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[nikialexx]

Hi! Welcome to my blog. I mostly talk about the marauders (i am a sworn Remus Lupin apologist), but occasionally I might mention something else that interests me. You can also find me here:

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(Affairs FAQ under the cut)

Hey there! I made a few constructional edits to the Affairs series as it's posted on A03:

> This Thing Between Us (the original one-shot) has been renamed to Affairs.

-> The Haven Hotel (the second installment has been renamed to This Thing Between Us.

The one-shot that was The Haven Hotel, now acts as Chapter 1 of the long-fic (hence the rebranding).

I tried to make this as seamless and uncomplicated as possible. I'm posting this here to help limit any panicking when someone goes and sees the fics 'missing' They aren't missing! Just renamed :

I also made no edits to the original This Thing Between Us (now called Affairs). though it will act as a separate entity from the long-fic.

[sorenphelps]

mile high club

I had a trip to Japan and my long flights made me thinking, which resulted in this. I especially like Remus' face, cause it's not clear whether he's uncomfortable because he is squeezed by the others, he's afraid of flying or he's trying to hide a boner... Probably a combination of these😅 He's mentally writing a story about them joining the mile high club to disctract himself:

Some links & tags: my gym bro AU tag; @goldenlionprince's first & second ficlet, amazing gift art by @lalunavinoalafragua, @diamondmeadow, @lovelymasks, @thistlecatfics & @lilacella!

[blomsterdraws]

Sketch for the Full-Moony-Prompts for the Moony Love server. Every month they generously offer prompts for writing or drawing. Very nice of them. Lots of good and atmospheric stuff. Anyway, this was a long month with 2 full moons…Remus on the brain.

[jeniferprince]

I've got a crush on you 💘

patreon // buy prints here

[voidthing]

happy month, fellow slurs.

[ryuunie]

Sirius “hair is freshly washed and curled so life is sunshine and rainbows again” Black

[nikialexx]

Niki I just want to say I love your updating schedule so incredibly much, it’s just long enough for me to be able to reread the whole fic every time you update and it’s spectacular. So excited for the next chapter!!

Also, it being pride month has me thinking of your wolfstar at pride and ohhhhh it’s wonderful, Remus is collared and on a leash and it’s beautiful and so gay. I love gay people

happy pride month Niki

you know what. i hadn't thought about it like that lmao i thought people would get annoyed with me taking long to update. so this just made me very very happy lol i'm glad the waiting time is working out for you!!

also yay pride month!! happy pride month to you as well!! (i actually forgot it had started and only remembered earlier today 😭) i remembered in the days leading up to it and then june 1st came and went in a blur of work-related responsibilities and it completelyyyy slipped my mind.

I have been SEARCHING HIGH AND LOW since i started this fic for an excuse to put Remus on a leash omg. i know I don't need a reason (or at least, sirius doesn't need a reason lolol) but i would at least like to pretend that it's happening for a reason that isn't just 'i think this is hot' 😭

[nikialexx]

and for your second gift you get your pre-chapter teaser!

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“Dorcas and Marlene are looking for a new apartment?” Sirius asks. He tries to keep his tone leveled. Casual.

“Yeah,” Remus says. “They’re graduating in a few months. Marlene already has a job lined up. They wanna live alone— I get it.” He clears his throat, and rather pointedly avoids looking at Sirius as he mumbles, “they only recently started looking.”

“Why didn’t you mention it to me?”

“I don’t know,” Remus says quietly. “I haven’t really decided what I’m going to do about it yet. Though I suppose getting a new roommate would be easier than moving somewhere new.”

“Do you want a new roommate?”

Remus laughs, finally turning to face him. “Of course not. But—”

“You could move into Grimmauld.”

Remus is visibly taken aback. “What?”

“You spend your weekends there already. You even have your own room.”

