stories stretch in all ways

any pronouns | ace lesbian | blue sargent stan | slightly obsessed with magical realism | planning to become permanently aquatic upon escaping high school

[queercontradictions]

this blog is me talking to myself. it’s for me. if you enjoy, wonderful! i’m so glad! but this is for me and that will always be the point. and i’m keeping this here as a reminder to myself to not delete or doubt a post i like, a post that made me happy, because it didn’t get enough notes and that makes me feel like there’s something wrong with it. it’s for me.

[starbage]

watching my kitties groom eachother and being like “waow thats love” and then continue watching as one of them immediately pummels the shit out of the other for looking at them wrong

[zagreus]

that is also love

[queercontradictions]

this is just having a sibling

[queercontradictions]

growing up means cutting up brandy melville tops you were pressured into buying in m*ddle sch**l and using them to perfect gorgeous flowy cottagecore tops that you got from a thrift store.

[dongoverlord]

sometimes I get so jealous of other people’s social skills. like damn. they can talk to people?? and people like them?? look at all those people who like them. wtf. illegal

[queercontradictions]

god i know im supposed to be happy about the result of this presidential election and ofc i’m relieved that the imposter was voted out but i really just keep thinking that it should have been ellen claremont. she fucking deserved this.

can you imagine if that was the world we were living in? not 48% of the vote going to He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named but a solid win for the whipsmart strawberry blond Democrat with an unapologetic drawl and a little biracial family? not the evil, racist, idiotic, power hungry disaster that is the family of You-Know-Who, but the millennial White House Trio with our favorite badass bicons? what if sex scandal didn’t mean rape accusations but instead meant that the first son was having an illicit affair with a British prince? can you imagine?

[queercontradictions]

it’s a great day to remember that queerness can’t be measured and that if you are not cishet and allo and you identify with queerness, you are queer. mspec and aspec people: you are queer enough. yes, even if you mostly or only date people of the opposite gender. yes, even if you mostly are attracted to people of the opposite gender. yes, even if you are allo ace or aro allo and are also het. you don’t need to prove your queerness to anyone.

it’s also a great day to remember that it’s ok not to be sure. if identifying as queer feels right and makes you happy right now that’s all that matters. it’s ok if you stop identifying with queerness in the future. it’s ok if your specific label changes. it’s ok not to have any labels.

you are valid and you are queer enough.

[fandom-oracle]

queer as in gay but also queer as in unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe

[queercontradictions]

happy birthday to the dreamer of dreams and fighter of men. happy birthday to the boy who defenestrates noah, buys orange juice in the night with gansey, fist bumps blue for her suspension, swears at matthew and lets his feelings for adam overflow like an oil spill. who attends church every sunday, swears magnificently but is always being perfectly fucking civil, speaks latin fluently and knows the ancient greeks didn’t have a word for blue, drops out of high school because he was thinkin’ of being a farmer, who successfully wins over his crush by paying his rent and then inviting him over to wake up half-imaginary sleeping cows, and who says i love you like this: tamquam alter idem.

you are made of dreams and this world is not for you.

[queercontradictions]

there is nothing quite like the whiplash you get from hanging out with your queer friends and then seeing your family immediately after and having to entirely switch out your personality to one that’s more palatable.

[queercontradictions]

no more coming out.

from now on we obsessively rant about queer books until our friends get it.

[queercontradictions]

i went to hear an author that i used to like speak a long time ago and the only thing she said that i remember was that she creates characters by writing the contradictions in them. they were not complete or well designed characters unless their personality was inherently contradictory.

and i just think that’s such a fascinating way not only to look at characters but at people. because isn’t that an ultimate test of whether you know someone? can you spot their contradictions? do you see all the ways in which their faults and quirks and insecurities add up to someone who doesn’t quite make sense, but just exists anyway?

[valenight]

i’m not sure if any plot twist will ever top the revealation that the reason there’s no ronan pov in the raven boys is because he’s literally just too gay to function