Honestly this" I dont know what to do/ I don't wanna do anything " is so frustrating cause I want to do something / or I believe I should be doing something but there's a block in my brain.
And it tiring
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Honestly this" I dont know what to do/ I don't wanna do anything " is so frustrating cause I want to do something / or I believe I should be doing something but there's a block in my brain.
And it tiring
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Why does inspiration for art strike at the worst time. IT IS NIGHT TIME CLOSE TO BED TIME!!!!
I HAVE WORK IN THE MORNING !!!
Why is a blank white canvas on my Huion SO blinding bright! Like please
LOOK AT THIS. I always have to change the color to some grey like or something to not her my fucking eyeballs.
I suck and hate myself. I had my Mac laptop on my bed and it was opened cause I was lurking In a twitch stream and forgot it was behind me and I threw something and it hit my screen. I literally freaked but when I looked at it I didnt see anything.
Until liek a whole day later I thought the scratch was a damn hair. There only slight scratch two of them both kinda small and goes unnoticed when the background it dark. When the background is bright it only noticeable if ur kinda looking for it.
But that not the point. I always try to take good care of my shit. Iām always careful with my electron stuff cause they are expensive. So Iām feel very upset with myself. Even if it was a refurbished one anywaysļæ¼.
At the moment itās nothing else there no like screen leak or anything which is good. I donāt feel like that to move all my files to my gaming laptop. My Mac one is for writing an drawing.
Which I had to find a different writing software to use cause although I use OpenOffice for a while on my Mac to write the bright blinding white background you can notice the scratch and I just get upset with myself all over. I want to cry. And I need one that can do dark mode as to not notice my damn failure at keeping my stuff unharmed.
I should have been more careful and not have been forgetful and fucking stupid.
Iām so grateful my stupid ass didnāt throw the thing hard enough to where the damage was severe. I remember when I had my hp laptop and my cousin dropped it and the screen cracked I was able to replace the myself and instal it. But with my Mac laptop it just seems much more complicated and getting it repaired else or at Apple itself is expensive too.
But just in case the scratch on my screen somehow turns into something more later on Ima just start saving up for another refurbished one. I already found one. But Iām not gonna go overboard over a slight scratch. Ima get over it anyways and forgot it there until something light mode. Similar to my phone cracks. Those my screen on my phone isnāt crack it a screen protector that is that I need to replace. Which I have I just havenāt done it yet and I put them somewhere Iād have to find.
It just gonna take a minute for me to not be too upset about it.
I got 2 free games cause of my laptop purchase. One from micro center itself and one from registering my asus laptops I got Clair Obscur expedition 33, which was the most interesting of my choices and assassin's creed shadows one
The Mermaid Accountant
As I read what I wrote last night, I feel like I donāt know how to write. I donāt think it makes sense. Like my tenses are wrong or something. Like I know something off but Iām not completely smart enough to figure it out on my own. Iām unsure how I want this to be in the first place I guess
If I keep it In a whatever this example be:
ā You started doing the dishes in almost a robotic like manner and can feel the eyes of someone watching you.
Lucian sat there at the dining room table, the only one who didnāt leave after dinner was finished. Putting his hand to his chin wondering to himself what to do with you.
You were completely obedient, didnāt complain about anything, always listening to orders that are given to you. He watched as you did dishes in silence before deciding to get up and join you. He wants to know more about you but you werenāt giving an inch to anything. All questions went unanswered and you never joined in conversations. Grabbing the small kitchen towel off the other counter he started drying the dishes you had finished washing and started the process of putting them away.
The only thing that could be heard was the clicking of dishes. You pay no mind to Lucian joining you in doing the chore, instead you become lost within your thoughts. Three months has passed since you got here in this world. Three months of wondering how you came to be, how you fell out of the sky thousands of miles up and landed on the ground alive. Being here and knowing no one that was around could answer your question. You think back to the first interaction you had with these people.