“That’s— different.” Remus shakes his head. “And— what? Do you want a full-time roommate? Maybe having me living with you is one of those things that sounds better in theory and you’d just end up hating it in practice.”

“Remus, you wouldn’t exactly be my roommate,” Sirius reminds him.

[nikialexx]

I've been very absent and have several people to reply to at this point so i come bearing gifts as an apology.

first gift: the james & remus scene that was deleted from chapter 10 🥰

(you'll notice a couple things here that don't line up with the rest of the chapter and that's because this scene was written very early on)

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James cuts himself off with a frown, reaching into the pocket of his leather pants to retrieve his phone. He glances at the screen, then briefly back to Remus, and then he answers it. He opens his mouth as if to start speaking, but the person on the other end of the line seems to beat him to it.

He waits them out. Then, "he's right here," James says. "No, we're just talking. Oh. Should I warn h—"

Without warning, the plug roars back to life. Remus' hands fly out to grip the edge of the bar, and he bites down hard on his tongue to keep from making a sound. The intensity is brutal. The plug is at its highest setting, or close enough that it makes no difference.

James stands perfectly still, his expression held neutral as if this is something he sees every day.

"Yeah, okay." James blows out a breath and extends the phone towards Remus, finally looking mildly sympathetic. "For you."

Remus takes the phone with a shaking hand.

"Hello, sweetheart," Sirius says, his voice low and sultry. Remus doesn't dare open his mouth. He squeezes his eyes shut, mortifyingly aware that James is still watching him. He's probably even drawn the attention of the other people surrounding him, by now.

The plug sends shockwaves up his spine, and Sirius' voice in his ear only makes it worse, every word only pulling him closer to that edge he isn't allowed to cross.

"Do you miss me?" Sirius continues conversationally.

Remus opens his eyes, looking around the room in a desperate search for Sirius, any sight of him. For all Remus knows, Sirius could be on an entirely different floor of the building right now, torturing Remus without even needing to see him.

"I'll be back there soon," Sirius says. "I want your cock hard by the time I get there. Understood?"

Remus presses his lips together and nods.

"Remus," Sirius says.

"Yes." Remus chokes out. He swallows. "Yes, Sir."

"Good boy. Give the phone back to James."

The moment Remus holds the phone out, the vibrations cut off. Remus sags against the bar with a soft, involuntary sound. James accepts the phone and turns slightly away from him.

"Yes. Okay." A pause. Another glance at Remus. "Will do."

He ends the call and turns back to Remus, who is still breathing hard, his hands braced against the bar. James' gaze drops, briefly and pointedly, before returning to Remus' face.

"Well," he says, smiling slowly. "On the bright side, he got you halfway there."

Remus goes scarlet. James laughs. It's the same wild, barking laugh he'd had earlier.

"Yeah," James says, raising a brow as he reaches for his drink. "Sirius can be mean as fuck when he wants to be. But you already know that."

[nikialexx]

anon omg i just realised you resent your list of questions (i thought my phone was just glitching and sent the notification twice 🫠). you didn't have to do that!! i got it the first time, I just haven't had the time to go through it, but i will!!

[nikialexx]

re: anon who sent me that ask earlier about that 'silly' idea you had. im not replying to that because it's not silly at all and is actually quite a big spoiler lmao

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[nikialexx]

hello again, it’s the anon who asked about bdsm punishments etc, just wanted to say thank you SO much for your very thorough answer to my questions! i will definitely not take anything you said as like The BDSM Authority or use you as my only source of information so don’t worry about that haha but it helps a lot to have at least one example of how these dynamics can play out and why they work for the people involved. you explained everything so well and i really appreciate you taking the time to do that! very excited to watch remus and sirius’s relationship continue to develop in TTBU 💛💛

Hi anon!! I really appreciate that you even trusted me to answer such an important question so thank you and I'm glad my response was helpful!! <333

[nikialexx]

Since it looks like were doing questions I've got a few!

