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KOMOREBI. PART 1.
ex! situationship ceo gojo x florist! fem reader
summary: Years passed since you saw Satoru Gojo in your life — your situationship, who slipped away from your life like nothing had happened. Like you were nothing to him. Or, maybe, on the contrary, and you were his everything? What would happen if you suddenly met him at your flower shop?
tags: mdni! situationships, exes to lovers, reconciliation, some angst, some fluff, mutual pining, YEARNING, like A LOT. you fell first, he fell harder and it drove him crazy. panic attacks, floristry, some themes about rediscovering your life passion, the reader is kinda insecure. eventual smut: dry humping, fingering, emotional sex, a little bit of size kink, creampie, oral sex (f receiving).
word count: this part is 12.5k. total: 35k (bear with me here...).
author's note: this is officially the biggest thing i have ever written! and my first time ever writing smut. you've been warned. it should've been one post but tumblr's limits...art by @/boom_sate225. dividers are mine.
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part 2
This day started as usual.
Your phone alarm rang sharply at 6 a.m., jolting you awake. With a groan, you tapped to hold it and rolled over to have the last minutes of peace and serenity. The bed was warm, the pillow was comfortable, the blanket embraced you in the softest of hugs… Slowly, you drifted to sleep once again.
Only to hastily scramble to get ready an hour later.
"Shit, shit, shit," you cursed under your breath, trying to pull your pants on. A glance at the clock — 7:30; you must've been the fastest person in the world at that moment— totally a record.
Miraculously, you still had time to stop by your favourite bakery, which conveniently hid between the stalls with flowers and newspapers, to grab a coffee and a pastry. The street bustled with people at that hour: one man barked orders into his phone, with another gentleman, probably his assistant, hurriedly trying to keep up with the boss's pace. A pile of files in his arms dangerously leaned toward the ground.
Poor guy.
Your polished shoes clicked on the pavement, each step dripping with determination as you hurried to the bakery. You could’ve smelled its tantalizing scents even from a distance — cinnamon, cardamom, vanilla, and chocolate intertwining in a mouth-watering mix.
"Slept in, huh?" A barista, a tall guy with soft eyes and kind of a weird hairstyle of ponytails, observed you quietly and handed your order: a hot bumble with caramel syrup and a ham-and-cheese croissant. Your stomach growled at the scent of the pastry, and you gave the guy a quick smile. If you remembered it right, his name was Choso.
"Kind of, yeah," you swiped the card and quickly grabbed your order before you would drop dead to the overwhelming delicious scents in the bakery. You almost downed the drink in a few large gulps. "Thanks and bye!"
"Have a nice day, miss!"
You sped up to hop in your bus, the one that left the station at 7:35 sharply and arrived at your work exactly at 7:57.
“Sorry,” you murmured apologetically as you bumped into one lady, who only huffed in irritation, without sparing you a single glance. You fought the urge to grimace at her.
Slowly, you made your way to a lone window seat that wasn’t usually occupied at this hour. Mentally, you had long ago declared it your own and would sigh inwardly if other passengers, obviously, not aware of your claim, sat there.
This time, luck was on your side. You quickly fished a book — something to kill time and occupy your mind, besides the usual routine you were clearly drowning in. Your grip on the book tightened: not the best time to delve into and psychoanalyze your life as you tried to lose yourself in yet another magical fantasy world…
“Oh no, my fair lady,” a mysterious knight’s voice drawled, the voice muffled by a half-opened visor. Isabelle thought her heart almost jumped from her chest right into the knight’s hands. “I am here to rescue you.”
Isabelle could almost hear playfulness sipping in the knight’s tone, and it brought a quick grin on her face. Oh, her future husband would be enthralled when the morning would carry him the news about his precious wife-to-be, who would appear to be missing…”
You scoffed softly and reached for a pencil. Faint scribbles adorned the empty margins of the book, a carefully crafted tapestry of your thoughts and emotions.
“Well, I wouldn’t be so sure, if I were Isabelle, since…”
A sudden honk pulled you back to reality. The bus suddenly jerked forward again, and a string of muttered curses from other passengers wafted to you through the irritated crowd. Someone bumped into you, causing the pencil to fall from your grip.
“Ah, shoot it,” you huffed under your breath and bent over to take it back.
And then, as you looked up, you saw it.
A sudden flash of white hair.
Your insides got cold in an instant. The surrounding world ceased to exist around you for a moment or for a small eternity; you weren’t so sure. The pencil almost snapped in half in your hard grip as a thousand thoughts rushed through your anxious mind.
“What the hell is he doing there? He shouldn’t be there— no, he is not supposed to be there, in your city! You fled there, and he had the entire Tokyo! What if he saw you? Worse, what if he saw and now wants to talk to you? Shit, shit, shit!”
Your eyes nervously darted to the exit — only to see that the white hair was already missing. You blinked. Blinked again. No, not even a sight. You slumped in relief against the seat and closed your eyes.
What was going on with you, really? Is he the only man in the world with hair colour like this? Could’ve been some cosplayer! Yeah, that must be it!
Or not?...
Deep down, you knew the right answer. You could’ve recognized the silvery tone of his strands if you were a thousand miles away from him. You ran your fingers through them countless times, memorized the way they caught the moonlight and looked like spilt silver under your gentle touch.
With a long sigh, you put the book in a bag. The phone caught your eye, and you froze at the sight of the display.
8:17.
Memories engrossed your tired mind to the point you missed three stops.
“This day couldn’t get any worse,” you thought, rushing through the maze of irritated people, totally indifferent to your inner turmoil.
Oh, how wrong was that.
***
Flowers had always brought you peace and serenity.
Ever since you were a kid, your mom’s garden welcomed you with a warm embrace, shielding you from the cold touch of reality. Nothing could hurt you there; a few scratches were a fair price for solitude and tranquillity. Sitting under sakuras, amidst the vivid blossoms of magnolias, peonies, and tulips, quietly observing the nature you were surrounded by, you had learnt to see beauty in every soft petal, dew drop on the branches, foggy morning mist, or sunrays, shyly sipping through the branches.
Or maybe you were just a lone kid with a good heart and rich fantasy, and that gave roots to your need for escapism. Who knows.
You would like to think you still carried that fragile ability to see something precious even in the most mundane things, but you knew nothing would be as breathtaking as it appeared in childhood. Adulthood had long sharpened and hardened you into someone a child you would hardly recognise.
Sometimes you wondered what she would say when you looked at her now?
Your hands were still covered in stitches, calluses bubbled on your fingers, and the dirt seemed to be permanently itched under your nails, but the excitement from your gaze had long given in to exhaustion.
When did a person lose the sparkle that once ignited their entire being? When adulthood falls so hard on your shoulders that you don't even have a chance to take a breath?
You had never thought you would be one of these gloomy people. Especially surrounded by the beauty of nature, as you wished for as a kid. But fate had other plans for you: the florist’s job found you in the middle of rediscovering yourself once again, rather than you finding it, and the rose-coloured naive dreams about designing bouquets, arrangements, and organising events quickly shattered, leaving invisible scars that later would scream of burnt-out.
Surely, amidst the usual routine, you found your own moments of enjoyment. Designing was your main passion, and seeing the fruits of your work, happy smiles and gratitudes from the customers, was worth scars, hurt knees, and sprained wrists. You were glad to bring people warmth and steadiness in the middle of the storm, which some events might look like. Shame the rest of the job was way more demanding, mentally and especially physically.
You were cauterizing stems, which actually was Nobara's work, but Utahime seemed so worked up that morning that you didn't dare to poke a dragon any more and decided to shield your friend from the boss's wrath. When Nobara sauntered inside the room, you gave her a glance, already preparing yourself for an inevitable round of investigation.
"So," she drawled with an all-knowing smile, a mischievous glint flashed in her eyes as she leaned on the table next to you. Still not touching the stems. "How was your date yesterday? Tell me everything!"
Ah. Yes. Your date.
Partially, the reason you were late to work. Not even in the inappropriate sense you sometimes wanted it to be.
Your grip on the pruning shears tightened. You tried to deflect.
"Nothing worth talking—"
"Oh, come on! I've been dying to hear everything! Spill the tea!"
Nobara was really relentless when she was in a mood, so after a couple of seconds, you decided to end your suffering as quickly as possible. Like ripping the band-aid off.
"That was fucking awful."
You could swear Nobara's nose twitched like a hound that scented the blood. The corner of your mouth lifted in amusement.
"I swear, all these date apps, blind dates, so on and so forth are not my type of thing," you murmured and sighed, looking around the room for any clue that could've helped to solve a mystery of human hearts. "No, I am serious!"
You told her everything. How you matched with a guy on a goddamn Tinder, who seemed…adequate at first sight. That you felt like something almost clicked in that unexplainable way, when you just…know.
You really hoped after him and dozens of unfruitful attempts to meet your fate spontaneously, and let Cupid’s arrows pierce you, your dating apps would result in something. However, with every swipe, weird dialogues and unambiguous hints at the end of coffee dates, your confidence that the male loneliness epidemic had been really justified only grew further. Yesterday’s attempt should’ve been the last one before locking yourself in a tower (your apartments), with only a jester (another 2000’s romcom) to keep you company. Sounded like a perfect plan.
“Everything was fine, before that jerk started asking whether I was like these females—”
“Ew,” Nobara grimaced. “Females? That’s a red flag already. Might be one of these podcast guys. They are all beyond saving.”
“I know, right? Should’ve told him to fuck off right that instant. Anyway,” you snipped a poor rose’s stem with more force than necessary and continued. “These females who like to invite poor men to the fanciest restaurants and make them pay!”
Nobara gasped, thoroughly scandalized, handing you a lighter.
“He did not!”
“Oh yes, he did. And that’s not even the worst! Then he asked when I would be ready to quit my job, because his wife and the mother of his children shouldn’t work,” deep-buried irritation from the godforsaken dinner slowly started to bloom in your chest, so you didn’t even notice you were holding the lighter near the stem longer than usual. Luckily, Nobara intervened before you almost set the flowers on fire.
“Hey-hey, gimme that,” she snatched the possible tool of destruction from your hands and quickly put the stem in a vase. You blinked in surprise and slumped on the nearby chair with a long, exhausted sigh.
“Sorry.”
“It’s okay,” she flashed you a warm smile and then added, barely audible. “Was my task, anyway. So, you were saying?”
“Yeah, right,” you dragged your hand over your face, “after we left the restaurant, the asshole offered to give me a ride.” You drawled the last word, double entendre clear in your voice, as you stared at Nobara with a telling gaze.
She, of course, understood. Slowly dragged her gaze from the flowers and stared back at you. A murderous glint flashed in her eyes. The lighter only added to her dangerous image.
You sighed once again and murmured, staring at the ceiling. “So, that was it. What’s even worse is that he seemed so nice and gallant and—,” you gestured vaguely before dropping your hand in desperation. The next words felt like shards; tears stole your voice. “I am not cut out for the relationships, clearly. Maybe something is fundamentally wrong with me, I don’t know! All this staff”, you drew a sharp exhale and angrily wiped your nose, “is not for me. I am way better alone”.
Hearing your voice, so uncharacteristically broken, Nobara kneeled in front of you. She squeezed your hands.
“There’s nothing wrong with you. Believe me. All these men are assholes that do not even deserve the strand of your hair!”
“Uhm, Nobara, flowers there—”
“Ah, fuck these flowers,” she waved dismissively. “I’ve got a bigger potential catastrophe on my hands,” you snorted at her words, and a big, bright grin broke on her face. “You are smart, pretty, kind, and just so wonderful! These guys? They can suck my—”
“Nobara!”
“Okay, okay,” Nobara rolled her eyes and leaned in closer, her grin morphing into a conspirational smile. Your eyes narrowed playfully. “Tell you what? We finish here, and I am taking you to that new mall, finally making you buy that slutty dress I’ve been talking about for days, then we crash into my flat, order whatever you want, and re-watch “Love Actually” for the hundredth time! How’s that?”
You couldn’t help but smile genuinely at Nobara’s suggestion. It was impossible to brood with her around.
“That sounds perfect.”
Your thoughts drifted to the morning once again. Something in your guts was telling you that you were right initially. Or maybe it was more of a wishful thinking, because his image would haunt your mind every failed date and every sparkle you misguessed as the beginning of something new. And yesterday was particularly shitty.
You weren’t that obsessed with your ex-situationship. So what if even after all the months you had been apart (though you doubted whether you could truly say that; you never had been together), he was the only person who had lit up your whole world? Pfft. Every girl had a story like this.
At least you hoped so. Stupid Gojo.
Despite all the things that happened between you (and did not), you couldn’t bring yourself to hate Gojo. His stupid white hair, ivory under the sunlight; a stupid grin that broke his face anytime you would say something funny, and that chuckle, Gods, that fucking chuckle of his was your biggest reward and the strongest undoing.
Then you would remember the way he ended both of you, destroying the root before your love could even blossom, and the urge to punch him would multiply drastically.
Just like now.
You were in the middle of preparing the next customer’s order and racked your brains on where to put a couple of black tulips, so they would look presentable enough. Then you struggled with the overall composition, the wrapping paper didn’t work much, you cut your ring finger and —
Stop that.
You took a deep breath. In and out. In and out.
That was it. The effect Satoru Gojo had on you.
“I definitely should get over this guy,” you murmured in the void, not addressing anyone in particular, but Nobara heard it. She turned around sharply, the large heart box with roses dangerously swaying in her hands. Her narrowed eyes seemed to pierce right through your soul, through the pregnant pauses, creeping between the endless conversations about your love life, the sadness you carried in the unsaid words.
She saw the raging storm in your weary eyes, and her glare softened immediately, lips parting to tell you something only Nobara could tell — but in the moment, the doorbell in the main hall rang obnoxiously loudly, and she hurriedly headed upstairs.
Your gaze dropped to the bouquet. The black tulips in the middle caught your attention immediately. A satisfied grin tucked in the corner of your mouth.
The flowers were pretty. Gorgeous. The fragile beauty of nature wrapped in the softest of touches. Nature’s most delicate gift. They didn’t hurt anyone. Not in the way people do, at least.
Nobara’s voice called you suddenly, pulling you back to reality. Your brows furrowed slightly: her voice sounded strangely strained. You headed up as well.
“My mother loves black tulips.”
“Really? Huh. That’s rare. Not everyone even thinks about what flowers they like.”
“Nah, she thinks about everything. And more. Like you.”
“Do you think this ribbon fits well, or should I find the lacy one? I am not quite sure.”
Your gaze flicked to Nobara, and then—
You rooted to your spot. The poor bouquet almost fell from your weakened hands, but that was the last thing that was on your mind.
Not when Gojo Satoru was staring back at you.
His eyes searched for every expression on your face, every bat of the eyelashes, every flicker of colour in your eyes, every twitch of your lips, soaking it up with the intensity that could rival the wanderer's thirst in a desert. Looking, dazing, gawking, drinking in your features. Like he wasn’t sure whether he should grab and kiss you till he got his fill or just admire from afar, like the most exquisite flower under the glass.
He stared. And stared. And stared.
And gods, you stared back.
His hair caught the sunlight, giving him an ethereal look, and you swore to God, the blue of his eyes brightened even more, though now his gaze seemed to carry more weight. You remembered them flashing with the charm and the mischief; it was still there, though you couldn’t help but notice adulthood setting into his features. Your gaze drifted over his frame, clad in a dark blue suit (probably worth your month’s rent), greedily fixing the broadness of his shoulders, the tight pull of the fabric on the chest, the little mole between his collarbones, peeking out from the unbuttoned shirt.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
“Why was he here?” An anxious thought beat against your ribcage with a deafening thump-thump, suddenly twice its usual size. “He wasn’t supposed to be here! And found me!”
Deep down, you knew. Of course, Gojo could. You moved to another city, not the other hemisphere.
But it was Kyoto. A fucking metropolis!
Gojo was from Kyoto.
You fixed all the details almost unconsciously, committing his features to your memory as if he were about to vanish right this second. Neither of you dared to move; silence wrapped around you like a thick blanket, trapping you in its suffocating confines.
Nobara’s gaze flicked between Gojo and you, but luckily, she didn’t ask anything. Must’ve been obvious.
“You go back. I’ll handle it,” she whispered to you, and the strange spell cast on your room was dispelled. You gave her a quick, unsure grin.
“It’s okay. Don’t worry.”
Nobara opened her mouth to protest, but your pleading look silenced her. With the last suspicious look at Gojo, she disappeared into another room.
You stood behind the register, trying to look as professional as ever. Trembling in your hands and the waver in your voice were a dead giveaway, though. Gojo’s eyes briefly flickered to your frame. His eyes softened almost imperceptibly.
“So, long time no see, Gojo. How’s that been?”
Gojo grimaced slightly but didn’t comment on you using his government name. Instead, he just stepped closer to the register, as if unsure whether he could approach you.
That startled you. Gojo was never about hesitance in any way.
“It’s been…okay,” he answered vaguely, and you couldn’t help but notice his timbre deepened. Tone smoothened, became richer. The Kyoto accent was back. You remembered how he desperately tried to sound more like a Tokyo guy.
Stop.
What on Earth were you thinking?
Focus.
“We’ve decided to reopen the Kyoto branch, and Gramps wanted to make me in charge of it.” You felt his gaze on you, and its intensity sent shivers down your spine. You nervously tried to issue him a receipt, but the terminal seemed to stop working at the most inconvenient moment ever. Heat slowly crept your cheeks.
"... and I've got a lot of things to look through and deal with a bunch of old fossils," Gojo continued, grimacing at the mention of old men who were probably a part of the shareholders' board. You noticed he told about himself rather vaguely, almost indifferently, as his own life couldn't feel less interesting.
You dreaded Gojo's next question. Don't ask, don't ask, don't ask—
"And how have you been?"
A strange kind of desperation laced Gojo's voice. As if he knew he had no right to ask that, but just could not help it. His Adam's apple bobbed with effort, and if you paid more attention, you would've noticed the flex of his fingers.
You forced a strained smile, your heart did a stupid little flip.
"I...am doing alright," you gestured vaguely around the shop as if it could've answered his question. However, Gojo's gaze was glued to you, searching, observing, examining the fatigue that was deeply etched into your features, the light dust of pink on your cheeks, a nervous smile hiding at the corner of your lips, and a small cut on your chin. You were even more beautiful than he remembered. Was it ever possible?
"It's for your mom, right?" you blurted out before even thinking, earning a surprised look from Gojo. Your eyes widened; probably, he thought you were a stalker or just a lunatic for asking that.
Nervously, you explained, fingers fumbling with the ribbon. "I remember you told your mom liked black tulips." Gods, why did you ask that? Is there really a kind of question for your ex-situationship at your first meeting?
Your heart beat anxious staccato against your chest. You prayed the ground would swallow you whole as Gojo remained silent.
Slowly, his initial shock and confusion melted into an undeniable affection, and he smiled, a soft, quiet smile that reached his eyes, crinkling at the corners.
You released a breath you didn't know you were holding.
"Yeah. She still does. That's for her. I...," Gojo's smile faltered a little, "she flew from Tokyo for some business, and I am gonna meet her. I asked my assistant to pick a flower shop close to it. With good reviews, of course,” his gaze quickly swept the surroundings, landing on various arrangements, bouquets and vases. Strange tightness coloured his tone, and you narrowed your eyes in suspicion.
"Ah. I see."
"Yeah."
So, he didn't stalk you. Good to hear.
A loose strand of hair fell over your forehead, and you put it back with an annoyed sigh. Gojo's gaze followed it with a tender ache; you thought you imagined it.
Gojo's lips parted slightly, and then he abruptly closed his mouth again. A little frown formed between his brows.
"Listen, I know it's not the right moment, but I would like —"
You swallowed anxiously, but in that second, his phone rang. Whoever that was, you were beyond grateful for a little respite after everything that had just happened.
Gojo Satoru.
Your something. Your almost everything. Your childhood wish for a friend. Your teenage longing for love. Your yearning to be seen.
Your invisible string draped over months and cities. Forever snapped.
Or?
"Ijichi, I told you already," Gojo's voice came out way too harsher than it was with you; a mask slipping back on his face, "I'm busy with something right now."
Annoyance flushed in his eyes as he listened to a hasty voice on the other side of the phone. He pinched the bridge of his nose in irritation.
"Uh-huh. I got it. Be in five minutes."
The anxious voice, Ijichi's, as you presumed, mumbled something back, but Gojo didn’t pay attention.
Silence wrapped around you once again, unsure and hesitant. You took a deep breath, on the verge of blurting something about maintenance or a sudden supply of birthday cards, or anything, before Gojo's voice cut through the mess that your head was, softer than you ever expected.
"It was nice seeing you."
You rehearsed words suddenly seemed meaningless. A look of surprise crossed your face at his words, and before you could articulate your confusion in somehow coherent words, Gojo already left with a curt nod. The bell jingled obnoxiously loud, and you slowly took a deep breath.
Gojo's cologne was still lingering in the air, enveloping you in his scent.
Lost and confused, you slumped in the nearest chair behind the register, brain short-circuiting on what had just happened. Something you had never dared to think about in your dreams. Gojo was tucked in the deepest corner of your heart; you rarely allowed yourself to truly reminisce about what you were and never became.
And you couldn't shake the feeling he wanted to ask you something before the call.
Or were you just making things up? Wishful thinking?
***
The day when you met Gojo was as clear as ever in your mind. No. When Gojo met you. Really met.
You had seen Satoru Gojo all the time at the campus: his frosty white hair impossible to miss, laugh booming loudly in the university halls, enough for people to turn their heads, all sharp grins and snarky remarks — confidence walked hand in hand with him as he basked in the attention. He moved like a person who had never forced himself to be small. To fit into some box. People orbited around him, inevitably driven closer by his overwhelming presence: planets pulled closer by the gravity of the Sun.
You, on the other hand, were one of the satellites, surfing through the vast expanse of university life.
Naturally, your paths with Gojo didn't cross very often: sure, he was in your periphery all the time, effortlessly catching your attention with his jokes and... everything; you shared a couple of classes and had a bit of awkward exchanges in the library over behavioural theory of management. You weren't even surprised: for all Gojo's lack of discipline in the classes, he really had a sharp mind.
Sometimes he gave you a bright grin in greeting, to which you answered with a short nod, putting on an air of confidence, despite the frantic beat of your heart and the speed at which your palms got sweaty.
So, as it was etched in the laws of the universe, you quietly observed Gojo from afar, not daring to collide with his orbit more than needed. Burning in the Sun's light would bring long-lasting scars.
Oh, how right you were.
This shouldn't have happened. He should've just walked past you like many others on that rainy day, when you were standing right next to your stall, teeth chattering as the coldness embraced you in its harsh hands. Your gaze quickly swept the surroundings — the majority of students had already left their standings. No wonder, with the weather like that, who would've been foolish enough to stay at the volunteer fair?
You were. Though you preferred to think of yourself as responsible and kind.
A deep chuckle pierced through the monotonous cacophony of the rain, and inevitably, your gaze landed on Gojo. He was hanging out at his friend's stall, helping to put things in the boxes. Geto, if you remembered it correctly. Surprisingly, he was also helping one of the city's animal shelters. You tried not to dwell on his charity box, which showed way more promise than yours.
You were so focused on not freezing to death at that point that you didn't notice Gojo walking to your stall. The bag with his volleyball (because of course, Gojo was ridiculously good at everything) uniform hit his leg with every step.
He stood right in front of it, a curious grin tugging at the corner of his lips. He looked ridiculously handsome, even with a silly umbrella.
Gojo kept examining the various brochures about the shelter, pictures of cats and dogs, seeking their homes. His gaze softened imperceptibly.
Meanwhile, your world just tilted off its axis.
"Hi," you gave Gojo a nervous smile.
He looked up immediately and hummed in acknowledgement. "Hi."
An awkward silence fell upon you. Your brain short-circuited as you anxiously tried to scramble for the right words, but they just flew out of your mind right then. Nothing. Blank screen. Error.
Gojo didn't seem to notice your mental struggles, still glued to the stall.
Just when you were about to finally introduce him to the shelter you had been volunteering for, he suddenly reached for the wallet and threw bills in the charity box. A lot, one would say.
You blinked. Blinked again. Maybe you were hallucinating from standing all day in the cold.
"What the hell are you doing?" You blurted out, and deep crimson painted your cheeks in embarrassment.
What the hell were you doing?
Who on Earth would say something like that to a person, willingly donating to your stall?
You hoped he wasn’t very petty.
Instead, his white brows knitted in confusion. He took a step back to examine the box before dragging his gaze, the brightest of blues, to you.
"Donating, I guess?"
"Yeah, no shit," you scoffed. Backing wasn't an option by this time. "That's like...a lot."
A look of realisation crossed Gojo's face, before a cracking bright grin, as if the Sun finally peeked through the heavy clouds. Suddenly, the cold didn't bother you as much as before.
"Ah, it's nothing. Really," he drawled lazily and nodded at the photos again. "Besides, it's only for the good."
He was kind of insane, you thought. But hey, who would've said no to the charity money? Especially if you did less than expected at this fair.
"Then... thank you," you breathed out in relief, but immediately grimaced at how empty and basic it sounded. Quickly, you added. "Really, thank you! It would do a lot for the shelter, and —"
You reached for a simple box, adorned with a colourful ribbon, resting among others, to gift him. Nothing much, but you spent your whole evening preparing them.
"There's a postcard, a cap and a mug!" You shrugged casually, fingers toying with the ribbon, and handed the box to Gojo. "A token of appreciation, if you wish".
He examined the box with a sharp look, and for the moment, you felt really silly. His long fingers curled around the box, brushing briefly against yours — a warm touch, despite the rain, sending sparks of electricity up your arm.
Did Gojo notice that too?
He almost left, and you almost could breathe in relative calm, when something must've popped into his mind, and he abruptly stopped in his tracks.
"Wait...are you this girl from the management class? The one with the old Gakuganji? Sitting on the left side, third row?" His eyes briefly scanned your face. You felt like a butterfly under his piercing gaze. "We talked about Mayo's behaviour theory in the library, remember?"
Remember. Did you remember.
Did you remember him.
The carefully constructed unreachable image of Gojo in your head seemed to have its first cracks. You had never thought he would ask if anyone remembered him. You had never thought he would remember your place at the lecture. The Sun didn’t simply bother to pay attention to the satellites.
Gojo might’ve interpreted your stunned silence in a completely different way.
“I mean, your hair is…different. And the hood,” he gestured vaguely, and you quickly put the lone strand behind your ear.
“Yeah, uhm, that’s…that’s me.”
Gojo didn’t answer this, studying your face with intensity that might’ve pierced through your entire being. As if he were searching for an answer to a particularly tricky question only you could give him.
Or maybe it was just an effect of his eyes — a shade that certainly shouldn’t exist in the world, putting all the world’s blues to shame. He was still stuck around your stall, as if glued. As if he didn’t want to leave.
You didn’t even dare to think about it.
“Why are you alone? Aren’t the stalls supposed to have two volunteers? Suguru told me.”
You sighed, reminiscing about how Nobara almost coughed her lungs out today, but her stubborn ass somehow insisted on coming with you. Eventually, it ended with you locking her up in the dorm room.
“They are. I should’ve been there with my friend. She fell ill.”
A mischievous glint flashed in Gojo’s eyes as he arched his brow. “Really fell?”
“Really, really. Nobara’s not like that.” You scoffed at his implications and crossed your hands on your chest.
Gojo’s face sobered. “Nobara? Kugisaki? The lead cheerleader?”
You nodded.
He nodded back. “Yeah, she’s not.”
Your brows furrowed in confusion. What the hell was going on there? Why did he, Gojo Satoru, out of all people, stay by your lonely stall and ask you weird questions?
Creepy.
Gojo’s gaze flicked to the sky, just as the deafening sound of thunder boomed out of a sudden, then back to your face. The rainy pit-patter against the stall’s shade intensified, pulling you out of the strange daze to hastily pack the stuff back. The framed pictures landed in the box with awkward thuds as you threw them in the box. How you were going to take all of the stuff back to the dorm remained a full mystery.
You picked two of them with a grunt, and the hair fell on your forehead, obscuring the view. The box on the top dangerously slid down, earning a string of curses and a couple of desperate groans from you, when a pair of strong hands suddenly took them from your weakened hands. The rain didn’t help the situation at all.
You almost slipped, losing balance, but quickly stabilized yourself, gripping the same very pair of hands. There was no objection. From the person, obviously.
Gojo’s gaze pinned you to the ground when you looked up. His messy white fringe fell on his forehead (you felt a strange itch in your fingers to brush it away), and some strands, wet from the rain, stuck to his forehead. The soft brightness of his eyes was gone, replaced with something darker and more intense, you weren’t sure you could name it. You just stared back and wondered if the lost people in the oceans saw that exact shade of blue before drowning in their unforgiving waves.
You never saw Gojo that close, obviously. You didn’t know his lashes were so long and soft, fluttering with every breath he took; his nose was crooked just a fraction, and pale freckles dusted his cheeks.
You swallowed, not daring to step back, and just froze like a deer in the headlights.
Maybe that was the way goddesses crafted the invisible strings. A whim, a caprice of fate, looking down at the people and deciding to grant their hearts the greatest wishes, just to weave them forever into the endless canvas of the universe.
Little did you know that it was he who got rooted to the very spot. Froze. Stilled. Whatever. Gojo’s entire universe had just fallen off the axis and flew towards hell. The black hole, one might say. With such clarity that he was, honestly, surprised that no one saw it.
That was the day when he first saw you. Really saw. The lone girl near the animal shelter’s stall, who observed people dismissively walking past her with an understanding and forgiving look. Whose entire face lit up when she talked about the rescued dogs and cats, to the people who would actually come up to the stall. The kind smile that transformed her face into a painting of the finest craft as she gifted the gift boxes. Who stubbornly chose to stay at the fair in the rain and cold. All alone, because her friend got sick. And, naturally, he walked to you, drawn like a moth to the flame.
A shot of electricity shook through Gojo’s body. The ground dropped away from his feet. The biggest fuckass tsunami hit him and filled his lungs with you, you, you.
That was scary. That was dangerous. You were dangerous.
The sudden clap of thunder above pulled you out of this strange haze. You stepped back; Gojo blinked — a storm in his eyes gave way to a warm sea breeze.
“They are heavy. I’ll walk you to the dorm.”
Your cheeks heated up, and you quickly babbled.
“There’s no need, really. I am okay—”
You almost flinched at the particularly deafening sound of the thunder and threw your hands up, answering with a weak grin.
“Seems like I do not have much of a choice.”
Gojo only chuckled.
His shoulder lightly brushed against yours the whole time to the dorm, sending light sparks up your arm even through the hoodie. You noticed how he subconsciously fell into step with you. Gojo gave you his umbrella, with some Digimon on it, and at first, you tried to shield him from the raindrops as well, but Gojo was so tall that your arm quickly hurt.
None of you said anything, besides light humming from Gojo’s side, and it felt strangely…nice. You expected desperately scrapping for words to fill the uncomfortable silence between you, but there was no need. Maybe you still existed in that small babble, where time stopped and held you in its tight embrace.
“So, that’s me,” you nodded at the doors and made a grab for the boxes.
Gojo frowned. “They are heavy. Come on, let’s get inside.”
Nobara certainly would ask you questions about how Gojo ended up in their room. You realized that you didn’t want to share this strange moment of...whatever it was with Gojo, with anyone else yet. Besides, she was still sick.
You forced a smile. “Thank you a lot, but I am fine. Really. And Nobara’s sick, so…”
Gojo blinked in confusion, but seeing you weren’t going to step back, nodded. He handed you the boxes back, which made you almost double over under their weight.
“See you at the lectures,” he waved to you, a charming grin curled up on his lips, and you found yourself smiling back. For a couple of moments, you watched his tall figure retreating, mulling over whether you should ask Gojo what the hell was going on, thank him properly or just say anything. You were so nervous, you could barely hear your own thoughts with the blood roaring in your ears.
Your gaze quickly dropped to the box, the shelter’s logo immediately caught your eye, and the idea popped into your mind so fast your anxious mind had hardly registered it.
“Hey, Gojo!”
He stepped in his tracks and turned right that instant at the sound of your voice. Like he had been subconsciously wishing for it. His eyes seemed so bright, burning you with their electric blue.
God. What had you done? What were you going to do now? Your suggestion seemed so utterly stupid. Maybe Gojo would get tired of your hesitance and walk away?
“Yes?”
Oh, fuck. He was still standing there, head tilted in curiosity. You swallowed. There was no backing down now. Your grip on the boxes tightened.
“Come to the animal shelter this weekend,” you blurted out. His eyes widened slightly, but you continued. “Your donation was the biggest. There’s a prize for it!”
For a long, painful second, you were sure he would come up with some polite excuse to decline it. To your biggest surprise, a big grin broke on his face.
“I’ll be there. See you.”
You watched Gojo walking away, still not quite believing what had just happened.
The days leading up to the weekend were filled with nervous excitement. Even when Gojo came for your number to text you about it, anxiety was still buzzing deep in your bones.
Turned out there was no reason for it.
He actually showed up. That time. And many others.
You met at the shelter countless times — Gojo was more than welcome there. Your awkward, occasional conversations in the library turned into full study sessions, when both of you were glad to just share a bit of space. You learnt each other’s coffee orders by heart, favourite books, movies, shared favourite quotes, and had endless conversations under the starry sky about everything and nothing all at once. He would usually point at the bunch of stars and come up with the most ridiculous constellations and histories about them. You couldn’t remember a single moment when your cheeks didn’t hurt from smiling with him, a warm feeling blossomed in your chest every time his lips curved into a soft, gentle grin, the one you had already learnt was reserved only for you. All your camera film was filled with him, but you never complained.
You had never felt anything like that before; your heart was filled to the top with unspent, unrestrained love, so, naturally, it overflowed and flooded everything.
Maybe that was it. Maybe you loved Gojo so fiercely and desperately that it scared him. You never questioned or tried to define your relationship with him — you both were so happy that you thought that taste of honey would linger on your lips forever, living in the warm, miraculous daze forever. For Gojo, whose entire life was carefully built around expectations — the grades always had to be perfect, his future predetermined, written up to the smallest detail the moment he was born, the weight of his family's prestige settling heavily on his shoulders — being with you was a breath of fresh air. He didn’t have to put on any front: a star student, a team captain, the Gojo heir…he was just Satoru with you. And maybe he got a little bit too used to the fact that you simply took everything he offered to you, without asking for more. Without demanding. Without expecting. And when his heart started to jump every time he saw you, his chest tightened with a loving, tender ache at the sight of your smile and all his thoughts gravitated to you wherever he was, Gojo knew he was gone. Completely.
