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[2:26am] “chenle, are you sure this is safe?” you send a glance at your best friend as he begins to shake the can of spray paint in his hand.

“as long as you're with me, you'll always be safe,” chenle sends a wink your way which makes your cheeks burn and become an obnoxious shade of pink. you were thankful for the mask around your face that was hiding your blush. chenle quickly begins to paint the wall of the school you both attended. you watch as he paints. his arms flying around slowly forming the beautiful mural you had designed the previous week. you weren’t sure if it was the spray paint in the air or the fact chenle was making your simple design into a beautiful masterpiece that had you beginning to feel a little light headed.

“there,” chenle grinned and walked over to you standing only a couple inches ahead of you, “it’s done.”

“it’s beautiful, chenle,” you whisper behind the mask, chenle only being able to hear you from your close proximity.

chenle just grins wider and leans down slightly to further close the distance between the two of you. “not as beautiful as you,”

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[7:43am] your eyes fluttered open and you shifted around to face the other side of the bed, only to find that side of the bed to be empty. a look of confusion on your face as you moved to find a shirt to wear. you found a shirt belonging to doyoung and it was quite big on you, but you knew he loves it when you wear his clothes. it was just a sleeveless tee after all. you dragged your feet down the hall, only to smell the delicious scent of eggs cooking. you saw doyoung over a pan cooking scrambled eggs. he noticed your figure as you slumped on the chair in front of him. he noticed that you were in his shirt.

“y/n... i wanted to give you breakfast in bed,” he pouted. you smiled at how your boyfriend is an actual baby. 

“you know that won’t work for me, doyoung,” you said shaking your head at him moving his hips to the music in the background. you noticed he was actually making the both of you omelettes.

“i just wanted to be a good boyfriend,” he said with a grin, his teeth showing. he looked so perfect. you were so lucky. “god, y/n, you look so good in my shirt,” he said coming around the counter after he finished making the omelettes. he wrapped his arms around your waist and gave you a peck on the cheek.

“this looks so good, doyoung,” you said. he sat down on the chair next to you after setting down the omelettes he made you both.

“thank you, i hope you enjoy,” he grinned.

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hey guys! admin e and i are going to be on a semi-hiatus for a bit. we’re both having trouble finding inspiration to write sadly ): since it officially summer i will have more time to write so we’re not going to be gone forever! hope everyone’s having a great day!

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blurb where you confess to jisung at a party?

posted!!!

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[10:12pm] “did you see jisung, doesn't he look so cute?” you overhear a bunch of girls giggling in the corner of the living room you were in. your eyes wander over the ridiculous amount of people stuffed in the room till they land on a tall figure just ahead of you. jisung was talking and laughing with a couple of guys you recognized as a grade above yours. biting your lip you head over as the guys make their way deeper into the party leaving jisung alone.

“hey jisung,” you call out getting the attention of your friend, and very big crush.

“y/n,” an easy smile slides it’s way onto his face when he sees you making your way over to him.

“dance with me,” you demand more than ask and grab his hand that wasn’t enclosed over a red solo cup like yours. you miss the cheeky smile he sports as you pull him towards the makeshift dance floor. jisung pulls you close and you both fall into an easy rhythm you both had perfected from being dancing partners at school for the past year. maybe it was the way he was looking at you or the liquid in your cup that gave you the confidence, but you had decided that then and there you would tell jisung the thing that had been bothering you for a while now.

“i like you,” you blurt it out having to raise your voice due to the booming music one of your classmates was blasting through some speakers.

jisung’s lips part and he’s staring down at you clear shock encasing his gorgeous features. he’s stopped dancing and just staring down at you making you feel terribly self-conscious, that is until his face breaks out into a grin and your heart flutters.

“i’m going to kiss you now,” jisung grins down at you. you forget how to speak and instead nod your head which causes him to chuckle before leaning down. your eyes flutter shut as jisung brings his hand up and threads his fingers through your hair and presses a soft kiss to your lips.

the rest of the night you're on clouds, because then and there it’s just you and jisung, and only you two.