1. It was implied somewhere that remus sits in the chair next to sirius at the table. Why not opposed to him? I feel like that would be the more obvious set up especially since its always just the two of them.

2. Why the hell did they have an alarm set at 7 am on a weekend? Was it just that one weekend and sirius used it to reinforce his control over how remus' time is occupied or is it a common reaccourance?

3. Im really curious about remus' bedroom. I know it was important to sirius that it's remus' space and remus can do and say whatever he wants in there without using his safeword. So that's where all his clothes are right? And he showers in his own bathroom but do they ever actually spend time there together? Because if they don't than how does remus use the freedom he only has inside? Or does he not use it? Or does he spend time there alone when he wants to have some space to do something specific and make sure sirius can't interupt him and have him do something else? Idk this is kind of a ramble I feel like I understand the rules sorrounding remus' bedroom but I'm confused about how it would work in practice.

4. Its referenced a few times that remus is cuddly, wraps himself around sirius in sleep, and that must extend to when he's awake right? Unless he's emberessed which would make sense but does he ever just like come up to sirius and hug him from behind while he's cooking or something? Please tell me he does. Just straight up lie to indulge me, that would be so cute.

I loved reading your responses to all the other questions and I'm super excited for all of the communicating and confessing and calling out it looks like we're getting in the next four chapters🥰

Hello!! I always love hearing from you in particular lol. Like I know I always say the affairs series wasn't abandoned but I think I got really really close to that point, and then there you were, at just the right time, encouraging me to write again! and now it's at 87k words and counting with a whole sequel planned. Just saying 'thank you' feels very inadequate lol but thank you so so much 🥹

So to answer your questions:

Q: Why don't the sit on the opposite sides of the table?

I can't remember exactly where this is located in the fic but I do remember their seating arrangements being something I actually put a decent amount of thought into. I'm assuming this is somewhere in Reverie? But the reason is easy, it's just that I envision it as a larger table and if they sat on opposite sides of it they'd be way too far away from each other! So I have Sirius at the head of the table and then Remus at the side, on either Sirius' left/right lol. It actually makes me so happy that you'd ask about this because it's one of those details that isn't that big of a deal so the fact that it stood out to you for any reason is awesome.

Q: Why the alarm set at 7am on the weekend?

LMAO I was actually surprised no one else pointed this out (or at least, I can't remember if anyone did). I decided on 7am for a couple of reasons but yes the main one was just to reinforce that Sirius is the one in control of how Remus' time is spent on weekends lol. I do think that most weekends, Sirius would let him sleep in later unless he has an actual reason for waking him up (but even then, the 'reason' can be something entirely selfish like you know how in The Deep End, Sirius is fantasizing about waking Remus up just for sex? lol I can see that being something that happens occasionally and also, ever since writing that scene in chapter 2 I have been trying to find a way to insert a sex scene where Sirius wakes him to fuck in the middle of the night because yeah remus' time at grimmauld is 100% sirius' to occupy however he wants <3). And anyway. I am getting WAY off track lmao but, yes, the 7am alarm in Reverie in particular was a special occasion just for that weekend, and also: Sirius wakes up early and probably has breakfast or at least his coffee early too, and since Remus was responsible for all of that during the Submission/Domination/Reverie weekend, Remus had to wake up early :)

Q: How much does Remus use his own bedroom at Grimmauld?

