My shoes are full of water

But my feet will grow gills.

[birdsareblooming]

sometimes i feel like im climing up this incline again alone but thankully sisypus and the itsy bitsy spider and here with me

[birdsareblooming]

holy shit is that kate bush

[cryptotheism]

Do you know why the veil is thickening??

Quite literally bc we all be on that phone

[murraysiskind-deactivated202511]

Me: Tom Cruise I picked up more plain steamed fish for you to eat for every meal because of your pathologies

Tom Cruise: thank you so much. By the way I feel that we have been through enough together - you doing a Misery on me and breaking both my legs, etc - that you can just call me Tom

Me: Thank you for saying that Tom Cruise

[zombilenium]

Once a day, shadows briefly bring back to life the beautiful ‘Ghost of Ungru Manor’ Estonia...

Courtesy: Abandoned Places

[tchaikovskaya]

had to be there i guess

[arvethli]

I told y'all it was a pun

A very long thread on it: https://twitter.com/lmrwanda/status/1505646738627088389?t=06aHTTZkf1ZaJyCDhWUzTg&s=19

And the punchline, if anyone wants to jump there directly: https://twitter.com/lmrwanda/status/1505648702119202823?t=IHkQWeElTa0T63o3lbr12Q&s=19

[honeylazors]

[fierceawakening]

that’s excellent

[thisarenotarealblog]

cracking open a cold one with the sumerian dog

[megparsec]

Baa baa backstreets, have you any boys

[mr-deep-downer]

while you lost years of your life to sissy hypno cuck porn I was actively trying to end mine to no avail.

we are not the same

[powerburial]

you were wasting time while they were growing Stronger and stronger

[vampiregf-deactivated20260316]

do you think about vampires. have you thought about vampires. will you think about vampires. when will you think about vampires

[newyorkkiss]

[wingedprincessheart]

we all have that friend that reminds us of a wretched and despotic boy-king

[pagewoman]

Dunnottar Castle, Stonehaven, Aberdeenshire, Scotland

[lillyofthewoods]

Love that they put “a sense of impending doom” as one of the symptoms of a heart attack, like girl, that’s just how it is to be alive these days, you’re gonna have to be more specific

[undeadhousewife]

This made me chuckle but after scrolling away I felt the need to come back to it.

Because as someone who has felt this I can not stress how different it actually is from anxiety. Which is saying a lot because I have a massive anxiety disorder.

I’ve only felt this twice in my life - once when I was going into kidney failure due to an infection and again when my body was going into shock due to dehydration and malnourishment due to GI issues - and I can not stress how much it saved my life. It’s hard to even put it into words. It’s not like a panic attack, or anxiety. It is a horrific gut turning feeling of absolute dread.

Especially if you have anxiety you’ll know the difference honestly. It’s so much worse. It’s every cell in your body and your brain screaming that there’s something horribly wrong in a way you’ve never felt. It’s your brain screaming out that you are going to die in a way no panic attack has ever done before.

I can not stress how important it is to get yourself to the ER if you feel this way. Especially if your having other physical symptoms.

[naamahdarling]

This is amazing and incredibly helpful, oh my god. Thank you.

[vmohlere]

Seconding the above : I was going into shock from internal bleeding, and that sense of “something is gravely wrong” was entirely different from my day-to-day whirlwind of anxiety.

For me, it was very quiet. For me, there was a deep sense that I could just lie down on the floor and not have to ever get up again, no effort required.

That combined wrongness/relief was so weird and so unsettling that I drove myself to the ER.

The “impending” part is really key to that symptom, I think, based on my experience. It’s not the existential dread of late-stage capitalism grinding the world into nurdles. It’s a ghost crow on your shoulder whispering “it’s here, it’s now.”

[thebibliosphere]

Impending doom is also a feature of anaphylaxis, something I’m intimately familiar with as someone with mast cell dysfunction.

For me, its the overwhelming, near calm certainty of doom that distinguishes it from the jittery panic of “but something could go wrong.”

There’s no “what if?” There’s no room to question it. It just IS. And it’s very different from the “calm” of disassociation too. I’m not disassociated from myself when it happens. I’m probably actually the most present ever.

I’ve turned to doctors and told them calmly and with utter certainty “I am going to die” and the reaction that calm certainty gets is immediate intervention because doctors also recognize that stillness as the body not bothering to waste any time on fight or flight and just going straight to “death is imminent due to some internal failing, act accordingly.”

[bourneblack-deactivated20240910]

When I was lying in bed recovering from a hit to the head, I remember a moment in the middle of the night where I went from a sorta half asleep state to being instantly wide awake and feeling, with absolutely certainty, that I was about to die. It was dead silent in my head other than that thought, screaming at me that Something Is Wrong, something is Terribly Wrong. It was like I could feel the dread seeping into my bones, my chest, like I could see it in the back of my eyes, sense it around the corner. Everything was going haywire, like a train was blowing its whistle and I was on the track and my body was trying to get me to Move Dammit.

I called emergency services and tried to explain what I’m feeling. I thought I would be written off, but when I started describing the feeling, immediately the dispatcher sent paramedics to my apartment. Good thing too, as I had a stroke in the ambulance.

Impending doom is real, and a defense mechanism created by the brain to get you to get medical help for something that you cannot handle by yourself, and as someone with panic disorders, it is wildly different and arguably even more terrifying than any attack I’ve ever had.

[dollsonmain]

Oooh oooh! I had this when my kidneys gave out after having been backed up and infected for a couple years!!!!