You awoke falling in the sky. The loud whooshing of the air around you roaring in your ears was almost deafening. It took a minute to register what was happening but looking down and not seeing any ground coming closer, heart pounding in your chest you close your eyes hoping death would be quick. But the next time open your eyes you were looking up towards the vast blue sky.
You can feel a hard surface beneath you, the soft blades of the grass brush against your fingers. You sat up confused on how you were alive, but not just alive, no, with nothing broken or hurting. Nearly a scratch was on you. But you were the only one confused here.
āWHERE THE FUCK DID SHE COME FROMā, a man yells from above on some balcony with stairs leading down to the patio. She had landing a little away from on a small part of a garden.
ā I dunno she kinda just fell outta the sky bossā another man answered but you donāt turn to look at him. Your eyes are locked on the angry man stomping down the stairs towards you.
As he gets closer you can see how tall he is and how beefy too. Fear fills your entire being and youāre frozen in place. And within a minute this angry man is towering over you looking down. You stare at him without a dare to even blink. Black hair spiked upward and black eyes piercing ļæ¼through you like a spear.
ā Falling out of the sky and receiving no injuries upon landing? Thatās quite intriguingā, another man walks up from behind the other, not quite as tall, long brown hair pulled up into a ponytail
āWell what do you want to do with her, Vinsonā, kneeling down to get a closer look at you. Seeing a mix of confused and fear on your face, he watches your dark brown eyes darting between him and the other man. Reaching o ur his hand only to quickly retract it after seeing a light flinch come from you.
āWhat do you mean Lucian, we kill her of courseā, Vinson lets out a sinister laugh before grabbing the front of your shirt and lifting you high as if you weighed nothing more than a five pound dog.
You stare at him with no sound coming out of you. Not a scream or a pele leaves your lips you just dangle there.
Lucian cocks his head. He finds your silence an interesting choice. ā
End of the example piece:
AND ima cut that example off there only cause I feel like I got carried away and it got a bit long . But I could use some advice or input. Anything really.
It has been a really long time since I wrote like anything and feel like I forgotten some stuff. I will also be looking at maybe some creative writing stuff maybe on YouTube. But for the time being especially with work and stuff I thought I put it out there and see if I get anything and I put form other who been writing much longer than I.
Edit: cause I fucking forgot to add this in.
If changing the āyouā to a āy/nā would fit better or like a name like āNylia started doing the dishes in almost a robotic mannerā
Would that be like a better fit????
I donāt respond to messages with just a āhelloā and with a basic tumblr profile pic. Too many bots (especially that porn bots) on here for me to waste time and look at your page.
Please make sure your messages detail what you want or liek give something more then just a āhelloā at least.
Messages liek that make me anxious and makes it hard for me to respond. Please and Thank You!!!
Might put this up in my about part of my profile later.
Also not shaming anyone that messages me liek that but I most likely wonāt respond cause it comes off as Suspicious for me. Again no shame I just need alittle more if that makes any sense to anyone lol
Sorry bout that <3
Iām writing again. It been so long but Iām actually sitting down to write out what goes on in my head. Iām not good with writing y/n fanfics tho but ima give it a shot. Maybe Iāll change it later to an āIā instead of āyouā if I feel the need too.
Considering This has been in may head for awhile I thought I finally get it out of my head lol. Itās my daydream.
Tho I may not share it. Kinda self conscious think about posting it. That might give me to much anxiety and I donāt really like the thought of that.
Kid pirates playing phasmo
Main four
Eustass:
- sometimes the first to die cause he has bad luck and will get kill spawned.
- Taunts the ghosts even when he shouldnāt
- Not that great with looping
- Plays with friends mostly cause it most fun.
- Can play solo sometimes but he gets bored
- will die fast on harder levels like insanity and nightmare
- you will hear him cursing as he runs from the ghost in the distance until he dies
-throws things at killer when he a ghost, when the ghosts is hunting will throw stuff at the ghost and curse at it
Killer:
- ghost expert, walks in and in a short time it crossing ghosts off the list.
