Rambling thoughts about parenting neurodivergent teens and "screen time"
Years ago, even when my kids were tiny, I decided that my guiding principle in parenting is "preserve our long-term relationship over everything else." So whenever struggles happen, I ask myself, "Is this worth damaging my long-term relationship with my kid?" Funny enough, the answer is pretty much always no. The only thing that ever comes out as "yes" is like, health.
So when the pandemic hit and we were all home all the time and started arguing about the screen time limits we'd had no issues with for years, I got rid of all daytime limits (even though at the time, they were like 8-10yo) and it was a screen bonanza. For years after that, we only had limits at night, but even those I ended up getting rid of a couple years ago for my older kid who was now a teenager with ADHD who had issues with delayed sleep onset. (My younger kid, who is now 13, funny enough, wanted to keep the nighttime limits andāmaybe because we never treated screen time limits as a punishment, but rather as a tool that they ultimately have a say ināhe now asks me to adjust them as he thinks would be helpful).
(The other reason I didn't want to double down on screen time limits, especially as they got older, was that I didn't want to enter into a constantly escalating war where we would implement some kind of internet blocker and then they would learn how to overcome it, ad infinitum. While this might teach them some useful coding or hacking skills lol, it doesn't seem like a good use of energy overall, even if you don't give a shit about your long-term relationship with your kids.)
But my older kid continued(s) to struggle with sleep. (He's struggled with the delayed sleep onset since he was about 18mo!) What he wants is to stay up all night and become nocturnal, or based on the summer, perhaps to have 26-hour days. Obviously (even to him), the problem is not that his parents have arbitrary bedtime rules, it's the mismatch with a society that hates night owls and with the rotation of the earth. Anyway, for the past couple years he's been choosing to stay up way too late watching shows or gaming and then struggling to get up in the morning, which makes for very tense mornings a lot of the time as we try to get him to school. I have almost consistently questioned whether I should reinstate nighttime screen time limits of some kind, and worried whether I'd fucked him up forever with my poor parenting choices. Sleep is important, the world screams at me! You're fucking up his health! But because it's hard to go backward on these things, we stuck with it and just tried to support him in making better decisions, and hoped that the natural consequences of getting to school late would help to get him to some kind of solution.
He's now 15 and a couple weeks ago I asked him, "It seems like you've been struggling in the mornings a bit...do you think it would be helpful to put screen time limits back on for night?" Instead of bristling the way I imagine some teens might, he agreed that it was a problem, but explained why he didn't think that would help ("Well that would only apply to my iPad, which would make me want to stay on my laptop later, which would mean I had to stay sitting up and I would get less tired...") But he said he was going to think about what might help. Then the other day we had an appt with his ADHD dr and he said, "You know, when I happen to fall asleep earlier and wake up with extra time in the morning before school, it's actually pretty great. I prefer it." (Me internally: š®) The doctor suggested trying a 2-3 week period of taking melatonin in addition to his other meds to try to establish a new sleep routine, and he was like, "I think that's worth a try." That night I went in and prompted him to take the melatonin and he said, "I should set a daily reminder," and opened up his alarm app. Last night I went in at 10:30 for something and he said, "I shouldn't get upāI just took my melatonin." This morning he was awake before I went to check on him.
The thing that I think is key is that this is NOT a manner of parenting where I have ever felt like I'm making the right decisions. When other parents ask what our screen rules are, I question what we're doing. Hell, my own KIDS have questioned us getting rid of screen time limits in the early pandemic! (Especially my younger kid. He's dramatically like: "it was working! and then you got rid of screen time and now I can never go back!" Ironically, he doesn't remember the arguments over the screen time at ALL, so this is his selective memory narrative. lmao) My brother-in-law: "They're spending too much time online." You get the picture. But the thing that makes me think it was ultimately the right choice in our case is that now, at 13 and 15, the way they relate to tools to manage their tech use seems SO HEALTHY. They spend zero time trying to trick us. They ask for screen time limits if they think it would be helpful. They talk with us about possible solutions and brainstorm ways to make them work (eg alarms).
If the goal is to create adults who live in our unhinged world who can manage their own tech use in a healthy way, surely these skills are more useful than authoritarian parenting techniques we might have tried that might have had "better" outcomes in the very short term? Surely? Like, no, they aren't able to always make good decisions on their own, because they're not fully developed. But that doesn't imply that the solution is to take away their agencyāin fact, I think it means they should keep their agency so they can learn techniques, strategies, etc, when they're still living with adults who can help them to do that!
I often think about the way a lot of kids act in their first semester at college living in a dorm: no idea how to manage their time, playing video games instead of going to class, partying constantly, eating absolute shit. To some extent, I think that's part of the experience. But it doesn't have to be so extreme. And it's often the kids with the most strict parents who pendulum swing so far. My hope is that we've given our kids a chance to learn these things from a young age, to understand what's at stake, to assess whether things are working for them and how to change if they're not, etc.
But tomorrow I'll probably think I've fucked it up again
***Disclaimer: all kids are different. I am very much not suggesting that what we've done would work this way in every case, or that we would've made these decisions if we had different kids! Some kids act like complete monsters if they don't get enough sleep, and their parents have to take very different action because of that. I am not trying to pass judgment on others, only musing on the way we think about these decisions. āļø