He didn’t know how to love someone that much. Selflessly, unconditionally, handing his heart on his palm. The painful vulnerability that came with your love stripped him bare, to the bone, exposed the deepest corners of his heart and soul — something he didn’t even dare to look at himself. And that scared him. No amount of hiding his horror of being loved behind the usual mask of a fool could hide it. So he did the best he could for both of you. At least, that was what he thought.
Left you.
He sincerely thought that was him protecting you from the inevitable break-up. He didn’t know how to love. He didn’t know how to be loved.
Turned out Gojo just protected himself.
Slowly, your dates shortened, turning into quick meetings and then vanished completely with his weak excuses. Calls postponed, messages left on delivered. He gradually slipped away from your life, leaving a hole so big you didn’t know whether it was even possible to fill with something, someone else who wasn’t him. He ripped your heart and took it with him.
What was even worse was that despite everything, you couldn’t even bring yourself to hate him. Despite taking away your air with him. You cried yourself to sleep on countless nights, threw yourself into studies, volunteering, working, and everything that could even remotely help you to find closure. You were so lucky to have Nobara by your side — wordlessly, she picked up the shards of your shattered heart and carefully glued them together.
Over time, you grew tired of seeing your own sad, tear-filled gaze in the mirror, the sorrow in the bags under your eyes, hollow cheeks — solitude etched into your soul. You didn’t deserve it. If he weren’t the one, then be it. You couldn’t let a man define all your future.
With strange calmness and melancholy, you blocked him. Moved to another city. Got to work in a flower shop, something that you discussed with Gojo a lot of times. Took up hobbies. Squeezed yourself into bustling, busy Kyoto life as much as you could. Met other people, despite how much you wanted to hide in your shell.
Got over Gojo. At least, you thought you did, safe for times when your mind naturally went to reminisce about him after failed dates; for the fingerprints of him were all over the pages of your life.
Only for everything to return after meeting him today.
***
Saying that Gojo didn’t cross your mind the next days would be a lie.
You wish you were a liar.
Why did he happen to visit your flower shop? Was it really random?
And more importantly: would he visit again?
The one part of you, young, naive and endlessly romantic, built sandcastles and told you that she wanted it to happen. The other, sharpened by adulthood and the cruelty of the world, destroyed them without batting an eye and told you not to be foolish. The second voice sounded suspiciously like Nobara’s.
You were too scared to trust the girl with the dreams way bigger than her, living in a fairytale, where princes would always find their way to princesses, fight all the dragons and have their happily-ever-afters.
You couldn’t afford to think about it. Closing off, guarding your heart like Cerberus wasn’t an option either, so you did what any reasonable, mature grown-up would do: bury yourself in work.
The large shipment of items, flowers and vases among them, had just been delivered to the shop, before one of your most frequent customers’ jubilee, so you were in dire need of all hands available. As a cruel joke of fate, Nobara was on the other side of the city, and Utahime argued with the suppliers, who messed up an important order again; her angry voice cut through the relative serenity and silence in the shop. Honestly, totally understandable.
Your back hurt from standing for God knew how long, a band-aid on your left hand had already asked for mercy, and the strain in your neck screamed for relief. You tried not to pay attention to the tightness in your shoulders; the exhaustion gave you a much-needed escape from your own mind.
The bell chimed in greeting; your head snapped up to greet a client, only to be met with a familiar flash of snowy hair.
Your heart skipped a beat, and light pink dusted your cheeks.
The little girl sheepishly peeked out of the window in her sandcastle.
“Didn’t expect you to see you here, yet so soon,” you mumbled in greeting, hastily wiping your hands off the apron and, unconsciously, clasping them behind your back. For some reason, you didn’t want Gojo to have a look at your scratches. Not when he was dressed to kill. Probably you.
You dragged your gaze from his figure and stood behind the register. The familiar position gave much-needed strength to deal with the headache Gojo Satoru was. Like you were the one in control.
You didn’t quite recognize your voice, all sharp and business-like, when you asked him.
“How can I help you?”
Gojo didn’t answer you straight away. His gaze swept the surroundings — scattered boxes, vases waiting to be filled, a bunch of balloons — until it landed on you. Something tender and endlessly fragile flashed in his eyes, but he quickly masked it.
“I am here to talk to you and your boss, Miss Iori. I’ve been told I have to wait a bit —”
“...and if you are gonna sell me ranunculi instead of peonies once again, when I specifically asked for the fucking peonies,” you both turned your heads towards Utahime’s office, her voice gradually rising in pitch as she spoke. You swallowed. “I am gonna stick them all up in your ass and —”
You quickly exchanged glances with Gojo. His lips curled into a full-blown grin, the amusement dancing on his face, so unrestrained that you forgot what all the fuss about was.
“She’s a little busy now,” you chuckled in return.
“I see,” Gojo finally turned to you, with the same smile he once stole your heart, and leaned on the register, his long fingers lazily drumming against the surface.
“Actually, it’s even better. I want to talk to you first,” Gojo’s voice, soothing around the edges, dipped to that tone you were all familiar with. Deep and sweet, thick as honey, dying on your tongue in dizzying aftertaste.
“You see, we’re going to have an event soon, and among everything we need florists, obviously.” He flashed you a quick smile, but seeing confusion written all over your face, quickly schooled himself. Gojo glanced around the shop once again: the holiday postcards seemed to pique his interest way more than your reaction, then his gaze drifted to Utahime’s office once again, and finally, he dared to look at your face again.
“And?”
“I want you to be the main designer of the event.”
Gojo’s words didn’t catch you completely off guard. Deep down, you wanted that day not to be a strange accident. Longed to see him again. Needed to allow yourself a moment of foolishness.
A beat of silence passed between you, charged with the heaviness of unspoken words and feelings, deep buried inside to a point you doubt whether you both had even happened. Otherwise, why didn’t you ask him straight away to find someone else? Go from your sight and never return?
Why didn’t you have the strength to resist his gravity? Was it even possible? To deny the Sun its power, when the burns still echoed in your heart with raging ache?
Gojo’s eyes were glued to your face, desperately seeking any clue his expression might hand him. His voice dropped to a desperate whisper.
“I am not going to force you into anything. If you don’t want to deal with this,” the sudden wavering crept into his voice; a grimace briefly crossed his face, “dealing with me, I understand that. But I want to ask you not to do it. You’ll have all the creative freedom you want, all the communication will be handled by my assistant, and we won’t even meet, unless you want it. I promise. Just…just don’t reject the offer because of me. Please.”
Your gaze narrowed, steel slipping into it. As much as the sapphires of his eyes urged you to surrender, to capitulate, to yield, your dignity screamed in objection.
“Why are you so adamant about this? Why do you want me to do this?”
His lips curled into a small knowing smile, bitter around the edges. His finger lightly tapped on the bunch of receipts, eyes drifting to the forgotten band-aid on your hand. The tightness in your shoulders didn’t go unnoticed either.
“I think you need it. To feel in your place once again.”
How.
How did he manage to dig into your chest and rip your heart, revealing all the quiet battles you had been fighting? After all those years? Making you seen, even now?
But why did he think he still had a chance to tear you apart? To open apart old scars, the ones you were slowly stitching together?
The sudden anger bloomed bright in your chest, dipping all your words in venom.
“You promised me a lot of things, Gojo. I don’t quite remember you keeping them.”
A sparkle of icy fury flashed in Gojo’s eyes, and his jaw tightened. You didn’t allow yourself to flinch as he stared right into your eyes — the swords clashing in a deadly dance.
You dug your nails into your palm hard enough to leave crescents.
“Come on, say something. Give me a reason to hate you.”
The anger in his eyes slowly melted into an ache until guilt flooded the blue of them. Gojo stepped back with a sigh. His fingertips twitched as if he wanted to reach you, but then stopped halfway.
“I know I had hurt you. And believe me, this is not how I imagined us having a conversation like this,” Gojo’s gaze caressed your features, memorizing them, as if it would be his last chance to see you at all. Miraculously, you hold yourself from giving in to the apology and regret that laced his voice. You weren’t ready to face everything once again. Your heart was still bleeding for him. “If you want to talk about it — “
A subtle shake. “I do not.”
“Okay. Okay. I understand. Then just think about what I said. Please.”
Your gaze dropped. You wanted to hate him. You wanted to look right into his face and say “fuck you”, among many other things you were desperate to cry out. To scream, to push, to take him apart like he once did to you.
But you couldn’t.
You didn’t notice Gojo left the shop until the annoying doorbell chirped right through the haze of your mind.
Exhausted, you dragged your hand over your face and slumped into the nearby chair, deep in thought.
***
Utahime didn’t urge you to anything, and while you were grateful for that, the answer she hoped for was visible in the tight set of her shoulders as she looked through the bills, the tired sigh that would escape her every time she dealt with the suppliers, not to mention the rude customers. The jubilee was the last big event before the usual dry period.
Your inner scales gradually tipped towards Gojo’s offer more and more, with every strain in your neck, headache pounding with deafening force at your temples and endless scratches on your palms.
One evening, with you and Nobara crashing on your couch, you finally felt the scales tipped in Gojo’s favour. As the days blurred into a limitless working routine, where the only light was his words, whispering in the back of your exhausted mind with more and more annoying insistence, you found yourself eventually thinking about his offer more and more.
“So, you gonna text him or what?” Nobara mused, swirling the wine in her glass, sitting with her legs tucked. The Friday evening downed at you with a startling surprise.
You mindlessly twirled a business card that Gojo left for you at the register the day he visited the shop. Strangely, it completely slipped out of your mind. A quick brush of fingers against the plastic — an elegantly written GOJO SATORU caught the light — until it hit the coffee table. Nobara reached for it to examine.
“Whoa, as cocky as ever.”
“Well, he’s the CEO or whoever,” you murmured dismissevely and took a gulp from your own glass. The liquid bloomed bitterly at the tip of your tongue, and you put it away with a sigh.
Even wine didn’t help. You slowly tilted your head back until it hit the back of the couch.
“Okay, let’s look at this from the other side,” Nobara discarded the card somewhere and sat cross-legged. You cracked one eye open, and the sight of her business-like expression almost made a groan slip your lips. “What’s the worst that can happen?”
When Nobara was in a mood, nothing in the world could stop her. You slowly straightened, but her next words made you choke on your own breath.
“It’s not like he’s gonna confess that he was a massive jerk and ask for your hand in marriage.”
You spluttered, heat rising your cheeks. “Nobara!”
The small decorative throw pillow landed on her face with the precision of a sniper. She huffed and rolled her eyes.
“Just saying. Not like that’s ever happening.”
A silence fell upon both of you, while you chewed on your bottom lip, musing over Gojo’s last words, which still lingered in your heart with a dull ache.
Nobara narrowed her eyes and cocked her brow in a silent question. You swallowed and gave in with a sigh.
“He tried to talk to me that day,” you paused, choosing the next words, fully aware of Nobara’s glaring daggers in you. “Just admitted he hurt me, but I wasn’t ready for this whole conversation. Like, at all. You know what I mean, right?”
You slowly dragged your gaze to her, only to meet her softened gaze, full of sympathy. Wordlessly, she opened her arms, and you fell into her embrace. A quiet sniffle escaped you as you buried your face in her hoodie. Still without saying anything, Nobara brushed a lone hair strand behind your ear.
She indeed knew what you meant.
When she held you in her arms, after Gojo ghosted you, brushed off like you never ever happened in his life. When she was by your side without even asking, dragging you back to the world, where Gojo was no longer a part of you. When she helped you to stand on your own once again.
Nobara knew. You knew. Creeping between the cracks of things you never said.
“I don’t know what to do.” Your voice got muffled by the fabric, but your best friend heard you all good. She patted your head with a soft, melancholic smile and murmured.
“I think you do, sweetheart.”
You went still in her arms, before mumbling something affirmative, and pulled back. Your fingers nervously trembled as you typed Gojo’s number.
“I won’t let him get me this time.”
Nobara watched you with a serious face, chin resting in her palm, elbow digging into the plush of the throw pillows. God, she hoped you were right. Not like her, or you would survive another heartbreak by Gojo Satoru. This time, it might come crushing even more.
She moved closer, your thighs brushing against each other’s, as she peeked at your screen. Her eyes briefly scanned the text before giving an approving nod.
You exhaled sharply before anxiously hitting the send button.
The three dots appeared in your chat alarmingly fast. Like Gojo had been chained to his phone, waiting for your text. You slowly exchanged glances with Nobara.
“He’s typing something.”
“Thanks, Sherlock.”
You threw her an annoyed glance. “Shut it.”
Not even a minute had passed since your own message when the phone dinged with a notification from Gojo.
Gojo
22:54
Hi. Honestly, I didn’t expect you to text at all. Of course, my offer is still up and will be. Told you it’s yours. We can meet on Monday to discuss the details, if you’re free.
“Oh, he’s so sweet, it’s disgusting,” Nobara fake gagged and reached for her long forgotten wine. You didn’t dignify it with a response.
You
22:56
yeah, monday works for me. what about 2 p.m.?
Gojo
22:56
Totally fine. See you then.
You watched three dots appearing and disappearing in the chat, and your grip on the phone tightened with each passing second.
Gojo
22:58
Good night.
Your heart did a stupid flip, totally not needed and surely out of place. You shouldn’t have this reaction to Gojo Satoru. Shouldn’t!
With a sigh, you blocked the phone and stared up at the ceiling, mulling over what Monday would bring to you.
***
The clock in the Gojo’s reception barely hit 12 a.m., when his secretary, a tall blonde woman with a polite smile, invited you into his office. Honestly, you regretted not asking to meet you at least at a neutral territory the moment you stepped into the cold, pristine walls of the Six Eyes Corp. The ride in the elevator felt endless, your anxiety rising with each passing second, and the sight of an entire horde of managers and support staff running around didn’t help.
Corporation shmorporation.
Wait. Would you become another cog in this soulless capitalism machine the moment you agree to Gojo’s offer?
You didn’t have time to think through it properly, opening the door to his office.
It was bigger than the reception, but not as enormous as you imagined. The first thing that caught your eye was the panoramic windows, with the entire Kyoto spread before your eyes. The walls were adorned with beautiful paintings: you squinted your eyes to examine them, which probably belonged to the brush of some niche Japanese artist. His workplace was surprisingly neat, especially given the way you remembered Gojo, when you both were…were. The laptop, a bunch of papers to be signed, pens in a holder, and…wait for a damn minute.
A mug. A simple mug just near a stapler. Slightly cracked, the logo rubbed off, but the image of a winking cat was still visible.
Blood pounded in your ears, while you tried to get a grip on your anxious thoughts. You took a tentative step closer to observe it better, but there was no point in it. It really was the same mug you gifted him at that fair. A prize for the biggest donation. His donation. Gojo kept it in his room, and you drank from the mug more times than you could count. He would often joke that it was his favourite trophy.
And he kept it. On his table, in his office, where he ruled the world that this corporation was. Why?
Why? Did he think of you? Did he recall that fair? The shelter?
Ironically, Gojo didn’t notice you. His back was facing you as he talked to someone over the phone, looking at the city beneath his feet. You allowed yourself a moment of shameless gawking at his back in the crisp white of a button-up. His voice was clipped, words short, and exhaustion laced his words. You felt bad for intruding this place for a moment, especially when his shoulders dropped, as he ran fingers through the hair: the clear white of it catching the light in a way that stole your breath. The sleeves of the shirt were rolled up, exposing the map of the veins on his forearms, muscles slightly flexing with every move. You swallowed and quickly looked away.
He finally acknowledged you with a slight tilt of his head and dismissed the call with a quick “Not now. Busy,” gesturing for you to take a chair.
You carefully sat, fingers fumbling with the strap of a bag to get your notebook, as Gojo slumped in his chair, which screamed The Big Boss™. He hooked his thumb in the tie with irritation to loosen it, and your gaze briefly flicked there. You smiled sympathetically.
“Rough day?”
“A bit.”
Your grip on the notebook tightened. “We can reschedule, I don’t mind.”
Gojo’s white brows knitted together in confusion, and he immediately straightened up. “No, why would we? I am peachy.”
Your shoulders dropped in a shrug. “Okay.”
“Wanna some coffee or tea? I hope Mei Mei offered you something.”
“Ah, yeah, I’ve just had coffee. Thanks.” Yes. Coffee was a totally plausible excuse for your fidgeting.
“I see.”
Inevitably, you kept sneaking glances at Gojo, pulled closer by the gravity. He twirled the pan between his long, pale fingers, checking something on the laptop, his eyes briefly scanning the screen. Then suddenly he looked up, catching you red-handed just mid-gawking. You briefly dropped your gaze back to the notebook, while his lips curled into a little smug grin. You cleared your throat, the business-like mask slipping on your face.
“So, I’ll need to know what exactly the kind of event it is going to be, a venue, and a budget at first. If you have something specific in mind for the design, I’ll also be glad to hear.”
Gojo’s grin softened as he listened to your questions, head tilted, a dreamy gaze caressing your features. You looked so charming, sitting all serious in his office.
Only when you cocked your brow in an attempt to hurry him did he realize he was shamelessly staring at you all this time. Well done, Gojo. Very professional. He quickly typed something on the laptop just to avoid your gaze.
“It’s gonna be an annual charity event for our foundation. They used to be hosted in the Tokyo branch, but this year the board decided to hold it there, in Kyoto.”
“Oh, I didn’t know you ran a foundation”.
A smile broke on Gojo’s face, and he hummed. “Well, a lot of things changed since —” he abruptly cut them off, probably having realized he sounded kind of insensitive. You hold your breath, “since I became the CEO.”
You breathed out and marked something off in your list.
“I see. That’s…that’s really good. I am glad things are taking on a better turn.”
“Me too.”
Gods, that was so awkward. This really should’ve been a call. Gojo, however, either didn’t notice this strange atmosphere or simply decided to ignore it. He examined you with his bright blue gaze, head tilted to the side. A curious smile played on his lips, and you hated that he was effortlessly charming even now. Always had been. You pressed a pen to your lips. His gaze flicked there, as if hypnotized.
“What about the venue?”
“The hotel next to the main building. We have a partnership with this chain, so it’s kinda a mutual offer. You should’ve seen it on the way here.”
Oh yes, you did. The said building screamed luxury, not the grotesque hyperbolized one, but something way quieter. The kind that clearly told you would’ve been odd there.
Okay, you thought. You would be working there, not catching glimpses of visitors and the staff.
Another mark in the notebook.
“Budget?”
Gojo waved his hand in dismissal. “Unlimited. The floor is yours.”
You arched your brow, humming. You didn’t have a lot of luck in encountering your exes, who wanted you to work for them with an unlimited budget. “What if I asked for, I don’t know, Juliet Roses?”
He hummed in return, fingers drumming against the wood of the table. Then leaned slightly in, amusement lacing his tone as he drawled.
“I don’t understand much about that. But sure, whatever you want.”
You pressed your lips into a thin line, earning a deep chuckle from Gojo. Teasing the guy who had more money than you would ever be able to make wasn’t as funny as you thought.
After this, you discussed the setting, a couple of specific ideas you already had outlined and some technical details. Gojo tried to crack some jokes, but you weren’t as enthusiastic about them as he was, so he quickly put on a business guy mask on. At the end of the meeting, your mind buzzed quietly with all the information, but a familiar feeling of excitement flooded you: hours of brainstorming, crafting, and creating waited for you. A big heartfelt smile broke on your face as you packed your things back into the bag.
Gojo offered to walk you back to the elevator, and you didn’t find any excuse to refuse him. The silence stretched between you, not unnecessarily heavy, but you wouldn’t call it comfortable. Your gaze swept the surroundings, landing on a couple of managers, who were stealing sneaky glances at both of you and whispering something to each other with sharp smirks.
Ugh. Like you were back in the university once again, meeting dumbfounded gazes of students, the moment they eyed you up next to Gojo.
He was humming something to yourself, completely unbothered, leaning on the wall with the air of confidence that suggested he owned this whole world. And he surely did, if the world closed in on this corporation.
You quickly looked over your shoulder. “Didn’t it bother you?”
He stopped humming, eyes briefly flickering to your face. A lopsided grin curled his lips. “What are you talking about?”
Ah, as usual. He didn’t even notice the gaze, the whispers and the gossiping. Again, the sun didn’t bother to pay attention to satellites.
You wordlessly glanced at the girls back and stared at the elevator. Gojo watched you with his head tilted and followed the direction of your gaze. The moment his eyes landed on the gossiping managers, his jaw tightened, and the steel crept into his voice. “Ah. I see.”
Your head snapped towards Gojo, and without much thinking, you grabbed him by the wrist. “I didn’t mean anything, let them be — “
“Hey, Chloe!” His voice boomed across the hall, causing one girl to nearly drop her binder. You could see her swallowing with effort even from this distance. A charming smile tugged on the corner of his lips, though it didn’t reach his eyes, as he drawled in a deceptively sweet voice. “I presume you already finished the monthly report, since you have plenty of free time?”
The crimson crept up Chloe’s cheeks as she gripped the binder tighter, babbling. “No, Mr. Gojo, I was merely —”
His smile turned more wolfish as he tilted his head. “Then get your friend outta of here and do something useful.”
Chloe briefly exchanged glances with her friend before quickly making their way to the offices. Gojo watched until their figures disappeared and turned to you with a mischievous smile.
“Nah, it doesn’t.”
You couldn’t help but smile in return. “They are gonna talk even more, you know.”
His shoulders dropped in a lazy shrug, but his gaze fixed you with its usual intensity. You forgot how the sharpness of it used to make your breath bated.
“There’s nothing to talk about. Unless?”
Your heart stammered against your ribs at the innuendo in his tone. Inevitably, you remembered the mug from the shelter on his table, and while you were debating whether to bring it up or keep your mouth shut, the elevator behind finally dinged. A sign, hah?
You hastily stepped forward just to hide from Gojo when his fingers brushed against your wrist.
“Wait — “
“You look beautiful today.”
“I like your blouse, this colour suits you.”
“You curled your hair, right? I love the way they frame your face.”
The blue of his eyes pinned you to the ground as if you were a butterfly. Gojo’s lips parted, but the words never came, and slowly he let your hand go, letting the crowd in the elevator swallow you and take you away from him.
He inhaled slowly and stared at the ceiling.
What was the name of those flowers?
***
The next days passed in a blur as you started planning the event. Honestly, you hadn’t felt such a wave of excitement since…a long time ago. You didn’t blame your flower shop and Utahime, hell, you never could, but turned out when your hands weren’t constantly covered in all sorts of scraps, knees hurt from standing so much and back almost breaking from carrying the vases, you enjoyed your job well more.
Gojo kept his promise and didn’t contact you until it was absolutely necessary. However, you couldn’t hide the way your heart would skip a beat wherever he appeared at the venue or when he sent you a little emoji at the end of his texts. You told yourself not to live in illusions, but it became increasingly harder with his gaze caressing you, when Gojo thought you didn’t pay attention. The strange, tender ache in his eyes made your insides churn with some unspeakable feeling you weren’t ready to name at all, and for the sake of your mentality, you decided you would pretend it was a simple curiosity. The mug on his office table whispered insistently that you were wrong. You stubbornly shoved the thought away.
Gojo didn’t overstep, keeping your relationship on a faint, barely non-existent line of business partners and past acquaintances. Though sometimes he couldn’t help himself and…mishaps indeed happened.
For example, on your first day at the venue, you were greeted by an elegant bouquet of Juliet roses and pink hydrangeas. The florist in you critically examined the bouquet and admitted it was too your liking, but the thought that it was for you didn’t even cross your mind (tell about originality — giving flowers to the florist), when Gojo happened to peek in and noticed the bouquet didn’t move an inch.
“Is something wrong with the flowers? I thought you liked these roses.”
Too engrossed in your files, you didn’t even catch his words, staring mindlessly at the screen of your laptop, until a shadow loomed over the table and you begrudgingly had to look up. You stared at Gojo in confusion.
He nodded at the bouquet. “You didn’t like the flowers?”
Your brows knitted in confusion as you followed the direction of his gaze. “No. The composition is really good. I like the way the hydrangeas frame the roses. Juliet roses! The guy doesn’t play about his date,” you chuckled and added immediately. “Or the lady. Either way, the flowers are nice.”
A beat of silence passed between you, enveloping you in its warm embrace. A light pink dusted Gojo’s cheekbones, and he murmured in pretend nonchalance.
“So you didn’t check the card?”
Now you felt completely dumbfounded and slightly irritated that Gojo kept distracting you from the work at hand. “No, why would I —”
Your gaze briefly flicked to the flowers at one of the tables and back to Gojo, who kept eyeing with his usual intensity, stripping you bare of any defences. Then it hit you.
This bouquet was for you.
“Oh”, you murmured nervously, and forced a quick smile, involuntarily straightening up in a chair. Now you couldn’t wait to read the card. “I-I am sorry, I just thought. You know.” You twirled a pen between your fingers, mulling over the next words. There was a little excitement in telling your ex-situationship that you weren’t used to flowers. Usually, when the guys heard about you being the florist, they joked, “Then you are probably tired of seeing them,” as an excuse.
It stopped amusing you on the third date. On the fifth, you resisted the urge to smack them. On the tenth, you silently prayed they would shut up.
You muttered as politely as you could. “You didn’t have to, Gojo. Thank you.”
A strange melancholy lacing your voice didn’t go past Gojo. His tone hardened. “If you liked them, then I absolutely had to.”
He hated it. He absolutely hated the way your face dropped, sadness crept into your usual bright tone, and the smile became a little too tight around the edges. Despised how you automatically assumed the flowers weren’t for you. Hell, who else were they for?
And the thought of him being the reason you doubted yourself drove him insane to the point of keeping him awake in the night, browsing through your old photos; he couldn’t bring himself to delete. Not only as a memory of what he lost but as evidence of his own cowardice.
He tried to keep you at a distance, letting the contract and the strict confines of the agreement define you. He thought it would be easier this way.
But there was nothing easy about either of you. Never was. And in the end, he gave up. The lines blurred between you so hard that he couldn’t keep pretending anymore.
© wiserion. do not modify my work in any way (copying, translating, ai feeding, etc.)
read pt.1 AND pt.2, it had me crying, laughing, dying all at the same time. Beautifully written ❤️🩹
Missing Pieces
Pairing: childhood bestfriend!sukuna x f!reader
Content: As a kid, all Sukuna ever really wanted was to be around you. He did just that for 10 years, only to spend the next 7 years wondering why you just stopped picking up the phone one day || MDNI, angst/comfort/smuț, porņ with plot, friends to enemies(?) to lovers, uncle!sukuna, mentions of depression and low self esteem, sukuna's tongue is pierced, so is his 🍆, nıpple sucking, humpıng, óral (f receiving), fıngering, squırtıng, dacryphılia, matıng press. word count: 15k
Sukuna isn’t the type to hold on to promises, especially one made in elementary school. But, he never would’ve thought that you’d break it like that.
The promise? That you’d be each other's best friends until the day you died. Looking back, it might be a little dramatic, but you were eight years old— all eight year olds are dramatic.
Exactly how did you break said promise?
You ghosted him.
You fucking ghosted him.
You were friends for over a decade and the moment you went off to college, poof— gone! You stopped calling, stopped texting, deleted all your socials. It was as if you had never even existed and that you were just a figment of the man’s imagination.
Now that’s dramatic.
He’s texted and called you multiple times, no response. He’s asked mutual friends, they never got a response either. It got to a point where he had finally had it and texted your mother. You could only imagine how hurt he was when she told him you were doing just fine, and not that you were missing or in a coma.
He’d never admit it, though.
The years came and went. The hurt he once felt inevitably dulled. Yet, you always managed to linger around in the back of his mind, like a little ghost haunting him.
To this day, he still has no idea what he did wrong. You may have ghosted everybody, but he wasn’t just anybody. If anyone deserved an explanation, it was him.
He still cares for you, sorta, but it’s been so long, he’s not sure if he’d even want to reconnect with you. Not with how you just dropped him like that.
. . . . . .
“Are you excited?”
“No,” you respond a little too flatly for Ieiri, who shoots you the look right after. “Ugh, I’m sorry. It’s just been forever since I’ve seen everyone.”
She sighs, redirecting her attention back on the road— there’s not much to look at. Most people stay home on gloomy Sunday afternoons.
The GPS says you’re nine minutes away from your destination, making you remind yourself once more to relax. Though, you really wish you could be one of those people staying in right now. Cuddled up on the couch, watching a movie.
Ieiri taps her finger on the steering wheel. “It’s like what I said—”
What didn’t she say?
She held you hostage on the phone for over an hour last weekend, threatening and bribing, and then threatening you again if you didn’t go with her to Kento’s surprise birthday party.
You thought you had a good argument at the time.
“Do you realize how annoying that sounds? Kento doesn’t even like surprises, could you imagine how irritated he’d be if I just randomly popped up, too?”
“If you were Satoru? Yes. You? Doubt it. If anything, he’d probably like the distraction from it.”
“Yeah– probably,” you murmured.
“Can you please get out of your fucking head for once?” she scoffed. “Yeah, it’s been years since you’ve seen everyone, but it’s not like it’s because of a falling out. I don’t know where you got this weird idea that they hate you now because of it. It was them who told me to bring you!”
“Who’s them?” you stubbornly responded.
“Suguru, Satoru, Yuki, Choso— even Toji said something about bringing Megumi so you could see him.”
As much as you’d love to meet his kid, it would also be another reminder of all the years that’ve passed— how everyone moved on with their lives. Getting married, buying homes, having children, starting families.
The most you’ve done is get the job. You’d include the condo if you actually got to enjoy it, but it’s been a year since you bought it and you haven’t even bothered furnishing the place despite all the money you've saved up for it. The last thing you want to do after work is look at a screen and make more decisions. Deciding between color palettes and aesthetics, deciding on what decor and accents you want— it all sounded exhausting. Hiring an interior designer was an option. Except, you barely want to talk to a stranger, let alone work with one.
It’s too many decisions to be made for someone that didn’t want to make them. You often wonder if you’ve simply just become someone that couldn’t make them.
You’re well aware of the things that are wrong with you, but it didn’t make it any less surprising. You, paralyzed by choices and options?
The people who knew you professionally would laugh. Hard. Any sense of certainty that could be felt in the air almost always emanated from you. You were decisive. Sharp as hell— honed to perfection. Someone that was more than capable of a task as menial as filling a space full of items they liked.
You know what you like, don’t you?
No, not really.
You are sharp, there’s no doubt about it. It’s what your boss favors you for, and sure, one could say you’re valuable to the company, too. It’s a nice feeling for a while.
Then you realize there is quite literally nothing more subjective than the value of something.
Luckily, you are very useful. It was simply a fact, and every single one of your quarterly reviews solidified it. A coworker, or god forbid a client, could spend an entire hour talking shit about you, and they’d eventually reach the point where they’d have to backtrack with a little ‘well’ or ‘however’, before giving credit where it was due.
The devil works hard and you stole his pitchfork. Ripped it right out of his hands, because apparently, you needed it more than him to become the youngest portfolio manager the company’s ever seen.
Who cares about the value of something when you need it? Mr. Yaga claims to hate black tea, but leave him out in the desert long enough and he’d easily drink gallons of it.
Having you at the company isn’t a matter of life or death, there’s thousands of others out there that are more than qualified for your role. More than half probably had resumes twice as long as yours, too.
But for Yaga, there is no guarantee that day to day operations would run this smoothly, ever again.
You may be a little blunt. At times, impatient. But in a world full of sexual harassment allegations and sleezy managers abusing their power, not once has there ever been a formal complaint made against you. You’re not always like that either, you’re great with the clients and stakeholders.
It’s a talent, really— remembering all the personal details people tell you, like childhood stories, the places they’ve vacationed to, a spouse's birthday month that was briefly mentioned months ago. It makes people feel special.
It was very handy, too. Especially in the case where the company might deal with someone that isn’t likely to give them their hard-earned money or signature. Your job was to either sweet talk or gaslight. No arguing needed.
Yaga may have not preferred you at first. You were essentially a kid compared to the people that applied for the position.
The plan was to let you down easily, tell you to keep working hard and you’ll eventually get there. You were already lucky enough to have your foot in the door as an employee.
Yaga had a list of goals he wanted to reach before his retirement, though. Any of the other candidates would’ve helped with that, but none would've given him the opportunity to make a second list and cross that off as well.
The decision took months.
In that time, he realized a few things.
One, he spent his entire adult life playing it safe, which is an obvious sign of fearing growth. You’re not sure who taught him that, but at least he realized it was okay to start over and try something new. It was like a rebrand for him and he embraced that the “new” him craved more profit and welcomed different approaches.
The different approaches being, finding more aggressive people because they bring in the money quicker.
He never saw you as aggressive, though. He never saw you at all, actually. It wasn’t personal, those under 30 usually come and go, so he didn’t see much of a point in remembering names. What he did see, when he finally opened his eyes, was efficiency.
You were straight forward in a way that saved time, had an air about you that screamed “don’t ask me how my day’s going or what I have planned for after work”, yet approachable enough for work related questions. Stellar reports, received every quarterly and year-end bonus. Sharp.
Making you one of the managers meant he could wield you like a weapon, now you are the one he uses the most. You had the salary to prove it, yet no time or energy to enjoy it.
You’re respected. The young interns, the girls in particular, look up to you more often than not. Eyes bright and filled with ambition. Romanticizing everything, from how much coffee you drink, all the way to your style that they labeled as “effortless”. They’re not wrong, it is effortless— always some variant of trousers, a t-shirt, heels, and a long coat. They’re never planned, yet they somehow always manage to work thanks to the lack of color in your wardrobe.
You overheard your lack of jewelry and unpainted nails being appreciated once for how “clean” you look. All you could think of was the girl that used to do her hair and paint her own nails at one point. Except for the ones on her right hand. She saved that job for her best friend who surprisingly had a steady hand, despite complaints flying out of his mouth the entire time. Even on the days he gave in and painted his own nails black, he’d find something to be grumpy and complain about.
It was always you choosing whose house to hang out at, which movies to watch, what places to grab food from. He was a big brat whose favorite answer to most questions was an inaudible ‘I dunno’ from the way he’d mumble it. So, you always led the way.
Now it’s you mumbling that same exact ‘I dunno’ when you’re all alone.
