• Just things I like • NSFW content will be tagged • Beware of problematic ships and/or content, and by that I mean fictional serial killers not kids. Enter at your own risk!• Not at all involved in anti/anti-anti war, good vibes here only please. Wanna talk? So do I! Message me about anything, I promise I'm not contagious lol.
Questioning if you might be autistic? Have you always known you were different and are trying to figure out why? Is professional diagnosis not an option for you (cost/stigma/bias/etc)? Then here is a list of resources to help you figure out if you are autistic.
This post is broken up into categories of resources based on subject matter. Some links may contain ableism and medicalized language but if they do they also have useful information which is why they were posted.
Self-diagnosis is a long process of reading and researching and self-reflection. A decision should not be made overnight. However, it is completely valid to self-diagnose as autistic (see the second to last section for more on this). If you are self-diagnosing, read as much as you can written by autistic people. Read their blogs and their tumblrs. Read about the autistic experience. Talk to autistic people if you are able to.
If you have questions, feel free to submit them to @autism-asks, a blog dedicated to answering questions about autism.
About Autism
What is Autism?, in Plain Language
What is Autism?
What is Autism?
The Dictionary of Autism
Myths About Autism
Ask an Autistic (video series)
General Autism Criteria
DSM-V criteria
ICD-10 Criteria
ASD Checklist
DSM Criteria for Autism Explained
Positively Autistic: A List of (Positive) Autistic Traits
ASAN’s About Autism (With Characteristics)
Inclusive Autistic Traits
Simplified ASD Diagnostic Criteria
Revised Alternative Autism Criteria (criteria written by an autistic person)
Childhood Traits (this is from the CDC and is very medicalized)
I Think I Might Be Autistic
Autism Screening Quizzes
Musing of an Aspie’s Adult Diagnosis Series
Stimming
What is Stimming?
Stimming 101, or: How I learned to stop Worrying and Love the Stim
Types of Stimming
A List of Stims
The High Cost of Self-Censoring (or Why Stimming Is a Good Thing)
Sensory Processing Differences
What is Sensory Processing Disorder? (video)
Adolescent and Adult SPD Checklist
SPD Resource Center
Understanding Sensory Processing Issues
Masterpost: Sensory Differences
Sensory Sensitivities and Atypical Sensory Processing series
How to Reduce Sensory Overload
Processing a Sensory Overload
Shutdowns and Meltdowns
What Does a Meltdown Feel Like?
“Shutdown”- What it is and What it Isn’t
Where I go When I Shutdown
Anatomy of a Meltdown
Shutdown: A Specific Type of Meltdown
Special Interests
What’s so Special About a Special Interest?
Special Interests
How Do I Know For Sure What My Special Interests Are?
What are Special Interests? (video)
Examples of Special Interests
Autism and Special Interests
Executive Dysfunction
Executive Dysfunction
Executive Dysfunction vs. Procrastination
Executive Function Series
The “Joys” of Executive Dysfunction
3 Symptoms of Executive Dysfunction
Executive Dysfunction
Alexithymia
What is Alexithymia? (video)
Alexithymia Question
Emotional Dysfunction: Alexithymia and ASD
Alexithymia Questionaire
On Self-Diagnosis
My Stance on Self-Diagnosis
ASD Paper Diagnosis vs. Self-Diagnosis: Pros and Cons
Yes, Self-Diagnosis Can Be Valid
Autism Self-Diagnosis Is Not Special Snowflake Syndrome
The Myth of “Official”: Autism and Self-Diagnosis Skeptics
Blogs By Autistics
(This is certainly not a comprehensive list of autistic bloggers. If you have any suggestions of blogs that should be added, feel free to message me)
HELLO, it’s me, your dearest frosting topped degenerate
As I have reached another follower benchmark and there seemed to be some interest, I am doing another giveaway!
ABOUT:
This time, I have decided to things a bit differently. There will still be three prizes, but I won’t assign arbitrary maximum word counts. All three fics will be treated equally with a minimum 5k word count. There will be no first/second/third placement, I will work on the fics according to whichever winners respond first.