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do you write smut?

no, not currently… but uh i have in the past

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i love you more than you know

pairing: park jisung x reader

words: 1656

summary: you have been in love with jisung for as long as you can remember, one night you finally get the courage to tell him

warning: if you need a warning for kissing than here it is: there will be kissing. shes a bit angsty but gets all soft uwu

a/n: this has been sitting in my drafts for like 2 months... and i’m finally getting the balls to post it! okay, enjoy <3 i think this may be my favorite one shot i’ve written (:

You were so tired. So tired of all the bullshit love had to offer. Yea sure, love was worth all the pain and suffering to get to the good part, but just about how much pain and suffering? You were tired of it all.

You closed your eyes and leaned your head against the headrests of the seat in your car. The engine of your car was still running and you knew you should turn it off but you were too tired to even care. Your radio was playing and you wanted to turn that off too because it had been playing commercials for the past five minutes and it was getting extremely annoying, but you couldn't even bring yourself to open your eyes. Everything seemed to hurt. It started from the pain in your chest that had refused to go away for the past week, over time the pain seemed to branch out till everything hurt. You didn't know that your feelings over a certain boy could make you feel this way, especially since this certain boy was also the source of your happiness most of the time. Maybe it was because he was the densest person you ever met and never caught onto any of the hints you sent him. But maybe he had been getting the hints and just didn't feel the same. The thought makes you squeeze your eyes shut and the uncomfortable ache in your stomach to get heavier and painfully tighter. The commercials stop and a song starts to play over the radio, it's enough for you to open your eyes and slam your hand on your dash to turn it off. Love songs were the bane of your existence at the moment and the last thing you wanted to hear. When the radio was no longer playing your harsh breathing becomes more prominent in the now soundless car.

For the past month about once a week, this same thing would happen. You would get home from hanging out with him and it always started with the ache in your stomach. It would grow and grow and leave you to the point where you were gasping for breath. It would get to the point where you felt like you couldn't breathe and would end with you sobbing in your car painfully alone. You could feel the sob in your throat threatening to come out. You were about to let it out when a knock on your window interrupts you. Your jerk your head to your window and your puffy eyes meet your best friends dark gaze. His soft lips form your name as he continues to lightly knock on the window of your car. You take a deep breath and roll down the window.

“What are you doing here Jisung?” You ask the boy a bit harshly. His worried face contorts to shock at your words. You regret what you say when you see his face.

“You left your book at my house, I knew you would want to read it tonight so I came to give it to you,” Jisung brings his hand up and your book into view. It was your book, and you had indeed planned on reading it tonight. Your heart contrasts painfully and you can't stop the tears that start to flow down your cheeks at his kindness. You bury your head in your hands and begin to sob.

“Y/n! Was it something I said? I’m sorry, please don't cry,” One of Jisung’s hands reaches into your car and starts to pet your head softly trying to comfort you. It just makes your sobs worse. Jisung was always there for you. From when you were kids and you would scrape your knees on scratchy pavements, to when you only got a participation ribbon in your science fair to when your first boyfriend had dumped you for his ex. You loved Jisung more than you ever thought was possible. Jisung continues to pat your head and whisper encouraging, “It's okay”s to you. Slowly your sobs begin to fade.

“Y/n, please talk to me,” Jisung says to you softly. His voice was soft and soothing, it was enough to bring you back to earth.

You lift your head and look at him. Just looking at him almost made you start crying again. He looked absolutely adorable. His eyebrows were scrunched up in confusion and his lips formed a soft pout. It made your heart hurt seeing him looking worried, especially since you knew he was worried about you.

“Y/n, what's wrong?” Jisung brings his hand up to cup your face and gently wipes off the tears that had gathered on your cheeks.

“Nothing,” You mumble stubbornly your chin trembling.

