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Chester is in our hearts every day and today it is heavy. Remembering all of the amazing, wonderful and positive contributions Chester made to this world and so many people in it. We'll never forget you.

I came back to her.

I feel so light. Like a Butterfly.

I know that it's too early for effects but I'm so damn happy.

I missed for my empty stomach.

🦋

Me: I really want to kill myself.

Also me: What will your mother do?

Me: yeah... Actually. Better not...

My bpd: Bitch. You'll be dead. What the fuck does you care about?

🤤🤤🤤

Self-destruction is my middle name.

I'm a piece of shit.

#borderline personality disorder #fat guy #im fat and disgusting #i cant love #i cant #i cant breathe #im so tired #im stupid #im not okay #i dont deserve anything #binge food #binge eating #im a piece of shit #im a piece of trash #actually bpd #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd

Food isn't all life.

We don't live to eat.

Remember it, Darling.

#borderline personality disorder #eating disroders #binge eating #healthy eating #dont eat #we dont need this #i wanna be thin #thiny #thinspiro #motivator #motivation #no eating #im not pro just using tags #i can do this #annamiia #anna #lose weight #lose fat

I know I can be beautiful and skinny.

I will not give up and nobody will disturb be.

I believe in it with all my heart.

Everyone will see what I can do.

You don't deserve to be loved.

Beacuse

You can't love.

~my borderline personality disorder

My therapist: Are you self-harming?

Me: ... Yes.

My therapist: How do you disinfect your wounds?

Me: I don't do this.

My therapist: Why? It's dangerous for your health! You can hurt yourself!

Me: No shit! Sherlock 😱

I'm a fucking bad person. I don't deserve to life.

#borderline personality disorder #eating disroders #bad day #i feel bad #im a bad person #i dont want to be here #i dont deserve anything #i dont deserve it #self harn

I love to destroy my life.

And myself.

And everything around.

#borderline personality disorder #autodestrukcja #autodestrucción #autodestruye #bad day #im fat lol #im fat and ugly #im fat and disgusting #im fat #i want to diiieeee #i want to be skin and bones #i want to be thin #i want to disappear #being borderline #actually borderline #borderline problems #destroyer

I hate Christmas. Everyone see that I don't eat. Everyone comments that I don't eat. So I must eat. And I eat and eat. I can't stop..

I'm happier with the thought that I'll die.

#i wanna be thin #i wanna be skin and bones #i wanna diiieee #i wanna d*e #i wanna cry #i wanna go home #being borderline #actually borderline #borderline problems #borderline personality disorder #bad day #self ham #krewlife #rany #jest zle #bardzo #jest gorzej #coraz gorzej

But in the end it doesn't even matter

#linkin park #chester bennington #mike shinoda #band #in the end #it doesnt matter #it doesnt make sense #bad day #i wanna d*e #i wanna diiieee #borderline problems #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #being borderline #borderline things #i love music #self ham

I prefer to drink alcohol than eat. I still feel like I'm starving.

#i hate this #alcohol #I wanna drink #annamiia #pro annna #lose weight #lose fat #bpd #bpd problems #borderline personality disorder #beer #friday #my diet #just alcohol #just beer

I hate me.

I hate my body.

I hate that I like drink alkohol.

I hate that I like smoke weed.

I hate that I like take a drugs.

I hate that I hurt myself.

I hate everything about me.

I dream to be thin.

Because...

I imagine myself thiny on my large bed.

Those damned scars look better on my skinny legs.

I want to feel fragile and delicate.

Because because.

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