Jun 12
Fawning. Abusive ex friend / few day fawned partner (let’s call them N). My friends are all friends with N. I don’t want to loose them so I fawn. I fawn that I’m ok with n being around after telling them I’m scared of them. I fawn that it’s ok that N is constantly crowded around them. I fawn that it’s ok they invite N to activities we were doing alone. I let N run past me and slightly run into me to catch up to my friend I was talking to, let them get swept away while I struggle to get down off of the steep stairs, my legs shaking, low blood sugar, and on the verge of tears. I hate this.