Jisung lets out an exasperated sigh and rolls his eyes, “Y/n don't be like that, talk to me, please,”

You wanted to just tell him now. To just get it over with and spill your heart out to him, but fear holds you back and you bite your tongue.

Jisung takes his hand away from your face and you miss the coolness it had provided from your burning cheeks. He opens your car door and kneels in front of you and takes your shaking hands into his own. He leans in so he's looking up at you and you're looking down at him from where your sitting in your car.

“Y/n, I'm here okay, I'm always here,” He looks up at you and he brings your hands up to his mouth and plants a featherlike kiss to your trembling hands. His actions make your heart flutter. It gives you the confidence you hadn't had before.

You take a deep breath and you start to talk, “I'm tired Jisung, I'm so tired.”

“Y/n, you know I'm always telling you to go to sleep earlier, going to bed at 3 am every night isn't good for you,” He looks up at you with soft, worried eyes.

“Jisung it's not about that,” You shake your head and squeeze your eyes shut when you feel the slight prick of tears.

“What is it?”

“Jisung, I love you,”

“I love you too, y/n, you know that right?” Jisung brings one of his hands up to cup your face and runs his thumb along your cheek.

“No Jisung, I love you, I love you more than you know,” You shake his hand off your cheek and look away from him. The tears that had been slightly pricking your eyes before were now rolling down your cheek hotly. It felt like your tears were burning your cheeks. The hotness of your cheeks was interrupted as Jisung brought his hand back up to cup your cheek. He slowly brought your face back to face his. He was looking at you in a way he had never looked at you before which made you gulp. Jisung’s hands slid down from your cheek to hold your chin. Your breathing began to quicken as your mind raced thinking how this could end.

Jisung leans in his gaze fluttering from your teary eyes to your pink lips. Your eyes widen at the sight of him gazing at your lips, and if it was possible got even wider when he leaned in and presses a soft kiss to your lips.

You swear your heart skips a beat.

Jisung pulls back but leaves his hand on your chin.

“Y/n, I love you more than you know,” He says gazing lovingly into your eyes.

Your thoughts were flying everywhere.

Jisung. Just. Kissed. You.

Then, you remember the other thing.

Jisung. Just. Told. You. He. Loved. You.

You push away your jumbled thoughts and cup the sides of Jisung’s face and act on impulse. Your eyes flutter shut as you bring your lips to his for another kiss. It was soft and slow, and absolutely beautiful.

You both pull away grinning like idiots. Jisung was looking at you now with a new light in his eyes that takes your breath away.

“I thought I was going to have to live the rest of my life being in love with you while you went and fell in love with some other guy,” Jisung breaks the silence and says breathily. He brings his hand back to cup your cheek. You lean into his touch and sigh contently.

“I was always sending you hints and flirting with you,” You say and run a hand through his soft hair. You had always wanted to run your hands through his hair but always refrained due to your fear, but nothing was holding you back now.

“I noticed that, but then you would do the same things to Chenle and Jaemin,” He scrunches his nose up adorably.

“I only did that to see if you were jealous!” You laugh and playfully hit his shoulder.

“I hated it, I was very jealous,” He answers and you stare at him shocked.

“I never knew,”

“I'm an actor remember?” He winks at you. You can't help but laugh at how cute he was. He looks at you his hands still cupping your cheeks. You both stay where you are staring at each other.

“That really just happened,” You breath out looking from Jisungs lips to his eyes.

“It did,” Jisung says and licks his soft lips.

“I want to do it again,”

“Me too,”

The rest of the night you both share kisses and laughs until you both part ways to go home. That night you fall asleep for the first time in forever with a smile on your face.

The next morning you wake from a text from Jisung,

so last night, does that make us boyfriend and girlfriend? because I'm not really sure, but i would really like to, you know, date you.

You had never smiled so hard as you respond to him,

i want that too, you know, date you

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[2:18pm] “i missed you, love, how was your day?” jaemin greets you with a kiss to your forehead when he meets you after you get out of school.

