Maerad of Pellinor

fictive introject in @the-medusa-system | source is the books of Pellinor | lover of all things musical and/or naturey

[hellhoundzzz]

I hate when doctors aren't specific and then get confused / upset when you don't understand them / do something "wrong" even though that's what they asked you to do

[yipyipallyall]

[damnhotpocket]

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Why are all music teachers like this 😭😭😭

[drtrinitysantos]

fork found in kitchen. me also found in kitchen that's how I found the fork

[maraistookmyheart]

i love taking REALLY hot showers.... like yes girl... let's evaporate...

[langernameohnebedeutung]

Honey I Shrunk La France

[ydrill]

European Politics :

[im-staying-calm-this-time]

Chronic illness sucks because you’ll catch yourself thinking shit like ‘I wish it was possible to bathe regularly’ or ‘they should invent a digestive system that doesn’t hurt’ and then realise… that’s actually the case for most people. That’s the norm. Not only do most people have that, they don’t even think about it

[g4yr4t]

I love Doris and she is so cute but also she looks so much like Teddy Roosevelt sometimes that I can't help but laugh

[g4yr4t]

all I'm saying is that no one has ever seen them in the same room together

[chaotic-neutral-knitter]

do you ever feel yourself fail a charisma check in real time

[fibro-memes]

[neenarchive]

maidens if you are going to flee dramatically from my castle in the middle of the night once i reveal my true nature to you please leave your candelabra on the little ledge by the portcullis we are running out of them

[neenarchive]

starting to think these maidens are stumbling in soaked through from the rain just to steal my beautiful gowns and homewear are any of you actually lost

[elektrashocktherapy]

At the checkout in Home Goods loading the belt with nothing but candelabras in all shapes & sizes while the cashier watches sympathetically and asks if it’s the maidens again

[mcnamak]

My best advice for people new to adulthood: keep emergency food around.

I don't mean like those prepper type people. I mean keep a granola bar in your purse or backpack. If you have a car, keep a jar of peanuts in there.

This is good for if you miss your bus, or forget your wallet somewhere, or get stuck in traffic. You never know when you are going to feel shaky, and it's better to have something quick and easy on hand, in case you need it.

Having emergency food around is your best friend. Trust me.

[draconym]

Sure, you know how to self-flagellate, but do you know how to apologize? Saying "I'm a stupid idiot" is not the same thing as saying "I did something wrong."

[draconym]

People who want an apology pretty much never want to hear "I'm a stupid idiot." If someone is actually trying to get you to say you're a stupid idiot, it's not because it will make up for a mistake you made or harm you caused. It's because they want you to feel like a stupid idiot. People who care about you do not want you to feel like a stupid idiot and it hurts them when they see you putting yourself down in their name.

[sabertoothwalrus]

can i see the goose pls

BEHOLD. THE GOOS

[sabertoothwalrus]

I thought this looked like it'd be easy to paint and it was

[passerinearts]

When it comes to chronic illnesses, mental illnesses, and disabilities, I've noticed that a lot of able-bodied people either don't take names seriously, or don't understand and ask you to explain what it is to them.

Now, if you have any kind of disability, you know it's fucking annoying go have people make you explain something over and over again, or have people go "oh, you have X? You mean, like the [awful stereotype] thing?"

So, I have realized recently that being Vague As Shit is great for making people leave you the hell alone.

I have autism and anxiety, and with that comes the symptom of selective mutism. If you don't know what that is, Firefox is free. But I had an episode where I couldn't speak today in one of my classes, and knew I would have to explain it to my partner and probably my professor.

This usually goes with me writing that I can't speak, them asking why, me saying selective mutism, and them asking me what that is. Then I have to painstakingly write out an explanation. And, obviously, I'm tired of this. So I tried something new. When he asked, I simply told him I couldn't speak, and when he asked if I physically couldn't or just didn't want to, I just opened my mouth and unleashed the terrifying, awful, broken stuttering that comes out when I try to speak while mute.

His response was "OKAY OKAY OKAY YOU CAN STOP NOW" and he did not question me for the rest of class, and even explained to the professor what was wrong when she tried to make me popcorn read.

This also works on doctors. When I tell doctors I have PCOS, POTS, or hEDS, they usually hear "oh the crazy women self diagnosis disabilities" and treat me accordingly. So, instead I drop unhinged symptoms until they leave me alone.

"Yes, my last menstrual cycle started on December 12th, 2025 and ended January 28th, 2026." "I have experienced several events where I have passed out randomly, yes." "My hip has subluxated six times in the past week."

It's like in the principles of writing horror. If you name and describe the problem, it's easier for people to minimize and ignore. Don't let them. You live with this fucking bullshit every day. Let your symptoms haunt people. They don't need to know everything about you. Besides, it makes them treat you better than when you give them names.

[bebsi-cola]

strong reminder that everything doesn't "happen for a reason". a lot of the time things happen, and it's not a test or a punishment or predetermined. sometimes you get cancer or lose the ability to eat or can't walk and it doesn't have any greater meaning. i know as a species we love pattern recognition to try and avoid bad things from happening but that doesn't mean whatever explanation people make up to rationalise the fact that anyone can be disabled no matter their status or moral character any more truthful

[bebsi-cola]

a lot of people have identified this behaviour with religion/religious people. and while they might be more overtly open about believing this, i actually think it applies more broadly. on a societal level, people blame you for having health conditions, and think you're a good person for having no health issues. it's in the way they act like disabled people are just too lazy to stop being disabled, as if it's because of a moral failing that they're disabled. it's in the way anytime a bad person/person they don't like gets a health condition or health scare they act like it's comeuppance. as if health conditions are some sort of moral or karmic punishment. even before, they blame the disabilities of babies on the moral character of the mother. if you know where to look, this is everywhere

[bebsi-cola]

ID: tags that say "the only people who deserve to have some health problem is the people who made the healthcare system. so that they can truly understand the torture they put the rest of us through." end ID

great example of what i was talking about. people don't "deserve" to be disabled, neither do they "deserve" to be healthy. there's not an inherent right to health that gets taken away when you're bad enough. and disability should not be considered a punishment. i don't think we need to torture any disabled people on the basis of disability alone, even if they're a morally reprehensible dog-like bastard. maybe we could idk? fine them? shut down the healthcare businesses? redistribute their wealth to existing disabled people? hell just beat the shit outta them idc. why does disability need to be a punishment

[sawed-on-shotgun]

Im glad they made up romance for stories and music but can you imagine how scary it would be to deal with all that for real