You’re tired. Worn out. If you were a blade, you end each day dull and chipped. Nobody sees it, not even those young girls with all the time they’ve spent studying you, blinded by their own dreams and aspirations to be just as important, not knowing the difference between being valuable and useful.
Maybe it’s better off that way.
Who were you to try to burst their bubbles when you never had dreams or aspirations to begin with? Your eyes were never as bright as theirs— not as a student, not as an intern, and definitely not as a new hire.
You never had a spark to begin with, what makes you think they’d eventually lose theirs?
Maybe you were the unlucky one here.
You were the one whose head went under water after one bad semester, after all. Even now, years later, it still feels like you’re stuck in the deep end while everyone else has moved on.
Toji chose to get married and have a kid.
You can’t even choose yourself on most days.
“You have arrived at your destination.”
Fuck. You have a hard time believing the GPS was that loud when it was telling Ieiri which exit to take and where to turn.
Her lips thin into a reassuring smile as she makes the final turn into the apartment building’s parking garage, and you fail to return it as you take a deep breath. Ieiri doesn’t say anything this time, figuring you’ll probably just have to see everyone's excitement for yourself to realize this wasn’t a pity invite. It’ll settle half of your nerves.
The other half should settle itself with time and a drink. Several drinks, honestly. She did the best she could with telling everyone that what you pulled during your second year of college was 100% a you thing and to not talk about it unless you brought it up. Which you probably won’t— everyone will understand. No one wants to talk about being in a dark place when they haven’t fully left it.
One moment, you’re sitting in the passenger seat with your seat belt still buckled. Next, your chest is tightening as you watch her open the door to Satoru’s apartment. There’s already chattering, which stops once she announces your guys’ arrival.
You barely get the chance to look around before Suguru’s peaking his head out of the kitchen to see if you really did show up and lets out a laugh once he sees that you did. It was light and airy, the kind that’s accompanied by the warm feeling that you should get in your chest when seeing an old friend.
He’s obviously changed, it’s been 7 years. Yet, he never lost that quality that managed to make people a little more comfortable.
“Hey stranger.”
Your lips thin into a shy smile, “Hey.”
“Well?” Suguru asks, holding his arms out. “I know it’s been ages but there’s no need to be shy.”
“Sorry,” you murmur, stepping forward and accepting the hug.
He lets out another laugh. “Don’t be— it’s nice to see you.”
“Where’s mine?!”
You easily recognize the offended, slightly childish tone. You slowly turn your head around to see a slightly less lanky Satoru. Aside from getting some much needed meat on his bones, he doesn’t seem to have changed much. He’s still as unserious as ever, still wears sunglasses indoors like an asshole.
Ieiri stood back the entire time, sipping on a drink she had already managed to make, patting herself on the back as she watched her little plan run smoothly: Show up early and let you build some confidence from awkwardly greeting the old friends you shared together one by one.
It’s funny, you told her that they’d eventually move on to talking to the friends they made after you, but they all seemed more interested in circling back to you, whether it be handing you a shot or introducing you to a new face.
If there was one burden she wishes she could take from you, it’d be the burden that has you walking through the world as if you were everyone’s last choice.
Today should be enough to prove that.
“Yeah, no— at this point, fuck Nanami and his birthday. This is a better surprise.” Satoru throws an arm over you, slightly swaying from the shots he’s already taken. “Pfft– he doesn’t even like his birthday. I’m sure he’d be happier to see her, too—”
“He’s coming up the elevator,” Suguru cuts him off.
“SHIT! EVERYBODY SHUT THE FUCK UP AND HIDE,” Satoru suddenly yells, as if he weren’t just talking shit just seconds ago.
No one would be surprised if Kento heard him yelling at everyone like that, and given how hesitant of a knock there was at the door. The blonde probably already knows there’s something up.
Suguru goes to open the door, and the moment he opens his mouth to greet him, there’s a loud wave of people yelling ‘SURPRISE’ behind him, with Satoru saying it a split second sooner than anyone else did.
Kento’s eye slightly twitches. Half surprised, half irritated. He fucking hates surprises and knows that’s the only reason why Satoru decided to throw him one. Before a complaint can leave his mouth, Ieiri hands him an old fashion. He tries to speak again, but gets interrupted once more when she tells him who’s here.
At first he scoffs, already having enough of people of fucking with him today.
“No, I’m serious!” she swears, looking around trying to see where you were at, eventually catching a glimpse of your head in the kitchen. “There she is— come say hi.”
Ieiri grabs his wrist and pulls him through the living room and into the kitchen, where you, Yuki, and Choso were talking. She turns back to look at Kento, who’s already surprised by her rare display of excitement, as she gestures towards you.
“See? Surprise!”
“Yeah, surprise!!” Yuki says right after.
“Holy shit.” Kento rarely curses, but finds himself unable to come up with better words. “It’s been ages!”
“I know!” You try to sound more apologetic, but ultimately fail from the nice buzz you had going on. “Happy birthday!”
And for once, he’s a little less uptight about it when he gives you a hug and says his thanks. It was a nice surprise, he had to admit. If only Satoru didn’t have to ruin the moment with the way he barged into the kitchen with some stupid, frilly party hat in hand, begging Kento to put it on.
“I said no!”
“C’mon, Nanamin!” Satoru whines, taking a step forward each time the blonde takes a step back. “You’re not getting any younger.”
“I don’t want to get any younger— I’m a grown man, and so are you. Maybe you should start acting like one.”
“I do! I’m just fun,” he continues to pester him, ignoring everything Kento mumbles under his breath.
You end up excusing yourself to use the restroom, somewhat bummed you couldn’t stick around longer to watch them bicker some more. You’re sure it went on for a while, though, unaware of how it was cut short when Shoko grabs Satoru by the arm.
He hisses at how tight of a grip she has on him, fingers digging into his skin as she pulls him aside.
“What is your problem?!” he asks through a clenched jaw.
“Sukuna’s here?!”
“Yeah?” He tries and fails to free himself from her grip as he answers. “I thought it’d be a nice surprise!”
She looks at him like he’s stupid, nails continuing to dig into his flesh. “A nice surprise? He fucking hates her. I wouldn’t have brought her here if I knew he was coming!”
“Ow ow ow— No he doesn’t?! Do you actually believe that?!” he groans in between each sentence.
“Yes! He says it every time someone brings her up!”
“Ow ffuck! You know how dramatic he can be sometimes— fuck, Shoko, please, you’re breaking skin.”
“You deserve it!” she responds in a clipped tone, despite finally letting go.
“Jesus Christ— you can’t just assault people like that,” he pouts, rubbing his arm. “It’ll be fine! It’s been years, he can’t hold a grudge that long.”
. . . . . .
Sukuna can absolutely hold a grudge that long.
Except, he was staring at said grudge like some fucking loser, and had to remind himself that it was still alive and well.
At first he thought you were just one of Satoru’s new friends as you walked through the living room, shyly making your way around everyone, but then you just so conveniently looked up in his direction.
His eyes nearly widened.
And yours actually did, looking as guilty as you should be.
The longer you two stood there, looking at each other from across the room in shock, the guilt you had in your eyes started to fade. He was sure everyone else welcomed you back with open arms, and in turn got irritated because you probably thought he’d do the same. So before you could even think to take a step in his direction, he wiped the shock off his face and replaced it with a look that’s able to make even grown men turn around and walk the other way.
Which is exactly what you did, stomach slowly twisting into a tight knot as you immediately began to replay the death glare he gave you over and over in your head.
Sukuna didn’t stay long and left shortly after. Not without pretending like he didn’t know you when he said goodbye to everyone, including Kento, who he never even got the chance to say hi to in the first place.
Shoko didn’t think that was enough to have a complete 180 in your mood. She then realized you were already quiet before that. You also decided to stay in the kitchen, where there was a wall in between you and him.
So yeah, she blames Sukuna.
“Are you sure he didn’t say anything to you?” Ieiri asked one last time as she pulled up to your apartment building.
“Nah— my stomach just started to hurt. I don’t drink alcohol that much.”
She still didn’t believe you, not with how big of an asshole Sukuna can be, which is why a certain someone got an earful over the phone the moment you got out of the car. He barely got a word out while she threw nothing but insults and threats so specific his way, that he had begun to believe them.
Of course Satoru felt bad! He didn’t want you to disappear again for another seven years and have it be all of his fault. So, he gives Sukuna a call, continuing the cycle of abuse started by Shoko.
The phone rings three times. Sukuna never finishes saying hello before Satoru tries to grill him. “Alright, what did you say to her?”
“Who the fuck are you even talking about right now?”
Sukuna knows exactly who he’s talking about, Satoru can just see his face crinkling in fake disgust over the accusation because he’s just a bullshiter at the end of the day.
“Shoko thinks you said something to her— she said she was acting all weird and shit when she came back from the bathroom.”
“She’s already fuckin’ weird,” Sukuna scoffs.
“So you did see her before you walked into the kitchen to say bye?”
“Yeah, I saw her. Doesn’t mean I said anything to her though, you fuckin’ moron.”
Satoru sighs and rubs his temple, knowing he probably looked at you like he wanted to skin you alive.
“What? Is looking at her a crime now?”
“With the way you look at people? It should be.” It’s clearly not the first time Sukuna’s managed to simply offend someone his face with the way it comes out as a complaint on Satoru’s end.
“Why do you even care?”
“Don’t turn this back around on me?!”
“Then quit trying to grill me over the way I look at people. Seriously— she comes back and you all are fuckin’ babying her like she’s some victim. It’s not that serious.”
“Well Shoko—”
“Shoko can fuck off.” Sukuna cuts him off. “Don’t bother me about something stupid like this again. If she can’t handle someone looking at her in a way that she doesn’t like, maybe she should stay home and lock herself in her fuckin’ room.”
“I– she already did!” he tries to come to your defense. “Shoko won’t tell me much, but she was going through it for years. She probably still is! She doesn’t go out at all. I tried telling you before and you wouldn’t listen.”
There’s a long pause before a disappointed sigh could be heard. Satoru could tell it was directed towards himself instead of you. “She was going through it, so she locked herself in a room for years?”
“Not literally,” he scoffs. “Look, all I know is she was dealing with depression and now she’s all anti-social because of it.”
“She should’ve fuckin’ said something then.”
“Well, she fuckin’ didn’t.”
“That’s–”
“If that’s an opinion, it doesn’t matter,” he cuts the man off, starting to grow impatient. Satoru has adhd— the severe, annoying kind. There’s only so much he could handle before getting the violent urge to scream out random noises. “I’m just gonna give you her number so you can talk to her if you want. Who knows, she might even open up to you more since you were the one closest to her.”
“I don’t want her n—”
“YES YOU DO.” Satoru yells, leaving Sukuna more appalled than annoyed. “I just sent it. BYE.”
click.
Sukuna glares at his phone for a moment as if it were an extension of Satoru, convinced he was dropped as a child or something and just doesn’t know it. He knows he definitely wouldn’t tell his kid if he dropped them as a baby.
He relaxes his tensed brows and shakes his head as he pulls up the number Satoru sent. For some reason, he expected it to be your old number that he still somehow knew by heart.
He hates that he remembers it.
He also hates that the actual reason why you disappeared isn’t as dumb and selfish as he wanted it to be.
. . . . . .
In the three weeks he’s had your number, he hasn’t tried reaching out. He also hasn’t accepted any invitations to hang out with anyone as a group, despite being told that you were okay with him showing up. Part of it was spite, the rest being him genuinely tired from work.
His old man’s been taking more time off under the guise of letting him ‘take over for the day’. He acts so gracious with it, too, as if Sukuna should be thankful for the opportunity, when really, Wasuke should just fucking retire already so he can hire someone else to take his place as site manager. He’s essentially working two jobs now and when he asked for a raise, that old piece of shit laughed so hard that he damn near coughed up fifty years worth of cigarette tar.
You’d think watching his father nearly hack up an entire lung would be enough to make him quit smoking himself, but that shit pissed him off so bad that he smoked three cigarettes in a row just to calm down before going back to work. It still pisses him off. He doesn’t regret taking $50 out of that old man's wallet on his way out to cover his gas for the day. He honestly should’ve taken more.
It’s been months since he’s gotten home at a decent time. Tonight was probably the worst thus far.
He drags his feet into his apartment and kicks off his boots, heavy eyes landing on the clock that’s two minutes away from 10:00 pm.
The next ten minutes are spent shoveling leftovers into his mouth, followed by a hot shower that was mainly spent just standing there, zoning out as the hot water hit his back. It’s been days since he’s jacked off, realizing it doesn’t even give him the urge, his sex drives plummeted all the way down to hell. He just wants to sleep at this point.
Except when his head hits the pillow, he’s wide awake. It doesn’t help that he ends up scrolling through instagram— there was hardly a point for someone that barely followed anyone to begin with.
There’s not much to scroll through. The most interesting thing being a recent post of Suguru’s night. He absentmindedly looks through them, then pauses at the 4th photo of you and Shoko with your little drinks in hand.
You were barely smiling.
Your lips curved just enough for the camera— nothing like the photos of you from before, grinning and laughing. That’s how he’s always remembered you.
Would it have even made a difference if he told you not to move so far away for school? It’s not like he could’ve known, you never said anything. He thought you were doing just fine and you deleted everything one day and changed your number.
He taps the photo to see who’s tagged. Just Shoko. You still haven’t gotten back on social media, no profile to see what you’ve been up to. All he knows about you is that you moved back to the area after graduation and scored a cozy finance job without telling anyone. The only reason why you got in touch with Shoko again was because she ran into you at some bakery and made you give her your number.
It didn’t even matter if you did have a new phone with no contacts by the time you moved back. You didn’t need to text him or call him, you could’ve just shown up. Sure, he might’ve been annoyed at first, but he wouldn’t have turned you away.
You’ve known each other since 8 years old, you disappeared at 19. That’s his whole childhood right there. You played together, ate lunch together, walked to school together until he got a car, ditched school together. You had your own shampoo and toothbrush at his and would just use his clothes if you didn’t have a spare set with you.
It’s just dumb.
Still thinking about it, that is. It’s been years. It may have been fine to still be thinking about it at 21 or 22, but now it’s just ridiculous.
. . . . . .
You aren’t expecting Sukuna to warm up any time soon. At all, really. You couldn’t blame him for the reaction he had seeing you at Kento’s birthday. If there was one person that deserved an explanation, it was him, and you’re just about seven years too late for that.
He wasn’t the same person you knew. You couldn’t just go up to him expecting that you’d get to have a conversation. A civil one, at least.
It’s been years.
And honesty, it might not even be about being several years too late. He’s a grown man, why would he care about a childhood friend that just up and left?
All there’s left to do now is to stay out of his way. You’re sure his temper’s the same and the last thing you want is to bug him. Hopefully being at a kids birthday party shields you from it in the case that you accidentally do. From what you heard, he seems close enough with Toji to know not to fuck with his sons special day.
It’s not all bad. Toji couldn’t come to Kento’s birthday since his wife and son woke up sick that day, so you were more excited than nervous for today since you’d get to meet them.
This time it was you that picked up Ieiri. You felt a little guilty for being the one that constantly got rides, despite having a running car of your own. Once you two got to the little park in their neighborhood, everyone was already there, including Sukuna, who was stuck having to watch his nephew that you’ve heard about through Choso.
The biggest plot twist of all was probably learning that Jin is now technically Choso’s stepfather. You knew Choso had a teen mom, you didn’t know she was that young, though. You also had no idea how much of a milf hunter Jin was, either.
Jin apparently didn’t know that was Choso’s mother. No one believes him, especially not Sukuna, who still looks at two like they’re a couple of fucking sickos for making him Choso’s step-uncle.
The kid’s name is Yuji, and he looks just like Jin and Sukuna when they were kids. He’s the same age as Toji’s son, who’s turning 3 today. Yuji acts nothing like his father or his uncle. Jin was always quiet and sensitive. Sukuna was sensitive, too, but he was always very vocal about the things that annoyed him. The toddler was more like Gojo, hopped up on sugar and bouncing off the walls.
Sukuna calls out to him like an angry mother at a grocery store, gritting his teeth as he tells the kid to, “get your ass over here, NOW,” all while Yuji pretends not to hear or see him…. up until Sukuna gets up from the bench, which is when the little boy decides to run back to him, whining about how he’s sorry and how he didn’t know.
Megumi’s more quiet and follows Yuji around. He even ran back to Sukuna with the boy, worried that his friend's uncle was going to leave him at the park too, even though his father was at the grill just a few feet away.
Watching the two boys play is adorable, but you try not to look too much in an attempt to avoid making eye contact with the grumpy uncle, which ends up becoming more difficult than you’d imagined. The kid eventually wore him out to the point where he managed to slip out his view.
Yuji didn't go very far.
“...es’cuse me?”
You feel a little tug at your shorts and look down to find an incredibly worried Yuji, who should’ve gone to an adult he knew, but here he was after quickly deciding you were the trusted adult for whatever problem he had.
“What’s wrong?” You crouch down, getting at eye level. “Are you okay?”
“No,” he shakes his head, pointing to his feet. “I donno how to tie my shoes.”
“You don’t?” you ask, sounding just as concerned. “Do you want me to tie them for you?”
He pouts. “Yes, please.”
Your heart melts at his little voice. “Aw, okay.”
Like any other kid, Yuji’s amazed at how fast adults can tie shoelaces, unable to keep up with the strings crossing and looping around each other to create the little bow at the end.
“Yay!” He claps his hands, jumping in excitement. “We can play again, Gumi!”
Megumi thinks to celebrate with his friend, but closes his mouth right after opening it.
Then you’re startled by a scoff made directly behind you. “You make a stranger tie your shoes and you can’t even say thank you?”
The last to freeze is Yuji, who side-eyes him, rather than turning to face him. “Um.. ya I did..”
“No you didn’t?!” The toddler's ability to lie over something so simple amazes and offends the man at the same time. Does Yuji seriously think he’s that stupid? “I watched you lie about not knowing how to tie your shoes and then I watched you try to run off with even thanking her.”
“I donno how to tie my shoe!” Yuji stomps a foot on the ground to prove whatever point he thought he was making.
“Yes, you do— now thank her, before I take your shoes away.”
“Oh no, not my shoes!”
“Yeah. Bye bye, shoes.” Sukuna snorts, clearly enjoying this. “You’re a big boy now, remember? You don’t need them.”
“Yes, I do!” Yuji whines.
“Then have some manners and say thank you.” Sukuna continues to glare at the kid while pointing at you.
“Thank you for tying my shoe,” Yuji tightly grabs the bottom of his t-shirt with both hands and bows at you, then turns to his uncle and starts whimpering. “Don’t eat my shoes, Unkakuna! I need them!”
Sukuna’s even more annoyed now at how specific that was. “Who said I was gonna eat them?!”
“I dunno! You eat everything!” Yuji claims, bottom lip quivering and all, making his uncle's eye twitch in disbelief. “It’s all stuck in your big belly.”
Sukuna’s face drops, as if he didn’t see a 6-pack in the mirror this morning with his own eyes.
“I don't have a goddamn belly,” he scolds him through a clenched jaw, then lowers his tone as he begins to crouch down. “Do you want me to hit your Papa Jin?”
“No!!!”
“Then quit acting like I eat everything in sight, you little shit.”
Yuji scratches the back of his head as he continues to whine, trying to force a couple tears out. Eventually he turns to you. “He’s gonna hit my papa with his big belly.”
“Uh-oh. That's not nice,” you begin to laugh, all while Sukuna grumbles something about Jin being the one with love handles.
“Papa gonna cry,” he claims, continuing to act distraught over the news, trying to get all the sympathy he can from you. “My poor papa.”
You giggle. “I don’t think he’ll hit your papa, though.”
“He’s gonna EAT my papa!” Yuji stretches his arms out, emphasizing how big of a meal that would be for Sukuna. As if it couldn't get any worse, Yuji finds a random basketball and tries to stuff it under his shirt. “Then his belly will be big like THIS.”
“Stop it,” Sukuna snaps, pointing off into the distance behind the kid. “Get out of here before I barbecue you on that grill Mr. Toji’s using.”
“Hey!” Yuji gasps. “You can’t do that!”
“You can barbecue anything when you have barbecue sauce, Yuji.” he informs the kid, then notices a mortified Megumi standing off to the side. “You’re next.”
“DAAAADDDDYYYYYYYY.”
The boys run to Toji at full speed. Yuji thinks it’s a game, but Megumi’s genuinely scared, sobbing as his father picks him. His dad’s obviously confused as to why his son’s crying like someone threatened to kill him. Once Megumi’s able to actually get a full sentence out as he points right as Sukuna.
If Megumi thought he was going to receive any sort of comfort from his father, he was dead wrong. Toji bursts out laughing and doesn’t stop, even when Megumi starts screaming and hitting him for not being more concerned over something so dire.
“Megumi says you’re not allowed to have any cake,” Toji yells out.
“I’m taking Yuji home if I don’t get a slice.”
Sukuna’s response has the two boys whining in the distance.
“NO barbecue me.” Megumi glares as he tries to strike a deal with the most difficult person he’s encountered so far in his short, yet stressful life.
“Give me three slices and I won’t barbecue you.”
“But Unkukuna, you’re belly!” Yuji rounds his arms out in front of him, emphasizing how detrimental those extra calories would be for his physique.
Everyone grows quiet as Sukuna stares him down, wondering who the fuck even taught him that. Whoever it was better pray to god that he doesn’t find out.
“I’m not gonna be your uncle anymore if you keep talking about my belly.”
Yuji reaches out in despair as he screams, “NOOO.”
“No? You don’t want that?” he asks, fighting back a smile.
Yuji throws his back dramatically, shaking his head. “NO.”
“That’s what I thought,” he barks, not bothering to hide how proud breaking Yuji down with a singular sentence made him. “Now ZIP IT.”
“KAY’.”
Yuji looks away for a moment to take a deep breath, trying to calm down, all while sneaking little peeks at Sukuna.
He quickly looks away after seeing that his uncle’s staring at him, then peeks again. It happens several times, yet his uncle hasn’t moved a muscle once as he continues to just look at the boy like he’s better than him.
What kind of a sick game is this?
Naturally, he grows irritated knowing Sukuna is winning whatever game this is, which isn’t fair since he’s already going to have three slices of cake later. Even one slice was pushing it, to tell you the truth. He was too young to put into words why it pissed him off. All he knows is watching Sukuna enjoy good things, that are meant for good people, will never sit right with his spirit.
By the time Sukuna decided to stop staring at the kid as a form of psychological warfare, you had already been awkwardly standing there for quite some time, unsure if you should leave or not. It was either look rude or look too comfortable, neither of which you wanted to come off as.
Sukuna wasn’t mad at you anymore. At least not since Gojo called and told him you were and still are dealing with some mental health stuff.
He wasn’t planning on talking to you today, either, purely because he didn’t believe he should have to apologize for giving someone a harmless look. But then he caught Yuji trying to get your attention and figured it would’ve been fine since 2 minutes with him would make anyone want to choose peace for the next hour.
You couldn’t tell what he was thinking when your eyes finally met his, but at least he wasn’t giving you that same disgusted look you got at Nanami’s birthday.
You weren’t the best at starting conversations outside of work, though, and quickly embarrassed yourself with how bad you stuttered while trying to find something to say, which ended up being an apology for tying the kids' shoe.
In turn, Sukuna looked at you like you were a fucking weirdo.
“What? No, it’s— that’s fine,” he waves a hand, still thrown off by the apology. “He just goes around annoying anybody he can.”
“Oh– don’t worry, he didn’t annoy me. He's adorable.”
You suppress a laugh as he shoots you a look saying he’s anything but that.
“He’s a pain in the ass,” he grumbles, already rubbing his eyes from how tired he is. “We passed around a baseball for an hour before coming here and he’s still running around trying to convince people that I’m a fatass.”
He has to be at least 200 pounds of pure muscle and has the ass of a baseball player, so you neither confirm nor deny the words out of fear that you’d make yourself look stupid again. “He probably just likes your attention.”
“That’s the problem— he’s probably taken 10 years off my life already because of it,” he smiles a little, obviously more fond of the kid that he lets on.
You avert your gaze as you find yourself smiling as well. “His poor parents.”
“They have good life insurance, he’ll be set.”
“Oh, I'm sure,” you laugh with him until it dies down into another awkward silence. You’ve barely looked at him and try not to think too much about it after the realization. Having a conversation with him was surprising enough. Difficult on your end, too, but you pushed yourself. “How’ve your dad and Jin been?”
“Jin’s been good, he’s—” he huffs out a laugh, “you know he went and made Choso his fuckin’ stepson right?” He openly points at Choso, not very worried about getting caught.
“Yeah,” you nod, just as surprised by it, more so by the fact that Choso and Yuji and brothers.
“Well. He’s still going strong with Kaori. Just bought a house,” he struggles to list things worth sharing— aside from the mommy kink, his brother’s pretty boring. Sukuna quickly moves on to Wasuke, who he has no issue talking about. “Old man’s driving me nuts. Says he wants to retire, instead he just takes a bunch of days off and pretends he’s doing me a favor by letting me play boss while he’s gone, so now I’m doing my job and his.”
“You’re working for the company?”
He sighs deeply. “Yeah.”
It pains him to say, remembering all that talk about him wanting ‘something of his own’ when he was younger. Now here he is, set to take over daddy’s company.
“I mean… it’s already there,” you try to offer some words of reassurance, being the one that heard most of the said talk. “All you have to do is maintain it once it’s yours.”
“Exactly,” his tone changes, less ashamed of pulling the nepo baby card. “I’m not tryna work any harder than I should at this point.”
“Does he pay you extra on the days he’s off, at least?”
“Fuck no.” He laughs, even though there is nothing funny about being exploited at his grown age. “Yeah— nope— he works me like a fuckin’ dog.”
Hence why he’s been helping himself to whatever cash is in the old man’s wallet and whatever food he has in his pantry when he visits. He makes good money to begin with, so it’s not like he can’t afford any of it, it’s just the principal.
He’ll take Wasuke’s toilet paper, too.
That old man has one year to either give him a raise or retire completely before couches and T.V.s start to go missing.
“Old man’s been good, though… still kickin’,” he mutters, then stops himself before saying something really fucked up, “What’ve you been up to?”
You shrug as you let out an indecisive hum, knowing you didn’t have much to share. “Nothing really— work usually has me pretty busy.”
He’s well aware of how boring of a life you have, but still tries to push for more details. “Yeah? Suguru says you’re in finance now.”
“Mhm,” you nod, growing shy, “portfolio manager.”
“You spend the day telling people what to do now?” he asks as if he were almost impressed.
“Not really,” you laugh. “A lot of it’s research, reporting, meeting with clients, I— yeah, I mainly just take care of more of the sensitive stuff. If my manager hat’s on, it’s usually just collecting reports from the other managers or figuring out what’s going on with their teams if they’re not performing the way they need to.”
He nearly barks out a laugh.
You look at him with confusion. “What?”
“So instead of managing a bunch of people, you just terrorize their managers?”
“I don’t terrorize them,” you murmur, shifting in place. “It’s their job to make sure that their teams are performing well and if they aren’t—”
“You ask them why they aren’t doing their jobs,” he finishes your sentence with an amused grin. “Then they sit there for the next hour, trying to come up with an answer for that.”
You pause for a moment, wondering if he has to do the same. “Well— kind of.”
You don’t have time to sit there and listen for an hour, nor do you want to. The longest one went just over twenty minutes before you had to stop her.
“Listen, Linda— I,” you stopped to think twice about what you were going to say, “I’m just asking why there’s been a dip in the performance, I really don’t need an entire life story for that. Why don’t we take a few steps back— how has your team been?”
“Well… uhm… well… they…” You nodded, thinking it’d encourage her, and it did, but 5 minutes later she went off course to talk about her failing marriage, again. “And then Dave, he—”
“Is Dave a new hire?”
Her eyes dried right up. “No… Dave is my husband.”
You knew damn well who Dave was, but she was starting to get on your nerves.
“Okay, let’s talk about your team right now… this is about work— Dave doesn’t work here.” You tried your best to be patient with her, but it was like teaching a kindergartener how to self regulate. “I wanna know things like how everyone’s been mentally— are they eating, are they getting enough sleep, are they taking their breaks? Are they having to work through them?”
She didn’t know. She just wanted to give you a sob story so you’d let her off the hook. So, when she mentioned Dave a third time:
“This isn’t working,” you murmur to yourself as you turn to your computer and start typing. “I’m going to make a little worksheet for everyone, including you. Think of it as a peer review. You’ll have one for each team member and each team member will have one for you. I think that’ll be an easier way to get to the bottom of things.”
Instead of excusing herself, she stares at you like a deer in headlights.
“There’s no need to wait on me by the way, I’ll have them emailed out to everyone within the next hour.”
On the rare occasion that you do have to ask performance related questions, you send them the same exact worksheet so they have an idea of what you wanted to talk about— which is the only part you mention to Sukuna. He’d probably accuse you of terrorizing Linda when you know you could’ve been ten times worse.
You’re just glad he didn’t ask about any of the other stuff you had to do.
Sometimes you wished you spent your days in Linda’s professional shoes— god forbid you ever had to deal with a man like Dave. Her job was less demanding than yours. More human. Working with others and collaborating with them must be great in terms of keeping you grounded— normal people, that is.
You wouldn’t consider any of the people you answer to now as normal. The stakeholders, clients, the higher ups, Yaga— they’re all fucking crazy. You couldn’t just pretend like they were normal, you had to match their energy and in some cases, you had to be worse to finish whatever job you were tasked to do, which drove you closer to their territory with each day that passed.
“Do you like it there?” Sukuna looks at you and asks, tone fond and filled with warmth, as if he were proud of you.
In the same moment you realize that you were only fooling yourself earlier when you tried to believe that he hated you.
You wish you could turn back time by just a few seconds to change the subject. You didn’t want to answer a question that he clearly wanted a yes to— you’re sure it’d make him feel better about knowing you chose to spend all those years alone, when you had someone would’ve easily stayed by your side.
You grew stiff, eyes glossing at the question because you hated the real answer to it.
“Not really,” you murmur, almost ashamed to admit it. “That’s kinda how I feel about most things, though.”
It was true. You don’t even know why you’re wishing for a job like Linda’s, you always came off as cold and hardly spoke to others before the big promotion.
He didn’t know what to say to that, he wasn’t even sure if there were any words you could give to someone as apathetic as you sounded when answering. It’s not like he was the type to offer anything encouraging to begin with. Instead, he stayed quiet, comfortable in the silence as he let his own mind run free for a bit.
Just as you were starting to think you made him uncomfortable—
“Did anyone have to drag you here today?” he asks.
“No.”
“So you chose to come to soot sprites' birthday?” he asks, as judgmental as ever.
You smile. “I did.”
He gently rests his hand on top of your head, leaving you with a familiar sense of comfort as he leaned in. “You’re not doing too bad then.”
“Uncle-Kunaaaaaaa!” The man looks up to see his nephew sprinting towards him. “My tummy growling!!”
“This kid’s always coming up with the most extra ways to say things,” he mutters under his breath as he pulls away. “So you’re hungry?”
Yuji slows down the closer he gets, until he’s skipping towards the man. “Yeah. Mr. Toji says he make chicken sticks.”
Sukuna looks at Yuji the way he always does whenever the kid decides to rename something. “You mean skewers?”
“Yeah, chicken sticks,” Yuji nods, confidently repeating himself, because Sukuna was obviously wrong, even though Toji said skewers, too. Both men obviously don’t know what they’re talking about.
The man actually looked to you for help, and given how it’s an issue between a 3 year old rage baiter and a grown man that will make time to argue with a child, you decide to stay out of it.
“That sounds yummy,” you say to Yuji, and you could feel Sukuna glaring at you for not even bothering to call them skewers, too. “You guys should probably grab some before Suguru arrives, he loves chicken and leftovers.”
Sukuna lets out a mixture of a scoff and a laugh since it’s true, but if anyone’s taking those skewers home, it’s him.
Which is why he lets Yuji start to pull him away to get some.
. . .
Getting to talk to you more, after being pulled away from Yuji, hardly counted since it was with groups of other people.
Luckily for Sukuna, your car’s parked right next to his and you’re leaving at the same time he’s trying to get the little brat in his car seat. He’s half asleep and won’t let go— each time he physically tries to pry Yuji off of him, he does this weird muted scream.
He’s about 2.5 seconds away from wrestling this kid when he hears someone.
“Bye.”
It comes off as a little unnatural, but it’s in more of an awkward ‘I don’t know if I should say goodbye to you right now’ way.
Sukuna turns around. “Oh, wait—”
His hand slides into his pocket, only to find it empty, then realizes it’s in the pocket of his jacket. The side where Yuji’s on and won’t leave. You stay in the place the whole time, wondering if he’s aware of how funny he looks grumbling to himself as he checks all his other pockets.
He eventually finds his business card, then rolls his eyes after realizing he’s about to give you a business card, because he’d rather not tell you he already has your number. To add salt to injury, he didn’t even need to pull his phone out, because the goal was to give you his number.
“Here.” He hands the semi-decent card over for you to take, surprised it’s not more broken down since he’s always leaving them in his pockets, even when he’s throwing his clothes in the washer. “You don’t have to of course, but feel free to reach out if you’re interested in catching up sometime over lunch or something.”
“Yeah, that’d be nice.” You look at the card, flipping it over a couple times. “Um… I don’t actually… need this, though.”
He stares at you for a moment, wondering if it was just some pathetic, last minute excuse to turn him down.
“I already have it,” you shyly admit, handing the card back to him as if it were better off going to someone else. “Satoru gave it to me a couple weeks ago. I just wasn’t sure if you wanted to hear from me.”
“Fair enough.” He shrugs, reluctant to say more— he might be down to catch up, but he’s still not apologizing for his face. “Shoot me a text sometime, then. I wouldn’t mind.”
“Yeah, I will.” You smile a little, trying to hide a bit of the excitement that was starting to bubble up. “Alright, well— it was nice seeing you.”
“Yeah, you too.”
. . . . . .
‘You’re not doing too bad.’
It took around 3 months after the words left Sukuna’s mouth to actually start believing them.
It’s not like your life was crazy interesting now. It just slowly started to fill up with things you looked forward to over time. Whether it be hanging out with others or simply sitting in your living room with a latte you took your time making. Your apartment started to feel more like a home with each new addition you added to it. You were nowhere near done, but you found yourself enjoying the process of casually looking through items and randomly falling in love with different ones.