Yes all of Remus' clothes and stuff are in his bedroom but I do think he has a few things that he just keeps in Sirius'. Like, he probably just uses Sirius' bathroom more often than not so his toothbrush and stuff would remain there. But no, Remus' bedroom isn't really a space they just hang out in! I do think it's possible that sometimes they just end up in there and one thing leads to another but if they really want to cuddle in a bed specifically, they'll just use Sirius' bedroom. One interesting detail is that they strictly don't have sex in Remus' room at least not D/s sex but that's the only kind of sex they have at the moment so... no sex in Remus' room lol. But, generally speaking, how Remus uses 'his' spaces at Grimmauld really isn't that complicated. He can just ask to go into his bedroom whenever he wants to. I just don't think he does very often, or at all lol. Same goes for if he wants to talk about something with Sirius as equals and not as Dom and sub. He can just ask lol. And it's not that he has to ask permission to speak freely every time he disagrees with Sirius or wants to bring up something important; this is really only a level of formality that exists during the weekends. Like Friday evenings to Monday mornings. Outside of that, he can typically say and do whatever he likes, whenever he wants to ✨within reason✨

Q: I'm summarising this to 'how much does Remus initiate non-sexual physical touch' lol 

I think it would've taken him a while to get to the point where he freely touches Sirius outside of sex, as much as Sirius touches him! But yes he would absolutely come up to him and just hug him or kiss him or be the one to take Sirius' hand when they're out in public. I do think most of the time Sirius will be the one to initiate physical touch but then Remus immediately escalates it. Like for example if they're on the couch watching a movie and Sirius wraps his arm around Remus' shoulder, Remus is gonna fully climb onto his lap and wrap himself around Sirius like an octopus instead lol. So for Sirius, physical touch is probably 'I like touching you and being near you' and for Remus it's more like 'i want to live inside your skin' lmao

(I'm copy/pasting your other ask so I can just answer it while I'm here lol): One more question. Does hope know remus is a sub? Does remus tell her before she meets sirius or does he introduce him as just a partner?  On that same note I wasnt expecting sirius' family to meet remus. I mean sirius has been wanting to stop coming to mass and he doesnt know why they even bother seeing each other and regulus doesnt want sirius in his home and than he introduces remus to them? I mean i'm sure there's a reason you're the writing genius but still im kinda confused.

In response to Hope, I do plan for her to eventually find out that Remus is a submissive and that his and Sirius' relationship isn't a typical one. But I don't know if this happens in TTBU or the sequel (I think it most likely will happen in the sequel lol). But Hope does meet Sirius at the end of TTBU and.... I really don't have a concrete reason for not saying what Remus introduces Sirius as, but for some reason I'm leaning towards 'it'll be better for you to just read it in the fic, when that time comes' so. I won't tell you lol.

As for Sirius' family: Sirius' relationship with his family is complicated! Yes he is effectively estranged from his brother and has a pretty weak connection to his mother, but it's important to note that he isn't completely cut-off from them! He still works at his family's company and still regularly meets up with them for family dinner and christmas mass. And I keep calling him a trust fund baby because he still benefits from the family's wealth and connections in several ways that haven't been revealed yet lol. This is all not relevant to TTBU though, which is why we have so few details about his family at the moment. But like I said, all of this is part of the plot of the sequel and therefore I really can't say too much!

But, I will say, Sirius doesn't introduce Remus to his family. They just find out ;)

[nikialexx]

(hiii i have a few asks to reply to and i just wanted to let you guys know i'm not ignoring you and will reply to those by the end of the day 😅)

[nikialexx]

hello i'll reply to everyone tonight and yes it's sunday night now but please ignore that lol i am just now resurfacing from self-imposed isolation/spending all weekend writing 👉🏾👈🏾

(also chapter 11 is being posted on wednesday/thursday instead but don't panic it's like 80% complete i promise i will not make you guys wait an entire month again 😅)

[nikialexx]

(hiii i have a few asks to reply to and i just wanted to let you guys know i'm not ignoring you and will reply to those by the end of the day 😅)

[moonlightvalkyrie]

sorry i haven’t posted in a minute, i’ve been busy with revision and it’s been hard to pick up a pencil 🥲

on a happier note i’m extremely proud of this piece. i generally avoid backgrounds like the plague but surprisingly this didn’t give me too much trouble so it’s a win in my book 👍

ignore the fact that the book is empty, i physically cannot spend any more time on this 💔