movement whenever I have the urge instead of supressing it
acknowledging my thoughts and feelings while drowning in them (take a step back and observe the downwards spiral - it immediately stops)
enjoying the moment with friends and family instead of pushing them away
reaching out to people I care for in the moment I think of them
keeping my boundaries without feeling guilty about it
baths and personal rituals for personal me-time
enjoying a nice meal for the experience
being spontaneous throughout the day and enjoying small moments
joy and peace of mind are my priorities
practicing detachment
understanding that my emotions are no one else's responsibility, but that it is my responsibility to filter out people and situations that are not good for me
allowing myself to feel whatever I feel in the moment, even if I don't quite understand it
While spirituality includes things and practices like tarot reading, manifestation, numerology, astrology, etc.... it’s also the process of developing the ability to self-actualize through reflection. The process of improving yourself by looking at your entire being and being honest.
So, once you start to work with your ancestors and develop a solid relationship with them, the shared language begins to expand. My ancestors - especially the side from which I incarnated - are huge on the creative and performing arts. Naturally, they hijacked my Pandora station. Here’s some of what they’ve used in conversation with me:
“No Role Modelz” - J Cole (”Don’t save her…she don’t wanna be saved” which was, given the person they spoke of, a read)
“She Knows” - J Cole
“Attention” - Charlie Puth
“Jumpman” - Drake
“Celebrate” - Wizkid
“X” - Kendrick Lamar
“Paramedic!” - SOB x RBE (they really enjoyed the Black Panther album)
If this has happened or started happening to you, what are some of the signature songs that yours have used? Reblog and share your list!
Pain in my sacral when my body sheds herself to prepare for
Pain in my sacral when my body releases an egg to prepare for
Preparing for a loving at what cost - I have expended everything.
A priceless thing, but now I feel to charge a fee that I don’t feel like collecting
But it cannot be sold or given away, simply found again, within
Guarded with self respect.
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I reread this and immediately got the impression that innocence was referring to virginity, but that was not the case at all when I wrote this. I was actually talking about innocence in the context of being able to trust someone without reservations and live fully present without worry of ulterior motives
But for me to immediately mention the sacral means that I have some self work to do with the connection between sex and self worth. I don’t want this for myself, but it’s clear that’s the case on a subconscious level 😟 In my mind, I initially brought it up just to make a connection between the pain of periods that prepare you for sex with a person that can bring you the pain of heartbreak.
I don’t want anyone to take away my ability to trust others. The ability to see them as they are and nothing more, with no reason to formulate stories of possibilities of bad intentions. To me, that is innocence…having that childlike trust, to others it can be naïveté. You allow someone to take that away when you are lacking in self respect and boundaries. I also don’t want to place the blame fully on myself either……
Sometimes I feel like this is all a crock of crap and I take life too seriously 🤣
But this was so interesting to write and come back to, I definitely have to do it more often.
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I made this post private 4 months ago. If only I would have actually reflected on this more. It’s alright
anyway i said i would do this after the whole thing was said and done… when i was looking for advice i found like “paint your nails and listen to happy music” buzzfeed bullshit so
here is my short real life abortion and early pregnancy survival guide (pastebin)
other links:
How to Get A Safe Abortion, No Matter How Far Along You Are or How Much Money You Have
Check here to see if medicaid will cover your costs
Financial aid for abortions
prochoice.org has a list for each state of NAF funded clinics and free hotlines for information.
WomenOnWeb.org and WomenOnWaves.org will ship you an abortion pill if it is illegal to get an abortion in your country.
I made protection waist beads just for them to break the next morning after posting a photo online.... I hadn't been online in a few weeks. They were knotted four times and just completely came off......the idea is that they break when negative energy is sent your way
this is truly annoying...because what is the problem man
I'm going to start documenting the journey of getting in sync with my menstrual cycle - in all areas of life 🌸
Also am going to be re-framing my spiritual practice around this natural cycle. I haven't been practicing as much over the past few years because the focus has been on my career, but now I'm in a space now where I can balance both. I think framing it this way will help me to keep continuity even when things get rough....
This feels like another level of getting to know myself that I haven't touched yet 😊
This partial lunar eclipse is a preview into the new lunar series occurring on the Taurus and Scorpio axis throughout 2022 and into 2023. Any shadows that come to the surface now are an indicator of what you will be working to let go of in the next 18 months. Pay attention to any thoughts, feelings or energies that arise. These are likely indicators of themes to come. This letting go will make way for the new who, what, where and why you will be working hard for during 2022-23.
In this PAC we will look at what those shadows or energies might be and what there is to gain by working through them. Plus, any advice or additional info that comes through. For each group I chose a piece of artwork. Choose the artwork that resonates with you.
As always these are general readings! Only take what resonates.
+ Artist credit is linked below.
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Pile 1 - View From Above by RHADS (DeviantArt)
Release - Page of Swords + Wheel of Fortune + 8 of Cups
Embrace - 10 of Cups + King of Pentacles
Moving forward there's a decision that needs to be made. You've been sitting on the fence about something. I feel you've been turning this over and over in your head, weighing all possible options and outcomes. I don't think this is an easy decision to make. I do feel like for many of you there are some heavy feels and fears involved. However, it seems necessary for many of you, even fated for some. Change wouldn't be an option if you were happy with your current circumstances.