The newest addition was a painting you saw a year ago and decided not to buy, despite how much you loved it. You stood in that gallery for over an hour, convincing yourself that it would never get that much attention from you again once you took it home. You were convinced that it’d find a way to collect dust in a space that felt as sterile as yours, and left it for someone that had a home where it wouldn’t.
You found it again in a consignment store with a big coffee stain on the side of the canvas. The person who ended up buying it probably got rid of the moment it spilled. They didn’t even bother hanging it up, and most likely had it on some counter before the accident happened. By the time you got to it, it was collecting dust with dozens of other paintings leaned against the wall since they weren’t good enough to be hung up.
You paid less than a quarter of it was originally worth, but a part of you thinks you would’ve purchased it for its original price if it meant you got to take it home. You’ve thought about it nearly everyday since you stepped out of that pristine gallery, after all.
Sukuna stared at it for a while before hanging it up. You can’t remember how the conversation started, but he came over and put it up for you after finding out you were going to do it yourself, claiming you didn’t have the right tools. You probably don’t.
It wasn’t until the canvas was up on the wall when he finally asked the question you had been expecting to get after you caught him looking at it funny.
“That brown stuff on the bottom corner is a part of the whole thing, right?”
“Nope.”
He just stood there and continued staring at the damn thing with you, waiting silently for an explanation that he soon realized he’d never get on his own.
“Are coffee stains some new trend I don’t know about?”
He was dead serious. It was almost funny how he couldn’t believe that you’d just buy something that was stained like that.
“Nope, not a trend.”
He continued to stare at you, so utterly confused as to why you want that thing hung up on your wall when you could just walk into one of those art shops and buy a new one. It’s not like you couldn’t afford it, he’s seen some of the shit you own and you’re clearly not bothered by commas on a price tag.
You eventually told him the story. He probably still didn’t get it, but that didn’t really matter.
“How cute,” he says rather boredly, wondering why you couldn’t just tell him that in the first place. “You didn’t buy it for more than 50% of its price, right?”
You shoot him an annoyed look. “I spent almost an entire year sulking over it, do you seriously think the price of it matters at this point? I wanted it.”
“You probably ended up cursing the damn thing so no one else could have it. People don’t usually spill coffee on paintings.” he says, starting to laugh the longer he thought about it.
You don’t laugh with him, but he does catch the proud look on your face as you walk away, just happy to have it. He walks after you with another question in mind, hoping now was an okay time since he always forgets.
“Mind me asking why you’re just now starting to furnish the place?”
You shrug. “I was just always too tired to get out of bed. If it wasn’t for work, I wasn’t getting up,” you remind him. “Too many choices to make, too. I’d get overwhelmed and stop looking for stuff.”
“Yeah, there’s a lotta shit out there,” he murmurs, helping himself to one of the white claws in your fridge.
The can cracks open and he takes a sip, looking over your living room that’s become a bit more filled in since the first time he came over to help you put your couch together. The place was so empty that he automatically assumed you had recently moved in.
He’s been helpful since Megumi’s birthday— at least he tries to be.
It never feels forced, most of the time it’s just him asking if you wanna come along to a place he was already going to, just to get you out of the house.
He also asks how you’re actually doing, a lot— figuring you were just someone that needed some extra support, given how one lonely, difficult semester made you isolate yourself to the point where you started to believe you weren’t worth missing.
Once, he almost asked how you could’ve ever put him into that category. He loved you, both platonically and not platonically. But he never asked, the past is the past and that’s probably just how it is when someone’s spirit’s in the dumps.
He’s far from a therapist and never has any advice to give, but he was surprisingly good at getting you out of your head— pull you back to reality, without the reality check. You’ve obviously had more than enough of them. It’s why he doesn’t bother being harsh with you, at all. Even during the times he’s come off as more straightforward, you don’t feel any judgement or malice behind his words. The last thing he wanted was to say or do something that made you think you couldn’t give him a call.
It’s probably why you’re so comfortable with having him come over and why you don’t mind telling him certain things, like the fact that you spent most of your free time sleeping at one point. He never bats an eye. He just wants to be around you, like he’s always had.
“Summers’ coming up. Getting anything for the balcony?” he asks, nodding in the direction of its doors.
You turn your head, looking over at the empty space. “What would I even get?”
He’s mid-sip when you ask, but hums in acknowledgment. “Some seating, a little table, maybe a fire pit if you’re feeling extra crazy.”
You fight back a smile, “Oh? Thanks, asshole.”
“You might be a grandma, but I never said there’s nothing wrong with it.”
“I’m trying not to be, okay.” You give him the finger as you walk to the fridge, hoping he didn’t take the last seltzer. Seconds later you’re cracking one open yourself.
He chuckles at the little pout you get on your face when you’re offended. “I’m just fuckin’ with you— you’re fine.”
“I guess,” you murmur, leaving him in the kitchen to go take a seat on the couch.
He trails behind you, leaving enough space between the two of you as he takes a seat on the couch he nearly lost his mind trying to put together. The instructions were in a language so uncommon that most people go about their lives without knowing about it.
“What do you mean you guess?”
“I don’t know,” you murmur. “Kinda feel guilty for all the years I lost, I wish I could get them back.”
“I bet,” he leans back in his seat. “You ever considered making more time for yourself, now?”
“What do you mean?”
“Taking some time off. Could be a week, could be a couple months. You could even try working part time for a little. You have a savings, I’m sure you could get away with taking a break.”
“Oh— yeah, I have actually. The company has really good benefits, though. It’s kinda why I haven’t even tried to leave,” you turn towards him, leaning against the arm rest as you hug your knees. “I’ve been considering asking for a demotion, though.”
You’re not quite sure how Yaga would handle that. You’ve been coming up with different ideas all month— a hybrid schedule, switching to a 4 day work week, maybe leaving early some days, a demotion. You’re sure taking on another role would have its own difficulties, but it’d be easy to handle compared to all you do now. The workload you have really should be split between two people, maybe even three.
“That’d definitely be a lot less work,” he remarks, still shocked at all the shit he has you do.
“A lot less— I’m hoping Yaga agrees to one of them. If not, I might just find some place else. I could probably take a few months off then. Free time does sound nice.”
“Yeah you could sleep in, hang out with anyone who’s free, find a hobby, go on a date—“
His last suggestion gets shut down with a laugh. “Yeah, right.”
“What?” he smirks.
“I suck at dating,” you inform him. “I don’t even know how to anymore.”
He snorts. “That’s a little dramatic, no?”
“It’s true— last time I went on one was three years ago.”
He raises his brows, then flatly asks, “Three?”
“Don’t judge me,” you grumble.
“M’not. It’s just— 3 years of completely nothing?”
“God— obviously.” You hide your face in embarrassment. “You are judging me right now.”
“I’m not,” he laughs, taking another sip. “Just a long time to go without having someone take care of you.”
"Well I slept through most of it anyway so I'm fine,” you roll your eyes, annoyed at how he’d even make a joke like that when he knows you can support yourself just fine without anyone’s help.
“You’re awake right now, though.”
“So?” you scoff.
“I can take care of you, if you want,” he offers.
“Not funny,” you murmur, just about ready to kick his ass out.
At first, he’s confused as to why his little offer had you that offended. Then after a minute, it clicks. Since you refuse to look at him, you miss the amused grin on his face after realizing you two are thinking about two entirely separate things in terms of ‘being taken care of’.
You only finally look at him when he gets up from where he’s sitting and there’s a shit eating smirk on his face, making you think he’s just being a dick and leaving.
Then he takes a seat right next to you, leg just barely brushing against yours.
“What are you d—”
“I think you’re a little confused here,” he says a little too calmly, throwing his arm over the backrest and leaning in way too close.
“Listen, I looked forward to hanging up that painting of yours all day, same goes for all the other stuff I’ve helped you out with.” You feel your cheeks start to warm as a result of the low, honeyed tone he’s using on you. “I really like helping you. It makes you a little happier, and with all the assholes I have to deal with everyday, it makes my day a lot better. So, why not just let me do a little more?”
“I don’t— what are you even talking about right now?” Your words come out all nervous and jumbled, failing to stay calm from how close this guy is.
“I’m talking about all the times I’ve caught you looking at my dick print.”
Your eyes widen in horror and he laughs.
“Yeah, you’re not slick,” he tucks some hair behind your ear and leans in closer. “C’mon— you’re not even at work right now and your mind’s still all over the place trying to find stuff to be stressed about. Aren’t you tired?”
Your heart pounds against your chest as you hesitate to answer. “I mean— yeah.”
“Let me fuck you then,” he murmurs, tracing the backs of his fingers down your arm. “You won’t have to think about anything, won’t have to do anything— just gotta take it. Super easy. Sounds fun, huh?”
“I… I don’t know,” you just barely whisper, shifting in your seat from all the nerves, looking like a deer in headlights.
“I think you do know.” He continues to toy with you as he waits for you to say anything else. Surprise: you never do.
“I’ll stop if you tell me to.”
You look like you’re about to have a panic attack and it’s adorable. “Stop what?”
“This.” He smiles, pressing a soft kiss right under your ear, humming against your skin, not missing the way it makes your breath hitch. Then he presses another one on your jaw, then another, getting closer to your lips and pulling back right before he does, meeting your glazed over, half lidded eyes.
He snakes a hand around the back of your neck and pulls you in, making your lips meet his. The first kiss is slow and gentle, letting you warm up to it. You put your legs down trying to get closer, not expecting for it to grow more heated, too.
An arm wraps around your waist and you're being pulled in to straddle his lap. His big hands roam around your hips and ass as you start to full on make out, grinding you down against something long and hard until you’re desperately panting against each other.
He gives your ass one last squeeze before finding the bottom of your shirt and pulling it up over your head, rushing to unclip your bra and tossing it in whichever direction the shirt went. A soft gasp slips through your lips once you feel the wet heat of his pierced tongue drag a slow stripe over your nipple, not thinking much about the way Sukuna smiled at you afterwards.
You should’ve braced yourself for the level of greed you were about to experience.
Many minutes later, your tits are covered in spit and you’re failing to bite back moans out of self preservation.
And it’s fucking hard.
Sukuna’s groaning and dragging a heavy tongue over each nipple 1, 2, 3, 4 times before wrapping his lips around them and starts sucking. He goes back and forth between each, pulling away with a wet, lewd pop before moving on to the next. At first, he’d replace his mouth with his fingers— rubbing, rolling, and pinching on the sensitive bud so it’s not completely neglected while he works on the other one.
They’re now firmly planted on your hips, because apparently he needs the extra friction. So now your shorts are soaked through and you’re trying not to cum as he continues to push you down back and forth against his cock.
Your fingers are digging into his shoulders, the moans you’re struggling to bite back come out as whines and the one thing that actually pulls one out of you is when Sukuna’s palm cracks down on your ass.
“Come here.”
He pulls you in by the back of your neck and swallows all the little sounds you try not to make with a kiss messier than the last.
The air's hot and heavy once he breaks it. A small string of saliva hangs on and then breaks as you pull away, already looking like a mess while trying to catch your breath.
“Bed?”
“Yeah,” you nod, sounding more desperate.
“Thought so,” he stifles out a laugh as he suddenly gets up, easily taking you with him as he makes the short walk to your bedroom.
He sets you down on the mattress before pulling his shirt over his head. The buckle of his belt lightly clinks as he undoes it to take his pants off, leaving just his boxers on that leave little room for imagination. He leans forward, hooking his fingers over the waistband of your soaked fucking shorts, taking them off along with your panties in one go.
You don’t even get the opportunity to be shy around Sukuna because he's immediately grabbing the backs of your thighs and letting out a low whistle while pulling them apart to get a good look at how wet you already are.
“Shit— look at you,” he groans.
Without warning, he dips his head down in between your thighs, and he licks a long, fat stripe up your slit, not missing the extra friction from the metal ball on his tongue. There’s a shit eating smirk on his face when his head comes up, teasing you as he pushes you back further up the bed to make more room for himself.
“Told you this was fun.”
“Shut up.” You giggle as you watch him get settled back in between your thighs, only for it to die out once he dips his head back down.
He draws a long sigh out of you once he starts to slowly lap at your sensitive clit. He goes at an unhurried pace, just barely using any pressure and you’re sure he’s just doing it to fuck with you. With the way you are right now, the lazily licks are fucking torture, making you squirm around while you clench around nothing.
The more you move, the tighter his grip around the back of your thighs gets, until you find yourself pinned in place as he finally starts to pick up the pace, adding more pressure until that metal ball starts swiping across your clit like you need it to. You focus on it, until it gets ripped away once you finally feel his tongue press flat against your hole and begins dragging heavy stripes up to your clit.
Your breathing grows sharp and uneven, hand moving down to his head, locking strands of hair in between your fingers as drawn out moans start spilling past your lips. He goes from pressing his tongue against your entrance to pushing past it, dipping further and further until deciding to just stay there and fuck you with it.
The shallow thrusts have you squeezing and clenching, back arching off the bed, desperate for more. You nearly let out a pathetic cry when he pulls away, but then he fills the empty space right back up with not one, but two of his fingers. They’re long and thick, and he’s curling them in. The pads of his fingers rub right up against that spot inside that has you seeing stars.
Through half-lidded eyes, you watch as he starts to pump them in and out faster, until a light squelch can be heard. “Oh fuuuck.”
“You like my fingers?” he asks with a low, amused hum.
You nod. “Feels so good— oh my god.”
“I bet— look at how fuckin’ soaked they are from you.” He pulls them all the way out for you to see, then stuffs them back in. He starts curling faster, thumb pressing your clit and rubbing little circles until you’re clenching and whining. “Yeahh— that’s it, show me how good that feels.”
He keeps hitting your sweet spot until something in you shifts, making you close your legs out of instinct, only for him to keep them open so he can keep going.
“Oh my god— fuck— wait!” you cry out.
“What’s wrong, baby? Gonna cum?” Instead of letting up, he goes faster, letting the room continue to fill up with the filthy sounds of his fingers scissoring into your cunt, pushing you over the edge until you give him what he wants.
And he gets it quick. You let out a sharp cry as you gush around him, finally cumming after holding it in from earlier.
“Fuuck yeah, there you go,” he rasps, fingers slowing down as he works you through it.
He waits for you to catch your breath before leaning forward and kissing you a couple times, humming with each one.
“Tired or you wanna keep goin’?” he asks.
You’re still trying to catch your breath as you answer. “Yeah, keep going.”
“Atta girl.”
He pushes himself off the bed to take the boxers off and your eyes widen at his cock that’s bigger than you originally thought it’d be. It springs out of his boxers with multiple piercings and precum smeared all over his darkened red tip.
And of course, you stare for longer than you should.
“You alright?” he asks, sounding cocky as hell, and actually having the right to be.
Taking your eyes off feels impossible— 3 rows of barbells on the underside of his shaft right below his tip, and another one on the underside of his tip. It almost feels wrong, he’s already long and thick.
“Yeah— I just— holy shit.”
“I know.” He says with full confidence as he gets back on the bed and situating himself in between your legs. “Gonna be fun watching you take it.”
He grabs the backs of your knees and spreads your legs further apart, getting a better look at how wet you still are, fighting back a smile knowing it’s from him.
He gives his cock a couple pumps, then looks at you, not sure whether you’re excited or nervous. “You ready?”
You look at him, then back down to the absolute monster he has in his hand, then back up at him.
“Mhm.”
He stares at you for a few seconds, then casually shrugs. “Alright.”
You’ll get used to it.
He runs the head of his cock through your slick folds, tapping it over your clit a couple times, making you a bit more nervous after feeling the cold metal ball from his piercing nudging at your entrance.
He pushes in, and you both have the same reaction to how easy it slides in despite how tight of a fit it was. You take in a sharp breath as he starts to sink in, inch by inch, with no resistance, all while feeling an immediate stretch and the added friction from each piercing.
Once he’s halfway through, he slowly starts to rock his hips back and forth and you find yourself having to bite back on a moan, realizing those piercings were also rubbing back and forth against your walls.
“You doin’ okay?” he raises a brow, clearly enjoying the sight.
“You’re so fucking big,” it almost sounds like a complaint.
“I am,” he hums, leaning down and caging you in with his arms. “I’m gonna push the rest in.”
“How much is there left?”
“You’ll be fine.”
He thrusts right in and you're letting out a shattered gasp. At the same time, he’s humming in satisfaction since he got to watch the whole thing.
“Fuckin’ tight,” he murmurs, giving you a moment to get used to how stuffed you are, stealing a few kisses while he’s at it since he’s not entirely an asshole. “Remember what I said, all you gotta do is take it.”
You don’t get a chance to respond before he’s pulling out all the way and sliding back in, working up a pace as he stuffs you over and over again, dragging those small metal balls right over the spot that made your toes curl.
It still took you a little bit of time getting used to him though, all words dying at your throat once he started to actually fuck you like it was nothing. Feeling betrayed by your body for letting him stretch you so easily like this.
Each drive of his cock has you moaning and gasping, making you cover your mouth trying to hold them in— something he did not like since he pushed your hand away.
Then without warning, he shoves two fingers in your mouth.
“Mmmh— you look good with my fingers shoved in your mouth like this. Now suck.”
You do as he says, swirling your tongue around his digit a few times before he presses them down it, making you softly moan as you sucked on them. He pulls them out with a wet pop and starts muttering in your ear.
“Don’t cover that pretty little mouth again, alright?”
Thrust.
“Fuck— okay,” you whine back.
“Good girl.” He gives you another rough thrust, pulling another choked noise out of you. “Don’t try to hold out on me thinkin’ snot and tears are gonna turn me off, cry on it if you have to. I like it ugly.”
At first you wanted to cry from how fucking mean that was, only to realize that urge to cry may have just been from that one spot he wouldn’t stop hitting, which eventually stopped being overwhelming once you finally get used to him.
“See? That wasn’t so bad now, was it?” he asks, though it was more of a condescending remark rather than a question. “Bet this feels good now, huh?”
“It’s been a while,” you say in an attempt to defend yourself.
“Yeah, no kidding— pussy’s fuckin’ tight,” he says all smug, getting harder at just the thought. “Feels good like this.”
He brings your legs together and throws them over his broad shoulders. Moans start to spill out of your mouth the moment he starts hitting at an angle that manages to hit your clit too. His hips crack against your ass as he picks up the pace, slick spreading past your thighs as he pounds down deeper, bed steadily rocking from all the force behind each thrust.
“Shit— look at how much of a mess you made,” he groans once the wet squelch between you becomes unavoidably louder. “Did you squirt or somethin’? You’re fuckin’ soaked.”
“No. I don’t— nghh— who cares, just keep going.”
He looks at you in amusement, keeping the same pace as he pushes further back against your legs to go deeper, making you nearly squeal. “Is this what’s got you lying about squirting?”
“I didn’t squirt,” you say with an airy laugh. “Fuuck— just feels good.”
“Right,” he mutters slowly as he pushes back against you even more, slowing down until he’s just grinding against you. “What about this?”
It’s a full blown mating press at this point.
“Mhm— yeahh.” Your lips curl into a small smile. “Better, actually.”
“Good,” he hums.
He leans down to press his lips against yours while slowly picking up the pace again, soaking up all the sighs and soft moans he pulls out of you from the deep strokes of his cock, letting the base of it rub against your clit while his tip mushes against that special little spot inside.
The slow, lazy kisses go on for as long as they can, and for you, it’s when your teeth threaten to clash against each other each time his hips snap against you. By then, Sukuna’s going harder. He pulls all the way back, then drives back in— the force behind each thrust growing greater than the last.
“F-fuck— Kuna, that’s—”
“What? Too much?”
“No, no— keep going,” you damn near start pleading with him, feeling a little bit of pressure start build. “Don’t stop— please, I think I’m gonna—“
Your cunt stretches helplessly around him, feeling every inch and vein he stuffs into you over and over again as he fucks you with reckless abandon. The sight’s nothing but obscene as he fills the room with the sounds of him pounding you senseless.
“What’s wrong, baby?” he asks, honeyed and condescending. “Can’t take it?”
“I don’t– fuck– I don’t know.” Your words are cut off by sharp sudden gasps, feeling something unfamiliar build up. It’s not until he gives you one particularly rough thrust when tears start streaming down your cheeks.
“You poor thing.” If you hadn’t known any better, he sounded quite pleased with himself. He leans down to lick a fresh tear streaming down your cheek before going back to business. “Look at you, getting fucked so good that it’s making you cry. You’re probably close, aren’t ya?”
You take in a sharp breath, wondering how bad it would be if you did. You already thought you came. Instead, Sukuna’s right and he’s letting one of your legs back down, leaning in close and cradling your head while he continues to absolutely ruin you.
“Cum for me,” he murmurs. His fingers trail down to your clit and starts rubbing over it with just the perfect amount of pressure, making clenching like fucking crazy. “Thaaat’s it— c’mon. Give it to me.”
He drags his heavy cock all the way out with a wet schlick, then slams back in— again and again and again— pushing you over the edge until your nails are digging into his back and you’re breaking out into a cry.
You’re gushing around his cock and he keeps drilling into you like he’s trying to work as much as he can out of you— just powering through it. This is the hardest you’ve ever cum in your life, you’re fucking sobbing and he’s just encouraging it with the way he licks a stripe up your cheek, groaning about how fucking hot you look crying on his cock.
“Oh my g-god— I-I can’t— ffuck it’s too much—” your nails start to claw down his back as he drives you into overstimulation.
“I know— I’m so fuckin’ close,” he husks out, and you can tell he’s not entirely all here anymore. “Shhiittt almost there— keep squeezing me like that, baby— yeahh just like that,” his hips desperately slam into you, deep groans start to rumble out of his chest as he chases his own relief. “Fuck— ffuuck.”
He lets out the most drawn out guttural groan once it hits him. He slams in, burying his cock deep inside of you and flooding your walls with so much cum that it starts to spill out while he grinds every last drop of it out.
He pulls out but keeps you caged in underneath you, pressing lazy kisses against your lips with short uneven breaths in between, skin damp and glistening from sweat. It takes a moment to come back to reality, and for someone that doesn’t even know where to start, you’re surprisingly comfortable with the silence between you.
It eventually ends, though. You’re the first to break it.
“Did you still want me to go out on those dates you were talking about?”
Immediately he lets out a breathy laugh. “If you don’t mind me trying to fight them, then sure.”
. . . . . .
Six Months Later
You walk step inside Sukuna’s office, giddier than usual with the small pink cake you bought after handing in your resignation letter to Yaga. His feet are kicked up on the cherry oak wood desk and you doubt he’s doing anything work related. But he’s the boss, who’s going to yell at him? He does sit up straight once he sees you, though, ready to hear the news.
Unfortunately, he doesn’t get to hear it right away since you just had to look at the wall shelves and catch sight of something that wiped the smile off your face.
“Why is Yuji’s face crossed off in that photo?”
He rolls his eyes, “don’t worry, it’s whiteboard marker.”
“But why would you do that?” you continue to interrogate Sukuna, because unlucky for him, you two are the best of friends now.
Jin visited him earlier today and brought Yuji along. He started off the visit strong by pointing to Sukuna and asking his father ‘Does Uncle have a reezding hairline, too?’ and eventually took a look at the protein snacks he had in the corner, which made him look Sukuna up and down, and go “you eat too much.”
Sukuna rubs his temple as he grows annoyed again. “He called me fat and bald, so I told him we weren’t family anymore and crossed his face out to prove it.”
Despite the words that come out of Yuji’s mouth, the kid loves him in all of his grumpiness.
“So you made him cry?”
Yuji cried so hard that started dry heaving and nearly threw up. “No,” he grimaces. “He just pouted and said sorry.”
The apology being, ‘No, PLEASE! I’m sorry, I'm SORRY,’ and, ‘I LIED— huhuhuhu my tummy hurts, yuji gonna frow up— I’m sorry’.
You look at him rather suspiciously as you grab a couple forks from his little snack station in the corner, but let it go this time.
He takes your silence as an opportunity to change the subject completely. “How’d your boss take the news?”
“Oh my god, he was distraught,” you reveal, still surprised over how panicked he looked when you turned in your resignation letter.
He waves a dismissive hand, believing it’s the least he deserved for not trying to meet you halfway when trying to cut some of your hours down and refusing to demote you.
“You’ll forget all about it after sleeping in tomorrow,” he reassures you before taking his first bite of cake.
“Yeah— I,” you give a nervous laugh, “okay, so about that.”
He stops chewing and just stares at you.
“I’m gonna stay with them.”
“What?” he almost snaps. “We’re going on vacation in a few weeks. I— what the fuck? What did you get a fuckin’ cake for then?!”
“We’re still going! He’s giving me that time off.”
“How charitable of him.” He snorts out a bitter laugh, then goes back to be mad. “I thought you hated that fuckin’ place?!”
“I did! But he offered to shorten my hours and said I could work from home.”
That piece of information does nothing for Sukuna, who is grumbling profanities under his breath, acting like he’s the one being forced to stay there. His words start going in one ear and out the other after telling yourself he’ll get it eventually, and take a bite out of the victory cake since you also got a small raise, despite the decrease in hours.
“Are you listening?”
“What?” you look up and ask, still chewing on the food.
“Tch– nothing.” Sukuna takes his aggression out on the cake by stabbing the damn thing when getting more. “He shoulda’ given you all that before you tried to quit if you were that important. Hell— he shouldn’t have dumped all that work on you in the first place.”
“He’s a greedy old man that’s hungry for money,” you remind him. “What else would you expect from him?”
Sukuna’s delusional and does this thing where he just assumes the world sees you the same way he does, and then when it doesn’t, he gets offended. Last week at the grocery store, someone reached for the produce in front of you and he snapped at them for not saying excuse me. Then he snapped at them again for not having any patience, given how you would’ve eventually moved.
“Whatever,” he gets up from his seat to grab a water from the mini-fridge and takes a sip, but before sitting back down, he stops next to you and gets at eye level. “If Mr. Crabs calls you while we’re gone, I’m ripping that phone out of your hand and cussing him the fuck out, you hear me?”
You suppress a laugh. “Loud and clear.”
“Good,” he says, stealing a quick kiss from you. “Proud of you.”
The sincerity in his tone pulls a smile out of you. “Thanks.”
He glances at the door, notices it’s locked, then places a hand on your thigh when the sudden realization that there was no one that could fire him hits him.
He gives it a squeeze. You already know what he’s thinking.
“Seriously? You can’t wait until we're at home?”
“I’ll make it quick.”
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best sukuna fic ive read so far
What? Like it's Hard?
Chapter 6 | Series mlist
Top student. Perfect grades. Rich, sporty, artistic — you never came across something you couldn’t solve. And hell, life itself respected you for that. No, you weren’t cocky — far from it. Timid, even. You earned people’s respect through quiet effort, not loud confidence. But the moment you graduated and stepped foot into university, life decided to play a different game. It gave you what you’d secretly longed for all this time. A challenge. And did you pass it? Well… how about no?
pairing: nerdjo x nerdreader
warnings: none
wc: 4.6k
If not for what you needed to prepare for your presentation, you’d be dancing around all day. Why? Because today, this very special day, is the day that you’ll be saved from the torturous, embarrassing thoughts on the boy next door.
The mirror’s bored of you, the ground tired of you pacing around all day, and you? Were restless from night to day. But instead of listening to satoru’s ‘light caffeine’ advice, you decided to bathe yourself in that liquid. You were going to be one reason less connected to him afterall, why not all let go?
At least that’s what you try to tell yourself.
Right as you finished stuffing your notes into your bag, as if timed, the doorbell rang. An ugly truth, you didn’t need to open it to know who’s on the other side.
The door creaked as you slung your bag over your shoulder. “That excited to leave?” you raised a brow at him, stepping out.
He chuckled, “Its the big day, can’t let your short legs make us late huh?” he teased, earning an immediate kick in the knees.
“Shut up satoru, we both have our lines to focus on.” you eyed him. “Hell, did you even practice?”
He shrugged, “Depends.”
You halted your steps immediately, turning toward him with the most offended expression you could muster. “What do you mean depends?”
He shrugged again, “Depends on what practice you’re aiming at,”
Satoru was clearly messing with you. Normally you’d catch it instantly, but after all the late-night rehearsing and caffeine buzzing through your system, your brain obviously fried up a little bit. Still, he wasn’t entirely lying. He had practiced. Just… not only for the presentation.
You shook your head, “nevermind…” you dismissed him all of a sudden.
He raised a brow. Now look who got so much moodier today?
“You know what happens if you’re the reason for a bad grade Satoru.” you turned away from him and kept on walking at your own pace despite a little flutter in your heart.
Another kind of practice? You were fried, sure. But not fried to the point where you can’t depict what that could foreshadow.
It was just a day apart from the so known bus failure, yet you were feeling antsy again. As in the feeling you get when you know today wasn't just any other day. And to satoru, it really isn't any other day. Not for him.
⎯⎯⎯
The bus arrived swiftly as you two teased your way in as usual. The bus driver nodded as he muttered something about noise levels and lovey-dovey teenagers under his breath.
You sat your but down quickly, not wanting to stand for 10 minutes. And as unusual as how you started your day, he slid in right next to you.
“Choose another—“
“There’s none left.” He cut you off.
You blinked in disbelief.
Liar.
You weren’t blind to see at least another 10 seats available. When you shot him the look, he only shrugged.
“I’m giving you extra safety,” he said casually. “Who knows who might slide in next to you?”
That was… strange, because despite the times of forced proximity, Satoru was anything but the protective kind. But your brain — currently seventy percent caffeine and thirty percent exhaustion — decided not to dig deeper. So you pressed forward.
“Now be honest,” you said, turning toward him. “Did you study?”
He looked at you with a cheeky grin, “It’s all in here.” He tapped the side of his head a few times.
You stared at him flatly. “That thing’s full of poo.” Satoru gasped in mock offense. “Now be honest,” you continued. “Did you practice?”
He huffed dramatically, slouching deeper into the seat like a whining kid.
“Stop pressing,” he complained. “If you keep doing that, all my well-planned notes might fall right out of this small brain.”
You snorted. “Not wrong about the small part.” Pulling out your laptop, you turned slightly toward him. “Now I’m serious,” you said. “Show me your script.”
Satrou blinked. Not because he didn’t understand you, no. This was not you. This you was a you without sleep and a you that was fed with caffeine and caffeine only. Your ideas? Weird. Your way of speaking? Also weird. Your quick change of topics and moods? Never weirder. But with all those combined, to him, it was weirdly… cute.
He blinked again, as if generating a response required extra processing. “It’s a fifteen-minute bus ride,” he said slowly. “And you want me to show you everything I’ve got in here?”
“It takes ten seconds,” you replied immediately. “And I only need another five minutes to go through your genius lines, Einstein.”
If he wasn’t busy looking at how beautiful you look with sunlight on your features, he would’ve complied, but because he was distracted, very distracted, he decided to play another game. A mind game.
Satoru paused for a moment, then suddenly leaned closer.
You felt your breath hitch.
“If I show you,” he leaned even closer, “You’ll stop worrying?”
Despite being extremely out of breath, you were somehow able to keep a straight face and a smooth voice. A win for you.
“Depends if it’s actually good.”
He backed away, looking at you with pouty lips, “Harsh meanie.”
But instead of pulling out a script, he simply leaned back in his seat, crossing his arms behind his head like he had zero concerns in the world.
“I do have zero concerns in the world,” you blinked. “And yes, you said that out loud.” he glanced at you, “But relax, I told you already,” his blue eyes flicked over to you again, “We’re getting an A.”
You stared at him. “You’re unbelievably confident for someone who refuses to prove anything.”
“That’s because,” he said lazily, “you’re doing the presentation with me.” he straightened up, “and besides, bold of you to think a genius like me will fail,” he smirked.
“If you tank this presentation…”
“…you’ll kick my other knee too?”
You didn’t answer. But the murderous look you gave him said enough.
⎯⎯⎯
You should’ve saved your voice on the bus earlier because holy genius, he wasn’t lying.
The lines he delivered could be described as nothing but holy. And weirdly enough, you found that weirdly… hot. You could tell all he did was prepare bullet points and memorise them; all the fancy explanations were improvisation. And somehow, by whatever magic he pulled, it worked.
And you? Yeah, you weren’t the only one captivated by his lines and confidence.
“So leukemia,” Satoru said smoothly, pacing a little in front of the screen, “a disease that kills millions every year—yet one that modern medicine has slowly begun pushing back against.” he stop pacing and faced the class, “So the job of finding out a complete cure,” he said with a dramatic pause, “will be left to someone far more qualified than us.” A ripple of small laughter went across the room. “Preferably people who didn’t finish this presentation at two in the morning.” More laughter.
You stood beside him, half-listening, half-staring. Because this was clearly not the same idiot who had been whining on the bus 15 minutes ago.
“Now, future-non-leukemia-researchers, any questions?” he paused, doing a quick skim of the room before continuing, “Then now,” he bowed slightly and you follow, “Thank you. And if you do have any other questions left that you didn’t ask today, please, do not ask us. We’re just some really busy folks.” He pulled a cheeky grin, then stepped away from the front of the class as you tagged along like a lost puppy.
Because what else would you do? You were in uttermost awe. Not only you, but the class was also impressed by his presentation. It’s Harvard, yes, the standards are high, yes, but to still breach those standards just by improvising? He might’ve made your cheeks burn a little bit. But what can you say? As a self-proclaimed sapiosexual, you were dangerously weak to intelligence. And to him? Satoru’s usual nature made it very, very easy for him to slip past your defenses.
As you stepped down from the front, the professor was already rapid firing praises at both of you. You just nodded, because you knew you did well, but the star that shines even brighter than the sun this morning was Satoru. He was the honored one here, that’s no lie.
⎯⎯⎯
Exactly one class and a weird look from Satoru later, you found yourself magically transported to a cafe. Yes, very true, after 1000 whines, exactly 28 complains, you were magically dragged to a cafe. So obviously with you agreeing to join him, Satoru think nothing less of this being magic.
“Why are we here again?” You gave Satoru a questioning look as he brought the drinks back to your little booth.
He just shrugged, “Celebrating our project successes, ex-partner.”
You scoffed, looking at the latte he places in front of you. “Is it–“
“Extra whipped cream less ice lattes? Yes it is,”
“Are you a stalker?”
“No,”
“Then how the freaking hell, do you know my usual order?” You raised a brow, clearly impressed.
“Didn’t I remind you just yesterday of taking less doze of these?” He paused for a brief moment, like gathering a heavy thought, before replying, “I guess I just tend to pay attention to things that I care about.”
