I'm Una. Nice to meet you. I was inspired by @anti-willo-vocaloids , I like those guys.
This will be short.
As you can probably guess, I really dislike endos/willos/tulpas. All you're doing is roleplaying a serious mental disorder. Shame on you, you should get serious mental help.
Alignment:
Anti endogenic (Screw ableism! You guys are ableist, you just don't want to adknowledge it.)
Anti tulpagenic
Anti willogenic
Anti polymind (Your concept doesn't make any sense to me. They were right when they said you were endos repackaged)
Anti median (P-DID erasure? Really?)
Anti proship (it's not a good coping mechanism)
Anti profic (Fiction can and WILL affect reality.)
Anti harassment (Just no.)
VERY much pro recovery
Pro choice
Pro agere/petre (Guys, it's a coping mechanism! I thought we already knew this?!)
Anti sexualization of agere/petre
Now for my stuff.
I go by Una/Noli/Shed
I am a minor (forgot to put this)
I will not be putting my main blog here, please respect that.
No anon asks 🥹🥹
Not run by a system. Still wants to help systems ok?
I'm thinking of doing this post as I learn more things about endos and how they are actually other things, including DID. Consider this a means of notetaking.
It is long so prepare for a read.
Endogenic refers to a 'system' being born out of something that isn't trauma related which is impossible because systems are only formed in response to trauma. So endos can't be systems. They may instead refer to other things that have similar signs and traits.
Spiritual Psychosis: The idea of creating a system is associated with old religious and spiritual practices in which the individual tries to contact and share their body with some other spirits like Deity. We've seen this shit in action. This is called Spiritual Psychosis. It is still considered this when an individual 'sees' Deity as if the Gods are physically present in the room and can physically hear Them. That is still Spiritual Psychosis.
"I've had this for as long as I can remember" = Trauma (TM). You contradicted your own argument. That is a common part of trauma. Chances are, therefore, that you have DID/are a system. Not endo.
In a semi-similar vein as Spiritual Psychosis, there are hallucinogens. Drugs of varying sorts that have mind altering effects and can cause hallucinations.
On the topic of hallucinations: there are various disorders associated inlcuding but not limited to Schizophrenia, BPD (not always this but it can happen), Epilepsy which can mirror BPD and/or Schizophrenia, Schizoaffective disorder, and others.
You could also just have DID. You don't remember the trauma? That's normal for folks with trauma. Or is it that you don't think that what you went through was 'serious enough'? There is technically no grading score for what is traumatizing and what isn't. What is traumatizing to you may not be traumatizing to someone else. Also, take into account that DID presents itself early on in childhood. When the mind is still very fragile and building itself in a matter of speaking. When that process is interrupted, it does what it can to return to it but the process, and the outcome, will be quite a bit different. A common source of trauma is sexual abuse which is reported more frequently with women and folks born with a uterus. This type of trauma, when you don't know what's going on and/or find yourself unable to defend yourself, you dissociate and your mind fractures. An alter is born in response to a form of trauma and can occur later on whether or not you know what the trigger is.
There was one about writing characters....my guy, no. When you create a character, it starts off with a vibe but eventually there is a blurred image of that character in your mind. Over time, as you design the character, their image becomes more visible. It takes a while but that character becomes visible and you create a voice to match along with their personality, scent, touch, etc. When writing, they become so visible that you could just imagine them right next to you. You'd know how they'd respond or react to things and you'd know how to hold a conversation with them. Why? You created a fucking character, of course they appear real to you. That's how writing works.
Endogenic is also associated with 4chan. If nothing else, that should've stopped a bunch of people from praising it. (My immediate thought when coming across that was: That's Nazi shit.) I knew it didn't make sense to begin with but that just reaffirmed it. Looking into it also reminded me of a lot of New Age stuff so it being associated with 4chan is not far off at all. But how is it associated with 4chan? Through a subculture called tulpamancy. 4chan popularized the creation of tulpas being conscious mental companions / thoughtforms. 4chan is what guided the creation of willos.
SO if you are experiencing what you claim to be then understand that there are a number of disorders that can describe what you are going through, such as DID. Seriously. Think it through because you'd be surprised to find out that what you had was called trauma. Even if you don't have DID, you can still be a system because there are other terms related to DID even in cases where alters aren't very distinct.
If you are lying about what you claim to be experiencing then you are a piece of shit. Leave systems alone. In fact, leave everyone alone. We will not tolerate your ableist bullshit.
unfriendly reminder that calling ntgs "delusional" as an insult or a gotcha moment is extremely ableist towards those who experience psychosis/actual delusions and if you say that shit with your full chest not thinking theres anything wrong with that then you are not a safe person for the many systems within the anti endo community who do experience delusions.
no, that willo you hate is not "delusional" for intentionally faking and glorifying symptoms of a disorder. thats not what delusions are, and youre harming others who ARE delusional far more than youre harming that random person you dont like. you are watering down a symptom of mental illness that impacts peoples daily lives and weaponizing that experience to insult and belittle people. you know, the same shit that endos and willos are doing.
i am so sick and tired of anti endos perpetuating more ableism towards other mentally ill people for the sake of hating on endos. were supposed to be fuckin better than this. were supposed to be AGAINST ableism.
Now that I realize this, I completely agree with you.
Sorry for the harsh word, but it seems extremely hypocritical how SOME anti-endos are against ableism and then use ableist slurs, like this one for example.
