Hey there! I got an influx of followers and realized all too late that this blog is... very not finished... whoops... it’s called ever changing hyperfixes and Tumblr anxiety, I guess...
but for the long and short of it!
The rules are the same here as they are on all my other blogs, pretty much... probably the closest of those being my Frisk blog, mercy-heart, though they are extraordinarily outdated, given that for both their blog and this one I take fanon and canon both and throw them out the window.
About my Steven: he is a canon-divergent Steven in a lot of different ways; he’s available both in his classic and his SUTM/SUF versions, but since I anticipate I’ll get more traction out of his SUTM/SUF characterization, I’ll be focusing on those main divergences here. Long ramble under the cut! Tws for: suicidal thoughts, self harming behaviors, depression, anxiety, abandonment issues, self-worth issues/self-hate, body horror, and me taking a flamethrower to SU canon.
First off, this blog follows the corrupted Steven au. Not what we got in the show, the weird shapeshifty monster thing, but actual, legitimate gem corruption.
What does this entail? Essentially, his traumas/life events lead him to begin to crack like Volleyball, starting around his heart and radiating out; he goes to Homeworld to have the Diamonds fix it or at least cover it up temporarily. How much of this is successful depends on the thread/character/verse.
He also gives himself the Diamond ‘vow of silence’ we see Rose give to Pearl; he makes himself promise that he won’t ever tell anybody how he’s really feeling, because he’s fine. He doesn’t want them to worry. He’s fine. He starts to regret this, though, as he gets more and more scared by what’s going on, but every time he goes to talk about it, his hands clamp over his mouth. This leads to him trying to double talk/get around the vow by a variety of different methods; again, the success of this is based on character/verse/thread.
This, of course, leads him to crack worse and for him to start to get legitimately corrupted. It at first looks like a human rash around his gem, not a gem pinky-purple, but eventually the pinky-red skin splotches turn into pink and purple ones, which then spread all over his body, followed by spikes, and, well... you get the picture. It takes him a while to recover from this, not overnight as we see in the show... more like weeks at least to bring him out of Stevenzilla mode (though once he initially gets talked down, he does revert back to a smaller form so... you know... he fits in the house, anyway).
Some more things:
He doesn’t shatter Jasper; he poofs and cracks her. He’s just as traumatized, however.
He doesn’t propose to Connie, instead asking her out if that relationship is even there. However, as Steven’s main relationship is with my boyfriend’s amazing oc Mica and it kind of goes as canon to his main verse on this blog, that whole thing most likely doesn’t happen.
Just like Max wrote about on Mica’s about, the two run a flower shop together named Sprout!
He doesn’t turn pink or have ‘outbursts’ in that regard; he might lose control of his powers, but he handles his trauma by imploding, rather than exploding. Not that explosive reactions to trauma are bad; they’re very valid and happen, I just have more personal experience with implosion and feel more comfortable writing him that way.
As he does legitimately corrupt, Stevenzilla (yes, that’s what I’m calling him) is a much darker pink with purple/very dark purple splotches that spread the more the corruption grows.
He’s not as controlling or manipulative of his friends/family as he is in SUF; he lets people leave, not wanting to hold them back or bother them, but still has the same crippling fear of abandonment. While he wants them to stay, he keeps his feelings about pretty much everything hidden and further self-destructs and self-isolates while trying to act like everything’s okay.
He doesn’t crash the car or lose it in front of Greg; the Mr. Universe song was Steven’s lullaby from a very young age.
The movie happens after SUF, or at least, he remembers the lessons he learned from the movie in SUF more.
The road trip at the end of SUF isn’t forever/he doesn’t permanently move out; only a few weeks/a month or two.
There’s... a lot more canon divergences/nitpicks about all the shows that I’m electing to ignore, but those are the main ones I think that are pertinent right now? Watch me forget some major ones though sdfkjnwelrkjnsdfs,,,,
Among duplicates, he goes by Comet!
He also has a kidnapped from Earth/raised by the Diamonds verse where he goes by Dion, and a bad-end/villain raised by the Diamonds verse (think similar to Spinel) as well that I can elaborate more on if there’s interest (they’re so much fun to write.)
“Hey, wait, no–no, go back to that for a second. Why the hell do you think YOU get to date her?”
“What do you have that we don’t? I mean, fuck, I’m the only one with mental stability.”
“Oh hush,” Steven huffed at Storm. “You’re not fooling anybody, Steven! Look at how irritable you are, what even happened to you!? Sure, I had an outburst or three, maaaybe did a few things I’m not proud of, but at least I’m in therapy! You’re just a ticking timebomb ready to go off!”
“Hey, therapy’s great! I’m really proud of you, Steven. A-and look, Steven’s been through a lot, we all have, so--” Comet’s hands drifted down, subconsciously covering the pink and purple scars on his stomach that he’s pretty sure the others haven’t seen yet. However, he realized that there was probably no way the other two would listen to him when they’re too busy fighting with each other. “M-maybe... we could... talk about this?... Guys?”
“Wait, if there’s three of us, which dates mica?!”
“Steven? And… Steven!?” Oh no, not this again. He places a thoughtful hand to his chin. “Hmmm… well, Stevens, I’m sorry to say this, but I’M the only one who’s gonna date Mica!”
“Look, Stevens, we don’t have to fight about this! I mean, c’mon! If there’s three of us, there’s gotta be three Micas too, right?... Why don’t we just go on a triple date instead?”