“Stop with the april fools, I get it, you’re totally in love with me.” You dragged a sarcastic tone despite your heart turning cartwheels.
Today is april fools, but the way he said made it seem like it’s valentines. Because Satoru didn’t do honesty, he didn’t do the caring part of a relationship. But when it comes to you, like his forever same life motto, he found it reasonable.
“What’s with all the new moods I’m seeing today?” he sat down, taking a sip of his americano without ever breaking eye contact with you. “Caffeine already beginning to fry you?”
You groaned, “Very likely,” you shot him a look, “And yet here you are, giving me more.”
He scoffs, “What? So you want those strawberry matchas thats on the menu?” He jokes, expecting an obvious no. But who was he judging? It was the moody and caffeine you, you were nowhere near predictable.
With your pouty lips, you mumbled “Yeah…”
Satoru was not expecting the sarcasm mask to drop so fast in replace of what he could call his final destination view. Your pouty side. “Seriously?” He asked, a little grin appearing on his face.
You nodded, already eyeing other couples who had matchas on their table.
Satoru stared at you for a second. Then he laughed under his breath, already standing up. “You’re unbelievable.”
You didn’t even argue, just watched him walk back to the counter, fingers still loosely wrapped around your drink. Your heart hadn’t calmed down since earlier.
I guess I just tend to pay attention to things that I care about.
It was April Fools. It had to be a joke.
Right?
…Right?
You exhaled slowly, pressing your lips together, trying to ignore the way your chest felt too tight, too warm, too full.
This was exactly what you didn’t want. Now that the presentation was smoothly done, you were back to the main goal that you somehow, sometime, somewhat made with yourself. You were supposed to be getting over him. Not whatever this was.
Satoru came back a minute later, placing the strawberry matcha in front of you with a soft thunk.
“There,” he said, sliding back into his seat. “Princess treatment for today only.”
You glanced at the drink, then at him. Now that was new. You know you’ve thought that a thousand times, but new tricks or to you ‘moods’ he has pulled has never actually failed to slide you off the edge a bit.
“…Thanks.” you shot him a suspicious look, pouty side gone and again replaced by this judgy one, the one he was more used to dealing with. “You’re unusually nice today.”
“And you’re unusually weird today.”
You huffed, poking at the whipped cream with your straw. “You’ve said that like five times already.”
“And I’ll say it again,” he replied. “You’re weird.”
He was about to say avoidant, but if that was said, then he wouldn’t know how to handle the next mood you pull. The party was just last week, but it seems at though those ivory satin looks will be the death of him. And his white button-up will be the death of you.
There were many things unsaid between the two of you, you both know, but no one ever actually had enough courage to break the ice. But today, because he had many things prepared, and it was also april fools (perfect timing).
He cleared his throat, “This place is packed today. Didn’t know couples hangout on april fools.”
You gave him a second look, “You,” you emphasized, “Out of all people,” you dragged, “Will be the last person to not know.”
Satoru smirked, unfazed. “What? I’m observant, not invested.”
“Yeah right,” you muttered.
Silence settled for a moment — thin, fragile.
He didn’t fill it with jokes this time. Instead, he watched you. Finding the right time to do his “preparation”. And you felt it.
“…Why are you looking at me like that?” you asked, not meeting his eyes.
“Like what?”
“Like you’re about to say something annoying.”
A pause. “What if I am?”
“Then it better not be a dad joke,” you deadpan, clearly not sensing his internal mind melting by every second. “Actually… whatever it is, keep it in that dull skull of yours. I’m not in the mood today anyways,”
He leaned back slightly, studying you like he was trying to solve something instead of tease it (he was).
“…That’s the problem,” he said.
You frowned. “What is?”
“You haven’t been ‘in the mood’ for a while now.”
That made you straighten. Because that idiot is obviously gone. And the man who got your mind occupied for more than a week is back. This time though, with prepaeration.
“We literally just finished a presentation,” you deflected. “I’m tired.”
“Not that.”
You blinked. Heart racing a little faster, cheeks burning a little hotter. “Then what?”
Satoru exhaled, running a hand through his hair — a rare sign he was actually thinking instead of just saying whatever came to mind.
“I’ve been thinking for a while now, and please, let me finish.” He paused to take a breath, “You’ve been moody, mainly because of caffeine, but a part of me, a part of me hoped that it was because of me?” His eyes finally found yours, and you were already staring. A what the fuck are you plotting? expression taking over your face.
“Let me explain.” He took a second breath, “Since the party, we can’t lie that we’ve both felt different.” Your respiratory system shut down completely. “And since the party, you’ve been… pulling away from me?” He took the third breath, “Maybe it’s because you’re scared, you’re contemplating, you’re thinking. Just like I am. But to me, it feels like I’m the only one stepping forward on this. Even though the things unsaid are probably louder than the ones that are said themselves.”
Okay, now you’re really struggling to breathe. “But the insane thing I caught myself doing is that I’ll keep stepping. Keep trying to bring you with me, and I wouldn’t mind at all.”
Your heart now has also begun to work weirdly, its beat is so loud it could be damaging your eardrums at this point.
“And for all the things I’ve said that had made you think and spiral. I mean them, because I found it reasonable. And the thing I feel that’s most insane? Yeah, big surprise. The girl next door, I’m falling in love with you.”
His fourth breath. “I like you. All of you. All your moods. All your nagging. All your everything. And lady, I’m not joking when I say that.”
He finally huffed out a loud breath, the confident, arrogant boy nowhere to be found. Only this hopeless romantic who has become a tomato, praying so hard he wouldn’t get ghosted by his crush. Nothing different from a 12 year old.
You were also a tomato with wide eyes. Words choked in your throat, because jokes aside, you didn’t know Satoru had this in him.
But this, even though you’ve hoped for it for so long, felt so so wrong. This isn’t right. You’re not supposed to fall in love, not with a playboy atleast. Your brain nagged you nobut your heart fought for yes. But because as the person you are, you chose the more intelligent organ, the one you decided was more stable, more immune by what you’re experiencing.
“No,” you shook your head after what felt like years, a quiet, nervous laugh slipping out. “No, you don’t get to do that today. It’s literally april fools.”
“I know what day it is.”
“Then act like it,” you pushed, even though your voice was already wavering, your heart beginning to fight harder. “Because I’m not playing along, Satoru.”
“I’m not joking.” The words landed softly. Too soft. And that scared you more.
You looked at him again, really looked this time, and there was no grin, no smirk, no escape route in his expression.
Just him. Just the boy who spent all his efforts racing through exams, textbooks, and lectures just to find a way to wiggle through your heart.
“I pay attention to you,” he said, slower now. “Not because I’m bored. Not because it’s funny. But because I want to.”
Your throat went deadly dry. Heart slowly cracking.
“I remember your orders. I remember your schedule. I remember the way you get when you don’t sleep, or when you’re stressed, or when you’re trying too hard to pretend you’re not.” A pause. “I remember everything.”
Your fingers tightened around your cup, eyes widening impossibly wider.
“And yeah,” he let out a small breath, like a laugh at himself, “maybe I joke a lot. Maybe I don’t make it obvious.” His gaze softened. “But you like a little maybe, so I thought you’d notice anyway.”
You didn’t answer. Because you did notice and that, that was the problem. You do love his maybes, but no one else’s. It’s like he has you pinned down on a board, knowing exactly what you want and think. Truth be told, you found that about him extra attractive as if the way he’s talking and the way he looks right now isn’t captivating enough, he’s earning extra points for sure.
Out of all things you’d be expecting to happen today, it won’t be the cafe nor will it be the confession that basically slapped itself on the table and forced you to process it. But this annoying part of your mind still denies it, like april fools was too big of an excuse to not belive his confession despite his obvious honesty.
Satoru himself is still in disbelief that he managed to say all that. Yes it was a bit rushed compared to the ones he practiced in the mirror but he managed and that was all that mattered. Satoru probably earned the title of top yearner because since he decided to confess to you, he has stopped completely. As in all the girls who were lining up outside his house completely faded away. It has lessened, yes, but it never actually stopped. Now it has. That ivory satin night with your breathtaking looks, that was the moment he could’ve bent down on one knee. No, actually, he would’ve bent down when he saw your pouty hoodie study session with that messy bun on, no extra masks on display. Just you. Just the girl he fell in love with, reminding him day by day that all he did was reasonable.
Hell, if you were having breathing problems he was already being plugged into a life-support device. The silence was loud, too loud for his heart to handle. But as the person you were, you didn’t really let him wait any longer.
“I did notice but..” You it your lip, trying to find a way to not make this more awkward than it already is. And yes, when faced with a problem, the number 1 solution is to always flee. “Happy april fools?”
Satoru brows inched a little closer together, “You think I’ld do all that,” he said slowly, “just for a joke?”
Your fake smile faltered. If fleeing didn’t work, tring to stay silent didn’t work, then you had to pull your last resort, the one you despised — admitting. You hated it because it proves you’re vulnerable, and this out of all times is the part you can’t afford to be seen as vulnerable. Not when one decision would change everything and one thing said would hurt a thousand different ways.
“I just… don’t know what you’d do,” you admitted, “That’s the problem.”
His face softened slightly, “You don’t need to,” He reached for your hand, but not holding yet, just close. “I’ll be here to guide you, I promise, I swear,”
“But you don’t do this Satoru.” You inched your hand away, “Y’know, your reputation makes it hard for me to not doubt you.”
His brows furrowed once more, “What do you mean by this?”
“Loving. Honesty. All those things that make this feel real,” you said, the words slipping out before you could stop them. And once they did, there was no going back. “You have girls at your doorstep, begging the smartest and hottest guy on campus to give them a night. And I, your neighbor, fail to sleep through every one of those nights.” You swallowed, forcing yourself to keep going. “You say things, things that make my hurt stutter, things that make my belly go weird, but never, ever, ever have I had a clear signal. It’s like a cat and mouse game, Satoru. We’re both onto each other, but never have we actually caught one another.” You feel him tense, jaw ticking in place. “So yes, I don’t know what to do, Satoru.” you paused for a small moment, then added quietly, “And I’d rather not get hurt.”
Silence.
“I meant what I said.”
Your stomach dropped. You wanted him. You knew that, and he did too. But to risk it? You’re not confident enough yet. A big– No huge, part of you believes every word he said. Every moment he gave hints, you prayed he meant it. But still, there was always this one, one terrifying and horribly annoying part of you that refuses to let up. To give in to what your heart has to say. It hurts. You’re struggling. But the confession is left unanswered. Sitting in the middle of you both, heavy, weighing on both your shoulders at once.
The night at the party, the times he flirted with you, the way he looked at you. It all felt too real. Too real to be actually real. Fuck it doesn’t even make sense, but who were you to say when your thoughts itself has no meaning? Your brain was already frying, yet here you were, trying to solve what could become the hardest question of your life. To agree to your so-called crush, whom you don’t yet trust or to play it safe and yearn.
“I’m not saying no,” You finally look at him, “Neither am I saying yes. But Satoru, I need time, I don’t yet have it in me to… risk myself like that.”
His throat tightened.
That word, risk, landed hard on him. And suddenly, all the girls, all the reputation felt more like an embarrassment. He had no motive to hurt you. Never. Yet you’re talking to him like he’s a weapon, beneficial yet harmful. And that, out of all things, hurt him the most. Since when did he start taking love seriously? Since when did he start caring? But it doesn’t matter, not when you, the person who stepped in and changed every line in his life decided that you’d rather be sad because you’re lonely than because of him. And that realization punched him in the gut.
“I’m not rushing you,” He finally spoke, heart threatening to break. “And I’ll give you space,” One piece fell off. “And I’ll act like today didn’t happen,” Another piece broke off. “Just… please, don’t leave me unanswered…” His heart fully shattered.
Now there you were, sitting across from him, heart breaking just the same, all the moments that kept you occupied for days replaced by this agonizing thought. Just like that, you two sat in silence, no eye contact, no exchange, just trying to hold on onto the final moments of a friendship neither one of you are willing to ruin because of a relationship.
Yes you did like a little maybe, but after today you feel like certainty is always the way to go. And it really makes you wonder, How Long does it Take a Heart to Heal?
⎯⎯⎯
You sat home that night in your Pjs, replaying everything that happened.
I like you. All of you. All your moods. All your nagging. All your everything.
The girl next door, I’m falling in love with you.
The words replayed. Over and over. You sat on your bed, staring at nothing, your heart still refusing to settle. You pressed your lips together. Because the worst part wasn’t that you didn’t believe him. It was that you did, and that terrified you.
You fell back onto your bed, staring up at the ceiling, thoughts spiralling, looping, refusing to rest. Because now there was no going back to before. No pretending you didn’t know. No ignoring the way your heart reacted to him. And no clear answer to what came next.
Your fingers tightened around your pillow, suddenly reaching for your phone, fingers automatically finding his name on your contacts. The last message, ‘sleep well, no extra caffeine’ made your heart sink deeper. You hated how he cared so much. Actually, you loved that he cared so much. But hated that you just can’t accept it. Your fingers hover across the message, then the call button, then typed ‘I think I like you too’ but then deleted it. 2 weeks to 3 months, that’s how long it takes a heart to heal. And you aren’t sure if you can even survive another day.
Just one wall apart, Satoru sat on the edge of his bed, water dripping from his hair as he came out of his 1 hour shower where he spent his time thinking so deeply about what other reasonables was he going to do to wiggle even closer to your heart.
I’d rather not get hurt.
Satoru let out a quiet breath, elbows resting on his knees, phone loose in his hand. He could text you. He could call. He could even walk over. Hell, it was just one wall apart. But for the first time, Satoru didn’t move, because this wasn’t something he could joke his way through.
Not with you.
His thumb hovered over your name, but not pressing. Just hoping that the way things changed today will disappear and he can find another approach to break through your tough walls. But he suddenly remembered your words.
“…Time and distance, huh,” he murmured. A small, tired smile tugged at his lips. “Guess I can do that.”
Even if it killed him a little, even if it broke him more than he could explain, he would do anything but not respect your choices. The man he is, top ideal, that was no lie.
He leaned back against his bed, staring up at the same ceiling you were just on the other side of. So close, yet not close enough. And for the first time since everything started… neither of you pressed your hands on the wall.
a/n: after 3 months... your girl has finally been revived, but still managed to post this 2 days late... it was actually supposed to be posted on April fools, but look who forgot, and since the teaser comes out a day before... I had to post it today. Thanks for waiting so long!! Hope yall enjoy!!
tags: @cynosure-gaze @happyyya
dividers: @cursed-carmine
What? Like it's Hard?
Chapter 6 (teaser) - How Long Does it Take a Heart to Heal? | Series mlist
Top student. Perfect grades. Rich, sporty, artistic — you never came across something you couldn’t solve. And hell, life itself respected you for that. No, you weren’t cocky — far from it. Timid, even. You earned people’s respect through quiet effort, not loud confidence. But the moment you graduated and stepped foot into university, life decided to play a different game. It gave you what you’d secretly longed for all this time. A challenge. And did you pass it? Well… how about no?
“I’ve been thinking for a while now, and please, let me finish.” He paused to take a breath, “You’ve been moody, mainly because of caffeine, but a part of me, a part of me hoped that it was because of me?” His eyes finally found yours, and you were already staring. A what the fuck are you plotting? expression taking over your face.
“Let me explain.” He took a second breath, “Since the party, we can’t lie that we’ve both felt different.” Your respiratory system shut down completely. “And since the party, you’ve been… pulling away from me?” He took the third breath, “Maybe it’s because you’re scared, you’re contemplating, you’re thinking. Just like I am. But to me, it feels like I’m the only one stepping forward on this. Even though the things unsaid are probably louder than the ones that are said themselves.” Okay, now you’re really struggling to breathe. “But the insane thing I caught myself doing is that I’ll keep stepping. Keep trying to bring you with me, and I wouldn’t mind at all.”
Your heart now has also begun to work weirdly, it’s beat is so loud it could be damaging your eardrums at this point.
“And for all the things I’ve said that had made you think and spiral. I mean them, because I found it reasonable. And the thing I feel that’s most insane? Yeah, big surprise. The girl next door, I’m falling in love with you.”
posted.
tags: @cynosure-gaze @happyyya
dividers: @cursed-carmine
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fluff - dad!toji swearing in front of baby!gumi
it’s a beautiful sunday. you’re in the kitchen, humming some song while making pancakes. the whole apartment smells like syrup and butter. sunlight is streaming through the window.
everything feels soft. peaceful. everything is good.
toji’s in the living room. sprawled across the floor in sweatpants. one leg stretched out, the other one bent so baby gumi can sit on his knee.
gumi’s currently holding a block. he’s staring at it earnestly. very earnestly. his tiny brows are furrowed in concentration as he tries to stack the block on top of another.
he lifts it carefully. places it down. but the stupid block slides off.
gumi grunts. he tries again. the stupid block slides off again. how rude! his chubby little arms flail in frustration.
toji watches him with amusement.
“you got it, kid,” he mutters. “just like i showed you.”
gumi grunts louder, determined. he lifts the block with both little hands and slams it down.
of course, the tower collapses instantly.
“hmph,” he mutters.
toji leans in. “you gonna let that block win?”
gumi looks up at his dad and blinks. then he smacks the block with his hand. and toji, without even thinking, just laughs and says-
“hell yeah. fuck that block up, kid.”
you freeze in the kitchen. blink. slowly turning around to face your husband.
“…toji.”
“what?”
and then-
baby gumi looks up. round little face breaking out into a grin. cheeks so round they resemble apples. and repeats in his softest and produest baby voice-
“fuh’ da bwock.”
silence.
you drop your spatula. toji’s soul leaves his body.
“oh shit-”
“TOJI!”
“fuck- wait, shit- WAIT- NO-”
you’re scrambling around the counter now. smacking toji with a dishtowel. while megumi, utterly delighted by the chaos, happily bounces on his daddy’s leg.
“fuh! fuh! bwock!!! fuh! fuh bwock!”
toji’s hands are up like he’s being arrested. “i didn’t mean to say it! it just slipped out!”
“you have corrupted our son! he’s not even 2 and he’s already learnt the f-word!” you shriek.
gumi giggles like this whole thing is the funniest thing to ever happen in his short life. toji quickly scoops megumi up like a football. clutching the squishy baby to his chest.
“alright, buddy, no more saying that word,” he whispers urgently.
“FUH! FUH! FUH!” gumi squawks like a delighted parrot.
your right eye twitches. toji carefully glances at you.
“okay, bud, listen,” he murmurs. “no swearing in front of mama, please. otherwise your mama will kill me and you won’t have a papa.”
“fuh,” gumi says proudly while patting toji’s cheek.
you inhale slowly while walking back to the kitchen. toji - who used to kill sorcerers for a living - literally flinches.
“toji, you’re grounded. for life.” you mutter. flipping a pancake and slapping it onto his plate with unnecessary force.
toji just grins sheepishly. then he leans over and presses a quick apologetic kiss to your cheek.
“whatever you say, baby.”
A/N: hello guys i'm back! but this was written ages ago, i just edited it! i hope if i just keep on posting my previously written ones, i'll gain the motivation to start rewriting again!!! ANYWAY I LOVE ALL OF U!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OUR DEAR YOONGI!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR LITTLE RAPPER!!! I wish you the very best best best of luck for your upcoming year. AND for the songs you've helped produce in the new coming album. We loved the new updates you gave us of your lives, so please, HAVE AN AMAZINGG BIRDTHDAYYY
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pairing: gojo x milf!reader
synopsis: a story in which a depressed satoru gets sent to the future and sees just how bright it eventually becomes. meanwhile, you're reminded of how much of a brat your husband used to be when you first started dating.
cw: MDNI, time travel, smut w/ a touch of angst bc we LOVE plot, satoru's actually so mean at first lol, dad!jo (him and reader share a daughter together)
notes: hiiii we got 6.5k words for this one ❤️ comm for the lovely @sadlittlecucumber i hope u like!!!!
song rec: drag path — twenty one pilots
Satoru’s life ended up being a fucking bummer.
His best friend’s a mass murderer. Shoko’s gone off to do her own thing with medicine. Nanami left to go become a banker or whatever. Ijichi’s… Ijichi. Oh, and Haibara’s dead. Everyone who’s alive seems to have moved on— so should Satoru, honestly. But times proved that to be quite difficult.
He’s starting to understand where Suguru was coming from with the whole exorcise-absorb mantra. Except for him, it was exorcise and destroy, leaving every cursed site he’s stepped foot on looking like god himself decided to hit the reset button to obliterate the place.
Nobody says anything about it. He’s probably the closest thing to a god. Despite having tried his hardest all throughout his youth to fit in and act as if he was just like everyone else, people were still terrified to fuck with him.
And despite the chaos he’s constantly surrounded by— mainly from his own doing— the days still find a way to bleed into each other, morphing into a never ending cycle of boredom and violence. It’s quite the combo. The higher ups are lucky he’s too tired to plot anything behind their backs.
He’s exhausted.
The past is too blurry. The future’s too bleak.
Gojo was bound to fuck up sooner or later. The thought of him finally snapping like Suguru did, dangling in the back of his mind, taunting him.
He didn’t snap. It’s so much worse than that. At least in the eyes of the arrogant boy who got bested by, what he assumed to be a grade two curse because of how pudgy and stupid it looked. The thing that caught him lacking looked like a fucking blob fish that struggled with crippling anxiety, how the hell was he supposed to know that it could mess with timeof all things?
One moment he’s laughing at the way it looks, the next he’s in the complete dark.
That was the first time he’s smiled in months, by the way.
“Huh?” Satoru huffs out, trying to look around before eventually realizing that he has a blindfold on, and rips it off in annoyance. “Don’t tell me that thing knocked me out,” he begins to grumble to himself. It’d explain why he had a blindfold on… but then he realized he was in a completely different outfit, one that you didn’t put on someone who was currently in rest and recovery.
He highly doubts Shoko would even change him, anyway, at least not for this.
“Oh hey, you’re home.”
Home?
He looks around, and all he knows is this isn’t the dorm he’s continued to stay in after graduation, purely due to the fact that he was already out on missions for up to 18 hours each day. Not to mention that the penthouse he was currently standing in was too clean to be his. Too warm. Way too comfortable.
You already knew there was something deeply off in those first few seconds of looking into his eyes. This wasn’t your husband— this was the hot mess you met and still fell in love with all those years ago.
You tilt your head to the side, more curious than cautious, “Everything alright?”
“Yeah,” he snorts, literally the worst liar ever. “Why wouldn’t it be?”
“I don’t know,” you hum, holding eye contact long enough to leave him feeling a bit unsettled. “You tell me.”
First of all, who the fuck do you think you are speaking to him like that?
Second, who even are you?
Something big and shiny on your finger catches his attention, then he looks at his own hand that has an equally shiny band around his ring finger.
Fuck.
“Honey–”
Satoru physically cringes at the pet name, giving himself away once again.
“I’m not Satoru,” he blurts out, rubbing his eyes in frustration. “I mean, I am, but I’m not— FUCK– some fuckin’ curse blasted me into the future, and I need to go back.”
Well, that was quick. He’s always quick to fold under pressure when it comes to you— it’s something he’s unaware of though, as he fights back the urge to start pacing back and forth.
There’s a light smack from your mouth when you go to open it, only for the words to never even come, let alone die out. Nothing about this surprises you. This is not the craziest thing that’s happened since you’ve met Satoru.
Your lips thin into a smile as you take a deep breath, knowing you had no choice but to accept your new circumstances.
“Okay.”
“Okay?” He raises a brow at how you just… accepted it.
“Yeah… I believe it.” You respond flatly, then point at him, casually motioning your finger up and down. “Your attitude kinda sucked when we first met.”
He grimaces, taken aback by the statement. “No, it doesn’t–”
“You also liked to argue, too.”
“Okay— whatever,” he waves a dismissive hand, not at all interested in hearing what else you had to say. At this point, it just sounded like you wanted to shit on him, something he actually doesn’t have any fucking time for right now. “You’re a sorcerer… right?”
“No.”
“Christ.” Satoru sighs, turning on his heel. “You’re fuckin’ useless—“
You scoff, more humored than offended. “Where are you going?”
“To figure this shit out!” he snaps, throwing his arms out as he turns around to face you.
“Okay,” you shrug, still way too calm for Satoru’s liking, as it pisses him off even more. “If you don’t get it all figured out tonight, you can always come back. We have a guest room.”
“Yeah, thanks.” He huffs out a bitter laugh, as if that was the dumbest suggestion he’s ever heard. “I appreciate the offer.”
–
“Yaga” Satoru storms into the principal’s office, ignoring all his cursed stuffed animals, but noticing what he’s done with his hair. “What the fuck happened to you?”
The principal's brows pinch together, wishing he had locked the door to his office. Satoru fucked with him enough today by showing up to a meeting 20 minutes late with some sugary frap in his hand, and now he’s storming into his office, insulting him out of nowhere.
“Actually, nevemind.” Satoru waves a hand to stop him from even answering his question, reminding himself not to get sidetracked right now. “Look, I need your help. I got sent into the future by some curse, and I need to get back.”
Yaga inhales sharply. “What are you even talking about?”
“Exactly what I just said! I’m from 2009! Not whatever age I am now—”
“31.”
Satoru throws up a little in his mouth. “Send me back.”
Yaga lets out a long, disappointed sigh. It’s always something with Satoru. Always. Having to deal with the younger version of him was a painful reminder that he’s been dealing with his bullshit for well over a decade now. Nothing surprises him anymore.
“Let me see if some other windows would be willing to help look through the library. I’m sure you’ll be able to find information on what kind of curse you got hit with.”
“Thank you,” Satoru groans, still not very pleased by everyone’s reactions thus far, but grateful that he can at least get somewhere with Yaga… unlike a certain somebody.
Hours later, he finds himself at the school’s dusty, unkept library. It looks worse than it originally looked before he walked in. Books sprawled everywhere. Research papers were scattered all over the tables and floor. Assistants running around in every direction, more than half of them terrified at the total 180 in Satoru’s attitude.
“W-we can’t find anything,” Ijichi says, too old to be acting this scared in Satoru’s opinion.
He hums, elbows still resting on his knees, not bothering to sit up. “Hey, Ijichi?”
Ijichi gulped loudly, managing to annoy the world’s strongest sorcerer even more. “...Yes?”
“How are you even more incompetent now than you were before?”
“I tried my best! I swear!”
“Well, it’s not good enough— I’m still here!” he snaps at the nervous wreck of a man. Thank fucking god Ijichi listened to him and just became a window. He sucks at it too, but at least it’s easier for this dumbass to avoid death. “God— what the fuck am I supposed to do now?!”
“This is just one of the libraries, there’s more! And some in Kyoto too, that we’ll have the Kyoto branch check out.”
“Do whatever you need to do. I’m just letting you know right now that if I'm not back by tomorrow, you better watch the fuck out.”
The threat is followed by complete dead silence, aside from a certain someone's breath catching in horror.
“Me?!” Ijichi squeaks out.
The sorcerer doesn’t bother answering that and instead walks away, grumbling something insulting under his breath, just in complete and utter disbelief over how Ijichi truly hasn’t changed.
—
You figured your husband would eventually come back, so you set some food aside for him, and now you’re sitting at the dinner table, trying not to laugh at the pout on his face as he picks at his dinner with the chopsticks in his hand.
“Is the food good?”
“Sure.”
“I can warm that up for you, if you want?” you ask, barely trying to hide your amusement.
“No thanks,” he curtly responds before shoving another piece of karaage into his mouth. He’s known to have a sweet tooth, but chicken karaage’s probably his favorite food, savory wise. You almost want to tell him that he’s allowed to enjoy food even if his day hasn’t gone the way he had planned. “I’d appreciate it if you stopped staring.”
Your lips twitch, threatening to break out into a fit of laughter. “Right, sorry.”
“Mommy…? Is Daddy home yet?”
Oh great. As if the day couldn’t get any worse— now there’s a child.
“Yeah,” you respond in a tentative tone, shooting Satoru a look that screams ‘behave or else’, and even though you are currently a stranger to him, it intimidates him enough to behave for the time being.
A little girl, no older than 4 years old, walks into the kitchen and Satoru’s eyes nearly bulge out of his head upon seeing his daughter. It’s pretty obvious she’s his with her baby blue eyes and stark white hair. Her facial features are entirely yours, though. It’s strange to see.
“Hey… kiddo—” he awkwardly says, not really sure how to address the little girl. You clear your throat, mouthing ‘princess’ when he looks at you, because your daughter also happens to have her dad’s attitude. “I mean princess.”
It’s hilarious how unnatural it sounds right now when he was the one who started calling her that the moment you two took her home from the hospital.
“You pomis to wead bedtime stowie,” she starts to pout— same exact way he does.
“Did I?” He gives the girl a sympathetic look, albeit fake.
“Yeah,” she frowns as she walks up to you, giving him the world’s nastiest side eye. “Liar.”
Why is that the one word she’s able to enunciate correctly? She didn’t even stutter.
“Yeah— I was a little busy with work today,” he murmurs, as if she knew what that even meant. With the glare she was giving him, he doubted she’d even care if he broke down what work and the importance of it was. “Maybe mommy can read to you tonight?”
Sai wasn’t having that.
Satoru spent the end of his night reading her favorite book to her. Multiple times. He almost asked if it was some form of punishment for not upholding a promise he didn’t technically make himself, but decided against it in fear that she’d make him read it one more time. Sai fell asleep… eventually. Despite there being no way to prove it, he knows that the little girl forced herself to stay up out of pure spite.
But still, he finds himself smiling as he thinks about his nightmare of a future, not wiping it off quickly enough when you lightly knock on the guest bedroom door.
“Here’s some jammys for the night.” You smile back as you walk up and hand him a pair of sweats and a white t-shirt, both neatly folded up. “Figured you wouldn’t want to sleep in your work clothes.”
“Oh uh— thanks.” He clears his throat and forces out a laugh, pushing through the embarrassment of getting caught smiling to himself.
You’re giving him that look again. The one that’s mixed with amusement and a bit of fondness, where you look like you’re about to start making fun of him, but never do. Satoru would rather die than admit it makes him nervous.
“What?”
There’s a small pause as your smile grows. “Do you like your kid?”
“She’s weird.”
“Yeah, no— you wouldn’t believe who she got that from.”
“Fuck off.” A laugh easily slips through his lips this time, unable to stay serious at the thought of her inheriting even just a quarter of the traits he had as a child. Then it grows quiet again as he realizes she probably has the freedom to be a kid.
He wants to ask, but you beat him to it with a statement that answered the question he had in mind.
“Your duties as her father don’t end just because you managed to time travel by the way,” you say playfully, though he knows you’re being dead serious.
He can only guess what other horrors that little girl will subject him to for the rest of his time here. To put it simply, she’s not afraid of Dad.
For once, somebody doesn’t look at him as a god to fear.
—
It’s been over a month.
Ijichi and the rest of the windows are just as useless as they were when they first started trying to find answers. All that’s changed is that Nanami knows, and doesn’t seem to be too thrilled about the fact that he is now involved.
But still, the search for the fix to his predicament continues, turning every library and warehouse upside down. That’s all they could really do— aside from asking the elders for assistance of some sort.
Over his dead body.
Knowing they’d most likely do more harm than good, everyone’s agreed to keep this all a little secret from them.
So all that’s left to do, or rather forced to do, is to be patient. It’s hard. Satoru doesn’t do patient— he’s the type to snap his fingers and have a solution magically appear right before his eyes. You can only imagine how difficult it’s been for him to accept that he can’t immediately get what he wants right now.
Not to mention the fact that he had to continue working throughout all of this, but that wasn’t very surprising.
Now, what was surprising was learning that he has his weekends completely to himself. If anything, he assumed he’d just work more as time went on, but no. Turns out he threatened to kill the higher-ups if they didn’t let him have that when you two got married.
Satoru looks over your body once.
Twice.
He totally understands his future self.
He looks again for a third time, and you just so conveniently turn around, showing off your cute, frilly little apron covered in flour streaks.
It’s Sunday— you’ve been baking sweet treats all morning, and he wishes he had been a little nicer to you. Especially a couple of days ago when he snapped at you.
You had found him sitting alone on the balcony, head in his hands from yet another day of failure.
“Hey… any good news?”
“No,” he said impatiently. “If there was, I wouldn’t fucking be here right now.”
“Fair enough.” Your voice took a dip as you looked at the ground, allowing yourself to feel a little hurt for a moment before trying to lift the mood again. “Well… me and Sai stopped by your favorite bakery and got you the cookies you like if you wanted some—“
“No— no,” Satoru cut you off. “I don’t want your fucking cookies. I don’t want to do a family movie night where all we watch is Ms. Rachel. I don’t want to read some book about a mouse trying to become a fucking painter over and over again. I don’t want ANY of it. I want to fucking go home— what part about that do you not get?”
You tried to stand as straight as possible despite your shoulders growing heavier, pushing against the small frown threatening to carve itself across your face. You forgot how mean he used to be, at least during that first year of dating him. It only stings more because the man you married would never raise his voice like that, and you remind yourself that this isn’t him.
After a long pause, he looked up at you and immediately felt guilt wash over him.
“I didn’t mean that,” he tried to meet your eyes as he began to backtrack. “I’m sorry, I just— fuck. I didn’t mean any of that—”
“It’s fine.” You forced yourself to look at him again and smile. “I’ll uh… give you some space.”
The one thing about Satoru is that he doesn’t apologize. Like ever. So, one could only imagine how painfully awkward it was later that night when he knocked on your bedroom door to say he was sorry. It didn’t help that you were in a paper-thin silk slip, skin glistening from the lotion you rubbed all over it— he spent half his time trying not to stare at your tits. Had you been anyone else, it wouldn’t have felt as genuine.
But thank fuck he apologized, you probably would’ve spent all day ignoring him.
You raise a brow, and his cheeks start to pink. “What are you staring at?”
“Nothing, you just–” he awkwardly gestures at your entire body, “there’s flour all over you.”
It almost sounds like he’s offended by it. He kind of is. You keep your foot on his fucking neck— he doesn’t even know why he came out here.
“Oh, right— 'cause messes have always bothered you,” you lean over the island ever so slightly. The pink on his cheeks darkens as you do, unable to control his eyes from drifting down to your cleavage. And while he’s not exactly ashamed of looking— you are his wife after all— he can’t help but be a little flustered.
He’s always had a thing for milfs.
Especially when said milf is talking about messes— he knows a couple of places he could make a mess on right now.