RULES:
~You must be 18+ (my blog is NOT for anyone under 18)
~You must be following me and reblog this post
~If you win, get back to me within 24 hours. I’ll message you on tumblr messenger/send an ask just to make sure you get it.
~I don’t really have hard limits about the content of requests. Romance stuff is on the table but I write primarily dark erotica and that’s my preference. We can talk, though!
~The two fandoms I write for right now are Jujutsu Kaisen and Fire Emblem Three Houses. Depending on what it is that you want, I’m willing to consider other fandoms. Again, as long as you’re up to talk it out, I’m game.
~Examples of my work can be found on my AO3. My picks for anyone new would be: horrorshow (Jujutsu Kaisen – Junpei x Reader x Mahito) / Raison D’etre (Fire Emblem Three Houses – Dimitri x Reader x Sylvain) / Baby Blue (Jujutsu Kaisen – Suguru x Reader x Satoru) See I’m clever I put all of them in the header isn’t that cool
~I’m going to call this on Saturday, July 17 (a week from now)
That’s about it! For everyone who participates and everyone who follows me, I truly am grateful. Writing is something deeply important to me as well as my favorite thing to do, it’s genuinely meaningful to have support in doing it.
Amazon Unveils a [Horrifying] Fanfic Publishing Platform
Today, Amazon announced the imminent launch of its newest endeavor, Kindle Worlds, a publishing platform for fanfiction. When I read the announcement, I was horrified, then angry, then sad. I want to take a moment to explain why this is such a tragedy.
If you don’t feel like reading after the read more, here is the most important stand out of Kindle World’s TOS.
“By using the platform, authors give all rights to the work to Amazon, who can then license your elements to other authors with no compensation to the original poster.”
If you want to retain rights to your work, don’t use this site. Stick to AO3.
always chill your cookie dough if you want still chewy/soft cookies after a few days (or if you’re shipping them).
keep’s the bastards from spreading out too quickly in the oven and therefor keeps them nice and soft in the middle while keeping them from suffering from that underdone soggy thing that some times happens.
HALT! Do you have sensory issues? Overwhelmed by sound in a messy environment? Desperately wanting to write that essay/fanfiction but your ADHD is getting on the way? In need of atmospheric sound for your tabletop game??
Please let me introduce you to MyNoise.net - a lifesaver on all aspects.
Mynoise provides an incredible index of noise machine generators with personalizing sliders to suit your every taste.
Missing the sound of a lively coffee shop during the pandemic? They have that. That specific, calming noise of a public park in a peaceful afternoon? they have that. Rain sounds? City sounds? Want to fuck around and listen to some uninterrupted Gregorian chants? They have that also!
According to the website:
"myNoise generators cover the whole audible frequency range, from 20Hz to 20kHz, over 10 color-coded sliders. Through a simple but accurate calibration process, all myNoise generators can be shaped to your personal hearing thresholds and compensate for your audio equipment and listening environment deficiencies, including the presence and nature of background noise. Calibration is unique to this website, and makes calibrated noise machines stand out from regular white noise machines. During the calibration process, we are able to measure your personal hearing levels, and adapt our noises accordingly. If you are suffering from age-related hearing, you'll be surprised to hear frequencies you thought were lost."
And that's not all. When I say 'incredible' I really mean it; I've found myself using the website on multiple occasions, for work, creative and stress-related issues, and the variety of machines provided cannot be overstated. You've got animal noises, nature soundscapes, street sounds, meditation aids, melody-based lullabies, magical soundscapes, medieval ambiance, situation specific sounds, white noise generators-- and a lot more!!! They even have noise to block out IRL sounds you don't want to hear.
Just take a brief look at what the index page provides:
There's something for EVERYONE. And it's all for free! It's been for free for years, and it is the creator's wish that it remains accessible to everyone who might need this kind of aid in life. I am using it to write this post right now. Though if you read some of the above index, you may have noticed that the support for the website has been very low lately.