I have this creeping feeling that I'm not the original host. I have full memories of my life, but anything from before 2-3 years ago just feel distant but doesn't feel like me. I was looking through my dead ass instagram account last night, and the messages I sent at that time(2-3 years ago) just feel like they were from a different person, and Idk if that's normal when it's been a long while or what. have I truly changed? or was that an old host that I share memories with or something like that. I generally don't know, and it's giving me a small crisis. universe I wish I could get professional help.
It's very frustrating how I barely remember my childhood. I'm supposedly to remember it, right? It's normal to forget your childhood, but I don't think I remember much about it, if at all.
TW: Mentions of pedophilia, grooming, rape, and murder as well as paranoia.Please scroll if you are triggered by or find yourself uncomfortable with this. This is your first and last chance.
I am so disgusted and ashamed that anyone would do this or even be so messed up they compell me to make this post. The world has gotten to this.
Parents, please.
EDUCATE YOUR CHILDREN ON ONLINE SAFETY.
YOU TOO, KIDS. EDUCATE YOURSELVES AND BE AWARE OF THE DANGERS OF ONLINE PLATFORMS LIKE THIS.
I wanna start off by saying, DON'T BE TOO TRUSTING ANYWHERE ON THE INTERNET.
Just don't.
That alone has gotten COUNTLESS innocent individuals, need I mention MINORS, RAPED and even KILLED. That's because evil and twisted people are everywhere online.
Unfortunately and unsurprisingly, Tumblr is no exception to this. I have witnessed creeps interacting with kids way too many times to count.
That's why you must always follow these rules:
DO NOT SHARE YOUR REAL NAME.
DO NOT SHARE YOUR PERSONAL PHONE NUMBER.
DO NOT SHARE PERSONAL INFORMATION OF ANY KIND.
DO NOT SHARE YOUR NATIONALITY.
DO NOT SHARE YOUR SCHOOL NAME, HOME ADDRESS, ETC.
DO NOT SHOW IMAGES OF YOUR BODY TO ANYONE, ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE A MINOR.
DO NOT ACCEPT PRIVATE DMS FROM ANYONE YOU DO NOT KNOW.
IF SOMEONE SEEMS SUSPICIOUS OR MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE, TRUST YOUR GUT AND UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES DO NOT ENGAGE. BLOCK AND MOVE ON.
There are GROOMERS and PEDOPHILES in this world who disguise themselves as minors. Those people can get you hurt or killed.
IN A PLACE LIKE THIS, ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUT. NOT YOUR HEART.
TW: Mentions of pedophilia, grooming, rape, and murder as well as paranoia.Please scroll if you are triggered by or find yourself uncomfortable with this. This is your first and last chance.
I am so disgusted and ashamed that anyone would do this or even be so messed up they compell me to make this post. The world has gotten to this.
Parents, please.
EDUCATE YOUR CHILDREN ON ONLINE SAFETY.
YOU TOO, KIDS. EDUCATE YOURSELVES AND BE AWARE OF THE DANGERS OF ONLINE PLATFORMS LIKE THIS.
I wanna start off by saying, DON'T BE TOO TRUSTING ANYWHERE ON THE INTERNET.
Just don't.
That alone has gotten COUNTLESS innocent individuals, need I mention MINORS, RAPED and even KILLED. That's because evil and twisted people are everywhere online.
Unfortunately and unsurprisingly, Tumblr is no exception to this. I have witnessed creeps interacting with kids way too many times to count.
That's why you must always follow these rules:
DO NOT SHARE YOUR REAL NAME.
DO NOT SHARE YOUR PERSONAL PHONE NUMBER.
DO NOT SHARE PERSONAL INFORMATION OF ANY KIND.
DO NOT SHARE YOUR NATIONALITY.
DO NOT SHARE YOUR SCHOOL NAME, HOME ADDRESS, ETC.
DO NOT SHOW IMAGES OF YOUR BODY TO ANYONE, ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE A MINOR.
DO NOT ACCEPT PRIVATE DMS FROM ANYONE YOU DO NOT KNOW.
IF SOMEONE SEEMS SUSPICIOUS OR MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE, TRUST YOUR GUT AND UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES DO NOT ENGAGE. BLOCK AND MOVE ON.
There are GROOMERS and PEDOPHILES in this world who disguise themselves as minors. Those people can get you hurt or killed.
IN A PLACE LIKE THIS, ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUT. NOT YOUR HEART.
If you're profic, do NOT interact with this blog or any of my other ones. I do not give a shit if you're part of the awv or if you want to debate. Block me. Fiction CAN and DOES affect reality. Your brain uses the same paths when it comes to the emotions and physical reactions. It may be fiction, but your reactions are NOT.
actually i thought about this. this isn't a callout, this is a call-in. white systems, i am literally begging you to hold each other accountable. stop making it safe for other white systems to engage in racist bullshit.
stop letting alters that don't belong to an ethnic group claim it.
stop letting fetishization of "exotic" culture slide.
stop letting people google names in other languages and not show those languages the respect they deserve. like ffs, at least learn how to pronounce what your part is calling themself. at least learn the context the word is used in.
stop being nonconfrontational about racism. yeah, you'll ruffle some feathers. maybe those feathers need to be ruffled.
Due to all the drama going on, I will no longer associate with the anti willo verse. Very sorry for this and how the community has fallen apart, anti willo miku.
Small reminder that DID is often a covert disorder and overt DID is actually pretty rare. A person could go their whole life without knowing they have DID because that's the point. You do not need to know who you are all the time or who's fronting or need to feel like you're a faker because you act the same pretty much all the time. You do not need to act drastically different between your headmates to be valid.