“Nah,” he rests his elbows on the marble counter as a playful grin stretches across his face. “This is nothing compared to how I like it.”
You tilt your head, a small laugh escaping you as you rest your chin over your palm, curious to see where this conversation will get you.
“How do you like it?” you ask, as if you didn’t already know how filthy and depraved he could get when he’s alone in a room with you.
And you fucking miss that.
He opens his mouth to respond.
Then you hear your daughter whimpering about waking up alone. It’s nothing new, and you revert back to mom mode as you watch her turn the corner and waddle towards you.
Satoru, on the other hand, is not used to this. The slightly bruised laugh he lets out just barely masks his desire to fucking scream. What a fucking cockblock— no wonder you only have one kid.
His kid completely ignores his existence as she wraps herself around your leg, continuing to whimper despite no actual tears streaming down her cheeks. “I had a nightmawh.”
Meanwhile, there’s Satoru, who has yet to wake up from his very own nightmare. He internally sighs, then attempts to grab her attention because it doesn’t feel very good watching her give it all to you. “You wanna share a muffin with daddy?”
It’s starting to sound more natural.
“Y-yeah,” she sniffles.
Minutes later, she’s sitting on his lap, absolutely demolishing the blueberry muffin they ended up splitting— a complete 180. He couldn’t be mad, even if he tried.
His little girl was a dream.
—
Month two. Ijichi is still as useless as ever. He stopped complaining to you about him, though. You noticed he doesn’t talk about going back to his original timeline all that much anymore.
It’s not like Satoru’s given up hope, he’s just more present, as if he finally realized that wallowing in self-pity wasn’t going to send him back any faster. He’s unknowingly more like his future self— laid back, not a care in the world.
He’s even sleeping in for once. It’s not that hard though when Sai’s gone for the day. She seemed to care more about getting the hell out of the house with her grandparents than greeting her father a good morning. You didn’t push her to, either— figuring Satoru needed the sleep. He always does.
It’s too bad that his phone started blowing up at around 10:00 am. Unfortunately for you, he left his phone in the living room, leaving you to get up and grab it since the master bedroom was the closest room to it. With how thick the walls are, you doubt he’d even hear it.
With a long sigh, you rise from bed, rubbing the sleep off your eyes as you snatch the stupid phone off the coffee table.
The snores coming from Satoru reach your ears before you even open the door. You have to hold back a laugh as you walk in and take a look at him. Face down, his long limbs sprawled over the bed, messy white hair sticking out in all directions.
You reach out and place a gentle hand on his shoulder, surprised infinity is off.
“Toru?” He stirs a bit, and you cautiously attempt to wake him up again. “Toru— someone’s been trying to call you for the past 10 minutes now.”
He lifts his head, eyes still sealed shut as he murmurs, “Who?”
“Uhh,” you look at the screen, unsure of who it might be. “Your contact name for them is nerd.”
You know it’s not Ijichi because his contact name is “courage 🐶” in his phone. Someone else must've annoyed Satoru for him to change yet another contact.
Satoru shoves his head back into the pillow and groans before taking the phone off your hands.
It’s Nanami. He, of all people, should know now is not the time to be blowing up his phone right now because he is fucking sleeping. It’s a Saturday for fucks sake.
Satoru sighs and accepts the call, grumbling into the phone. “What?”
Nanami cuts straight to the chase, as he would rather be doing anything else right now.
“How long are you planning on hiding your secret from the higher-ups?” he asks in a clipped tone.
Satoru rubs his eyes, too tired to return the same sense of urgency his friend seems to have at the moment. “Forever.”
“Don’t give me that.” A vein pops up on the side of the usually stoic man’s forehead. “They asked me about you this morning. They know something’s up. I can’t keep covering for you if it means my own safety’s on the line.”
“You really haven’t changed, have you?” It’s more of a statement than a question.
“What the fuck is that supposed to mean—“
“You’ll be fine,” Satoru cuts him off. “They’re always up my ass anyway. I doubt they’re even suspicious. They just don’t know how to mind their own fuckin’ business. Seriously. You’re worrying over nothing right now.”
“I swear to god Gojo, if you—“
“Kay’ good night.”
Click.
Nanami’s probably fuming right now, but he’ll get over it. Satoru wanted to enjoy this. Lying in a comfy bed, surrounded by nothing but peace and quiet. He closes his eyes and stretches a bit, then rests his hands behind his head.
He would’ve forgotten that you were still sitting at the edge of the bed had you not lightly cleared your throat. One eye opens to look at you, then closes. The last thing he wants to do is share the reason why Nanami had been blowing up his phone all morning.
“Just because you can’t see me doesn’t mean I’m not here.” You cross your arms. “What was that all about?”
“Nothin’,” he easily says. “Just Nanami being Nanami— the guy’s a fuckin’ stickler for no reason.”
“That’s a little rude, no?” you chastise him.
“So is waking me up.”
“Sai wakes you up all the time, though.”
“Sai’s a ball of sunshine,” he says, quickly coming to her defense. “Not a grown man with depression— where is she by the way?”
“She’s spending the afternoon with my parents.”
Both eyes open this time, and stay open. “Why didn’t you go with them?”
“No way,” you wave a hand. “I need a break, too.”
“Yeah, no— I’m sure,” he agrees, feeling flustered all the sudden.
And Satoru being Satoru, he doesn’t do a very good job of hiding it, once again forgetting that you can read him better than anyone else can.
You smile, scooching closer, “You good there?”
“Yeah, m’fine,” he murmurs, trying not to shift around too much.
“I can take care of that, you know.”
“What?”
“That.” You look down at the boner he’s been trying to hide since finding out it’s just you two here.
“That’s not—“ His brain straight up short-circuits. “You don’t think that’s weird?”
“No.” You continue to inch forward, getting closer to him. “Do you think it’s weird?”
“No— never,” he shakes his head, answering a little too fast. “Fuck— won’t future me get mad?”
“Not at all. The most he’d probably do is make me show him what we did.”
“Make you show him?” he repeats after you in disbelief.
“Is that a problem?”
“No, that’s— that’s fuckin’ hot.”
Minutes later, you’re leaning forward with your hand wrapped around his base, and his breath catches as you start to slowly pump his cock.
“Feel good?”
His lids lower as he hums, “yeah— keep going.”
You lean forward, letting a string of spit fall from your lips to the tip of his cock, letting it mix with the precum that was already beading down from it. The wet sounds of you stroking him begin to grow, making the heat in between your legs start to pool.
“Can I sit on it?” You look up at him, batting your lashes as you innocently ask.
“Please,” he blurts out, just about ready to start begging you to.
You’d be lying if you said you weren’t just as eager as him after all the weeks spent pretending like you don’t notice the way he stares at you. Lustfully. The slip you’re wearing happens to be extra short today, so you forego stripping down and practically pounce on him. Your soaked panties grazing over his rock-hard length as you straddle him, letting yourself get comfortable while Satoru grows impatient.
His hands find themselves planted on your hips and pull you down. A low groan escapes him as he grinds you against him. “God— fuck me. Please.”
“Well, since you’re being so sweet—”
You reach down, hooking a finger into the fabric of your panties, pulling them to the side. He’s already lining himself up with your entrance, teasing your hole as he runs his tip through your folds, collecting all the slick. His lips part as he watches in awe at how damn wet you are.
His head tips back as you lower yourself, groaning and rambling to himself as if you weren’t there to hear it all.
"Fuck. You’re so hot.” His words come out strained as he watches you start to take him inch by inch, slowly working yourself open. “So fuckin’ tight, too.”
“Mmm— forgot how big you are.” Your voice is all soft and breathy from the fullness, nails slowly digging into his abs as you bottom out.
It takes a minute to adjust— it has been 3 months after all. But then you finally roll your hips, and Satoru almost starts singing praises at how good you are at that— lifting your hips all the way up and throwing them back, taking all of him.
"Fuck yeah– just like that," he breathes, fingers digging into the flesh of your hips. "Feels so fucking good."
You murmur back a measly, “kay,” already dizzy from the stretch. You’re able to keep up the pace on your own for a bit, until you feel his grip on you tighten and the sounds of skin slapping against his start to grow as he starts to help you out.
You wouldn’t exactly call it help though, not when he ended up doing all the work— holding you steady while he practically bounces you on his cock, pulling more and more moans out of you as the head of his cock repeatedly kissed your sweet spot with almost no effort.
"You take it so good," he groans, pupils blown wide as he starts to feel himself lose control, snapping his hips up a little harder than the last. He wants more, he always wants more— so he pulls you forward and pulls your straps down far enough for your tits to spill out. "Perfect fuckin’ tits. Been thinking about these for weeks."
You let out a surprised gasp as he pops a nipple in his mouth with no warning. You fully believe him with the way he starts sucking and swirling and flicking his tongue over your sensitive bud, all while snapping his hips up harder.
He pulls back with a pop, looking up at you for approval. “Was that good?”
“Mhm.” There’s a fucked out expression on your face as you weakly nod. “Harder.”
“You want me to fuck you harder?”
“Yeah.”
Something in him snaps. Eager to please you, he flips you over and folds you underneath him— grabbing the back of your knees and pinning them to your chest so he can drive his cock into you deeper.
“Better?”
He drives his hips forward again, knocking the air out of your lungs. “God— yes.”
“I can’t— fuck— can’t believe you’re all mine, can’t believe I get to have you,” he starts to ramble as the sounds of him absolutely pounding into you fill the room. “You’re so fuckin’ perfect— all of you.”
He crashes his lips into yours— the kiss is messy, powered by hunger. Satoru’s always been overwhelming, but it’s been years since it’s been this emotionally intense. He fucks you like he needs you, like he’s been waiting for you all his life.
Your walls begin to squeeze and flutter around his cock, pulling another groan out of him. “You close?”
“Yeah,” you whine, feeling the pressure begin to coil. “Keep going.”
He’s close too, you can tell by how sloppy his thrusts have grown, no longer trying to control himself as he starts chasing after both of your releases. He shoves his face into the crook of your neck and fucks you faster, harder— balls slapping against your ass with each lewd wet squelch.
Your orgasm hits you hard after one particularly rough thrust. Scratching at his back as a cry tears through you, and it only goes straight to his dick, not even realizing just how overstimulated you are from the way he drills into you.
“Fuck.” It’s just one word that comes out of his mouth after realizing how hard he’s about to fucking cum. He bites into your shoulder as his balls start to tighten, squeezing his eyes shut as he braces himself.
When it happens, it’s a lot. He shoves himself deep inside of you, unaware of all the weight he puts on you as hot spurts of cum begin to flood your walls. Slowly grinding against you, letting your tight pussy milk the rest of him.
You’re wrecked by the end of it. You both are— lids tired and heavy, bodies sore and out of breath.
And in the end, you just let yourself fall asleep, unaware of the soft kiss pressed against your temple as he watched you.
—
It’s month three, and Satoru doesn’t want to go back.
What was the point? It’s not like he had anyone or anything to go back to. Jujutsu Society never crumbled from him getting shot into the future. Would it really be that bad if he just never went back and continued on with his life from here?
He hasn’t uttered a word about it out loud, but the way he completely stopped asking Yaga and Ijichi for updates was telling of where he was at mentally.
Acceptance.
He likes his life here.
You’ve come to your own conclusion after these last three months.
No wonder why he was so hot and cold when you were trying to get to know him. Satoru got a little taste of genuine comfort, only for it to be ripped away from him sometime before you two actually met. It explains all the times you wondered why he even tried with you, despite being too emotionally inept to even be in a relationship. He probably went through the beginning of your relationship thinking you could disappear at any second.
With that being said, he can’t stay here. As much as you’d love to continue being the source of comfort for this version of Satoru, he needs to experience the last year he spent alone before meeting you. He needs to feel cautious around you. He needs to try and fail at opening up a handful of times before getting comfortable with the idea of truly being vulnerable with a person. Getting over that element of fear he had towards getting close to others is what made him a husband and father— he couldn’t just skip that part of his life.
You have no idea how you’re going to tell him that, though. You’re not one to kick a sick puppy, especially one as cute as him. He’s so happy here with you and Sai that the thought of doing so makes your chest ache.
He’s having a tea party with Sai right now, limbs way too long to sit in the little stool she pulled up for him to sit in. He drinks imaginary tea from the plastic pink cup she hands him, and your chest aches some more. You force yourself to look away before the tears start.
You’d do the next 11 years all over again if you could.
“Hey, Honey?” Satoru calls out to you.
There’s a pause before you whip your head around— it’s been months since he’s called you that. There’s nothing but warmth and fondness in his eyes as his gaze meets yours. “Why is Nanami’s number saved under ‘nerd’ in my phone?”
He’s back.
“I don’t know,” you laugh, despite the tear falling down your cheek. “You tell me.”
—
Satoru didn’t want to believe it when everything around him went dark once again. It’s not until his feet touch the ground with a soft thud and he finds himself back in his messy, cold dorm when reality slapped him across the face.
Something between a sob and a gut-wrenching scream rips from his throat. Grabbing the round shades he had hoped he’d never have to fucking wear again, he rips them off his face and sends it crashing into the wall, breaking into a hundred little pieces. He doesn’t stop. Doesn’t give himself a chance to even breathe or think before raising his hand and releasing a purple orb with just a flick of his fingers.
Impulsive. Reckless. Deadly.
Satoru was fucking devastated.
Nobody knew what triggered him that night. All they knew was that the east wing of the school looked like it had been hit by an asteroid by the time he calmed down. He didn’t speak to anyone for a good two weeks following the incident. Everyone wants to think he was lucky the explosion didn’t have any casualties, but then they remembered who he was: Satoru fucking Gojo.
God’s don’t get punished, nor do natural disasters— it’s hard to tell which one he was at this point.
One Year Later
“If it’s that small of a curse, why are you sending me there?” Satoru continues to argue with one of the new managers over the phone.
It wasn’t that small of a curse. It was a grade one. But still, given the sorcerer’s title as a special grade, he was overqualified for the job.
“I’m sorry, we just don’t have anyone available to take on the case at the moment.” The young woman continues to apologize over the phone. “I think we might have a grade 3 available for the job. I- I can check—”
“Save it.” Satoru cuts her off. He wasn’t that heartless to push the case off to some 15 year old. That’s exactly how Haibara died. “Send me the address.”
The mission was nothing short of an inconvenience for him. He liked a challenge when exorcising curses, and the damn thing didn’t even put up a fucking fight. He traveled 2 hours to get here just for that? Unbelievable.
He wasn’t ready to leave and sit on a train for another 2 hours just yet, so he decided to walk around the town for a bit.
It was a cute place, a little quiet. Kinda boring. That’s never a bad thing, though. Lots of mom and pop shops, a few coffee shops scattered around, one of which he decided to try. A little sugar’s always good, at least to him.
The smell of vanilla and roasted coffee beans hit him as he walked into the place. There was a decent amount of customers inside. Not too much to feel crowded, but enough to stay busy. He keeps his eyes on the menu the entire time. The line moves fast, and he figures out what he wants just in time.
“And what can I get started for you today?”
His eyes are still on the screen, reading the item off the menu.
“Can I get a white chocolate mocha frappuccino, with an extra pump of…” his words die out, and his eyes widen as he finally looks at the girl taking his order. “Hey.”
“Hi.” You laugh at the way this stranger loses his train of thought. “Extra pump of white chocolate syrup?”
“Yeah.” He exhales, unable to rip his eye off you as you write the words down on the plastic cup with a sharpie.
“Name for the order?”
“Go– Satoru,” he corrects himself. “It’s Satoru.”
He’s a little awkward, but you still find him quite charming and smile. “Alright, Satoru. Your order should be ready in about 10 minutes.”
“Awesome. Thanks,” he nods rather pathetically, then goes to sit in an empty corner of the shop with only one thought in mind:
He has 10 minutes to come up with what to say to get your number.
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For WLIH readers...
i am sorry (again) i know i have been delaying this since forever, but since i finished XIXXX, i realized im like 12 homework behind in maths which i have to finish 🥲. spoiler: im not yet done and i have a maths cycle test coming up, thats the reason for such a long delay. trust me, im already planning chapter 6 and i have loads of ideas for another oneshot — one for gojo and one for oikawa. please hang with me.. just a little more, it's coming, i promise!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OUR DEAREST SUNSHINE HOBI!!!
Always the brightest in the room, you're the sunshine that everyone awaits. May this year be EXTRA kind and successful to you. Don't forget, you're always loved, no matter the place nor time, we will always support and love you, so will your members (though you do tend to get scary during practices).
HAVE AN AMAZING BIRTHDAYY.
when you havent even finished your old fic and its been more than a month since you updated but your mind is already flooding with ideas of a new fic....
Valentines
the sun peeked through your curtains, sunlight spilling through the gaps. You felt warmth at your neck and small weight on your waist.
"Morning love," he murmured into your neck, where he already placed thousands of pecks before you awoke. His chest pressed against your back, hands instinctively moving you closer to him, nuzzling his face further into your neck and sniffing in your scent.
today's a Saturday and also valentines day — a day where couples alike held hands across the lightened streets with hearts in their eyes and smiles on their faces. You and him were no different. A day for you two, a day to honor your significant other, a day to be loved.
"Any plans for today?" He whispered into your temple now, having to moved up there to place his chin above your head.
You hummed, "no, this is fine." And it was. Just this moment was fine by itself. No fancy restaurants, no dramatic cinema dates, no plans, just pure and raw love. You two always liked these moments more than any other, he usually always busy and you were too. You two rarely had time for each other, so these moments were counted as rare. Which made it extra special. The feeling of waking up and still feeling warmth on the other side of the bed is always a gift. And today, it was your gift to each other.
"So we're just gonna be cozy in bed the whole day?" He whispered into your hair.
You chuckled, "maybe."
He pulled you tighter to him, "fine... but you didnt say morning to me yet though," you didnt need to look to know he's already pouting.
"Hm, morning." You purposely teased him.
he sat up abruptly, turning you on your back. "Excuse me lady, morning to who?" He raised a brow, arms crossed.
You giggled, "you?"
"And i am?" His brow raised even higher, pouting even harder.
"You're you." You shrugged, testing how long you can keep teasing him before he makes you fold.
A huff of disbelief escapes him, "meanie," he mumbled flopping back next to you.
"Your meanie." You commented, feeling him smile against your neck.
"You love me anyways," he said, cuddling you again, this time more like bear hugging, rocking you back and forth.
"I always do," you smiled, turning around to face him properly, "love you," you said, placing a soft peck against his lips. Just five years back and you wouldn't have been able to say that, your blessed that you can now.
"Love you more," he kissed you back, this time deeper, "happy valentines babe," he whispered against your lips. Hands already wrapping around your waist to adjust your back down as he hovered above, kissing you impossibly deeper, mouth yearning for more.
Today's valentines, a day to be loved. And you are loved, by the one who put a ring on your finger, who said his prayers in the church and who's hands are now already undoing your blouse …
It's Valentines — Your Girl is Getting Double Presents
Sweet 13
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚢, 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚌𝚞𝚙𝚒𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚊𝚒𝚛,
𝚆𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚘𝚗 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚝.
𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎,
𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚜 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝.
𝙸’𝚖 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚠, 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚙𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚍,
𝚂𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚎.
𝙽𝚘𝚝 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚊 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍, 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚕𝚍,
𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚏𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎.
𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚎𝚗’𝚜 𝚊 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚐𝚎 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚜𝚖𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚕,
𝙵𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙸 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗.
𝙸’𝚖 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚕,
𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝙸’𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗.
𝚂𝚘 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎𝚜; 𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚎,
𝚂𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚖𝚜, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘, 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛, 𝚍𝚘 𝙸 𝚝𝚘𝚘.
dividers: @/diviniyae @/wispyxfae
𝐗𝐈𝐗𝐗𝐗 — swimmer!gojo x streetartist!reader
summary: When a secret street artist is exposed, her quiet life falls apart overnight. Betrayed by someone she trusted and dragged into the public eye, she’s left to face the chaos alone—until one person refuses to let her be silenced.
a/n: this is honestly soo messy, dramatic, unrealistic and rushed. it's my first oneshot and im trying out lots of new things this year since im in year 8 and it's honestly the chillest year i'll ever have, so I look forward to being able to write to a better standard. pls feel free to correct me or give me feedback since i have lots to learn. Also, this is not proofread and may contain lots of mistakes bc it's mostly written at 1am :))
warnings: a little swearing, plot twist (kind of)
wc: 17k
"Hah! Tricked you!" she laughed. "did you get it?"
The rain from earlier this morning might've made it wet, probably smudged. Better check on it later.
"Did you get it?"
God, all that effort for some rain, what a waste of supplies.
Clap!
A pair hands clapped infront of your eyes — your friend managed to reel your thought-filled mind back to reality.
"What?"
She sighed, "I said, did you get it?"
You rolled your eyes, annoyance visible in your expression. She's been on this for the last 10 minutes.
"It was such an easy riddle, how come a smarty like you didnt get it? It's a carpet! Brought by the yard, worn by the foot."
You shrugged, "maybe because smarties like me don't get tied up in stupidity."
That made her smile drop. A Really? expression taking over her face.
"You're off today," she tilted her head.
"C'mon, you say that everyday." You groaned, "That just means I'm born this way."
"Not a chance, you'd usually attempt to answer my riddles, not zone out! Or whatever you call that expression" she waved, pointing vaguely at your annoyed and frustrated face. "You're wanting to know about the latest campus drip are you?"
"What?"
"Vandalism. Well, I wouldn't call it vandalism. But there was this huugeee graffiti on the science building this morning." She explained.
"did it look smudged?" You blurted out before you could stop yourself.
"Smudged?" She sounded suprised. God, you'd really need to control that mouth of yours sometime. "Girl, have you even taken a look at the thing? Its beautiful." She deadpanned.
Ah, so it's fine then.
"Hm, not yet. What, people hate it?" you feighned innocence.
"Absoloutely not! But a few geeks did get it reported though."
Those fuckers.
"What's on it then?"
"It's like a written quote or something—“
“Einstein’s bicycle quote?” you cut in.
“Oh?” She raised a brow. “Aren’t you up to date? Thought you hadn’t seen it yet.”
You hummed. “Active news reader.”
“Yeah, but anyways, it’s really creative. As in, the artist– oh! The artist! The 1920 street artist or something.” Your brows lifted, surprised how Lexi managed to even remember the name. Lexi had started as just a friend you clicked with, until she became your best one. Having to have hopped along during orientation day, being the only extra-extroverted person in the crowd, she managed to grab on a few people, but you were the only one who has actually survived her daily yappings.
“You do realize it’s not 1920 but 19-20 right?” You said. “The artist just put them together as XIXXX.”
“Ohhh,” she nodded. “That makes sense. ’Cause technically, 1920 in Roman numerals would be… MCMXX, correct?”
You nodded. Half listening. Mind already racing to get you out of this topic before you two dive too deep in it.
“We should head to class,” you sigh, looking at the time and wanting to end the topic. “Yours start in 10 minutes.” You reminded her.
“Hell, it is?” She groaned, leaning back in her chair, patting her tummy. “Im too full to even stand.” She whined.
“Told you you should’ve only bought 2.” You said, gesturing towards the half eaten egg tart sitting on the table. “C’mon, you’ll be late. It’s all the way in the left wing.”
A tug at your sweater sleeve. You didn’t need to turn back to know what she’s asking. It’s only been 1 year of you knowing her, and you already know this much.
“No.”
“What— I didn’t even say anything yet!”
You turned towards Lexi, face flat. “No. Im not finishing your leftover.”
“But it’s good!” she fought.
You sighed loudly, “Lexi.” You looked into her eyes, “I precisely told you not to buy 3 egg tarts.” she pouts, “It’s either you chew while I drag you across campus or you vomit the last two out and chuck this half in your mouth. Do it or I’ll make you.”
Her pout never ending, but shoved the piece in her mouth anyways.
It often surprised you—how someone who could write a three-page essay analyzing a single line of Early Modern English could miss something so obvious. Lexi was a english major. Always looking at riddles and well-written quotes. You never neglected her little sudden riddles and quotes that she practically lived for, but today specifically, you had a more important task to check out.
Your piece.
As a student majoring in quantum physics and minoring in finance—two subjects known to kill people—you somehow still found space for your beloved hobby.
Graffiti.
Differing from others, you didn’t call those tags on the wall ugly. You just looked and wondered how come they didn’t use their skills to convey messages? It took you 4 years to realize how much you loved the art. Your peak being when you saw an artist in action. Quick. Detailed. Sly. A masterpiece in action.
It was only in 10 grade when you finally dared trying to do it yourself. Starting from paste-ups. You’d fake a sleepover and slip out at night, the exact time you slotted when there were the least amount of people. You learnt that the hard way though. You technically “patrolled” the whole town, having to stand outside for hours, tallying the number of people passing your designated paste-up spot.
Your first attempt took fifteen minutes and you were a mess. But slowly overtime, like anyone else, you evolved. From paste-ups to tags to throw-ups to murals and finally, to pieces. You didn’t do stencils. You did pieces. Rarely, because they took time. Like the one you finished between midnight and 4am. on the science building wall.
Back when you still lived at home with your parents, faking a sleepover only happened once a month. Now in your 45 square meter apartment, you had full freedom. Going out every week to either do a paste-up or a mural. Paste-ups appeared more often—less effort and risk. All could be done at your living room and then brought outside, taking only a practiced 30secs to stick it on the walls. Unlike others, you didn’t do random words or tags. You did meaningful works. Often portraying society or nature or just something funny in general. It brings joy to you seeing people pass by and smile at your works rather than disapproving them. And maybe that’s how you got so viral on the news one day (and people still look for your works and report it to the news everyweek). Known as XIXXX. Your favourite numbers added together, 19 & 20. Written in fancy roman font, it brought a difference to other tags. Instead of too messy or too neon, you went for the simple and unique.
Illegal? Sure. Hated? Not anymore.
Your face mask and knowledge of the city’s pedestrian traffic serves a lot in your favor. Having to find new walls all the time and scouting it for an amount of time before doing your work on it. All that helped avoid your fanclub — yes you did have a fanclub. Well, not official, but they do support all your works.
You were a girl in Lexi’s shadows at school, though you weren’t complaining. You had enough of the spotlight when night falls.
The moon being your light and the sun casting you shadows to hide in. Life worked that way and you weren’t trying to mess with it. Some asked how you managed both quantum and finance. Your reply’s simple: Woke up early. That’s all.
Truth be told, you didn’t just wake up early, you simply never slept. You would spend the morning from 5am to 5pm studying and attending lectures. The rest of the time for your art. Instead of fatigue, it brought you piece. With soft music playing in the background, you found rest within each planning stroke of your pencil.
Tired? Graffiti. Angry? Graffiti. Restless? Graffiti. Bored? Graffiti.
It was a crucial part of your life at this point. Yet no one knew. You didn’t let them.
And that’s how you made your way here, parting ways with lexi for her lecture just so you could check-in on your piece. You made your way to the science building where lies the first work you managed to do on campus. Passing security and guards took you solemnly 1 hour, and 3 hours of painting shouldn’t go smudgy just because of a drizzle. You’d be bummed if it did.
Through waves full of students, you manouvered your way through, arriving at the building on low pedestrian times. The edges are a little smudge, that’s fine, you can fix it. You wore a black baggy hoodie and brought your supplies for a reason afterall. This was perfect timing, no one was here at this point. You had exactly 3 minutes before students from the archetechture department finish their lecture and head out towards this direction.
It was true. There was no one.
Keyword: was.
Just 15 minutes ago, the swim team finished their power laps. Gojo Satoru being one of them. The star of the school. Sports council president, super athlete, and apparently, on the verge of failing his quantum physics class. There was nothing on campus (besides the leaderboard) that doesn’t have his name on it.
He heard the news this morning, but morning training session came first—he’ll have to visit the work afterwards. He too, had a little secret.
As a quantum physics student just like you, he somehow had the love for the art just the same. The moment he first saw your works on the wall of the grocery store of his area he actually found it disturbing. He never supported acts of vandalism. Until he started passing by it everyday. Day by day by day, and he realized the messge behind the brocoli on the wall wasn’t just a brocoli afterall. It was a message to not neglect it from your plate. It’s cliche, really. But when he thought of the amount of effort the artist put to the piece? He swore he would mistaken it for a commission if not for what the staff said.
XIXXX planted a mark at out store. They said. Faces smiling. So it wasn’t just a commissioned artwork, it was street art. Meaningful street art. And til this day, he found himself going around the city and finding your works. Hoping to one day meet you and tell you how much he loved it. Show some appreciation, the one thats real, not the one the news always added.
But the thing is, you was never supposed to be a girl. He thought the xixxx was was something related to sports and whatever games boys are supposed to love. Whatever it was, he thought he would meet a man, a college student, a boy being reckless, but not a girl. And definetly not you—a girl who loved the shadows.
At least that’s what he thought.
Girls weren’t supposed to be hanging around at midnight, drawing things on walls. Girls weren’t supposed to do something that risky. He wasn’t thinking of gender inequality, no. It was just that it wasn’t supposed to click. At least not with you, you would be the last person on his list..
But right before his eyes, there you were. Putting on your mask after sighing and pulling out spray paint from your backpack. Fixing and fixing until the barely noticeable smudges disappear. With a final spray, you set the cans down. Not forgetting to do a final scan of the piece before leaving. Leaving the wall and him visibly stunned.
If he didn’t recognize you, it wouldn’t much of a stunner. But for god’s sake, he did. He was in the same major as you—of course he recognizd you. You sat 2 rows behind him, always by the window, a vanilla latte always in hand. He didn’t really pay much attention to you, you didn’t want it.
You were just a girl who once rocked campus with the news of handling 2 majors, and now suddenly you’re xixxx. But besides from that unkown side of yours, you hated attention. he took note of that. You’d not acknowledge your achievements out loud, not brag nor share. you were just hiding in the shadows, finding piece and quiet.
He also loved the shadows, but the reputations swallowed him whole before he could even find one to slip in. He admired you for keeping things simple, for finding your way to the shadows and not the spotlight. Him on the other hand was always looking for a sense of sanctuary, hitting the library or the open campus fields at night.
He was tired. That’s all. But never was he too tired for your works.
And truth to be told, this is the first time he was frozen in time and space. not from the news of winning something he never expected, but just by being a witness looking at your retracting figure and knowing exactly what you just did 2 minutes ago. Then, finally, with every step wobbling, he went towards the work.
Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving
Life is a bicycle and he must keep moving, otherwise he would fall and faint from the shock of it all.
Fuck it.
You were a girl.
He knew that.
But not in a way he had expected.
A week passed and the science building piece stayed. Despite being reported, it wasn’t taken down. Students took pictures. Professors somehow smiled when they see it. Someone even left a coffee cup beneath it, like an offering. That alone made your chest swell. This why you love the art, it can bring joy, other artist can do it just like you. But most choose not to, you just weren’t one of them
So you did what you always did after a success. You planned another.
This time, the campus pool’s wall was your canvas. It was perfect—wide concrete walls, slightly hidden from the main walkways, only lit by dim security lights at night. Clean. Empty. As if it begged to be filled with something that meant something.
You stalked it out for three nights straight. From shift changes, to camera angles, to guard routes. You didn’t want it to end up like last time. As in you had to escape like 1000 guards swaying around the science building. So yes, you did took note of everything. Even the swim team’s practice schedule.
And tonight, after 3 nights of “patrolling” you went for it. You already mapped it out on a piece of paper, it just needed colours and combination. That’s all. The design wasn’t meant for a singular quote like last time, you wanted to make something that involved water and blue shades. Something that flowed. Time was ticking—you started spraying. Curved azure lines to torquoise details. If you looked closely enough, of at least squinted your eyes, you’d see a quote hidden in the blues of the waves. It was a piece that flowed, probably the piece where you felt most comfortable doing since it was so calming.
But little did you know your calm was about to be gone.
Your watch showed 00:24. There’s a guard that always show up at 00:30 for his campus check. You planned this out too: when it’s close to 00:30, you’ll go hide next to the lockers thats right against the wall—a perfect sheild from the guard’s view. And as planned, you shoved your cans in and went for your hiding spot, pulling your mask down, just to breath easier. From the angle, you could see the guard stopping, looking at the piece. It probably took him 3 minutes to find the quote because he only chuckled then and started walking again. No questioning or panic. Seems like the campus was getting used to you.
A smile spread on your face as you watch him leave, your heart once again swelling with happiness. Until you heard a door slam somewhere near you.
Shit.
No one was supposed to be here, not at this time. You pressed your back against the wall, hiding yourself against the lockers as much as possible. You were not used to getting caught. Your plan always were correct and you never encountered struggles to bypass people. But this time, this was a new one. Something was going off your plan. Slipping out of your control. You held your breath, eyes scanning the area for any movement or signs. There was more rustling. Like some tired sigh of someone who barely survived the power laps they just had. But maybe it was a stray cat. Or a squirrel. Because after what felt like hours of your heart working overtime and your tip toes doing it’s best to push you against the wall that it started to ache, you finally moved. Slithered out between the lockers and checking the walkway outside. Surprisingly, there was no one. Just like you suspected it.
A breathy sigh escaped you as you started spraying again, mask now being pulled up again and adding details to your piece to your hearts content. Well, you shouldn’t be breathing this freely if you knew he was there the entire time.
Satoru always did more laps than the rest of the team. He was buzzing with leftover energy even after practice ended. He was about to head out until he saw something moving, like a shadow. It didn’t take long till he froze and realized what was happening. Thats you. Hiding between the lockers, just to wait for his movement to stop. But the thing is, you weren’t even looking in the right direction, he was inside the swimming hall while you were checking outside. Not noticing the white haired boy inside the glass doors, whose eyes started sparkling when he saw you move from your hiding spot and continued with your work.
Satoru told himself he’d leave, pretend he saw nothing. But no. He stayed, watching you finish up and eaving your signature initial XIXXX on the little corner of the wall with a cerulean blue, mirroring his eyes. From his spot, he was actually closer than you than he ever was. He never actually talked to you or stood next to you ever. Just existed in the same world you did. He noticed something then, the way your eyes crinkled when you admired your work with a smile that’s hidden beneath the black mask, but he also spotted something else. Eye bags. Dark ones. Heavy ones. Like ones that holds the pressure of 2 deadly subjects and the risk of being a part-time street artist. For whatever reason, he felt his heart sink a little.
Trust him when he says he has been admiring you, yes he was. And he still is right now. But he also started being way more interested than he’s supposed to after knowing your little secret. It was like he was meeting you in the morning and your alter ego at night. The moment your mask was on, the quiet you was no longer around anymore, instead replaced by an artist that was confident in every spray.