You’re enablers (and by you I mean Max, Jay, Cryptie, and Raven, mainly), so you’ll be able to find both Connie and my SU OC, Ari, on my hub/temporary multi!
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He’s hugging a pillow, giving her an accusatory look as the ending credits roll over the movie.
“And yeah it’s really sweet that they never wanted to be apart from each other and they loved each other so much despite everything and tried so hard to stay together, but you never told me that they died!”
they probably should watch a cartoon next... @crystalgrow
“Okay... one delivery of marigolds for Mayor Nanefua, some neem oil and diatomaceous earth for the greenhouse at the school, and some geraniums for Dr. Maheswaran’s office. I’d better get going.”
The murmuring came from the back room of the flower shop, and soon afterward came a teenage boy, moving behind the counter and looking down at his phone. He rested his pink-and-purple spotted hand on the counter before looking up, his eyes-- which seemed to have the strangest case of heterochromia imaginable, one eye being black with a white pupil, with the spots continuing on his face-- widening when he realized he wasn’t alone.
“Oh!” he exclaimed, before hurriedly offering an apologetic smile. “Hi! I’m... so sorry, I must’ve been preoccupied.”
“Welcome to Sprout! My name’s Steven. How can I help you?”
He really hoped his still kind of monstrous appearance wouldn’t scare her off. He didn’t remember seeing her around before.
Mica was a bit taken off guard by that. Small flashes of a creature the size of the entire mountain flashing in her head, along with the images of the fall, of her bone—of the sapphire and ruby she had scratched—
“Yeah.” She lies, “We ALWAYS tell each other everything.”
She moves an arm around his shoulders as he presses into her side. Her Steven was nothing like this, but also–Too much like him. The little boy was so vulnerable, so gentle, so innocent. He was hurting but differently: he didn’t have the same pressure, the same heart break, he didn’t have any of it. But he also didn’t have the lessons, the strength, the changes.
“You can always tell me your secrets, cutie pie.” She smiles, holding out her pinkie to him. “Pinkie promise.”
“Good,” he chirps, “I’d never wanna keep anything from you. You’re so cool and smart and special and pretty and I love you so much now, I bet I’ll love you even more later!” And, he’d had a lifetime’s worth of lies already. He didn’t think he wanted any more to look forward to.
Steven gives her an appreciative look and snuggles into the embrace, closing his eyes for a minute and sighing, contentedly, but when he opens his eyes again to look out onto the water, his face is troubled.
He smiles a little at her pinkie, though, and gladly hooks his own around it.
“Pinkie promise,” he repeats. He takes a deep breath. “Okay. Here goes. I... I miss home and the gems and Dad and Connie, but...” He bites his lip, burrowing himself a little more into his hoodie. “...I really like being here, with you and big me. It’s... really nice, and everything’s so peaceful and everybody’s so happy. And... I kinda don’t want to go home?...”
“... I feel really bad, ‘cause I know I have to! I gotta go home and make everything great for you and future Steven so that you can be happy! But... it’s really nice not being scared all the time.”
Steven didn’t understand. They’d brought new gem artifacts back with them on the Warp Pad so many times before, but it had never done this.
One minute he was with Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl, and the next, the artifact was glowing, and he was falling out of the night sky, headed right for a car pulled over on the side of a lonely-looking road he didn’t recognize. Bracing himself, he managed to bounce off of the hood of the car, landing flat on his back on a nearby bush.
Raising his now-aching head to look at the car, he immediately noticed it was his dad’s precious Dondai, with a figure in the driver’s seat, and his face immediately lit up.
“Dad! Dad! Over here!“ The young boy raised his voice and started to wave, trying to get the attention of the person. “It’s me, Steven! I’m really sorry about the car, I’ll help you buff it out, I promise! I--”
When the person in the car turned around, though, Steven gasped, grinning, raising his hands to his mouth in excitement.
Still feeling this boy and I couldn’t find any memes I was really feeling, so… starter call? Maybe lyric-inspired, maybe not? Just specify muse if you’re a multi/have sideblogs and specify verse (we have classic Steven, SUTM/SUF Steven, either pre-corruption or post-corruption, and my raised-by-Homeworld verses, either bad-end/villain or sweet boy!), please and thank you! We can also plot out dynamics/a premise beforehand, if you’d like!
If you’re interested in one of the aus, definitely let me know and I’ll give you a rundown in the dms or post some more info about it here!
Sure, Steven loved spending time with Lars up in space, but nothing beat seeing his friend and the rest of the Off Colors in Beach City again for a visit.
“I, uh, I made you something!” He brings out what he’s holding from behind his back to reveal a cake, decorated in a noble attempt at a galaxy pattern. “... It’s definitely not as good as what you do, but, I don’t think it’s too--”
He cuts himself off when he realizes that Lars is looking at him really, really weird.
“...What is it? What’s wro--”
And then he registers his pink and purple mottled hands, and becomes painfully aware of the horns on his head and the purple splotches on one side of his face, how one eyes is black and has a white pupil, and how there are spines sticking out of his back. His face falls.
He bursts into his bedroom, hopping up onto the bed where the girl was trying to relax.
“Great news! The dads said we could skate to Funland today, and Dad gave me money for rides and snacks! Do you wanna go? Or do you wanna do something else?”
Honestly, Steven doesn’t care what they do. Having his best friend here and staying for a whole week is way more than he can ask for!