- Knows too much of all the ghosts
- Camera man. Fast at taking pics and vids and sound recording. He will record you dying for money
- Almost all of the time brings third tier stuff for everyone(he the sugar daddy lol)
- Plays solo a lot trying on nightmare and insanity mode.
- Plays more chill with friends
- Also beside playing the game with Eustass, Heat and Wire he also plays the game with some of the girls, who he got into the game.
Heat:
- if it not Eustass dying first itās Heat.
- As a ghost he steals everything he can from the house as possible and creates a pile in the van.
- Often bringing in the items needed.
- Will sometimes join killer in nightmare/insanity mode for funsies even tho he knows he will die fast
- Will contribute to bringing items when he can so Killer isnāt the only one
Wire:
- he will dilly dally
- The second he finds the curse item he will hide from the others and use it to start a hunt, cackling to himself cause he didnāt say anything to the others
- (With tarot cards) Sometimes pulls the hangman and dies but the others wonāt know cause he hidden himself in a corner somewhere. At least until someone (Killer) checks the Van. Everyone wonders both how and where he died)
- Killer would then go looking for his body for a picture. (Harder to do on the bigger maps)
- Will hide with someone and yell something to try and kill the other person.
- When a ghost with Heat he will help in stealing things from the house.
Just my thoughts if they were to play the game. Mostly cause the thought popped while I was playing a round of Phasmophobia myself hehe
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okay iām gonna say it: fandoms are kinda dying on tumblr, and theyāre starving because nobody reblogs anymore.
like⦠i donāt wanna be that person but be for real?? likes are cute and all but they do nothing for creators. ZERO. NADA. a reblog is literally the oxygen mask keeping this blue hellsite alive. you say you āloveā a fic, an edit, a gifset? then BABES⦠reblog it. boost it. let it breathe.
half the time creators are out here pouring their entire soul, spine, AND three vertebrae into something just for it to get 200 likes and 3 reblogs, two of which are their own. thatās why people stop posting. thatās why fandoms feel empty. content doesnāt magically fall from the sky ā it comes from people who feel seen.
and i promise you: reblogging is free. it costs you like 0.2 seconds and suddenly youāre personally responsible for keeping a whole fandom alive. congrats!! so yeah. if you like something? reblog it. scream in the tags. yell. keyboard smash. put sparkles. do whatever. just donāt let creators feel like theyāre shouting into a void.
reblogs feed creators. reblogs keep fandoms thriving. reblogs literally save lives (okay maybe not literally but u get it).
support the creators you love !!!!!! or else weāre all gonna be sitting in empty tags like clowns.
My best advice ever is to not listen to men, especially when they donāt draw.
I know someone, heās a friend I guess but ngl I keep him at arms length for good reason.
he kinda does this a lot and idk why he does it but he tells me shit I already know. So I drew something and had to do like a clean up on the sketch cause it was getting to messy for my brain to handle and I was showing my friends on discord.
And then all of a sudden he telling me the things I need to add and what I should be drawing. Like Sir in the nicest way possible shut the fuck up. I donāt need his input on what Iām going to already do cause I already planned for it.
There is a REASON why itās called a SKETCH!
(And it going well btw I jump between 3 separate pieces, 2 are my own personal and ones a commission for another friend and Iām really happy with everything thatās coming along. I feel like Iām enjoying art again)
And at work. Cause we also work together. These two women came in with balloons that they wanted filled. We charge for helium and I ring them up and as she taking out her card to pay he turns around. Cause he was on the other register he was my backup and our setup is weird. But as another manager was at his register, helping a customer because he is also like a shift lead but need some help. he ended up turning around and was like āoh so you were the balloon peopleā cause we got a call from them earlier this day.
I shit you not when he stood there and told me ā did u charge them for the helium donāt forget to charge them cause we charge for the heliumā Mind you I been working there 4 years I was there when we remodeled and after that remodel we started charging for helium cause it wasnāt something we always did. He was not there. So I fucking stared at him and even the women at my register gave him a look and even said ā donāt underestimate a womanā(am non-binary but they stranger and arenāt gonna know that but ima mention it here tho) and she then tapped her card.