By making this decision to move on or to let something go, you make space for what you really want. Your dream life will seem within reach in a way it hadn't before. It's not like it will come in overnight however the wheels of fate will turn in your favor by letting go of whatever has been weighing you down. If you choose to stay on your current path, it's not that your dreams will be unattainable but you may feel you're met with more resistance.
In 2022-23 I see there's an opportunity to connect with more like-minded people. Finding your community, or improvements in your friendships and with family are possible at this time. For some of you, you may even meet a new romantic partner that brings you some much needed stability and support. Or, if you are already coupled, a proposal may be on the way or you may decide to start a family. If not a proposal, a strengthening of your commitment to each other. I see improvements in your career and finances. Any higher education or certifications you pursue will be a success. You may make new friends or meet your future partner through a career change or taking a class.
I do feel many of these changes will coincide with a move. So you could be moving to a new city or moving out of your current living situation. This relocation may be part of the reason you're so indecisive.
I feel this initial decision is the hardest part about your whole situation. In hindsight I feel many of you will look back and feel silly for not having made it sooner.
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Pile 2 - Artist Unknown
Release - 4 of Swords + Hierophant
Embrace - The Lovers + The Chariot
No more people pleasing. No more doing what is expected of you. It's your life! What do you want? What makes you happy? I feel like many of you are bored and burnt out. Your day-to-day dealings have become monotonous. Stuck in a routine that serves everyone but yourself. You're wanting more freedom and more fun.
In 2022-23 I see you being more focused on your goals. I don't see relationships being a major focus for you unless they align with this new path that you're on. You could meet someone who will help you get something done or offer you support. Though relationships are not a focus, anyone that comes forward now is likely to play a significant role in your life. This could be a romantic partner, friend or mentor.
If you're in college you might decide to change your major to something you're actually passionate about. Or, you could decide to quit altogether. Some of you are going to be looking at alternative ways to make money. This could be through freelancing, passive income or starting your own business. I do see new contracts being signed. So you could sign a contract of some kind that brings some good luck your way. You could land a job with a company you actually see yourself growing with.
You might purchase your dream car or go on a road trip. Many of you are going to feel called to travel and this change of scenery will be exactly what you needed. Some of you might even start traveling full-time.
The possibilities are endless. It's really just a matter of identifying what you want and going for it. By the end of 2023 you will have a stronger sense of who you are, what you want and where you're headed.
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Pile 3 - Illustration by Nicole Rifkin
Release - 7 of Wands + King of Wands + 10 of Wands
Embrace - King of Swords + 8 of Swords
You're going to have to take an honest look at how you sabotage your own success and relationships. Because there will come a point in the next 2 years when you realize you have no one else to blame but yourself.
I see a habit of playing the victim or blaming others for your losses. Yes, people can be mean and our environments aren't always the most conducive for growth but you do have more control and choice over your situation than you may think. You give your power away by continually pointing the finger at others for your misfortunes. Not only is that not entirely true but you do yourself a disservice by playing small. You keep yourself stuck in the same shitty situations, repeating the same mistakes.
Chaos is self made. In 2022-23 you're going to have to work through your perception and response to people and situations around you. How you communicate with others (and to yourself) is going to be your focus for the years to come. Don't be surprised if people start to distance themselves from you or if someone hits you with a dose of your own medicine. I feel the consequences for your actions or inactions will be highlighted now. Prepare to be humbled.
Therapy and honest self-reflection will benefit this crew the most. It's not that good things wont happen during this time but to continue repeating the same patterns is only going to complicate things for you in the long run. I also see this pile benefiting from a hobby or finding a way to express themselves creatively. This will provide an outlet for your stress as well as a distraction from an overactive mind. Acts of self-care like a hobby will be necessary through this transition.
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DISCLAIMER :: These are collective readings meant for entertainment purposes only. They are not a substitute for professional medical or legal advice. Please use your best judgement. Your actions are your responsibility.
No matter how much healing work I do: releasing emotions privately, journaling, therapy, meditation, spiritual cleanses
Nothing really prepares me for the intense, emotion-filled dreams that conjure up the worst possible situations 😐 The dreams usually come right when I'm starting to feel better, but they bring to surface things that I didn't get to express in person...
They're unpleasant, but for me, I know that's where the real work is - how I handle my emotions after these intense dreams. And I know I'm moving forward, even if it feels like a regression to revisit such feelings. I really gotta start speaking up more, maybe my emotions wouldn't haunt me if I did...
But it bothers me a lot because I don't like being around my loved ones when I'm like this. I don't want to tell them how I'm feeling because I don't want to put any pressure on them, but I also don't want to act strangely distant because I'm trying to process emotions.
My dreams have now become a space for me to gauge where I am emotionally. I really don't like that because it used to be a fun space to explore and be curious. I feel like I'm constantly processing my feelings and don't really get a chance to just enjoy life, like I have to force myself to enjoy a moment (because I know I should be enjoying it), but I want it to come naturally.
Can someone else hold my feelings for a little bit? I know that's selfish to ask. Very weird language, but that's the best way I can put it.
Even my first vacation last month was used to get over someone, and I had been planning it for months. 😮💨
These experiences allow me to help others though, I'm still going to always be grateful for the growth