Which brings me to the reason I'm making this post. Mynoise is curated and maintained by a single person:
Please check out the Mynoise Index for yourself, donate if you can, and tell your friends who might be interested ♡
Royalty AU - Marriage Law - every royal must marry a commoner chosen by the advisor to keep the bloodlines clean
Mythology - Foretold by the gods
Mythology - The prophecy said, so Person A and Person B are here to get hitched!
Mythology - Hades and Persephone AU
Regency AU - Either Person A or Person B is in danger of being ruined socially
Regency AU - Person A inheriting Person B’s father’s estate and the only way to keep Person B’s family out of the poor house is for Person B to marry Person A.
Regency AU - One of them compromised the other
Old West AU - Mail Order Spouse(Person A) to keep Person B’s house bc Person B is a dirty single person and a mess alone
Old West AU - Person A needs money to pay off their debtors, Person B needs a spouse for decency’s sake. Also, there are horses.
Old West AU - Person A’s parents sent them out west to marry someone. That someone is Person B and Person B is also the only sheriff round these parts.
It’s the law (Marriage law with chosen partners)
Medieval AU - To unite Person A and Person B’s houses
Medieval AU - Person A’s father chose Person B, also it’s the law
Medieval AU - to End a feud
Viking AU - Person A is traded to the Vikings for safe passage and is subsequently married to the jarl’s oldest child, Person B.
Pirate AU - Person A’s crew raided the village and their cut of the booty is a locked chest. With Person B inside.
Fae AU - Person A’s hapless parents promised them to the Fae King (Person B)
Fae AU - The Fae King (Person A) tricks Person B into eating something in Faerie.
“Don’t worry, I would never touch you.”
“We’re all the other has now, we’d do well to play nice”
Summary: Howl whisks you away with a blindfold after breakfast. You shouldn't be so surprised.
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Fewer things unsettled you more than being deprived of your sight and Howl eagerly imploring your trust. He had found his opportunity to steal you away from Sophie following a hearty breakfast; eggs, bacon, and ham, cooked all in fat in a cast iron skillet above Calcifer's seething flame. The delicate ceramic dishes clinked in the sink while Sophie scrubbed the remnants of the meal away; meanwhile, you stood at the table with a damp rag, swiping crumbs and pieces of bacon and bread onto the floor.
You had only straightened your back, tossing the soiled towel on the back of a chair when you felt the weight of Howl's arms drape across your shoulders, wrists cuffing in front of you. His lips gently pursed against the side of your neck as his warm breath neared and tickled your ear.
"You naughty thing. You're only going to give that old bat more to complain about later." His voice held great mirth, a edge of excitement that found somewhat uncomfortable. "I can't say I'm disappointed by it, though. She'll have to figure it out, we've places to be."
The words you wanted to ask croaked in the back of your throat when Howl revealed a blue piece of cloth in his hand and quickly secured it across your eyes. He wouldn't allow you the kindness of a reaction, nor gave regard to Sophie's agitated squawking once she spotted him wheeling you away towards the front door and outside.
"Why you- you absolute cretin! You have no respect!" That shrill cry of hers only carried as far as the until it slammed shut behind you, abruptly stopping as though it hadn't occurred in the first place.
"Howell, what are you doing?" you asked cautiously, feeling only the softness of his hand when you reached for the cloth across your eyes. "Seriously, that was mean. I promised Sophie I'd help with a deep clean today."
"Oh, you pay her too much mind." Howl replied with a laugh, twining your fingers tightly, bracing his other hand flush against your back to guide you forward. "I have a surprise for you. I've spent quite a lot of time preparing it, you're going to love it. And in turn, you'll love me for it."
"Show some modesty for once in your life." You groaned, tucking your chin closer to your chest when your face started to burn. "Where are we going? Do I know where we are?"
His laugh was airy and practiced, much like the charisma and charms he placed over himself to seem more desirable. At first, when you had seen the clever disguise he made for himself, you had been disarmed and perhaps even a little upset that he would go to such lengths for beauty and likeability. However, with time, your feelings on it had mellowed, his antics and flirtations were simply another day.
