Moonlit Chaos

Our neurodivergent/system blog <3

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Hello, and Welcome!

Hello! We’re the Woodlands System, and we’re an AuDHD OSDD system that’s very neurospicy! This is our blog for all things ADHD, Autism, and system-related!

This is a very lighthearted blog that mainly focuses on memes, jokes, and neurodivergent information we’ve found helpful or hilarious, however, we do still have some boundaries on this blog.

System Information:

Collectively, we use they/them pronouns and identify as genderfluid, but every alter has their preferences and will try to specify if it’s needed!

We are a newly discovered OSDD system with 20+ members, most of whom can front to some extent.

Overall Boundaries & Other:

We are taken by our lovely boyfriend and are not looking for any partner systems or singlets, please do not ask

We will not share any deeply personal info regarding our trauma, our littles, our triggers, or anything we deem to be dangerous to the system.

We do not see our disorders as something that can or should be “cured.” They are disorders and disabilities that impact us, but they also make us who we are.

We see self diagnosis through research as valid and support those who are self-diagnosed, as well as those who are professionally diagnosed or seeking professional diagnosis. Everyone is welcome here!

We are queer, furry, therian, and otherkin supportive, and we are collectively endogenic neutral*. Do not bring your discourse to this account.

*We have not seen endogenic systems claim to be traumagenic systems or actively cause harm, and so long as they do not harm other systems or the plural community, we see no reason to unnecessarily hate on them or cause them distress. They are welcome to comment and interact with our posts, and we may repost blogs that support them as well as ones that do not wish for them to interact.

Resources:

Goes over switches, fronting, and has a ton of just good info and resources for systems

Switching & Voluntary Switching Methods

Post List:

Neurodivergent, Disabled, and Chronically Ill YouTuber Resources List

People aren’t more neurodivergent, they just can’t mask anymore

Why completing long-term goals doesn’t feel good

Coping methods (& general wholesomeness)

[what-even-is-thiss]

The reason your snacks are unsatisfying is that you need both carb and protein.

Carb starts your engine, protein keeps it going.

No carb, engine don’t start. No protein, engine dies out fast.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Easy carb add on:

Cookie

Fruit (canned or fresh)

Chips

Piece of bread

Popcorn

Crackers

Easy protein add on:

Nuts

Spoonful of nut butter

Cheese

Roasted chickpea snacks

Glass of milk (dairy or non dairy)

Small canned sausages or similar

[what-even-is-thiss]

Sugar in there.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I am pleased by people messaging me telling me that after adding a carb or protein to their snacks or meals they feel more satisfied all day. Yes, my plan is working. People are getting through their days with less hangry.

[vaspider]

Fats are the big trigger of satiety! The human body really does need fat. I know that we have been sold "low fat" and "low carb" all the things, but we do need fats. Protein keeps you running, fat tells you, "Oh, I'm all full up, thank you!"

IMO, squeezy peanut butter tube is the magical substance rescue food if you are not allergic to nuts!

I am an insulin-dependent diabetic & I legit keep a squeezy tube of peanut butter on my nightstand and in my backpack (inside a reusable silicone bag so there's no chance it will explode all over the inside of my backpack). You can just open the tube and squeeze peanut butter directly into your mouth if you need to in an emergency, no need for utensils, etc. If my low-sugar alarm goes off in the middle of the night, I put a piece of candy in my mouth (or use my sugar-up-my-nose rescue thing if it's an Urgent Low Sugar alarm) and then I put peanut butter in my mouth. The candy will start to bring my blood sugar up FAST and the peanut butter will make sure that I don't just go into the stratosphere and crash back down again.

To give credit where it's due, I learned this trick from Leah Orleans/Stahr Power of Tiny Girl Big Show. She travels a lot, and squeezy peanut butter tubes can go in her carry-on through TSA.

You can get fancypants peanut butter if you want to, but a lot of the "made for travel, tiny portable things!" are like, $2+ an ounce, but the Jif Multipacks of the 13 oz tubes are like $.25 an ounce, and bc peanut butter doesn't go bad very quickly, you can buy that and shove it into a cupboard and just go through it over time.

When I say that this shit genuinely changed my life in terms of managing sugar crashes away from home, as a celiac diabetic, I am not one tiny bit joking.

Okay, end soapbox, bye.

P.S. OP I know that you hate peanut butter so obviously this advice is for other people ok bye again

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Anyone have advice regarding sisasystems/subsystems/hemisystems?

