Mental Head Fat

The daily struggles of weight loss, and lifestyle changes teamed with battling with mental health all at the same time!

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Day 1 again...and again...

A journal of a journey is always a hard thing to do... today is no exception...

Daily wins

I got up and went to fit camp

I walked the dog around 3 miles when I got home

Saw herd of deer

Lovely start to the day and sunrise

Took all my vitamins and motivations drug!

Fasted till after 1

Lunch: scrambled egg on toast

Snack: carrot sticks and hummus

Dinner: meatballs and broccoli

Bought a car

Sorted out cbd oil

Bed around 830pm ish

So all in all a pretty achieved day :)

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Day 2...again

So I didn’t get very far with 100 days of being good to myself, but thats ok that was last year...so its January the 2nd 2018 and like most of us I have made new years resolutions to ‘try’ to stick by etc etc. I’m annoyed with myself at the moment though as all of the hard work in the last year has been undone by not going to see the fit family and eating out of control. The last month or so has been really hard on my head and I kinda lost it after throwing my back out. so New year, new me, last year is done its over, its now about controlling my future and forgetting but more being mindful about what happened last year.

So what are my resolutions I hear you say?

1. Be kinder to myself

2. Exercise

3. Be more mindful about everything

4. Become stronger

5. Run a few 5k’s (2 or 3 already in the diary)

6. work S.M.A.R.T -er not harder (although I am gonna work my butt off)

7. Be more involved with Phoebe and DO things

8. See my friends more

9.Become a little more financially stable

10. Get rid of some crap I havent used in a long while

11. Breed some Betta fish (just cos I want to try)

So here’s to a happy and prosperous new year.

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Day 8

So the morning of Day 8.

Wow what a weekend, ups and downs and came out feeling super strong this morning with TK (although it was Callum this morning) I think the fasting thing is working I don’t feel all funky and shaking after the work out which is a nice thing. I made and had some totally yummy GF sticky toffee pudding, really enjoyed it and I don’t feel guilty, I had a good week and that was my treat to myself. I resisted so much temptation this week I’m super proud of my self the damage could have been a lot worse. So this week see’s two more TK sessions 1 home yoga session and a lot of walking tomorrow at a maize maze. with the kiddlies. Meals all planned cant wait to get into it!!! RAWR!!!!

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Day 4

Eating times 10am - 6:15pm

So today was one of those days where I felt a bit wobbly. Mr G came back for the weekend and I didn’t do a great deal!

Breakfast Chilli con carne and courgette

Lunch Lime and coconut chicken salad

Dinner Sweet and sour chicken

Snack peasnaps

           carrots/cucumber and houmous

           Strawberries and greek yog with a hit of maple agave

Water water everywhere but then why the hell am I not drinking loads? So I went back to bed for a nap this afternoon and then food and dog walk. I spent an hour and a half on the phone to my bestie, she starts her 6 week thing on Monday. Shes struggling with everything at the moment but trying to stay positive and get on with everything.I AM doing the same. Only 96 days left so easy peasy right? my knee keeps twinging which is crappy and my tummy muscles hurt like hell today, tomorrow brings either Callum or Mike and a full body all rounder work out, as well as a kids birthday party in the afternoon and a psych appointment. Early to bed tonight with BCAAs in the morning before and post workout then going to try for the 10am meal. Going to get the hang of this posting thing eventually!!!

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Day 3

Meal time 9:30am - 8pm

(written on the morning of Day 4)Today was going so well then I went to a friends house and the kids cooked for us! I was so hungry I just eat what was on offer but the clincher was the chocolate chip cookie that they made which included butter icing!!

Ugghhhhh and I caved, but that’s ok, baby steps. I didn’t have pasta.

Breakfast - Pepper Chicken with Courgette

Lunch - Pastaless lasagne

Dinner bolognese meat

Snacks pork scratchings

             apple and peanut butter

            cookie thing the kids made

Did my HiiT with TK in the morning an arm day but leaving my stomach muscles and my shoulders a bit achy this morning. the training was weird as I’m doing the fasting thing, I found I didn’t have as much strength as I normally would which was weird. I could barely (and in fact I didn’t) manage to hold a plank for 45 seconds and as for the push ups pah!!! on a better note I managed to do the shoulder press so at least I have gained some movement in that department!! Steel feeling pumped and useful so keep going missy, YOU CAN DO IT!

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Day 2

Eating hours 10am - 6pm (8 hours)

Day 2 been for a walk (30 mins) sorted some stuff out in the spare room and re did somethings on the market place. A productive day! 

Breakfast - onion and pepper omlette

Lunch - pastaless lasagne

Dinner - pastaless lasagne

Snacks nakd bakewell bar

            greek yogurt and strawbs

So better mood today, Mr Gill went home and I decided to get some things done. poked a pin into my tooth so now it hurts like hell!!! but mood over all ok not feeling the rath of sugar comedown so thats a bonus! yoga last night before I went to bed and today was a breeze, I totally adulted wasn’t hard wasn’t an effort I just did bit and pieces and came back to it time and time again.so go me...here’s to looking after myself for another day!!! bit by bit, step by step changing my lifestyle forever!!!

