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Hello,You can call me Wake and I've worked up the courage to make this post after help from a friend. This for those of you I have interacted with or those who wish to interact with me I am on the spectrum and have very bad social anxiety with people I don't know. I'm very afraid of coming off as 'cringe', and 'annoying' or as a 'Mary Sue' RPer and any such terms due to past experiences. Because of this I tend to keep my ideas to myself despite wishing to share them via Rp blogs and such. Most of the time I pretend nobody's watching and shout into the void of Tumblr and enjoy the echos of everyone who does the same. But every time I see Rp blogs and mutuals having fun I realise what I could have if I let go of these fears. But I'v had these fear for a long time and it isn't as simple as simply letting go. so instead I've made this post as a step into the right direction I almost always need a push from an outside source to do anything beyond my comfort zone no matter how I would like to do it, as my anxiety dictates that even the smallest thing would be seen as 'cringe' -If I make a poll asking whether or not I should do something, this is probably why. even if I'd really like to have a certain user(s) opinion on the poll I can't normally bring myself to @ them since I'm nervous I'll be seen as a weird stranger. If I ever write in the tags asking someone to @ them so the see the post, it is because I'm too afraid to do it myself. -If I reach out to you with anything more than agreement or compliments on a post, it is because I truly enjoy what you do and wish to interact with you and have only just now worked up enough courage to do so. -If I reach out to you I've most likely already reached out as an anon in your ask box. I do this because it's one of the few ways I can speak with no fear. -I'm much more comfortable with people reaching out to me compared to reaching out myself. My dm's are always open along with my ask box and I love getting asks. So please if you want to talk, reach out as I'm unlikely to make the first move. -If you end up interacting with me please use tone tags and let me know immediately if I do anything that makes you uncomfortable in any way. -If I stop responding is most likely because I've lost my nerve and my anxiety has convinced me I've done something wrong or I feel like the conversation is getting awkward. If you see this happen @ me and please tell me what your thinking my reason for vanishing is. I'm not good with subtle hints and so i will probably just tell you what's wrong, but please know that doing so is incredibly scary for me and whatever I say is meant in the most apologetic tone. When I do this, it is a last resort. -The best way to interact with me is to treat me like I'm a skittish animal. let me know when I've done something, give me encouragement if i'm doing okay. once I've warmed up to you I'll be more open and you'll clearly be able to tell, so please be patient with me until then. -I'm much more confident when others are too, as I don't feel like I'm overstepping or when I have a crutch to fall back on such as playing a character.
