped and had compassion for. Is almost that they were to far from me and I was always playing the “Savior” or the “Good hearted girl” from the block. But I had it in front of me at all times, my Mom was sick and very disable since her early 50’s, learned how to write and speak and even walk again right in from of me. I want to think I was compassionate to her for what she was either preparing me or because I am just a compassionate person from the moment of conception. Compassion to me means, I close my eyes for a moment and pretend I have and suffer for what YOU have at the moment and try to feel that way. Since I’m ADD, I have to advice you I change topics in seconds so this pic of me was taken some years ago and at that time it represented to me like the upscale, yes you read it “The upscale, preppy Social Worker I always knew against all conceptions of what a social worker should look like in the field. Now, after 5 years of not being able to be one anymore or yet still, this pic is giving me hope that I will be one again despite all my diagnosis and absolute insanely chronic pain I face daily. I can’t wait to see what happens next in my life. 🌏🌠♿️💪🏼🙏🏼🕊would you put there company me? Because the loneliness of being ill is driving me INSANE. #chronicpain #chronicillness #mecfswarrior #millionsmissing #potrait #latina #love #whitecollar #spoonielife #storytelling #lupus #fashion #health #socialmedia #writersofinstagram #socialworker #pretty #fibromyalgia #orangehair

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Story #9 . Miracles exist. 🕊🙏🏼🌈 My almost $15,000 m medical was totally paid, we are about the get health insurance that way I can continue with my treatments and medicines, and on top of that we got another miracle for our family. 3 #blessings in one day. 3, I kneeled down with immense gratitude 🙏🏼 we had been suffering with all my symptoms so much for the last 3 years that this was almost impossible to happen but it did. I had to share because before Chronic illness came to knock on my path I was a bubbly person and even funny most will say, this had changed me completely. It had molded my character for the good even thou depression and desperation visits me everyday. 🌈🌈🌈 #miracle #godexists #dysautonomia #piccline #chronicallyill #spoonielife #spoony #mecfs #millionsmissing #grieve #mom #life #mayoclinic #charity #fibromyalgia #fibromyalgiaawareness #socialmedia #lularoerandy #medical #health #fashion #fashion #grateful (at Buffalo Hospital, MN)