You couldn't recall when the nature of your relationship with him changed, nor what had triggered it. To put it simply, one day it just happened when you made eye contact with him at the dinner table. There was such a soft glimmer in his eyes, his smile had been so authentic in that moment that you had excused yourself from dinner to collect yourself. From that day onward, you could barely manage to meet his gaze; his touches were electrifying and wonderful, having him near you was a bizarre paradox of eagerness and peace.
"I dream and hope that it will become your new favorite place- our favorite spot. Just listen- listen to everything around you." His fingers swept up across your back, almost as though he were trying to soothe you as he led you along.
Of course, you could not use your eyes in this instance, though your eyelids fluttered about beneath the blindfold. Instead your calmed your breaths, heeding his words and listened to your surroundings. First came the happy trill of birds, they echoed above you and all around, numerous without a doubt. Their delightful song was drowned out then by a gush of wind that pressed against your chest, tousled your hair, and made the world around you rustle so familiarly. The smell was invigorating.
The ground was soft underfoot, yet you did not sink.
When the time came for the blindfold to be removed, you reeled at first, hands shielding your eyes from the intensity of the sun touching your cheeks. You adjusted quickly, however, soon focusing your gaze on Howl at your side, his hand still snug against your lower back as he smiled at you. The slight gesture of his head was enough to coax you into following the hint.
There before you was the most magnificent display of foods, all spread out on the ground atop a blanket of baby blue. The arrangement was unparalleled to anything you had ever seen; finger sandwiches speared with olives on silver tiers, pastel pastries of many shapes, sizes, and sorts (most you didn't know the name of), cleverly situated bowls of fruit that were brilliant and bold in color, dollops of whipped cream amid rich chocolates that you knew were far too expensive for you to purchase on your own. A pair of wine glasses sat atop of a silver tray so fine, so polished that the sun reflected far too much off of it, making it unbearable to stare at for long.
"Oh- shit. Howell, what is this?" you asked, feeling the nudge against your back, moving you closer to the lavish assortment. "Did you do all of this? When the hell did you have the time? This is a lot, how-"
Howl leaned towards you, pressing a finger against your lips for but just a moment before placing a quick kiss on your cheek. "You're too nosy, ask too many questions. I know I'm not the one who inspired that in you."
"Jenkins, I'm serious," you scoffed, waving his face from your own. "This is a lot. It's beautiful, but it's a lot..."
"Truthfully, it was a lot of work to put together. Laborious. I asked for so many favors just to get everything right. I asked some special favors." Howl bounded forward, finally taking his hands off of you and stood before his handiwork for a moment, hands anchored at his hips. It was only when he noticed the uncertainty in your eyes that his demeanor wilted, smile drooping. "Is... there something you don't like about it? I know you so well, I have all of your favorites plus some."
There was a rush of heat in your veins that blossomed to your face and ears. You weren't sure whether it was from embarrassment, or guilt. How were you supposed to explain to him that this was the grandest display of affection- of anything you had ever experienced in your life? When it came to Howl, you expected the unexpected, the ridiculous, and the grandiose, just never for it to be targeted towards you.
"No, Howell, that's not it. I promise, I swear." You lifted your hands in hopes it may help abate his uneasiness somewhat. "I just... you knew how things were back home. This is just so different, it's not what I'm used to. I don't know what to say, I'm sorry."
Indeed, he did know how things were for you back home with your family. He recalled those simple days with you before magic became the essence of his being; those long, difficult, yet simple days. You were surprised to see his lips pull up into a smile again, this one true and full of warmth. It reached those sweet blues of his which captivated you so much.
"I don't want you to apologize for being honest with me." He said after a moment, taking one of your hands to guide you closer until you were both seated comfortably on the blanket with the food. "My only intention was to see you in absolute awe... perhaps feed me some grapes... but, ah, mainly, I wanted this time alone with you. Making you uncomfortable was never what I wanted to do."