We recently had an experience where the entire main system was literally forced away from front and replaced with a loose group of fragmented alters that were incredibly blurry and hard to define. We believe that it is a hemisystem separate from the main system, and right now we think it may have one gateway alter, but we aren’t sure about any of it.

The alters within this hemisystem were distinct from one another enough to notice that they switched, but switched at minimum every couple hours to every couple minutes, making it nearly impossible to get solid information about identities, names, etc. They were also very lost and confused in front and had heavy amnesia regarding pretty much everything, to the point many couldn’t remember events that happened earlier on that same day.

We just wanna know if anyone else has had a similar experience and if anyone could offer advice as to how we improve communication, solidify their identities, or attempt to bring them into the main system so we can get to know them better. We aren’t sure what to do.

[lastoneout]

I do think the Hank Green AI thing makes it abundantly clear that if you have ADHD or any other mental illness and/or you are prone to addiction you need to avoid AI at all costs. This shit will rope you in, and if you have a mental illness that say, starves your brain of dopamine, you're gonna be extra susceptible to that. I won't use AI for a lot of reasons but one of the big ones is knowing how it would fuck with my ADHD and bipolar. Like yes, it's bad for the environment and giving money to rich scumbags and runs on plagarism, but even more than all that, it's straight up not safe at all and you really shouldn't use it if for no other reason than to protect yourself from whatever the fuck it might do to you.

[impromptuteethextraction]

being a system means sometimes theres just one guy who will only refer to himself as the "cream cheese alter" and all u know about him is that he really likes bagels with cream cheese and he will front just to eat it, leaving u with empty hands as he licks the cream cheese off his paws

[moonlit-oh-shit]

So we have always struggled to identify who’s is in front because we all tend to feel somewhat similar in the body most of the time

And unfortunately apps like Berrytree and websites like pluralspace just aren’t functionally worth the energy for our system

So! We found a set of these flashcards and we’re gonna make every alter a profile card with basic information like favorite colors, fronting indicators, etc., that way we can flip through them easily and identify who we are!

(We’ll try to update if they actually end up working later on!)

[dakota-wuz-heer]

Seeing all these ideal systems knowing we’re the most mediocre system ever

[mynd-art]

i need to know... does this happen to anyone else?

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Oh absolutely it does lol

[thankyoumoon]

(accomplishes the arduous task of looking at something someone else made) well aren't i a productive bunch :)

[moonlit-oh-shit]

“What’s your role” idfk man I like music

[moonlit-oh-shit]

How tf do people actually organize their systems

Because we’ve tried pluralspace & berrytree and both of them are so complex and difficult to use and set up that it’s just not even worth it to input information, and half the time we can’t keep up with adding people in because it’s just not easy to format things or add information AND make it look good.

Does anyone have recommendations for maybe physical ways they track things or other ways to keep your system straight? Genuinely any ideas/suggestions would be helpful at this point

[wulpertingertalk]

pessimist vs optimist FIGHT

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Real, that’s Reyna & Haven in our system lol

[moonlit-oh-shit]

So I’m a human alter fronting rn, but we have multiple non-human alters and I feel like they tend to get shoved to the side (or sometimes overly glorified) in system spaces, and I’d love to hear other’s experiences with their system’s non-human alters just- normally existing?

What are they like, do they have an age, what do they look like in the headspace, what’s their name, do they have bodily dysphoria? I really wanna get to know some other non-human alters because it can feel very isolating for them and I want them to know they’re not alone 🤍

For privacy, I’m not going to share a ton of details, but within our system, we have at least four documented non-human alters, including:

Nova: the personification of the stars basically, feels very…floaty in the body

Haven: faerie alter who is a cinnamon roll and SO wonderful to co-front with, has some dysphoria surrounding not having her wings irl

(Unnamed): naiad, very anxious

(Unnamed): avian type creature who has black bird-like wings when fronting but not in the inner world, super weird experience when fronting

[plural-archivist]

most of us are nonhuman, yes. here's a list:

Moss: A physical watcher, a dog and a winged cat. They're also questioning a jay theriotype at the moment.

Orion: Another watcher. He's also a velocirraptor.

Theo: A fox kemonomimi.

Leo: A turtle mutant (fictive).

Nero: A literal shadow with eyes made of light.

Angel: A spider hybrid (fictive).

Kinger: A chess piece (fictive).

Vance: A TV-shark hybrid (fictive).