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Day 1

Eating hours - 8am - 6pm

So first day of 100 days of looking after myself. TK this morning, such a great session even with a dodgy knee. Went up to 30kg on the squats. Shoulder still giving me jip but I'll cope!

Breakfast - cheese and onion omlette

Lunch - 2x steak and onion wrap

Dinner - pastaless lasagne

Snacks - carrots and houmous

Liquorice alsorts

Peasnaps

Yogurt

So I had an appointment with a psychiatrist to do a little bit of assessment work. I'm fine aparently with anxiety and mild depression. But it's a a work in progress so watch this space. After the appointment I was so drained and all I could do was reach for the remaining sweeties in the bag and finish them. Balls balls balls...but the 100 day challenge is about looking after myself which also means not being hard on me and letting things go. So a nap happened which made me feel shitty as it was on the sofa not the bed...ugghhh but dinner and now no for till after 10 tomorrow. Let's see if intermittent fasting on a 16-8 rotation works. Early sleep night and early morning boo ya 1 down 99 to go!!!

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100 days of...

So, reading articles and checking out friends posts I have seen so many of these 100 day challenges. 100 days...that's not very much? Maybe I should do one of these things?? But what would I choose. 100 days of...

1. No unhealthy carbs

2. Sticking to a diet

3. Running

4. Training

5. Drinking my water

So much to choose from but it's just about changing one thing...what would you choose to do for 100 days?? What is maintainable? How much do I want this? And I do want this! I want my knees to stop hurting my back to return to normal and to feel smaller!!! To feel stronger to have arms like a boxer!!! I WANT THIS!!! So over the weekend I'm going to choose what I'm going to do and just do it...

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Bad food, bad mood

I cant stress this enough! if I eat well then I feel great my energy levels return to normal and I feel that I can take on the world. Last night I thought ‘fuck it, on it tomorrow lets have a blow out’ (we all say we’ll start Monday, you know who you are) so thanks to Mr G. being away at Camp Bestival, I ordered from the newly opened Pizza hut down the road. Now, thing is, I have a Gluten intolerance which can range from mild discomfort to so crampy I go grey, clammy and cry a little from the pain. Today not only do I have mega discomfort, I have sugar withdrawal, and feel ever so shitty and tired. I’ve just had a nap on the sofa instead of going for a proper lie down and that always makes me feel worse too. I do know good food, good mood, I know that this is the mantra that I should live by.

Everything works better in me when I follow it and I should be able to see that, but nooooo, my head gets in the way and I end up getting a little bit anxious and just losing it and binging on all those everso tasty carbs. To be fair It threw my off my TK workout session this morning I just wasn’t feeling it not to mention the fact that I felt dizzy and sick most of the session. However I got to the end, squated 25K and did those silly crab walks which absolutley kill my legs, which I am told means its working. I hear Mr TK now screaming at us ‘aim to fail’ that burn means I’m doing it right. I know I haven’t put my 100% in over the last month an gained most of what I lost in those first 4 weeks, but I need to do this for me, my sanity, my strength. I will regain so much by choosing what is right for me, by eating regularly, eating clean and focusing on how I feel. Everyone keeps asking, how do you feel? and I should take that and remember it all, but this is why I started writing this so I could follow my journey. Sounds a bit ooooooo ‘journey la di dah but yes for me it is going to e a journey,one of discovery, blood sweat and tears. I may even have a nervous break down, but its fine. I got this. I can fail, and get back on, I can start and not finish because I AM ENOUGH!!!!

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Screw it, it's too late for summer body anyway. By Madeleine Byrne

Sometimes we all feel like this :D

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This is my very own smiley puppy, Amber

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ME!!

So this is me starting...again... Changing something cos the first 1,000 things I have tried haven’t worked, well except one and I have Mr. TK to thank for that! So let me tell you a little bit about myself. My name is Tee and I live in Cambridgeshire in the UK with my dog Amber (half GSD) and my daughter who’s 12 with her own set of issues including Aspergers and high anxiety. Things can be pretty stressful here at times but its all held together most of the times with the help of my fella Mr. G. I have anxiety and depression which I have struggled with for the last X amount of years which I’m sure some of you can relate to. Over the last 7/8 years if not longer this has steadily become worse to the points I’m waiting on a a Psychiatric consult to see if I’m bi-polar just like my big sister and brother! (apparently they’re thinking that it runs in families) So I’m supposed to be doing a mood diary and thoughts and such to track whats happening in my life and what better there to shove it on social media and things with apps to make myself write this shit down and own it!

Over the coming days, weeks, months and who knows maybe even years I want to be writing down the stuff that’s in my head, these random thoughts and stuff like that. I’d like to shove in some photos, links and other crap in the hope that some of you may feel comfort and relate to the everyday struggles that I go through just to try and maintain a little bit of sanity in my ever changing world. So come along for the journey if you so desire, the more the merrier.