There for several seconds you sat in astonished silence, back hunched with your chin against the heel of your palm, point of your elbow in your thigh. Only a year ago, Howl's reaction to this would've been so much different, far more immature; a temper tantrum, really. You knew a good deal of that change came, somewhat, from the ordeal with Witch of the Waste, the rest you could only guess.
"It's fine," your words quivered a little as you sighed, busying your hands with smoothing out the creases in the blanket. "You wanted me to feed you grapes, right? This would be the perfect time for it."
For all of Howl's flaws, you knew that he was no fool and there was none other in this world that could see through you as simply as him. He wore the grin of a man who had won the lottery with the way he flopped onto his back, head perched on your thighs, fingers clasping together and centering on his chest. The heel of one of his exquisite, shiny black shoes teetered atop the toe of the other, all the while he stared up at you expectantly.
"Something we're in agreement with! I do prefer the red grapes a little more than the green," he paused a moment, face puckering slightly as he plucked off a single strand of long gray hair from your sleeve. "But, I trust you to make the right choice. Let's not let all of my hard work go to waste, yes?"
"Unreal..." you sighed, picking a grape from its stem and pushed it against his lips. "I hope you know I'm not going to just feed you all day. Besides, you ate your body weight in bacon and eggs. How do you still have an appetite?"
He suctioned the grape into his mouth, stuffing it against his cheek while he chewed. "It takes a considerable amount of energy to be this beautiful, darling."
"Oh my god, Howell."
You craned your neck to the side, rolling your eyes away from him with the motion. It was in that moment that you finally took notice in your surroundings for the first time since having the blindfold removed. Howl had cleverly tucked your picnic spot away under the sanctuary of a canopy trees, away from intensity of the late morning sun. Beyond the shade of the forest was a seemingly endless expanse of rolling hills of green; touches of civilization, with exception to yourselves, were nowhere in sight. Amongst the sea of tall grass were flowers of such rich, yet simultaneously delicate hues that danced with the wayward winds. It reminded you of an ocean with how the fields of grass and flowers bent to the will of the breeze, rippling for as far as the eye could trace.
"Are you so much more enamored with the flowers than you are me?" Howl piped up, touching his lips to the pads of your fingers to reel your attention to him once more. "I should be offended."
You curled your fingers, flicking the tip of his nose to elicit a yipe. "Oh, shut up. It's just... really nice. I've never seen anything like this."
Strangely, his smile hadn't be deterred by that. "So, you are impressed? I've been spending more time here. It's been untouched by people; I can let my mind be at ease. But, I've been thinking, what's the point of knowing this place if I don't have anyone to share it with?"
"Careful, Howell," you couldn't restrain the clumsy grin nor flutter in your chest. "You're getting cheesy."
He mirrored that same goofy look, brushing the peaks of his knuckles across your cheek as you laid another grape against his lips.
"I can tell you're incredibly bothered by it."
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a/n: uh uh uh, i tried i'm sorry. i could've done way better on this, but i'm just not back at that point again. still, hope this was enjoyable!
if you did enjoy it! pls lemme know!! feedback is very important, folks! another little way to show appreciation is a small tip, but i'm just eternally gratefully if yall share and let me know you liked it!
This is a re-upload of G4TW’S The Sims 2 Origin Ultimate Collection, but not as a torrent, so that people who may not like to torrent or don’t know how can download to their hearts content! This rar is unchanged from when I downloaded it so instructions should be inside. Please read it fully before you ask me any questions if you have any, I am not EA’S technical help department.
Just to reiterate that reblog from a while ago about ffnet dying and how one day probably soon we’re gonna blink and it’ll just be gone:
I’m trying to make backups of the few things I’m not too embarrassed to keep from Way Back When (because I’m also like 4+ computers beyond what I originally wrote that shit on and some of it got lost in data migrations)
And guys
The password recovery is NON FUNCTIONAL.
That site is circling the drain, so if you’ve got stuff on there you want to keep, go save it now.
This has been a PSA from your local digital archivist/ fandom old.
Use the mobile version of the site – on any web browser, replace www in the URL with m. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6829556/2/ becomes https://m.fanfiction.net/s/6829556/2/ and you can now copy and paste.