Nico: A theriform black fox.

Caine: An anthropomorphic being with dentures with eyes for a head (fictive).

Rowan: A unicorn hybrid.

[moonlit-oh-shit]

THATS SO COOLLLLLL omg you all sound amazing, i cannot imagine how beautiful/handsome everyone is in headspace 🥺

(Also idk if there’s watchers in another type of media, but if you mean the life series, then WERE A FELLOW FAN OF IT, HIIIIIII)

[moonlit-oh-shit]

So I’m a human alter fronting rn, but we have multiple non-human alters and I feel like they tend to get shoved to the side (or sometimes overly glorified) in system spaces, and I’d love to hear other’s experiences with their system’s non-human alters just- normally existing?

What are they like, do they have an age, what do they look like in the headspace, what’s their name, do they have bodily dysphoria? I really wanna get to know some other non-human alters because it can feel very isolating for them and I want them to know they’re not alone 🤍

For privacy, I’m not going to share a ton of details, but within our system, we have at least four documented non-human alters, including:

Nova: the personification of the stars basically, feels very…floaty in the body

Haven: faerie alter who is a cinnamon roll and SO wonderful to co-front with, has some dysphoria surrounding not having her wings irl

(Unnamed): naiad, very anxious

(Unnamed): avian type creature who has black bird-like wings when fronting but not in the inner world, super weird experience when fronting

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Being a system in a relationship is so weird bc what do you mean we have an alter who hates interacting with men, we literally have a boyfriend lmao

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Friendly reminder that you’re not less valid as a system bc you don’t have introjects or fictives or non-human alters or anything similar.

We have AuDHD and are an OSDD system with multiple longstanding hobbies, interests, and fandoms, and we don’t have a single fictive. And it can feel so isolating in system spaces because it feels like everyone else “randomly” splits fictives simply from getting into a fandom.

But when discussing traumagenic systems, most alters split from trauma, and that INCLUDES fictives and introjects. We aren’t going to claim we understand how every system or brain works because we don’t, but we also don’t want to act like introjects randomly spawn in without reason. Systems have alters because they are needed, and fictives and the like aren’t excluded from that reasoning just because they are from fictional sources.

Again, I’m not going to say that there aren’t reasons why this may happen in some systems, but I’m begging people to start clarifying that their fictives aren’t just randomly spawning in from nothing. Stress or even ignoring bodily needs because of hyperfixating on a topic can cause splits, but that’s still a REASON for them existing, it’s not just them popping up out of nowhere. The way many people describe splitting fictives makes it sound like splits are entirely random and every system will experience splitting fictives, when that’s not the case.

Idk. Maybe we just don’t get it because we don’t have fictives, but it doesn’t make sense to us how people are describing their splits like they just appear from taking a mild interest in something, when that’s not how other alters generally seem to form.

Feel free to correct us btw or offer your own experience in the comments. I’m happy to be more educated and I’d love to learn more about why this kind of thing could happen

[jantalepi]

For me I split fictives because I spend a whole lot of time daydreaming about fictional charecters which makes them very easy to "latch onto" so to speak?

And it might look like they are splitting for no reason, but you are totally correct, it's always some kind of coping mechanism. We've had a whole lot of UU fictives show up recently, but that's because we were really stressed out by school, we had some social interactions we were not ready for, and Leo came in to help with those, and/or we were feeling depressed, so we needed a mood booster.

Also, we have a history of "flaming out" alters, where if there is something really really bad going on, someone will absoarb all of the bad emotions and then just...go dormant for a very long time, or forever, so we don't need to ever deal with those emotions. So we always need new guys in our mind to replace the ones who leave, and introjecting is always a good way to do that.

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Thank you for your insight!!! I genuinely think a lot of videos and stuff where it appears like people are just randomly splitting them is simply just something like stress being mislabeled or accidentally omitted for whatever reason, so it’s really nice to see your perspective on how your introjects can form!

[one-in-a-nestillion]

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[moonlit-oh-shit]

Felt lmao, with some exceptions for us bc it’s more like the person in front primarily does what they want but can have limitations based on if we’re alone/masking/texting others lol

[void-and-aether]

Me and boyfriend are planning a dinner date and I had the funniest idea for coming out as plural

"Baby.... I'm actually.... Eating for (insert whatever number it is)"

"YOU'RE PREGNANT?!?!???"

-?

[moonlit-oh-shit]

This is fucking hilarious, I sent it to our bf lmao