Living with Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar disorder

Recently I found out I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Manic Bipolar Disorder. Everyday is a constant struggle to make it though life and I hope that maybe my view of like and the way I see life with these mental illnesses will help someone else be able to help theirselves or even someone else with these mental disorders.

[lunarruler]

Everyday it's like I have to check in with my emotions and see where I am. Fight or flight mode? #fightorflight #emotions #warinsidemyhead #whywontitend #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #shitborderlinesdo #bipolar

[lunarruler]

Some days you just want to feel normal like nothing's wrong. #ifeel #iwanttoquit #iwanttofeelnormal #somedaysifeellikeshit #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #bipolar

[lunarruler]

It can take time to heal. How much time? No one knows but you live a lifetime so take that time to heal. #healingprocess #takestime #howmuchtime #nooneknows #lifetime #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #bipolardisorder #recovery #recoverytakestime

[lunarruler]

There are days I find this to be so true. #anxiety #notgiveashit #whocares #caretomuch #recovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #bipolardisorder #stayclassy

[lunarruler]

Here's just one way of helping with anxiety. Remember that you can be strong! #anxiety #strength #youmatter #youcandothis #grounding #fivesteps #pleaseshare #share #canmakeadifference #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #endthestigma #recovery

[lunarruler]

Sometimes you don't know what hurts the most. What you do know is that all you can do is cry. #depression #crying #hurt #pain #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #bipolardisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #recovery

[lunarruler]

Sometimes we just push people away. Not because we want to but because we are depressed. We don't know where to turn and it takes a lot for us not to be pushed back. #endthestigma #breakthebarrier #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bipolardisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #dontgiveup

[lunarruler]

Sometimes the worst part is forgetting how to feel. You have forgotten how to love and be loved or even to be happy. It is truly hard sometimes. #howtofeel #howtolove #howtobeloved #howtobehappy #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalillness #bipolardisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd

[lunarruler]

Sometimes you just need to be told that you are good enough because sometimes it means the world. #told #goodenough #youcandoit #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealth #bipolardisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd

[gingersfreakingout]

Casual reminder that you are the most important thing in your life.

You are top priority.

Nothing comes before you and your self care.

You are allowed to be self interested.

[lunarruler]

Some days are easier than others are harder. Mentally it’s a struggle to do somethings anymore like even getting up for work. This bipolar and borderline personality disorder isn’t any joke but it is what it is. One day you can be strong and standing on top of the world and the next you can be crying and wondering why no one cares and who would miss you if you were even gone. I know it’s hard to fight because I have to fight everyday for myself and for my family. It makes it hard sometimes because I live alone at home now. I have a support system but I feel like it’s sometimes missing. I don’t know why I feel that way. Just know you have to keep on fighting and that there are people that care. Even on those rainy days when it’s hard to see though it.

[sheisrecovering]

[lunarruler]

That moment you tell someone you're bipolar and they give you a look of fear. If I hadn't trusted you I wouldn't have told you. I didn't change after I said I was, I'm still the same person I was. #bipolardisorder #challenge #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters

[lunarruler]

So I got a fitness watch. I wish it was a fitbit, but I don’t have that kind of money, but this one wasn’t too bad. I just wish it would go with my  other fitness apps. I really need to get into shape because I feel so much better mentally and physically when I work out. I have to tune everyone else out when I do, but it is worth it. I don’t feel so bloated anymore and hopefully I will start seeing some results soon.

[lunarruler]

Sometimes all you need is a simple reminder from a loved one or a friend that you are Important to them to make all the difference. Sometimes they do t know its the little things that you remember that may help you get out of your funk. #needahug #bestrong #bestfriend #family #love #strength #strengthinnumbers #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #bipolardisorder #recovery

[lunarruler]

Many times it's hard to talk about the problems we face. Just because you feel that you are a problem to others doesn't mean you are. Find someone you trust and talk about it, it can make you feel better. #noonelikestosuffer #endthestigma #bestrong #bepatient #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #bpd #recovery #bipolardisorder

[lunarruler]

You can learn from your past mistakes. Don't let your past define who you are. You can dream and do anything you want. #dream #dreambig #past #youcandothis #bpd #bipolardisorder #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #recovery