It felt special, knowing he was the only one who knew this side of yours. It was as if there was like this supernatural force lulling him into you the more he witnessed you work. It felt like gatekeeping, really. He should report it, run out and and stop you. But he never did, never once did it cross his mind why he’s just witnessing crime and not stopping it. To others it was crime, to you it’s art, to him? It’s passion.
The morning sun peekeed up through the edge of your window sill, trying to shine it’s light between your curtains. You managed to finish early yesterday and had a solid 3 hour sleep. It was rare, but it was enough to fuel you. You had 8am class today, and you wouldn’t want to be late to Yaga’s class.
The moment you stepped foot on campus, it buzzed with vivacity. The campus vibrated with youthful excitement.
You didn’t need to even ask to know what it’s about. Lexi had already sent you a photo of your piece 25 minutes ago saying ‘there’s another one’.
Whispers slipped between students like static about the pool building, about the new mural that had appeared overnight. Security was scrambling, faculty pretending to be annoyed while failing to hide their intrigue. Phones were out, photos were taken. Someone even said it looked like motion trapped in water, like the walls themselves were breathing.
Satoru on the hand heard the noise before he even saw the crowd. His hair dripped with small droplets that clung from his morning training. His muscles were still sore, but the noise dragged him out anyways.
“Dude, the artist is making people go nuts.” Suguru, a teamate said.
“Hm, it looks nice.” He shrugged, opening the glass doors that seperated the little piece of the pool hall to the open space outside.
The light was too dim last night to notice all the details to sprinkled on your piece. But as he brushed past the student body, he found himself amazed. Yes he saw you in action, yes he heard all those spray paints hissing. But now that he’s standing right before it, he realized he owed you more than just a thank you.
The mural was of him. hidden between the blues of the waves. The quote that was hidden beneath the curves read: To the legend who bought this place it’s golden 35.
“Yo! That’s sick!” Suguru commented, “The artist sure did some digging to know about our campus.”
Satoru scoffed at that.
“The style’s unique innit?”
Suguru agrees. “Hm, I guess it’s different. It’s much neater than the other street arts. More planned and mapped.”
“Different intention, different style. That’s why she’s famous.”
“Im sorry– She?”
Fuck.
“Im just guessing, the style seems more feminine.” Satoru saved himself.
“True.” he continues, “But Yaga’s going to chop your head off if you dally here longer.” Suguru reminded him.
He let out a lazy sigh, “yeah, yeah. Old man’s scary before caffeine.”
Satoru still managed to arrive 5 minutes late anyways. But you were no where to be found. The seat by the window empty and lifeless. Until a shuffle at the door, a small sorry mumbled before you waddled in, shoulders slumped and head hung low.
“Alarm issues this morning?” Yaga questioned you.
“No, just, a little slower on the walking. I apologize.” You dipped your head, slowly making your way to your seat.
That was an obvious excuse, you overslept, body seems to be missing it’s rest for way too long.
As you made eyed your seat, you realized there was a suprise waiting on the seat next to you—the one that’s usually empty— is occupied with a white haired blue eyed swimming freak. The one you painted just hours ago. You looked around before sitting down. Weird. His seat is empty, but he’s here. Did he not notice? Or was it intentional? You didn’t quite care. Just took out your notes and took a longgggg sip of your latte before clocking in on what Yaga’s explaining.
“Have you heard?”
Particles act as both waves and particle, wave-particle duality, can be linked instantaneously across vast distances.
“Have you heard?”
And exist in multiple states until observed, with the universe potentially splitting into—
A tap on your shoulder. “Have you heard?”
You spun your head around only to be met with shining saphire eyes looking straight at you. The boy next to you had his head stuffed in his elbows, slightly tilted to look at you.
“pardon?”
“the mural. have you heard?” He repeated.
You tilted your head, “You mean the vandalism?”
“It looks nice doesn’t it?” he fully lifted his head up. Eyes never cutting it’s contact.
You found yourself sitting up starighter too. “Are you saying this because it’s a work of you or because it’s actually pretty?” You said, voice stiffer than you intended it to be.
“Maybe both.” he shrugged. “But i’ll admit, I do really admire the passion the artist give in on the work. Must’ve made their eyes sag in the morning.” His lips curved upwards, chin resting on his hand, a playful expression dancing on his face.
“You’re weird, vandalism aren’t pretty.” You replied, trying hard to hide the smile tugging at your lips. “Either way, im not interested.”
Liar.
He knew exactly what he was doing the moment he chose to sit next to you. It was not him-like at all. He would usually go for the piece and quiet. Something that fitted to him like routine. But today, as if seeing the piece ignited something in him, he found another purpose to be awake in class today. A light confrontation would be interesting to see. He was bored of class anyways, if you’re going to hit someone, might as well make sure it hurts right? If you’e going to confront someone, might as well make it worth the nerves that’s electrifying him on the inside.
He hummed. “hm, not quite sure, but isnt it such a coincidene?”
You blinked. “What do you mean?”
Satoru leaned in closer, lips hovering beside your ear. “You arrive late to class and have eyes bags, your hands have little blue paint marks on them.” he pulled away. “Isn’t that also weird?” A smirk playing on his lips as he looked at your expression. If you knew how hard he’s trying to quiet down his heartbeat on the inside, you might have been a little less concerned of your own heartbeat that was practically racing too.
On instincts, you pulled your hoodie sleeve over your hands. Eyes widening. Ears not beliveing what it heard.
No way he just said that.
“I did painting last night, why?” You shrugged, “and plus, i always have eye bags. Lexi can fact check that one.”
Satoru put his hands up in mock surrender, leaning back on his chair like he didn’t drop an atomic bomb on you. “Just saying,”
You stared dowm at your notebook. The words now doesnt even make a single sense, just blurb of blurry nonsense. Your heartbeat was too loud, loud enough you swore some kids from the daycare across the road heard it. Your throat can be the next sahara dessert at this point.
This wasn’t supposed to happen, he wasn’t supposed to know. You were really careful, you can swear your life on that. You needed to focus in class, not think about the campus’s starboy knowing about your second-life.
But there you were, sitting in class, mind practically wirring, but only with one question in mind. Did he know? If yes, how?
“Switching majors souds cool doesn’t it?”
Lexi inquried, legs dangling off the coach and swinging her head at you. You knew this wasn’t going to last, as in she said something like this every two weeks, got intensely invested, then dropped it like the thought never existed.
“Hm, not practical but whatever.” you dismissed. “I know you won’t last.”
She smirked, “In bed?”
You threw a pillow at her. “You’re disgusting.” though lightly chuckling anyways.
That was just the way lexi is. Seasonal. When the weather is nice, she’s a freaking maniac charged with energy worth 1000 volts. And when the weather is bad, she’s this blob of whining, complaining, occasional jokes kind of person. Like what she is right now.
She shrugged, “Anyways, do you think I fit quantum physics? I mean, Satoru’s in it.”
Ah yes, and there was another thing about her. She has this fat crush on Satoru. Well, she always had this thing for toned men and all, but it seems intense when it comes to satoru. Like she is his number one fan, always showing up in his meets, cheering the loudest amongst the stands. And her popularity serves in her favor too, having to have loads of connections, she always found a way to talk to satoru. Either from complimenting him on his meets or talking to him about whatever errand his friend was doing for him and her “accidentally” helping in. It was creepy, really. You should be scared, but what can you say? He does have the whole female population on his tail.
You raised a brow, “Joining the swim team would be more realistic for you.” She threw the pillow back at you and you managed to dodge it. A devilish grin on your face.
“Rude.” She narrowed her eyes. “But if I—you know—come with you to your lectures?” she trailed off, gaze going dreamy.
You sighed like a tired parent and sank deeper into the couch. “I can. But don’t drag me into it when the professor calls you out. You know Yaga has a reputation.”
A beaming smile appeared on her face. “Deal.”
But as you headed back to your apartment later that evening, an ickering feeling crept in. Like something devilish was bound to happen. Still, what could you say? You were a little devil of the night yourself. Being blanketed in Lexi’s shadow during the day felt more like a blessing than a curse. And if something did happen, surely she’d keep her promise and keep you out of it. She was popular. (Almost) loved by students and professors alike. Yaga had to give her at least some leeway.
Don’t look at her. Don’t look at her. Don’t look at her.
Don’t.
Look.
At.
Her.
You were mistaken, deeply mistaken. Bringing Lexi to class was a terrible idea. You must’ve expected it from her personality, she wouldn’t keep her mouth shut. Not to Satoru.
He was nodding with his lips pursed. Eyebrows furrowed. Ear drums probably busting from the amount of absurdity he’s hearing.
“Oh and then I got new clothes, shoes and— Oh yes! The new night gowns they sold.” Lexi blabbed on, twirling her hair between her fingers. “You know, they’re reallyyy pretty.”
It hurted your eyes to see her bat her eyelashes at him, hell she even took the poor boy’s seat — who usually sat next to satoru — and make him move even though he was there first. You’re lucky you didn’t walk in with her. You’d have combusted on the spot.
“Yeah, yeah,” Satoru replied, grip on his pen never loosening. “Y’know, maybe you could… quiet down a bit? I kinda need to focus on this part of the lecture.”
He sighed, sounding like a tired grandfather. Which was funny, because he never paid attention in class. Usually he was asleep or doodling nonsense in the margins of his notebook. If anything, Lexi had somehow made him want to listen for once.
“Whaat?” Lexi gasped dramatically, standing up. A hand flew to her chest. “Oh, thou hast wounded me! Twas but to share my joy, for I prize thee!”
The whole room snapped their heads at her, and you? You were a tomato. You should’ve known she’ld act like this when she’s around Satoru. She always did, similar to some main character in an american highschool movie, she does have all the qualities. Popular—check. Pretty—check. Loud—check. Sassy—check. Utterly embarrassing—check.
You scrambled for your phone, desperate to stop her before Yaga fully combusted. The poor man looked like steam was about to shoot out of his ears.
You Lexi shut up the whole lecture is looking at u
A ping echoed through the room, thankfully snapping her out of her Shakespearean performance. Lexi stood frozen in the air, eyes darting down at her phone only to skim the room with her eyes. And slowly, very slowly, as if realization hit, she sat down.
Thank goodness self-conciousness was a thing.
Yappertron rate my impression
You my ass u need to shut up yaga’s fuming
Lexi glaned back from her seat, eyes narrowing at you with a little pout. Mouthing a ‘fine’ before shooting heart eyes over at satoru again. You wonder if it’s just you or was it the whole room who feels sympathy for satoru. The guy must down a bottle labeled patience every morning just to stop himself from yanking Lexi’s jaw off.
The lecture ended with Yaga clearing his throat far too loudly and staring directly at Lexi for a solid five seconds. No one missed the message. Chairs scraped. Bags zipped. And the only students left were just you, lexi and satoru. And amongst the relief almost deaf blue eyed boy and the ‘I am embarrased on your behalf’ street artist, theres a gleeful yapper and a fuming teacher.
“Name, major, why are you here.” Yaga demanded not looking up from his computer screen.
Oh she’s doomed.
“Uhm, lexi, quantum physics, and because I’m a student?” Her voice got higher on the end, eyes dancing from one corner of the room to the other.
“lexi? Utahime’s student? From English major?” Yaga raised a brow. “No wonder you were shakespearing in my class.” yaga muttered, “This your first warning, if you want to be here, be here. But you need to shut you lips tight.” He glared, “Do you understand me, student?”
“Uh, uh.. Yes SIR!” Lexi saluted back in fake seriousness.
Yaga does nothing but rub his temple, “You may now leave.”
Lexi didn’t need to be told twice.
She grabbed her bag with exaggerated enthusiasm, chair screeching against the floor as she hopped to her feet. “Yes sir! Loud and clear! Lips sealed!” She mimed zipping her mouth shut, then, of course, turned back one last time. Her gaze flicked to Satoru. A smile bloomed. Bright and sweet.
“I’ll see you later, Toru~” she sang, voice dripping with cheer.
You didn’t miss the way his shoulders stiffened.
“Yeah,” he replied, flat but still polite.
Lexi pouted for half a second before spinning on her heel and skipping out of the room, the door swinging shut behind her with a click.
Yaga sighed, long and tired, finally lifting his eyes from the screen. “Gojo.”
“Yes, sir?” Satoru straightened instantly.
“Try not to encourage chaos in my classroom.”
A lazy grin tugged at his lips. “Wouldn’t dream of it.”
“Hm.” Yaga’s gaze shifted briefly to you. Sharp, assessing. “You’re dismissed too.”
You nodded, relief washing over you as you headed for the door. Hands baring holding on the knob until–
“Ah, yes, wait, both of you.” Yaga called, slipping his glasses back on. Signalling this was serious stuff.
Your spine straightened and your face turned pale.
No more research tasks please. No more research tasks please. No more research tasks—
“Given the scores of your latest quizz, Satoru, you did unsusprisingly low… that means our promise has shattered.” Yaga announced with a flat face. “You said one chance with no tutor your score would incline,” he started typing on his laptop, spinning around to show satoru his grade progression. Satoru’s face paled, just like yours or even more. “It only declined. Meaning i’ll assign you a tutor. And very luckily, the top student, Y/N here can help you with that.” Yaga eyed you. “Can you?”
No you can’t. You’re busy, this wasn’t the only class you had to balance. Not to mention your unfinished paste-up sitting at home waiting to be polished and find it’s home on new walls. You can’t afford to waste more time.
“I guess I can fit it,” you ran your hand down your face, “I’ll try my best.” you breathed.
Yaga nodded once, decisive. “Good. Then it’s settled.”
Satoru blinked. Once. Twice.
“Wait—” he leaned forward, palms flat on the desk. “Sir, I really think—”
“—think you can sweet-talk your way out of consequences?” Yaga cut in dryly. “Sit down, Gojo.”
Satoru did. Slowly. Like a boy looking at his fallen ice cream.
“Tutoring sessions twice a week,” Yaga continued. “Outside of class hours. You will report progress to me weekly.” He glanced between the two of you. “I expect cooperation. Not flirting. Not chaos.”
His gaze lingered on Satoru.
“I swear prof,” Satoru said, hand to chest. “Just one more—”
Yaga didn’t even blink. “You’re dismissed. Both of you.”
You walked out of class with a hazy mind. Life has officially won it’s control over you, having to had lived it’s 3 giant atomic bomb attacks in a span of merely 3 weeks. Barely past the doorway hall when you heard a voice call you back.
“Hey,” satoru started, “Uhm, about the tutoring… I apologize for taking your time and all, I know you’re busy and–“
“Where’d you want to go?” You cut in, going straight into the details.
He looks taken back, stuttering for a few beats before answering you. “I mean, if you can to survive the library then it’s your choice, but I also wouldn’t recommend my dorm.. my roomates aren’t the quietest type.” he scratched the back of his head.
“Hm, I’m… busy this week.” You had a paste-up to finish. “Maybe next week we can start. I’ll meet you at my place 8pm every wednesday and friday?” You offered, intentionally avoiding the days he had late swim practices. Brain working extra hard to try and find free slots in your schedule.
“Alright,” he said quietly. “I’ll be there.” He turned on his heel, swiftly going the other direction until he suddenly spun back, jogging towards you.
“Forget something?” You questioned.
“Your number.”
“What?”
He panicked. “No– no. I meant I forget to ask for your number so we can, you know, keep contact?” He gushed.
You chuckled, “Thought you’d be experience at these asking things,” you teased.
Satoru shook his head, “Im too tired running away from them, espeacially your friend.”
Laughing, you pulled out your phone, giving him it. “Here.”
Satoru took it gentle from your hand, as if it’s something he can’t quite fumble with. he carefully added your number, mumbling a small see you before heading away again.
WIth that he left, leaving you there, tired and worn. You had classes until 3pm every wednesday, that meant no time for art, it was a forced gamble. But maybe you could use those 5 hours to rest and eat properly rather than paint.
Fine, you’ll take a hiatus. Just until the blue eyes progress. It couldn’t be that hard right?
Wednesday arrived faster than you expected. You spent the days leading up to it prepping materials, revising the topics he claimed to have struggled with. Somewhere along the way, the two of you started texting more than necessary, five days was all it took for you two to call each other friends.
Satoru learned more about you too. Not just the street artist part—though he kept trying to bait you into admitting it. Of course, you never did. You had too many practiced excuses tucked up your sleeves. What he learned instead was quieter. How comfortable he felt beside you. You weren’t loud. You never fought for attention. You bathed in darkness, sinking into peace and quiet—something he’d been craving without realizing it. He started sitting next to you in class, initially to avoid Lexi, but now it felt natural. You had a light friendship, not just strangers existing on the same plane anymore.
As wednesday arrived, he made your way to apartment, trying hard to keep his voice straight. He was nervous, that’s all.
You were nervous too—but not because of him. Well, maybe a little. Mostly, it was your apartment. Your supplies were everywhere. Spray marks dusted the tables. Cans lined the shelves. Empty ones sat near the bin, too heavy to move all at once. It was already 7:30, and you weren’t even close to making the place paint-free.
The clock ticked at you wiped, swiped, cleaned, cleared, shoved. Everything done in flashes of speed. You knew you should’ve started earlier, but as time ticked, you came with a plan. Just hide it your room and underneath the tables. get a cloth and cover them up. All is neat and tidy. It sounded solid, so you proceeded to clean as much as you can and cover parts that you can’t.
At exactly 7:58pm, Satoru reached the door. Maybe I should wait 2 mintues, wouldn’t be rude to arrive early? He thought. But she did say come as soon as possible, she might need some time for her arts too. He thought, recalling seeing your paint marks on your fingertips, making him smile a little. A side only he knew. A side only he had pieces of. He felt proud at that, a certain level of possessiveness filling him.
With that, he pressed the door bell.
You were halfway through fixing a slipping cloth when the sound echoed through the apartment. Shit. It looked loose—but he wouldn’t lift it. Right?
You opened the door, his face filling the peephole just seconds before.
“Come in,” You moved to the side to let him in. “right on time I see.”
He nodded, “I hope being 2 minutes early doesn’t disturb you.” He said shyly.
“No worries,” you replied quickly. “All’s good.”
He slipped his shoes off neatly by the door before stepping inside, suddenly aware of how personal this space felt. Like he’d crossed into something fragile. Something that held your secrets. He was cautious not to look around too much. But the smell of paint hit him first. It was fresh, not overwhelming, more like an art classroom’s cuboard that has fresh paint. The smell blended with something sweet, peach maybe, very likely coming out of those diffusers you had scattered around the room, all in attempt to free the scent of paint.
“Smells nice in here.” he complimented. Dropping his bag on your couch like you gestured. “Shall we start?”
“Sure.” You nodded, “You can sit at the counter, I’ll bring out some drinks.”
You disappeared into the kitchen. That’s when he let himself look. The little couch with cushions, the walls and shelves decorated, The shelves and walls carefully decorated—though some spaces sat empty, like something had been put away in a hurry. His eyes drifted to the tables draped in cloth, the shelves half-covered, the bin far too full to be normal.
He chuckled under his breath.
You were trying to hide the evidence of your secret, adorably so. Using cloths and old covers as table drapes and shelf decorations. You did have a really smart way of framing it, he would’ve missed it if he didn’t yet know about your little secret. A real artist you were, the ability of creation was never not yours.
At that moment, you came back, hands full with 2 cups of what seems like smoothie.
He stood out of his seat, “Let me help,” he offered, taking one the cups from your hand.
“Uh, it’s strawberry smoothie,” you said, sitting down beside him. “Hope that’s okay. I can get water too.”
“It’s perfect,” he replied quietly.
“Now, tell me what of wave-duality don’t you get?” You flipped open your textbooks.
He rubbed the back of his neck, “Uhm, I just don’t get the maths you know.”
So you did what you were told to, help him. He asked questions you answered them. He didn’t understand, you’ld make swimming-related examples for him to have a better understanding. He’ld randomly make a joke, you’d chuckle and told him that it was stupid.
That was how the evening went. Smooth and easy, and he ended up catching on information faster than you’d think. He might’ve just failed Yaga’s class because he was too tired from swimming, not because he was intelligently challenged. And before you knew it, it was 10:30pm, and you two were both yawning, hands reaching back to stretch after not standing for quite a while.
“Thanks for today,” Satoru said, standing. “It really helped.”
He took the cups from the counter before you could protest, heading for the kitchen. You followed a beat too late.
“Same time friday, yes?” he asked casually, heading into the kitchen where you kind of forget to put away the spray cans from two hours ago.
Your heart dropped. You didn’t think he’ld come in there, as in you won’t let him. But here you were, forgetting the thing you promised your brain not to forget. The spray cans were next to the bin, And because the universe enjoyed watching you suffer, the bin was right next to the sink. Right where you were standing.
“Uh—just give me that,” you said quickly, reaching for the cup in his hand. “It’s okay, I’ll—”
Clang.
A metallic sound echoed through the room. It rolled once, then stopped.
You froze. he froze. You didn’t dare to look. He couldn’t take his eyes of the shiny bottles on the ground.
It wasn’t him who knocked those bottles down it was you. You were too rushed to take the cups from him you didn’t move your leg away from the gleaming cylinder blocks on the ground.
Satoru didn’t say anything at first. Just looked and stared. The silence falling heavy between both of you. Then, after what felt like years of sweating and overthinking, he crouched down and picked the can up, leaving it exactly where it was before it fell. Eyes landing on the familiar colour—blue.
“You do painting with these?” he gestured towards the cans, while still carefully handing your cups to you.
“Uh–uhm, sometimes,” you stuttered mind racing with excuses. You were caught red handed, and he was already baiting you and had suspicions before. “i guess to relief boredom.”
He nodded, picking up another can from the ground. “Funny cause I wouldn’t say coming out at midnight almost everyday as a way to relief boredom.”
You gulped. “What do you mean?”
He sighed, placing the cans down. “I think you know what I mean.” He looked at you then, eyes finding your as you continuously dodge away. “I’m just waiting for you to admit it.” With that he turned and left. And by the moment you managed to drag yourself out of the kitchen, he was already by the door, slipping his shoes back on.
“Friday, yes?”
You nodded, heart still thumping.
Satoru held your gaze for a second longer than necessary. Then he gave you a stiff nod and a stern smile. The door clicked shut. He was gone.
And shit were you dumb to leave those cans there. But the question that was with you a week ago still lingers. How did he know?
“You’re tutoring Toru?”
You nodded, eyes fixed on the equations on your laptop, though your mind was somewhere else entirely.
“God,” Lexi sighed, voice dreamy… with a hint of something sharper, “How I wish I got to do the same.”
You didn’t reply.
“Where do you even tutor him?” she asked, leaning forward. “I wanna drop by sometime too.”
You didn’t tell her you were tutoring satoru. Well, you didn’t need to. It was already obvious now. Two weeks had passed since the first session and he hadn’t said a word about the cans since the first wednesday. Just ignored it like nothing happened. You were greatful, really. Because the truth was, you didn’t know what you’d do if he brought it up again.
So you lied.
“It depends,” you said casually, steadying your voice. “The library last week. The lounge the week before.” You typed a random equation to sell the act. “He hasn’t said where this week’s gonna be yet.”
You didn’t want to tell lexi he has been coming to your place. Even lexi never visited your apartment. And it wasn’t personal, not really, it was just that Satoru wouldn’t look around much. He wouldn’t press you about flimsy covers draped over tables. Lexi would. You couldn’t afford to lose your secrets just because she couldn’t keep her mouth or her eyes shut.
Lexi hummed, scrolling through her phone. But you noticed the little brief second when she narrowed her eyes at you.
“Okay,” she said slowly, “tell when he says something.”
You just nodded.
Because aside from the fact you’d spent every spare hour trying to figure out how Satoru knew… you’d also been trying to figure out how to keep Lexi from becoming a bigger problem than she already was. Lexi was nice. You knew that, but no one was perfect. And Lexi? Lexi was the most chaotic, most unpredictable person you’d ever met. The kind of person who didn’t mean to light fires, but always seemed to be standing in the middle of one.
Today was another wednesday, marking the third week you had been tutoring satoru. And you could see the difference, from 54% on quizzes to now over 60%. An acceptable improvement, Yaga applaud your efforts. Unfortunately… it didn’t get you off the hook — it pushed you further onto it. He looked at Satoru’s grade progression, expression flat and just dropped another bomb on you: “Continue until he improves to an A.”
An A.
He said that like it was just one tutoring session away. That alone would take time—a lot of it.
Later that eveining, still at lexi’s place, your phone buzzed.
Satoru Still ok for 8?
You glanced breifly at lexi, chest a fraction heavier with guilt you can’t explain, before answering him.
You Sure. Dont come early tho
He liked your message as you put your phone face down. Stretching.
“Leaving soon?” Lexi looked up from her phone.
“Yeah, got an athelete to teach.” You sighed, exhaustion slowly catching up to you.
She hummed, “See you then.”
You nodded as you headed for the door, a little wave and you were gone. Footsteps clattering against the pavement as you made your way home using the underground. People alike passed like blurs as you weaved your way through the rush-hour crowd. You’re heading back early today, you wanted sometime to check the covers if they’re still fixed or already inching off. The underground used to be your canvas too. The lack of people during late nights gave you a much more open slot for your murals. You still got loads of sleep back then, having to think university was still fun. But now that the gates guard noticed you everytime you went in the underground with a mask, you didn’t use the underground’s walls as canvases anymore, switching to the open city—another component of why your sleep schedule looks like a mess of 3 year olds’ doodles.
You made your way down to catch your train as you noticed a group of people gathering arond the city’s underground map. They were around your age, probably a freshmans. But hell were they loud. too loud for your liking.
“Isn’t this from her too?” A student discussed.
Another jumped in, “yeah, XIXXX. This one’s the same one.” They pointed on the wall.
True, that was your mural from your freshman year. It was a cool one, one of the first murals you did.
“Oh, did you hear?” someone else leaned in, voice dropping like it was some kind of secret. “They found security footage from campus.”
You inched a step closer, brows furrowing as you tried to eavesdrop without looking suspicious.
A squeal followed immediately. “Really!? It’s a she right?” They all nodded.
“Security released a footage from the pool.” one explained. “But dude, imagine if she’s from our school.”
“Nah,” another waved a hand dismissively. “Oxford’s not getting that cool.” They all laughed, moving on like it was nothing.
But what the fuck.
Security footage? From the pool? You were certain, very certain, that you check the angles, marked them out, and cleanly avoided every one of those red blinking eyes. It was impossible for you to be caught, you were good in what you do and those mistakes just didn’t happen, ever.
As if hearing your prayers, the train arrived as you rushed in, sinking yourself in a seat, eyes narrow, brow furrowing, mind racing and hand shaking.
How? Who? What? When?
If Satoru caused 20% of your stress, and Lexi hogged up another 10%… Then this was the leftover 70%, driving you straight into insanity. Because this wasn’t a joke. You could get arrested for this. Rules were rules and you were breaking them. Even if people loved the art, there was still a chance you’d get banned, fined—or worse.
Your heart slammed against your ribs the entire ride home.
By the time you got back, it was already 7:48.
Bag dropped. Shoes kicked off. And then you started pacing like your apartment floor was a treadmill.
You didn’t even care that the covers had slipped. You didn’t care that the cans were still peeking out. You ran a hand down your face, then up through your hair, again and again.
They can’t know. Did someone follow me? Was it leaked? Am I getting fined?
The ticking clock matched your pace—every second you were in another corner of the room, hands shaking as you bit your nails raw. A habit you can’t get rid of everytime you were extra nervous.
The tutor session was already off your mind, caring nothing about it. Just the news alone had you full-on occupied on pacing and panikcing and nothing else.
You’re fine, you’re fine, you’re fine, you’re fine, you’re–
The clock hit 8pm. And as promised he didn’t come early, just right on time.
Ding dong.
You’re not fine.
You stopped mid-step, eyes locked on the door. And suddenly you realized, way too late, that you’d completely forgotten about Satoru. You looked around—half-covered tables, cloth slipping off, cans peeking out.
You didn’t have the energy to fix it. If you tried, you’d probably explode.
So you opened the door. Shoulder slumped.
“Come in,” you whispered, not having the energy to talk.
Satoru noticed instantly, his smile faded his chest went heavy. “You okay?” He asked, making his way in and kicking off his shoes before getting a good look at you.
He noticed the eye bags first, then the shaking fingers that were fisted tight.
His eyes found yours, but you backed away. “Hm, just a little tired.” You mumbled, then you pressed your hand to your face, sighing. “Sit. I’ll get you some water.” you breathed.
Satoru stood still for a moment, biting his lips in thought. He’d heard murmurs on his way here, but he didn’t realize it was real nor did he think you’ve heard about it. A group of students passed by as they whispered about some footage leak, by the pool, a girl, petite. The exact description of you.
That’s when he noticed the covers were half-draped now. Cloths slipping off the tables, edges revealing small marks of dried paint. A can tipped on its side near the bin. Another tucked hastily behind a chair leg. You didn’teven tried to hide it this time. The state of your home alone told him everything he needed to know.
You appeared out of the kitchen, hand holding 2 cups of water, not smoothie like usual.
“Sorry, I’m a little busy for some smoothie,” you said, “hope water’s fine.”
He nodded, “It’s fine,” He bit his lips again, hesistating. Should he say it? Maybe it was about time. He clenched his fists as he thought of the right words.
“It’s about the footage isn’t it?” He asked, standing up and heading towards where you’re sitting by the counter.
“What are you sayin—“
He cut you off. “I know.” He ran a hand thorugh his hair, trying to find the right words to make it not sound like a confession but rather something reassuring. “I’ve actually always knew that you were...her—XIXXX.” he continues, “I caught you after practice by the science building and I was in the swimming hall when you were spraying by the pool. I did extra laps, always went out late, that’s all—coincidence,” he explained.
You felt your mouth drop.
“And I know you’re feeling stressed, about me, about this whole tutoring thing and about that leak.” he looked at you, eyes softening. “I know this won’t help you any better but, if there’s anything I can do for you, it’ll be being here. Being present. And listening to you.” He paused for a moment, biting his lips again. “You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to, it’s just that, I wanted to let you know that I know, and that i care.”
You were left speechless for a full minute. Eyes widening, mouth struggling to even make a sound. You took in a deep breath, resetting your mind.
“If the truth is what you want,” you breathed, “then I guess it’s my turn to speak.” You swallowed. “It started in tenth grade,” you continued quietly. “Paste-ups. Throw-ups. Then murals. That was all I did in high school.” You paused, sucking in a breath, gathering the courage to keep going. “I’ve always been in love with art, y’know? I was… different from other people.” Your fingers curled into your sleeve. “So when I got more freedom in uni, I started taking risks. Underground stations. Open city walls. Paste-ups to full pieces. All in the span of a year.” You let out a shaky breath. “But lately I’m just… overloaded. You inhaled again, voice softer now. “Lexi’s stressing me out. This is stressing me out. My studies. And now…” You trailed off. “…that.”
You stopped talking and just stared. Breathing in after everything you’ve admitted.
After a moment, you suddenly felt a pair of arms wrapped around you from behind, warmth envelopping you. “You’re going to be okay,” Satoru murmured softly. “I’ll make sure of that.”
Satoru didn’t know why he moved. But he just did. He felt like he had to. It’s been a little too long when he considered you as just a friend. Satoru didn’t know when he started falling deeper for you. Maybe it was when you began tutoring him? Or was it when he saw you paint? Either way, he knew he was falling. Every time he looked at your eyebags, his heart ached. When you explained quantum to him, he felt he was looking at your lips more than the actual words. He longed for a hug from you, longed for when you would tell him things. before he knew it, he was in love. He cared too much, paid attention too often. That alone ticked all the marks he needed to know that he wasn't in the shallow parts, no, he was in deep.
Days passed, the leak got more and more viral. But somehow, you were feeling safe, because it’s not only you who’s going through this arc alone, Satoru is with you. All the way, you two became impossibly closer. Texting more, hanging out when there was no tutoring, you even taught him how to do graffiti and went over your process of making a work. He never judged you for anything like that. He stepped into the dark with you rather than dragging you out. Everytime he saw you paint, he felt like he was watching Keith Harring himself express his strong passion, only difference is, it’s you.
You stopped caring about the mess of your apartment too, he knew now, and there’s nothing to hide anymore. With every extra minute spent around him, you felt yourself fall and fall, minutes by minute, second by second. You’re feelings were there, it was just you who didn’t want to admit it. He was already hinting at it very obviously.
But you can’t help but feel this guilty tug everytime you were around satoru. You knew it wasn’t right to catch feelings for him. Lexi had been all over him for the last 2 years. And now that you’ve started seeing satoru more than seeing her, your heart cant help but flip both ways. Tugging of guilt and dropping with feelings.
You also started to develop an immune reaction to your leak. Though it has gone way more viral than you expected it to, you had gone over everything and simply concluded with: It is what it is, there’s no in changing what happened.
Days passed like normal after that, a calm after a storm. Or the calm before the storm. You didn’t pay much attention to it. But when waking up, you think your day is no different from the other days. yet looking back everything has changed. Changed with a little edge you had finally learnt that it’s no problem at all. As long as the school doesn’t call you up or the police, yeah, you’re safe for the time being.
But there’s something that has been bothering you lately. It’s not the leak, no. Though that still bothered you, you had already gotten used to it. But there’s this agitating feeling everytime you and satoru were out painting the streets lately (yes, you bought him along). It’s this unmistakebale feeling of being watched. Like someone has been following you places, has been watching you from afar, taking notes and stalking you.
You went home that day after a full day on campus. Feeling your skin prick after catching a glimpse of a shadow behind a corner, close where you were standing. You told satoru, he dimissed of it, saying it was nothing and that he was there is anything was to happen. But you couldn’t shake off the feels, its like a ghost haunting you where ever you went.
Your mind was floating on random clouds when you started receiving multiple notifications from the campus forum link. You opened it aimlessly, something to get your mind free for a while. An annonymous post, getting high engagement really quickly. But what made you pause wasn’t the views and comments. It was the blurry screenshots that were attached to it. Your works.
Does anyone have any idea who the artist that painted these??? I heard they’re from campus. Attached: side-by-side images.
One from last night.
One from an old archive post
You started zooming in on the post. It was a quick post, yet was enough to sprew up a large conversation.
You scrolled.
Some replied with nonense information, some added dates, but one, one reply, that got the most like, mentioned “a student who tutored athletes”.
You locked your phone.