It was this “Something is Wrong” feeling and it is very difficult to describe just how urgent and different it feels from the usual “Whelp, I’m going to die.” feeling anxiety has.

I got to the ER in time and they slapped antibiotics on me before even knowing what was wrong, and I felt better by the next morning but I was thisclose to dying.

[cassieclearly]

I’m married to someone who deals with both severe anxiety as well as CPTSD. Might be a shot, but would anyone have a comparative description of the dread caused by ©PTSD and this?

[thebibliosphere]

I happened to see this post again by pure chance when a mutual reblogged it and I’m not sure I can adequately describe it but I can try my best.

I am someone with severe ©PTSD that predates my experiences of almost dying. Before knowing what the “impending doom” of dying actually felt like, the fear and anxiety caused by my ©PTSD felt very much like what you think death should feel like.

The danger feels so real, and it has driven me to the ER a couple of times because there was no way my body could feel this cold, this hot, this shaky, this fast, this full of dread, and for something to not be wrong.

And there was something wrong. My body was flooded with all kinds of stress hormones in response to trauma. It was my brain misfiring and insisting we had to run because there was a metaphorical tiger stalking me through the tall grass, and we needed to get away now, now, now.

I still experience episodes like this – largely due to the repeated trauma of almost dying several times, but while I know the danger feels real (and that there could be something else wrong with me, I do not dismiss that), I am now also in a unique position to know that this feeling is not what they mean when they talk about Impending Doom.

Even when I’ve been detached and disassociated from myself or had psychosis from medication interactions, part of me still knew on some level that I was panicking, and I was alive enough to panic.

Impending Doom is not like that.

There is no franticness to impending doom. No room for questions. It just is. It’s in every cell of your body; every piece of your brain resonates with it. There’s no anxiety. There’s no panic. There’s no fear. There’s no fight, flight, or freeze. You’re just certain.

I know it sounds trite to say it, but you will know because there is no way to mistake it for anything else.

You are going to die, it’s a fact, and you are eerily calm about it.

Like I don’t think words can ever fully express how still everything feels. How still you feel as a person. It’s like your body just shuts everything else off but in a very present and coherent way.

It’s like feeling the weight of the ocean bearing down on top of you and still somehow being able to think, “hm, this isn’t good. I should probably call an ambulance” in a way that I have never experienced from ©PTSD or anxiety.

And it freaks people out.

I had a doctor friend tell me once it’s a bit like the uncanny valley of calmness. No one should be able to look at you and describe what they’re feeling at that moment with that level of calm certainty. If they do, something is very, very wrong, and it pings a sense of urgency that you don’t always see in the ER, even when someone’s sitting in the corner holding their detached finger on ice.

Sorry. I feel like this is a lot of inane repetition on my part. But hopefully, it helps somewhat. It really is such a unique experience words can’t do it justice.

[gaphic]

It’s easy to forget that the brain processes a lot of information we are not consciously aware of. That includes checking the status of our critical life functions, hundreds of times a second, every second, until we are dead. Your brain can very easily confuse a potential external threat with an immediate external threat, but one of your life functions failing is a completely unique sensation.

It would be very bad for our species survival if we couldn’t differentiate between danger/sickness/injury/etc, threats you have even a theoretical ability to respond to, and ‘you will die or you will be rescued. There is nothing else.’

[herequeerexhausted]

When I woke up during my OD I had this.

I wasn’t in my body in the same way, I had ringing in my ears so loud I couldn’t think from the aspirin but I was in a quiet place and all I knew is I needed to get my mom. All I could do is look at myself and go I fucked up.

I felt so much love for myself outside of me at that moment.

Panic attacks felt buzzy, hot and make my mouth feel tingly.

This was a larger no, get help you are not yourself. You feel like you are in a large void.

[kosmogrl]

zlibrary gone... FUCK TIKTOK FUCK BOOKTOK I hope that app burns in hell

[dreamingofseastars]

library genesis is still up (very similar site) and r/freemediaheckyeah and r/piracy have lots of other alternatives. zlib was the GOAT though. fuck tiktok

(originally commented. putting as a reblog as its important)

[kosmogrl]

for anyone that wants to know about other sites, I also didn't know so this is a big help!!! thank you!

[ichornyra]

some sites i use to read online: - https://libgen.li/ - https://www.pdfdrive.com/ - https://libretexts.org/ - https://openlibrary.org/ - https://novel80.com/ - https://www.allfreenovel.com/ - https://bookreadfree.com/ - https://allbookshub.com/ - http://thefreeonlinenovel.com/ - https://www.epub.pub/ - https://www.readingsanctuary.com/ - https://yes-pdf.com/ - https://www.booksfree.org/ if none of the links work if you just search up "(book title) read online free" there's almost always gonna be a pdf link and those are always good to read from too

[lokiinmediasideblog]

This is even more important with the internet archive losing the lawsuit and being forced to remove so many books. Consider donating to the Internet Archive.

[byjove]

Every time I put my jewelry on and then put on cologne, I remember that video from a jeweler talking about how when he steam polishes antique jewelry, it reactivates the oils in the traces of perfume and lotion on the piece and he’s essentially smelling a dead person’s perfume. Like the phenomenon of antique swords smelling like blood and death when polished. But a little sweeter and more nostalgic.

[redlipstickresurrected]

Suzanne Moxhay (British, b. 1976, Essex, England, based London, England) - Entrance II, 2016, Mixed Media Photography

[notconsolation]

me, the lawyer for the defence in the trial against the female lead in the body horror monster movie:

abjection, your honour!

[uncahier]

[howl224tgeundying]