“amazing now that you’re here,” you lean up on your tip toes and kiss jaemin softly on his pretty lips.

a slight blush creeps onto jaemin’s soft cheeks and he ducks down to hide in your neck. he nuzzles into your neck tickling you and you let out a light giggle which doesn't help the soft blush on jaemin’s cheeks.

“i love you,” jaemin says from your neck. 

you let out a content sigh and wrap your arms around the boy in front of you, “i love you too, jaemin.”

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[6:58pm] “we did it! our comeback is finally here.” hendery’s beautiful face was stretched into one of the biggest grins you had ever seen. his eyes sparkled and you swore you could see little tears grazing his waterline. you brought your hands up to his face being careful not to move the little mic on his cheek and not mess up the work his makeup artist had done. you bring your lips to his for a quick kiss before bringing your foreheads together.

“you got this baby, go out there and have fun and be the amazing man you are,” you say to hendery still holding onto him. hendery brings your lips together for one last kiss before he’s sending you a wink and running onto stage with his members beside him. and the intro to ‘take off’ begins to play.

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do you think you could make a mark lee imagine/time stamp where the reader has depression and he wants to help as much as possible and it’s just fluff and all? thank you so much! i love your blog btw!! 💞

hellllooooooooooo! admin m here, i had a lot of fun writing this so i hope you enjoy it! and thank you so much for being such a nice annonie <3

hope you enjoy [9:03pm]

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[9:03pm] you can’t help but zone out. every click of the clock on the wall pulling you closer to the inevitable darkness of your mind.

“hey, y/n? you there?” mark places a tentative hand on your shoulder pulling you out of your daze. mark had been telling you about his latest comeback when you had zoned out. it had been happening a lot recently.

“hey, y/n i’m here,” mark said pulling you closer to him on the couch you were both curled up on. he recognized the signs immediately taking action.

“it’s too much,” you mumble tears beginning to brim in your waterline.

“hey hey, y/n, i’m right here, and i will always be right here,” mark brings a soft hand to your cheek and brings your face to face his.

“mark,” your voice croaks as you look in his eyes. his gaze helping to bring you out of your head, taming the voices in your head that had been screaming.

“it’s okay y/n, i’m right here, and i always will be,” mark pulls you into a hug, wrapping his arms over you, and cradles your head in the palm of his hand. you bury yourself into his arms, accepting his embrace.

“you will always be worth it for me, i love you, y/n.”

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[11:21pm] your world had shattered. you no longer fit into any of your friend groups, nor did they want you to be in the group. you don’t even want anyone to try including you. you do have friends within the groups, just being around them sucks. they made you feel like you didn’t exist anymore. here you are sobbing your eyes out on the floor in front of the tv playing some random show. you heard the front door open and you quickly wiped away the tears, attempting to make it seem like you weren’t crying. you looked over and he saw your bloodshot eyes. jaehyun came over immediately and wiped away your tears and embracing you into a tight hug. “what’s wrong?” he asked. you just shook your head, not ready to tell him because you just realized all of this today. he just nodded, showing he understood you were not ready. you loved this about jaehyun. you loved him and appreciated him. he made you feel like you were the only thing that exists in his life. that is what you wanted to feel, like you existed.

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[8:27pm] your heart beats a mile a minute when jaemin brings your hand up to his lips to leave the most delicate, featherlight kiss upon it. “anything for my princess,” jaemin says to you a light smirk gracing his beautiful features.

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[7:27pm] “why do we have to do this?” you ask mark as he starts to turn away from you.

“because this isn’t healthy,” mark says and gestures to the both of you. you squeeze your eyes shut trying to stop the tears that wanted to flow down your red cheeks.

“but i love you,” you whisper harshly. it was something neither of you had said to each other, and something you had felt for a while now. the way mark looked at you made you want to throw up, it could only be described in one word: pity.

“i’m sorry, y/n, it’s over,”