Breath in… Breath out… Breath in…
“Fuck it, I need to call satoru,” you cursed under your breath.
It rang once, twice, then–
“I saw.” he didn’t wait for your to even tell him, “Be at your apartment, I’ll come over.” The line ended.
By the time you got home, the forum link has already exploded with more and more information about you. Have the fanclub figure out who you were? Did they place cameras around empty walls now? You called your way to your apartment, eyes glued to your phone screen where there was one particular account that kept leaking your information.
‘a student who’s doubling majors.’
‘i heard she got full scholarship.’
‘she actually doesn’t major in art.’
But something, something disgusting pulled at your thought. You slowed down, the realization hit like a brick thrown at your face. There was one account saying this. There was only one person throwing out information. There was only one person who has the information.
Your footsteps carried youhastily back to your apartment, feeling like fighting storms inside you. It can’t be. It just doesn’t make sense. Your breathing was hoarsed as you skipped the elevators and climbed 19 flights of stairs instead. Yet your heart didn’t beat faster because of that. It beated faster because of how things are finally making sense.
The shadow. The looks. The leak. All the dots are connected.
And when you were at your apartment, the door was already open.
“You used my spare key to get in?”
A hum. “You gave it to me last semester,”
You took another step in your apartment to find things messy, like a cat came in and screwed everything up.
Another notification from the forum link. The student, is Y/N.
She glanced down at her phone once then looked up at you.
“tell me this isn’t true.” You said, voice on the verge of breaking, “Why?” you demanded, “Why did you do this?”
She sighed, taking a step closer to you. “Relax, got curious that’s all,” she gestured towards the mess of your apartment.
“Tell me it wasn’t you.” You forced.
She took another step closer, “What if it is?” She tempted you, “You thought I was dumb? You thought I didn’t know?” her hand brushed your hair, “Sweetheart, I’m not an idiot who doesn’t know her friend.” She cooed, her mouth now right beside your ear. “You had everything I wanted. Wits. A pretty face. A good personality. And you have what I wanted most wrapped around your finger.”
You backed away in shock. “So this was all because of jealousy?” You looked at her in disbelief.
She laughed a devilish laugh, wiping a fake tear off her face “Oh sweetie, can you think of any other reason?” Her smile suddenly dropped. “I saw the way he looked at you,” she continues, “It was all I every wanted really, and you got it in just a few days…”
The words rang loud and hollow in your ears.
“That’s never true,” you shook your head, “I never took anything from you.” Your hands twitched into fists. “And if I’m being honest, I’m trying hard not to take him from you.”
She tilted her head, studying you like a painting she was finally bored of admiring. “You don’t have to take things for them to be stolen,” she said lightly. “Some people just exist and get everything handed to them.” she paused for a moment, putting a hand on your shoulder, she whispered. “And those people are the ones who I step on with the sole of my foot.”
Her hand left your shoulder as you stand there, betrayal running in your veins.
“You ruined everything!” you screamed. Voice breaking at the end. She looked back from where she was standing at the door, looking somehow uninterested in whatever reaction you were giving her.
“Me? ruining everything? Darling it was you.” she pointed out, taking her phone out and tapping a few times. “And besides, don’t be so dramatic.” she paused for a second to show you her screen. “You were being reckless, someone was bound to find out.”
Your eyes widened impossibly wider.
On her screen were the footages that got leaked… she was the one who followed you at night, she was the one filming you and leaking every detail one by one to the public.
“So long, bestie.” was the last you heard before the door clicked shut.
Leaving you shook. Mind wirring with thoughts.
She knew.
She followed me.
She tracked me.
She betrayed me…
You stood there for what felt like hours, not knowing what to do. Every single thing said to you hitting you like a storm you can’t escape from. A room filled with water and you don’t know how to swim. A mind filled with question but you don’t know how to answer them.
Until your phone buzzed.
Satoru im outside
You didn’t move you can’t, just glanced down at your phone and locked it tight, curling into a ball on the floor. The fact that you got exposed didn’t hurt, the person who did it is what made your heart bleed. You gave her a knife, thinking she wouldn’t stab you. But she did, and you didn’t even know you were bleeding until you fell and fell and fell.
Your thoughts were so loud that you didn’t even realise that the door bursted open and a white haired figure rushed inside.
Satoru stood still at your state, he had kicked his way in, have to have been waiting for a little too long outside. He’s expect you to be pacing, to open the door quickly, to rant to him like you always did and solve it eventually. But seeing you crumble like this was something different.
“Hey, hey.” he crouched down at your level, “Breath, breath. tell me what’s wrong, tell me–“
“It was lexi,” you whispered, voice too broken. “she was behind everything…”
Satoru found his mouth agape, “What–“
“She tracked me. Filmed me. Followed me.” you paused, looking for a breath, “She knew because broke in… she knew because I was not careful with her,”
“Lexi? isn’t she your best friend why would she—“
You broked hearing the two words coming from his mouth that was the entire reason you crumbled. “That’s the thing Satoru!” You shouted, voice raspy. “She said it was jealousy, that I stole you from her, that I had everything she wanted without even trying.” You explained, hands moving up to pull harshly at you hair, “I was dumb Satoru!” You shouted once more before silencing down.
“I was dumb, Satoru,” you repeated, quieter this time. The anger burned out of your voice, leaving only something hollow behind. Your hands slid down from your hair, dropping uselessly into your lap. “I trusted her.”
Satoru’s chest rose slowly as he took a sharp breath like he too was holding a storm behind his ribs.
“Hey,” he said, firmer now. He reached out and gently caught your wrists before you could start pulling at yourself again. “No. Stop.” he continues after searching for your eyes. “You were not dumb,” he said, every word deliberate. “You were human. You trusted someone who earned that trust.” His jaw ticked. “And that’s not a flaw.”
Your eyes burned. “But she used it. She watched me. Like I was some project.”
“I know.” His voice dipped quieter, “And that’s on her. Not you.”
You shook your head, a few tears sliding down your cheeks. “She made it sound like I ruined her life just by existing.” You craddled your wet face with your palms and sniffled into it.
Satoru scoffed lightly, “That’s not how the world works.” He leaned closer, removing your hands and forcing you to meet his eyes. “You didn’t steal me. I’m not something to steal.”
He paused for moment, humming lowly as in deep thought. “I’ll figure this out.” He stood up from his crouching, “And you, will get some rest and take your classes off tomorrow. I’ll take your notes, just stay here,” he instructed, dragging you to the couch. “I have a plan, and I’ll make sure it’ll suceed.” He sat you down on the couch, pushing a pillow into your arms and hesitatingly cupping your face in his warm palms. “Trust me.”
You nodded, eyes glassy. “What are you planning to do?”
“Don’t worry about it,” he dismissed, going around and cleanning up lightly the mess lexi left when she went through your stuff. “And if you need anything, call. I’ll be right here.” he assured you, patting your head, a habit he acquired when hanging out with you more.
The next morning, campus was loud. The kind of loud where something scandalous happened, but in this case, Satoru wouldn’t call it scandalous. He was a man on a mission, and that’s the whole point. To instead of un-scadalizing it, he’ld switch it to someone else. Evil? Absolutely. Worth it? He’ld hope so.
You didn’t go to class. You stayed curled on the couch like Satoru told you to, curtains drawn, phone facedown. But the noise still reached you — group chats lighting up, forum notifications you didn’t dare open, the weight of the situation heavy against your chest.
By noon, almost the entire city knew. The footages and your pictured were on the TV news in restaurants, displayed up on billboards, letters slipping through your door and neighbors knocking it. You hid, but somehow the noise still reached you. But the thing is, they didn’t know about the artist — they knew about you. In every conversation, you name would come up, either your artist name or your real one. the moment you peek through your tightly closed curtains, you’d find a crowd at the bottom, phones directed up at you apartment.
With the leak from before, your name became something almost everyone knew and your face being something people look for on the streets. No longer are your arts discussed as something good, now you were transformed into a debating topic across town.
Lexi did expose your name and all, but now? She’s sprinkling hate all over you, little by little, still the anonymous chat, no name, just a deep evilish soul standing behind a screen.
“Heard she’s unstable.”
“She’s been lying to everyone since freshman year.”
“Wouldn’t trust someone who sneaks around at night like that.”
And the worst part? people genuinely believed it.
That’s exactly why satoru’s here. He stormed through campus hallways at 6am, ready for swim practice at 6:30. The swim hall was empty as always, just his teammtes and him. The door burst open, and they were already there.
“You tutor her, right?” Suguru asked immediately, perched on the bench in the changing room. “She’s the artist?”
Satoru nodded once.
“You gon’ do something about it?” Sukuna leaned against the lockers, arms crossed.
They’d all noticed it. The way Satoru smiled more after he met you. The way his shoulders lifted instead of slumping. The way his eyes actually lit up when your name came up. So when he walked in like this—quiet, tense, eyes dull—they knew.
Satoru sighs, “I need your help.” dropping his bag to the floor.
The door bursted open, again. “Satoru!” Choso barreled in, far too energetic for the hour, immediately dapping him up.
“What help? Like money wise?” susguru questioned, scooting closer to satoru, completely ignoring the overly-excited choso who just wanted a high five like usual.
“Finals,” Satoru said. “Championships. Three days. Everyone will be there.” He lifted his gaze. “I need us to make people remember why they loved the art before they hated the artist.”
Choso blinked.
There was a short pause in the room. “So…” Kento began, “You need us to help move the crowd’s view on the situation?”
Sukuna made his way over arms crossed, “That’s one way to put it, I’m sure there’s something else.” He looked at Satoru, “Isn’t there, Satoru?”
Choso blinked again. Eyes looking around. Comepletely lost, he jumps over. “Hold on, hold on,” choso cut through, “So technically… satoru needs help in doing something that’s not swimming related in the finals that has something to do with the crowd and the artist something, correct?”
Satoru just nodded, “Just like Kento said, but I also need to expose someone else too.”
“But why are you even doing this?” Suguru asked, “It doesn’t effect you, does it?” Asking anyways, even though he quite knew the answer.
Satoru huffed. “I like her.” a pause. “So apparently, it does matter.” He looked up from the ground where his eyes were glued at, “A lot.”
Choso, who finally got the context, said “Then what do you need us to do?”
Satoru sat up straight, “The more voices, the stronger whatever you call this is.”
“Do we really need to take it that far?” Sukuna asked, “I mean, are we overeacting?”
Kento hummed, “If she’s literally plastered on billboards, then a swim meet message would hopefully scratch the edge.”
Satoru stood up, “That’s why I need all of you.”
Suguru chuckled, “So you’re really that down bad huh?”
Choso still lost raised his hands up high, practically bouncing, “Wait wait. Who are we protecting? who is her? Who’s the person behind all the scandal? Who’s the villain?”
The entire squad sighed, “Choso.” Sukuna looked at him, “The girl were siding with is Y/N. The person behind all this, we don’t know–“
“Lexi.” Satoru cut in.
Eyes widended, questions aroused. “But I thought–“
“I’ll explain further.” satoru started, “Lexi got jealous, extremely so, that she broke into Y/N house, followed her, filmed her, exetera. And the person who’s been anonymously exposing her is Lexi.” Satoru passed his phone around. “These messages, posted by her everytime she’s on campus.” He looked over to suguru, “Suguru, you must know, you’re in the same major. Yes?”
Suguru nodded.
Kento leaned back against the bench, arms folding. “Okay. Say we help you sway the crowd. Say the meet becomes more than just swimming.” His eyes flicked to Satoru. “What about Lexi?”
Satoru clicked his tongue, “We’re not necessarily dragging her into this.” he paused, “Talking from how she always acts, she’ll bring herself into the spotlight.”
Sukuna chuckled, a smirk playing on his face, “Translation: you’re gonna let her expose herself.”
A faint smile tugged at Satoru’s lips. “Exactly.”
Choso blinked. “Wait—how?”
An collective sigh stretched across the room. “Someone stuff brain cells in him, I swear…” suguru mumbled.
Kento stood up, raising a finger asking to speak like the polite man he is, “Y/N, does she know about any of this?” he cocked his head at Satoru.
“Well, I haven’t told her yet.” He sighed, “She’ll probably stop us.”
“Then are you sure she wants this then?”
The room fell silent for a moment, even the half panicked and lost Choso fell quiet.
A gulp. “I mean… she doesn’t need to like the process… just how it turns out right?” Choso sheepishly said. Already shooting both hands up before the team can send daggers to him again for being completely off course.
One by one, the group breathed a laugh. Then one by one, they spoke.
“I’m in.” sukuna said first.
Kento joined, “Me too.”
Suguru nodded, “If this is what makes my friend happy, then I’m in.”
A beaming choso, “Me three!”
Satoru exhaled slowly.
For the first time since everything went to hell, his shoulders dropped just a fraction.
“Thanks,” he said quietly.
Choso blinked. “Wait, so what am I doing?”
Sukuna snorted. “Breathing would be a good start.”
“Hey—”
Kento cut in before it could spiral. “We need a plan.” He looked at Satoru. “What exactly are you planning to do at finals?”
A long pause. “…That’s why I need your help…”
This time, everyone blinked. And slowly, very slowly, laughter bursted across the room.
“You seriously came in here,” Sukuna started, already wheezing, “all cool and moody—” he choked on a laugh, “just to admit you did the homework for the pep talk and not the actual plan?”
Satoru scratched the back of his head, cheeks warming. “I mean, for the image right?”
Suguru laughed, shaking his head. “Unbelievable.” He glanced around the room. “Alright. Any ideas to help this hopeless romantic before he embarrasses himself in front of the entire city?”
Kento sighed. “We’re going to regret this.”
A hand lifted, hesitant, but determined to stay up.
Choso cleared his throat. “Um… what about the speeches?” Everyone turned to him. He stiffened under the attention but pushed through. “Since we’re all in different heats and categories,” he said carefully, “can’t we… add something to them? Like, each of us says a part. Not obvious on its own, but together it means something.”
Sukuna raised a brow. “So what you’re saying is…” He glanced at Satoru, then back at Choso. “We talk around the issue. One by one.” he clarrified further, “And when it’s Satoru’s turn, he’ll say it directly.”
Suguru caught on, “Shift the crowd, then get to it.”
kento nodded, “Simple, but works.”
“Then let that be it,” Satoru clapped his hands together. “Let’s get to training—”
“BOYS!”
The door banged open.
“YOU’RE THIRTY MINUTES LATE TO TRAINING.”
Their coach, Toji, stood in the doorway like a bad omen.
Every head snapped toward him.
“Coach, we can explain—”
“EXTRA FIFTY LAPS. SPRINT SWIMS. NOW.” Toji barked. “ONE MORE MINUTE LATE AND I’M ADDING THREE HUNDRED TO YOUR SETS.”
The door slammed shut.
“Shit…”
You didn’t know any of that. What you knew was that your phone wouldn’t stop vibrating.
Satoru its finals ik u dont want to but if u can, pls do come u can be in the furthest stands, that’ll be ok i js want u there
At first, you didn’t plan to go.
You’d been too busy trying to glue your life back together, catching up on lectures, submitting assignments at 2 a.m., finally feeling the weight of doubling majors settle into your muscles and bones. You’d convinced yourself you could handle it, that you were built for it. Now you weren’t so sure.
Satoru showed up to your apartment that morning anyway, lying down with his feet dangling off your couch, he complained about the pressure but not forgetting to stuff in spare words to further convince you to come. You said no, of course you did, but thinking about everything he helped you with, maybe it was time to take the chance and go grab some fresh air. God knows when the crowd would loosen up this much.
Finals day arrived faster than anyone expected, and for the first time in a long time, you finally, literally, felt the crowd’s talking topics slighty shifted away from you. Instead, banners were replaced by navy blue and white—Oxford Blues vs Cambridge, the varsity meet plastered across billboards, café TVs, bus stops. The crowd found something new to obsess over, you were left quiet for a bit, tempoarily forgottenf from people’s minds. That’s when you grabbed your black hoodie, a cap, a mask, shades, and dashed out of the building via the back door.
The walk to campus was scary. Scary in the sense that you know you’re being watched even without actually seeing it. That practically scares even more now that so many things have sabotaged you in such a short period of time. You counted, 2 months was all it took for things to crumble since sophomore midterms.
The swimming hall was already buzzing when you stepped in. Quickly finding the back stands and stuffing yourselt in the furthest corner next to the wall, shadows enveloping you like always. The energy of the hall the complete opposite of what you wanted, it was loud, noisy, and stuffed with students, family member and medias from all across town.
The introduction began. And if you were forced to use one word to describe the hall when the team stepped out, it would be rampageous. Girls were screaming, standing up and waving their banners, cheeleaders were dancing frantically to keep up with crowd’s energy. Everything miggled up together was nothing different from a tribe of monkeys.
The hours passed. Satoru’s turn finnaly dragged in—the 100m Freestyle—the most anticipated race of the day, and the last race before team relays.
The whistle blew. Satoru dove. His body cut through the water like a bullet, the power of his start giving him an immediate edge. You can’t help but feel you heart quicken just by watching. Satoru shoulders burned with force as he breached his way through the water, leaving the other atheletes behind with practiced ease.
The numbers ticked.
57 seconds.
His hand touched the wall first.
And the hall exploded.
“Satoru Gojo! The man, the myth, the legend!” The announcer screamed, “He has done it again! His record has been broken and the gold now is his once more!”
Satoru dipped his head out of the water, flung his googles and cap then shouted to his teamates. The hall never once quieted down, if only anything, it beame louder. His screams can be heard from where you were sitting, and you can’t help but feel a tug of pride hanging of your heart and an upward curve sticking to your lips.
Satoru pulled himself out of the pool, water streaming down his hair, chest rising fast. He barely looked at the screen, just went for the mic. His eyes flicked instinctively to the stands, past the front rows, past the noise, until they landed somewhere dark and tucked away. That was enough for him to suck in a breath and remind himself of why he wanted, needed, to win so badly. You.
The cheering surged again. Satoru exhaled once, slow, grounding himself, then stepped forward.
“Thanks,” he said simply.
The crowd simmered down a bit.
“I’m not gonna talk about technique or training,” he continued, casually adding a small humorous effect. “Everyone here trained hard. That’s not special.”
Chuckles rippled through the hall.
“But what is special,” he went on, “is what pushes you when training isn’t enough.” He glanced briefly at the far wall of the swim hall. “Most of you probably noticed the mural,” he said. “The one near the east exit. It’s been there a while. I used to pass it every morning before practice.” His lips curved, “Didn’t know who made it. Still don’t think most people cared.” A pause. “But I did.”
The hall went completely still. Your heart tightened.
“It reminded me why I started swimming in the first place. Not for medals. Not for crowds.” He shrugged lightly. “Just… because someone thought it was worth leaving a mark. Even if it disappeared the next day created an uproar in society today, I just wanted to say thank you.”
Murmurs spread through the stands, heads started to turn, whispers threaded together.
ou gulped.
Satoru finished simple, “That’s all. Thank you.”
Finally you let out a breath as applause broke out. But not the explosive kind, no. It was the thoughful kind. The kind that made you sick to the stomach knowing what’s to come if they win for the relay, even though it was for you, you knew that, but you can’t help but have bad feelings about this because where Satoru breathes, that’s where Lexi breathed too.
Her hands already itched form hearing Satoru’s short speech, knowing damn well the crowd knew who he was referring to. She was the one to tell everyone that you were tutoring him, so by natural rules, everyone knew. And by that it made it look like you two were dating. And another natural rule repeats, those who gets everything she wanted handed to them gets her sole on their face. That was her rule, but because Satoru is Satoru and Lexi is Lexi, she cheered anyways. But of course, it missed the spark she always brought.
“Hey lexi,” a girl called, “Isn’t the artist he’s talking about your best friend?”
“Pfft,” lexi scoffed, “nah, after what she’s done, I don’t ant anything to do with her anymore.”
“But I thought you used to follow her—“
Lexi slapped a hand over the girl’s mouth. “Quiet.” She shushed, smiling too quickly. “The relay’s about to start.”
Conversation ended.
Lexi didn’t want to hear anything about you or your so called alter ego. she had enough of you, and her whole point of befriending you was to crush you. If only she knew she wasn’t the only one with plans.
Satoru has started to cool off after his whopping 52 seconds race and his teammates were now already stretching.
“Everyone remembers their lines?” kento asked.
The guys nodded.
“uh.. when will I jump in again?” choso raised a weird hand.
A long, tired sigh left Sukuna. “Because your dumbass decided to race Yuji and smash your hand into the wall one day before finals,” he deadpanned. “Congrats, Choso. You’re our emotional support swimmer.”
Choso blinked. “…I’ll cheer really loud?”
Suguru pinched the bridge of his nose, “Go on the stands, Cho. You just need to be the loudest clapper.”
“I’ll do that pleasantly!” he showed the squad thumbs and skipped out.
Now comes the relays. 4 swimmers, 1 lane, 1 goal.
The crowd cheered even louder now that all the stars were lined up, all performing in one heat. It was a sight, to see so many stars in one frame. Hell, most of them might as well become blind by the amount of flashes shooting right at their faces.
With prepareation finished, the whistle finally blew.
Kento started off first, his clean form giving the advantage in the 100m backstroke. Oxford blues easily surged up first. Cheerleaders putting extra efforts in the chants, coaches putting extra effort to shouting and families clapping non-stop for their kids who are currently in the water, weaving their way through it fight for the lead.
Kento touched the wall. Suguru jumped right in. Dive, one kick, surface. He was in charge of the 100m breaststroke, having to be the best breaststroke swimmer, he continued to lead kento’s edge. Cheers and cheers and cheers.
Suguru finally tapped the wall and Sukuna launched, shoulders flexing as he performed his perfectly practiced butterfly. Muscles in his back tensing and easing in every stroke of his arms. The gap narrowed as other teams fought back, but because sukuna is known to hate losing, he only sped up more, touching the wall almost immediately and letting satoru take over.
Satoru dove in deep, being underwater giving him his natural advantages. He pierced through the water, maximizing the 15 meters then surfaced. This was the last leg—the deciding one. Satoru already broke his own record today, but he needed this win more than he needed the other one. His mind was solenmly focused on finishing quickly and justifying you, mind anywhere but the race itself.
59.25 seconds.
The crowd erupted.
Names chanted like prayers.
His teammate pulling him out to celebrate, everyone dripping and breathless. They’ve won gold, again. And can help but clutch the edge of your chair to keep you from standing up and screaming his name outloud too.
The guys made their way to the interviewers, blinding camera flashes brightened their faces before simmering down.
“Talk to us boys, how was it? Your motivation? Process? How you’re feeling?”
The mic passed, not to one person, but down the line. kento spoke first. “Our motivation came from something simple.” he said calmly, “Like satoru shared earlier, everyone got a full heart after seeing that mural outside. That alone fueled our motivation for practices and for this achievement today.”
Your heart quickened immediately, realization hitting you hard why Satoru wanted you to be present so bad.
Oh no.
Please don’t.
No, no, no, no.
Suguru followed.
“It’s an honor to be noticed by so many people for our medals, but to be in a way that gets remembered, that’s different.” he took in a breath, this heaving from the heat earlier. “Believing something matters enough to show up for it every day—even when no one’s watching—that’s the spirit we bring to every practice, knwoing even if we fail or suceed, there’s someone who will still honor us in the silence.”
The crowd started whispering. A few pair of eyes made their ways to your spot, spotting you then whispering all over again.
Sukuna never missed a beat to say his lines.
“Showing up to practice everyday, I knew I loved the art and the artist.” He paused for a second, skimming the stands. “You can call it vandalism all you want.” he said bitterly, “But you all the loved the art before you knew the artist.”
The crowd stilled. Your heart did too.
“Our motivation, our process, our feelings, it’s all fueled by something special. Someone special to be exact.” Satoru jumped in, “We trained hard for this, we earned this.” his gaze shifted to the shadows amongst the stands, “But sparks don’t come from nowhere.” he paused for a brief moment, breathing in one last time before he finishes, “So even though we win, even though we earned this, we’d like to give the honors to the artist who gave us today’s spark.”
You’re chest tightened. You can feel his eyes landing straight on you even though you’re being swallowed by the shadows.
“For the win,” Satoru said, no hesitation now. “Thank you, Y/N”
The hall went dead silent.
But before Choso could even blow the confetti or slam his hands to gether for the amaizng claps he promised, a high-pitched laugh sounded through the hall. It was a laugh you knew all too well, a voice you trusted all too much.
“Her?” she snickered, “Giving sparks?” she mockingly claps, “Oh please, it’s just paint on a wall.”
All the heads in the hall snapped towards her.
“This is ridiculous,” she scoffed, standing abruptly. “He’s just defending her because he’s sleeping with her.”
The air changed imediately, even choso frowned—a thing that’s not so known to the sunshine himself. After a beat, instead of being supported like she wished, Lexi drew the opposite.
People frowned. A phone tilted her way. Your breath caught.
That bitch…
“That’s a weird thing to say.” said someone from the crowd, “considering you were her best friend.”
Lexi was caught off guard. She was used to chasing and getting rejection wrapped in politeness. Not bitterly like this. God knows how much money her dad fed to get her a slot in Oxford. She was a spoiled brat underneath those innocent masks. She lived on status and money. That made her cocky. Being told she’s wrong? Never hear of it. Being caught in a scandalous act? Not on her watch. Others better than her? They were crushed. That was how life went for lexi all her life, but to stand in a hall with around 100 people, your ex best friend, your crush, and get humiliated? of course, like any living being interacting with something new, she fumbled.
“No, because think about it,” she rushed on, words spilling too fast now. “She’s unstable. She’s been lying since freshman year. She sneaks out at night—who does that? She’s manipulative, that’s what she is.”
A girl two rows down narrowed her eyes.
“How do you know all that?”
Lexi’s confidence shattered.
“I just—everyone knows,” she said quickly. “She told people herself.”
Another voice cut in. “Then why were you the one posting all the details on the forum?”
That did it.
Lexi snapped her head around. “What?”
That voice was from Satoru.
“The anonymous account. The timestamps line up with your class schedule. Same typos you make on your public posts. Same phrasing.” he explained, jaw clenched tight.
Murmurs erupted.
“No way…”
“That’s actually insane.”
“So she doxxed her own best friend?”
Lexi’s laugh came out shrill. “You’re all crazy.”
Suguru scoffed loudly, “Funny ‘cause wasn’t you the one who got jealous?”
That shutted her up. She went silent, just slumped down in her seed and clutched her phone tight, fingers trembling.
Like a newborn interacting the world for the first time. Like a newborn not getting what it likes for the first time. Like a living thing, seeing something new for the first time. Like a newborn trying to hit the elders and getting punished for the first time. She broke.
“She ruined my life!” lexi screamed, “She ruined it first!”
Gasps scattered across the stands.
“She had everything!” Lexi continued, “Everyone liked her without her even trying. She was smarter, prettier, better at everything. And then he—” Her voice hitched as she pointed toward Satoru, “—he looked at her like she was the only person in the room!”
Her breathing turned ragged. “I just… evened things out, I just made sure people saw what she really was.”
Silence followed. A heavy silence stuffed with unsaid words. But that broked with a chuckle.
“Guess your plan worked then satoru?” sukuna eyed him.
A smile tugged on Satoru’s lips, “More dramatic than I ever imagined, but yes, thank god it worked.” he breathed, “C’mon, lets dash.”
The boys nodded as they dragged Choso along. But satoru stopped, he didn’t leave, there was a special someone he had to take with him. Passing the noisy stands that was corrupting with shouts, discussions, whispers of lexi, phones of recording, he found you tucked in the little corner of the stands. Shadows enveloping you.
“Now that was dramatic,” you commented, hands crossed, head still dipped low.
“I know.” he smiled.
There was a small second of silence. “Thank you though, even though it was kind of over-reacted, but thank you. Tell the guys I thank them too.” you raised your head, eyes a little glassy, not from worriness or being afraid, this time it was graditude, pride and all that combined.
His smiled bloomed brighter, “C’mon now, we need to run before the place sees you.” you nodded in response, “I need some silence after this.” you chuckled, standing up and following him. “I really do need to follow you into the shadows sometimes, this is way too much for me” he muttered.
For the first time in weeks, you felt youself smile—a smile that has actual meaning in it, not just a fake one. And you felt it, how happy you were now that you’re with him, either as XIXXX or as Y/N you felt safe and accompanied, a realization you found a little late. But that’s okay, because no matter what, he already a promise with himself—he won’t leave.
2 months later
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Sunlight passed through your apartment as you sat down on the floor, paint smothered on you finger tips and apron. A sudden warmth pulled you in by the waist as he nuzzled his nose to your neck.
“You need a break,” he murmured into your neck, sniffing in your scent. “I wanna take a walk outside.” he pouted.
“Satoru, I’m not done.” you breathy laughed. “I’ll go with you once I’m done with this part.” you promised, nudging him to leave your back.
You and satoru got together that chaotic evening, with him expressing his feelings with the words you’re the light to my world, and even if you’re always hiding, take me with you. You remembered that word for word till now. heart now filled with warmth after all you’ve been through. Looking back, everything’s changed, even though as you live the day, you don’t notice much change. That’s funny to you, since the last 4 months was the most confusing, exciting yet scary months of your life. Now life was much better. You didn’t necessarily need to hide in the shadows anymore, light itself has learnt to welocme you. The town supported you, having the drama in the hall so big it lasted for days on the news, they confirmed you were an artist. A legal street artist. Birds chirped as you painted, people would say hi when they spot you taking a paste-up out to hang. Greeting you and admire it the moment it was hung up. You threw away your masks and disguises, there was nothing to hide from now. Everything felt settled.
Lexi also left town after that, you heard she’s going to America or Scotland whatever. You didn’t really pay attention to that. What matters to you most now was not your art, not XIXXX, not even your studies (which usually ranked first in your priorities) can comapre to the white haired boy lying on your couch, waiting for you to finish off so you two can go on a walk together. Thinking back, you didn’t know what to do if he wasn’t there for you and many things would’ve changed if you weren’t assigned as his tutor that one random day. You already thanked Yaga for that, but still owe the man big time. Satoru fitted in your life like a lost piece of puzzle that was seperated from you for far too long. He still swam, yes, but instead of speeches, medals and photoshoots, he did what he promised. He followed you to the shadows. He followed you to where he knew he could rest, to where he could sleep peacefully without being woken up by noisy girly screams. Life sounded better this way.
“Satoru, I’m done,” you called, a very excited white haired golden retriever to run to you and tug the apron off you imediately. Quick to give you a bear hug. Satoru was much more clingy than you expected. But you weren’t complaining, you liked it that’s all.
“Let’s go?” he pulled you towards the door. You nodded. Putting on your shoes and letting him tie the laces for you, he liked doing that. bare minimum, he’ld say. “Are you going to bring that with you?” he pointed towards the paste-up sitting on your floor.
“Hm, im not quite done with that yet.” He nodded, holding the door for you and putting your jacket on you, not forgetting to zip it up.
His hands automtically found it’s way towards yours, lacing together, warming your palms better than any gloves could ever. It’s the start of your junior year now, autumn leaves dotting the pavement outside your apartment as you two walked hand in hand down the street. You took time gazing the trees, gazing the sky, and he took time in gazing you, your eyes, your lips, your smile. Your voice music to his ears, your laughter filled his heart with flowers, you were all he needed. At first he didn’t think he’ld fall this hard, but here he is, loving you more than himself.
“Excuse me?” a little boy tugged at your jacket, holding up a small copy of your works in his hands (yes you did have mini copies for sale now). “Are you XIXXX?” you nodded, bending down to the boy, “Then can you sign this for me! i really love your works!” he beamed.
“Oh of course!” you ruffled his hair and signed his copy for him, not forgetting to leave a small heart and a smiley face right beside it. “There you go.” you handed him back the copy, a familiar warmth filling your chest once more. The kind that appeared every time you felt appreciated for doing things you love.
A sudden hum, “Y’know, I used to love you without knowing you name too.” Satoru spoke, hands tangling in yours once more as he looked at you with the corner of his eye, “I used to hate the works you did actually,” he confessed, “But I learnt to love the passion behind it, and the artist too.” His eyes found your as he took in your other hand too, stopping to face you directly, “But I didn’t know it was you. And I didn’t know how happy I’ll feel after actually getting to love you. All of you.” You felt your heart melt with each word he said. His eyes dropped to your lips for a brief moment, only to meet up with your eyes again and ask “May I?” before leaning in after seeing your subtle nod.
The kisses you shared with Satoru were always gentle and sweet. This one was no different. He pulled you closer by the waist, one hand holding you close, the other supporting your head. “I love you,” he murmured between breaths. You giggled in response, smiling against his lips, “love you too.” he pulled away, cupping your cheeks and giving it a final, sweet peck. “Love you more.”
The book thud closed.
“And that, ladies and gentleman, is the end. The end of a story that has a happy ending through all the storms. Because according to everyone, everyone deserved a happy ending. And it’s no different for our two characters.”
The crowd clapped.
“...And that’s also how I got humiliated for being a brat infornt of a 100 people.”
Because the hero would always be the hero in the civilan’s eyes. But the villain in this story deserves a happy ending too. She knew she was wrong, and for the first time in all the villain-hero stories, the villain viewed and accepted herself as the villain. She was just a living person after all. Everyone make mistake and fumbles when it’s their first time…
“...But I never said I was wrong…”
Right?
THE END.
dividers: @/cursed-carmine, @/enchanthings, @/cafekitsune
𝐗𝐈𝐗𝐗𝐗 — swimmer!gojo x streetartist!reader
announcement - fic coming soon!! release date - tbc (hopefully before february, i'm 70% thru)
For as long as you can remember, you’ve lived in the shadows—avoiding the spotlight, choosing silence over attention. The moon was your guide, the night your refuge. Only after dusk did you rise and become who you truly were. A street artist. That was the rule. Until Gojo Satoru broke it. He came from the spotlight—gold medals, loud applause, a life too bright for someone like you. But instead of dragging you into the light, he followed you into the dark. Stroke by stroke. Lap by lap. Day by day. And the most frightening part? You're letting him stay.
pairing: swimmer!gojo x streetartist!reader
dividers: @/cafekitsune
just finished the climax... it gonna take longer that i estimated...
ok... a lil update on my current progress is that i may not finish in time... sorry guys, I suddenly decided on a change of plot midway, resulting in such a delay in my release schedule. Apologies!! I'll get it done ASAP and will also try and write another chapter of wlih too!! please, hang with me... its getting there, promise!!