And I feel like when he does this in a way it comes off as undermining my intelligence. Like I know how to do my fucking job and I the one who been drawing for years.
Thatās only two examples but shit got to me so the next day at work when he wanted to stand there and tap at me in the fucking AM I stood there and told him he needs to go and do his job. After that we havenāt talked much. And I mean like even at work we havenāt talked much and I havenāt talked to him outside of work either. No texts no plans for playing games.
Shit pissed me off so much and whatās worse is I donāt think he fucking knows that he does that.
My friend and I have gotten on his case for interrupting us when we talk. Like donāt get me wrong Me and her interrupt each other but we both stop and apologize and got back and forth on ā no no you speakā type. He donāt do that. He just cuts us off.
It fucking sucks. So Iām creating distance cause honestly I canāt take it. Iāll deal with it at work as best I can. It just gets exhausting.
I been working at the same retail store for about 4 years and I can tell you itās fucking wearing me down. I work as the main cashier and talking to customer all day for hours on end is EXHAUSTING.
It like some come in but leave their brain at home. Some donāt even even read. Not the signs not the card reader. WHY ARE YOU PRESSING NO TO COMFIRM UR PURCHASE. ā oh I thought it was asking me for cash backā WHAT DONU MEAN U CLICKED NO CASHBACK BEFORE THE PIN PROMPT. WHY WOULD IT BE ASKING U FOR CASH BACK OF THE TOTAL U ARE PAYING!!!!!!
Not to mention some people come in and are just rude off the back. NEW FUCKING FLASH THE WORKERS ARE THE REGISTERS ARENT UR PUNCHING BAGS STOP TAKING IT OUT ON US.
I honestly donāt give a shit how bad of a day ur having but taking it out on a fucking stranger IS SOOOO FUCKING WEIRD BROOO. It not my fault you can remember ur pin and I give u another chance cause sometimes they accidentally press a wrong number on the pin pad. It happens especially when yaāll got nails on. And I offered to try bypassing the pin. NOT ALL CARDS CAN DO THIS. Sometimes it says on my screen that a pin is required. I donāt know all the fucking card types. I aināt one of them ppl that got 5 bajillion cards in their wallet.
I have one ONE.
And to give attitude cause I didnāt mention it early. And then is upset that she has to by the bag after she was done purchasing stuff looking at me like ā you see all this how Iām suppose to carry it outā umm IN THE FUCKING CART U ABSOLUTELY STALE MOLDY PIECE OF BREAD. Like everyone else who forgets to bring in their bags or doesnāt want to buy that bags.
I direct her that the bags to purchase are by self check and she look at me to go get them. I AM NOT A MIND READER. Ppl walk over there themselves and grab the ones and how many they want. ( there a bag ban in our state)
And whatās worse is that for some reason it always theee last customer I take before getting off my shift. Liek I can have a good shift and then it one bitch that sours my mood at the end cause they want to be a ducking cunt and have attitude for no reason.
When I tell you that doing this for four fucking years when I get these types of people I always hope something bad happens to them after they leave. MAY THEIR COFFEE ORDERS ALWAYS BE WRONG, MAY ANYTHING THEY ORDER FROM ANYWHERE ALL BE MISSING SOMETHING THAT THEY WERE LOOKING FOWARD TO EATING OR IT JUST DOESNT TASTE GOOD!!!!!! MAY THEIR DAY ALWAYS BE RUINED BY A SMALL INCONVENIENCE!!!!!!
it just burning me oooout and it makes me hate talking to ppl. I WANT TO QUIT. Like who knew the majority of the population is so fucking stupid. Some canāt even follow directions WHEN IT SO FUCKING EASY TOOO LIKE FUCKING READ IT STOP JUST PRESSING BUTTONS.
ONE DAY I SWEAR ONE DAYYYYYYYYY