A/n: sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. It took me so long to update bc Iâve been so busy I mean can you believe it!! Iâve actually been doing stuff!! Like I never do anything but yeah itâs bc school and I have no choice so I have to go and of work and stuff so I donât have much time and I get stressed easily so yeah anyway here you go.
This was some kind of fucking joke. It must be. I told her what my ex girlfriend did.
She cheated on me with my best friend and thatâs what y/n had just done. I know we arenât together or anything but that doesnât make it hurt less.
âWhat do you mean I have a girlfriend?â I asked really confused by now and how the hell she thought that.
âT-that woman. At your doorâ she said bright red in the face.
âWhat woman?â I asked wondering when the hell y/n had actually come over and seen her.
âThe one who answered the door. Your girlfriendâ y/n said angrily.
âWhat?⌠Who? - oh you mean herâ I said thinking back to when Stacey came round a few hours ago.
âSheâs not my girlfriend, sheâs my ex, she came to pick up some thingsâ I said telling the truth. It hurt that she didnât trust me.
âWhat? B-but she said that she was and Michaelâ she said turning around to look at Michael who had his haze on the ground and look guilty and ashamed.
âYou said he got back together with her⌠Mikey?â She said sounding as if she was going to cry.
âIâm sorryâ he whispered
âYouâre fucking dead cliffordâ I glared, it must have been him, I always knew he liked her like that.
âYeah and youâre her fucking teacherâ he snapped back quickly immediately defending himself.
âGuys please donât do this.â y/n spoke softly and tiredly.
âIâm sorry y/n, But you- youâre going to get in trouble I donât want to see either of you hurt and by breaking you apart like this I thought I could prevent it.â He said quietly.
âYou fucking twatâ I screamed pouncing on Michael and trying to punch at him.
âGuys stopâ y/n said getting up and trying to pull Me off of Michael.
âI thought you were my friendâ I screamed, I could tell I was probably red in the face and my neck veins were probably making an appearance as I shouted angrily at my âbest friendâ
I was getting tired and my movements were slowing as I had no energy left to fight with him.I rolled so I was laying next to him, both of is panting and knowing that we were being stupid.
âI- I just donât want you to go to jailâ Michael sighed
âBut you could have just talked to meâ I said still bitter about the situation, I was t going to forgive him that easily.
âI know but please, you too need to be more careful if youâre serious about any of thisâ he said waving his hands up and jumping up at the same time.
I followed his lead getting up.
âWe good?â He asked carefully and in such a Michael way that I couldnât not let it go.
I sighed. I couldnât lose Michael as a friend and he did it out of his best intentions.
âWeâre goodâ I said as he patted me on the back.
âIâll leave you two alone nowâ Michael said leaving with out any further words.
It was awkward as I turned around to face her. She was wearing nothing but a big tshirt, exposing the top of her legs and I unintentionally ran my eyes over how perfect she looked. Her hair was slightly messed up and her cheeks flushed and stained with a few tears.
âNo. Iâm sorryâ she said. âYou have nothing to apologise for. I was the one who cheated. Why are you apologising?â
âI overreacted. I shouldnât have stormed in here and had a go at Michael. Itâs not like weâre even serious or in a relationshipâ I said immediately regretting saying that as she flinched at my words.
âRight. So weâre nothing, weâre back to square one. Every thing weâve done means nothing.â She said whispered in disbelief.
âI-I didnât mean it like that. Really I didnâtâ I said trying to fix what I had just broken. âIâm so stupidâ I stressed
âW-what are we then?â She asked the dreaded question we had both been avoiding for days.
Nothing but a student and a teacher. I told myself.
But I knew that wasnât true.
I liked her. A lot. But the frustrating thing was I have no idea what to do. Itâs not fair to ask her to keep this a secret for how ever long. Itâs not fair to put her in this position.
But I wanted her and I was selfish.
âFriendsâ I said finally deciding because I didnât know what to say. I was truly stuck and for once I could not think properly because of her.
âFriends?â She laughed sarcastically.
âLook I donât know y/n! I donât know what we are! And I know thatâs not what you want to hear! But I have nothing else. What do you want us to be? We just keep going in circles and when we suddenly start to make progress you say everythingâs over and that we shouldnât be doing this! I know we shouldnât be but you canât keep wanting me one minutes and then dropping it the next!â I ranted.
âI- I donât know eitherâ she said sadly âIâm so confused, Iâm not use to having people care about me, itâs almost an instinct that push people away, and this is wrong anyway and I just donât know what to do, I know I shouldnât be with you, but I need you.â She said her voice cracking.
âCome hereâ I said holding my arms out for her she walked quickly over to me wrapping her arms around my waist as I pulled her close to me.
âWhat did I do?â She asked panicked.
âYou stink like Michaelâs after shaveâ I said in disgust but jokingly.
âOh. Shower?â She asked and I laughed nodding and following her to the bathroom.
We stripped for our clothes and she bent over to turn the shower on.
Once it had warned up I stood in holding my hand out for her. She took it and followed me to stand under the water our chests pressed together as I took a proper look at her. She smiled shyly reminding me of why I was so captivated by her.
I picked up a bottle of her strawberry shampoo before putting a small amount on my hand and starting to wash her hair. I then took the body wash lathering it on my hands and running my hands all over her body rubbing in the body wash as she moaned in approval.
âDo the same for me?â I asked sweetly as she chuckled and reached for the body wash.
She copied my movements running her hands over my back and chest. She leaned up pecking me on the lips as I shivered at her touch.
âYouâre gonna smell of strawberriesâ She smirked up at me.
âAnd How are you always horny?â She asked laughing as she looked down to see that I was struggling to contain myself.
âItâs not my fault youâre so beautifulâ I said truthfully as I looked at her in amazement.
âShut upâ she giggled blushing as I smiled at her happily.
âDo you wanna stay for tea?â She asked
âHmmm depends what youâre havingâ i said as she looked up at me playfully.
âWhat would you like?â
âPizzaâ I said almost automatically making her laugh.
âPizza it is thenâ She said liking my idea.
âOh and can we actually start doing some uh tutoring, because I really canât fail this year, i donât want to spend longer than I have to in this place.â she said timidly.
âOf courseâ I said when the thought of her passing all her classes and moving away crossed my mind. I wasnât ready for that thought and it stayed in the back of my mind for the rest of the night.
