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[nuncasana]

Welcome!!

This blog is nothing more and nothing less than an accumulation of my thoughts. They're too much for me to deal with, so whoever finds this page is just gonna have to deal with them too

⋆˚꩜｡ Basic Info ⋆˚꩜｡

˗ˏˋ ★ My name's Nicholasˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ October 22nd ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ INTP-Tˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ He/Himˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ Mexicanˎˊ˗

DNI!!

Transphobes, racists, bigots, homophobes, misogynists, ableists, sexists, pedophiles, pro-shippers, zoophiles, transmeds, just the general DNI list

[Disclaimer]

When I said this blog was an accumulation of my thoughts, I meant it. While it's not as often as I used to, I still occasionally vent about stuff on here. They have trigger warnings and tags that I'll show later, but my vents usually include: $h, drinking, ana, $ui ideation, typical dreadful shit. I'm getting better, so I don't post about it as much, but it'll be there every now and then.

More About Me

˗ˏˋ ★ I fucking LOVEEEE MITSKI. Her music is so so goated. I also rlly like: Tyler, The Creator, Adrienne Lenker, Mom Jeans, Rio Romeo, Alex G, Modern Baseball, and Radioheadˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ Fandoms: Project Hail Mary, Dispatch, Deltarune, Arcane, Dungeon Meshi, Gravity Falls, The Owl Houseˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ I want to major in STEM when I go to college, still deciding between Bioengineering and Mechatronicsˎˊ˗

(If I Know You IRL)

I promise you, it's just better not to look through it. It's a big, fat, ugly mess, and you'd be better off thinking of me the same way

[nuncasana]

I hate how hard crying is for me. I know it’s something I should probably be grateful for, but I’m really not. Crying is a good way to release emotions and get them over with. The feeling doesn’t linger, and the evidence is easy to get rid of. Every other coping mechanism I have is the opposite of that. Like, I’m sad enough that I probably should be able to cry, but my body refuses to do so and just keeps the feeling stuck in there like that helps with anything.

[zaphoda]

Rocky and his personal thinking machine

[nuncasana]

You’re still the only person I’ve cried in front of. I don’t know how to feel about that.

[calypsolemon]

people need to stop advising each other on how to spot AI images/ videos based on increasingly unreliable minuscule details and start advising each other on how to find fucking sources. Not only because 9 times out of 10 your most reliable "tell" that an image or video is AI is finding the source account literally tells you in the bio, but because this is also applicable to spotting when somebody is Lying On The Internet. Something people increasingly seem to forget absolutely can and will happen without the use of AI.

[calypsolemon]

right click > copy image link > paste link into google lens > exact matches will almost always yield you more reliable results than the bbc sherlock levels of divination the average tumblr user will advise you to perform to determine whether the funny cat picture is real or made by a computer

[nuncasana]

I NEED VODKA SO FUCKING BAD EVERYTHING ELSE IS TOO DILUTED JUST GIVE ME SOME DRINK ANY DRINK AT THIS FUCKING POINT

[nixscriptum]

[nuncasana]

Just fucking shoot me atp

[localcalico]

Home is where we are

[nuncasana]

Sometimes I miss the panic attacks I used to get because it would be the most alive I’d feel. Did they suck? I guess, but it would give me some relief from the derealization I’d been dealing with for who knows how long

[nuncasana]

I see every like you leave and it terrifies me.

[nuncasana]

As SOON as I move out my legs are nottt gonna be safe

[nuncasana]

I miss being anorexic. Every post every mention and every talk about being happy about recovery has been a lie. I miss being anorexic.

[muddonium]

Moved by the voices of everyone who dared to go on this journey together ,

They found light in one another.

For they were never meant to come back ,

And so they kept moving forward ,

Leaving behind one single message :

"We love you ."

[nuncasana]

How much longer until my soul out wears this body?

[jun6bugs]

falling, falling

[nuncasana]

I regret telling you. So fucking bad.