Magnusthegay

Chris 33|| Capricorn || Gay

[magnussforzando]

How do I tell people how cosmically lonely I feel 24/7?

Like… all of the time. When I’m with friends. When I’m alone. When I’m with family. When I’m asleep. When I wake up. When I’m having a shower. When I’m having a wank. When I’m having a shit. When I’m eating. When I’m playing games. When I’m watching tv. When I’m thinking about how fucking lonely and broken I am.

It’s an omnipresent feeling. It never goes away. Sometimes it gets quieter. Most of the time it just gets louder until I sleep it off some, or completely break.

It’s been very loud now almost constant, for like the last couple of months. Basicaly since I’ve moved to Atlanta tbh.

And I’m sorry to the friends who I moved in with who will eventually read this at some point I assume. It’s not their fault. And despite being around my friends and people who care bout me, I still just feel so alone.

I’m just so tired of being lonely and alone. I’m on borderline tears like all the time at any given moment. I often have to excuse myself from situation just so I don’t sour a mood with my bitch face.

I can keep talking about it till the end of time, and I can tell everyone, but it never feels like it helps me to connect with anyone. People can tell me they understand until they’re blue in the face, and maybe they do actually understand. But it does nothing to abate my loneliness.

It’s always a struggle to form any kind of relationship, much less one that means anything. Despite my best sustained efforts. Nothing ever connects.

I just don’t know what else to do. I’m really starting to feel at my wits end about tbh. I just feel like don’t have outlets, and even if I did I wouldn’t k or what to do about it.

Honestly I’m just really thankful for my cat. Sometimes I feel like he’s the only reason I’m still alive sometimes.I love simba

[catsuggest]

im readinge the book with mama

[dr-activisionary]

[catsuggest]

exposed as a fraud with mama

[konoko]

[amanofbeautyisajoyforever]

[finnglas]

when i was a tiny baby queer (aka a 24-year-old), i went to my first pride festival probably three months after i kicked ex-gay therapy to the curb and came out to my parents. being the people they are, my parents came with me. they weren’t really sure about this whole gay thing, but they loved me and wanted me to be safe and happy and wanted to be involved in what was important to me, so they came along. (i also think my mother still might have thought i might get drugged or murdered or beaten by a protester of which there were plenty.)

anyway i wanted a memento of my first pride, you know, and this one vendor was selling keyrings, and i liked it, so i bought one. do you remember those italian charm bracelets that were all the rage like 10-15 years ago? it was a keychain like that, and it had a rainbow rooster, a rainbow cat, and then just a rainbow, and so I bought it.

i run into my mom a couple of vendors over and she goes oh you bought something? what’d you get? so i showed her, and i was like, “I’m not sure why it’s a rooster and a cat. Seems kind of random. But I liked the rainbows.”

and my mom, who was some form of minister’s wife for most of my childhood and teenagerhood, stares at me like she thinks i’m joking.

“What?” i say.

“…it’s a cock and a pussy, Jules,” she says flatly, and that is the story of how i died at the age of 24 while attending my first pride festival.

[finnglas]

I love how every June this one gets dug up and passed around again, lmao.

[modismod]

My favorite activity is to look for new ver of old yugioh cards from when I watched season one and see how they’re doing because they’re usually go nuts or continue their story somehow in the art

[modismod]

Good for her

[inviernodel95]

Yasssified

[scheidungsgrund]

from twitter user deejaygeejaygee

[galecstatic]

it just gets better

and better

[goingonanadventuremaybe]

[funnyfroge]

[kiul-kiul-deactivated20230810]

Reblog if you need to be stretched on a fat cock

[beaft]

my cat hates taking his pills. the only way we can get him to eat them is to turn it into an elaborate pantomime - we take the packet out of the cupboard slowly and hold it up, saying “oh!! what’s this? what’s this? a TREAT? a TREAT for louis????” while making surprised faces. we offer him a pill… then, before he has a chance to sniff it, we wag our fingers at him and replace it in the packet so it becomes a Tantalising Forbidden Mystery. we continue doing this until he’s so confused and excited that he will eat the pill as fast as possible, just so he can find out what it is before we can take it away from him again. as soon as he’s eaten it he looks utterly disappointed and betrayed, like a child who just ate a delicious sweet only to find it was a chocolate-coated brussels sprout. it never gets old

[autumngracy]

Op this is the funniest thing I’ve ever read

[fucktheflagandfuckyou]

op how could you just hide this from me in the tag this makes this objectively 10000000% funnier

[stalling]

50 First Doses

[skyline-sunset-in-my-veins]

You trick Louis? You trick Louis like a common fool? Oh jail, jail for owners ONE MILLION YE-oh what’s this? A treat?

[strandnreyes]

“I don’t like this song because I can’t relate to it” skill issue. I’m mad at my husband I love my girlfriend I’m a lone cowboy I’m growing old I’m growing up I’m depressed I love my friends I’m perpetually horny I’m drunk at the club I love my husband again

[strandnreyes]

this is exactly what I’m talking about

[pinene]

Why are we forgetting the old texts

[nosimpincurly]

You’re not depressed. You just need $250,000 in your bank account.

[catherinebunnington]

Reblog to materialize $250,000 in prev's bank account

[cute-catts]

Inner peace 🕊️🐱😌

[east-coaster]

Bend him over the bathroom sink and make him watch himself get fucked in the mirror

[eldiapason]

minotaur boyfriend who excitedly shows you around his labyrinth and then takes you to his secret private den and then uhhhhh ummm uhhhhh ummmmm

[cute-catts]

Very handsome boy 🐱🐈

[satyronmars]

turning off the ask box. these gofundme bots are getting unreal

[godshideouscreation]

[theofficialpresidentoftheusa]