RachFic222

my fics: Rachel222

[iwrotemrtambourineman]

ilya rozanov voice yeah I have a normal relationship with sex that started at a normal age and the fact that I'm saying the word normal so much should tell you that it was normal #normal

[my-2nd-account]

It's so important to me that everyone who meets Ilya feels safe around him. Shane at age 19 trusting him with his body and his sexuality and his reputation therefore his whole career. Svetlana who left home and could've gone anywhere but chose to move to Boston because guess who also lives there. Every person he's ever hooked up with because that's 100+ of people trusting him and saying yes. Yuna and David who spent less than an hour around him (Ilyushka not Rozanov) and accepted him as Shane's boyfriend even though they've spent the last decade hating him on Shane's behalf. Jackie trusting him with her kids after only meeting him once. Harris's family inviting him over so many times. His neighbors' kids making it a habit to wish him good luck before games. Troy coming out to him when it's his first time saying it out loud. Luca asking him for advice because he's finding it hard to "meet people". Coach Wiebe coming out to him and telling him about the guy he was in love with.

He's the safe space he needed growing up. He's the comfort person he wished for when he felt like he had no one. He's the familiar warm presence who has so much love to give to make up for all the love that was taken away from him.

[miniangel]

ep 1 of heated rivalry when the announcers narrate that canada struggled to find their identity (shane not knowing he's gay) and they couldn't get past russia's defense (ilya's walls) but "ilya rozanov kept getting past theirs"

[amaranthuscaudatus]

I’m in my „Shane Hollander finding a second family with the Centaurs“ feelings again, so here’s an incomplete list of headcanons I have about the things the Centaurs learn about The Shane Hollander after he joined the team:

• He is terrifyingly good at pool and darts. Like not fun, not casual. It’s equal parts focus, training and an alarming amount of competitive rage.

• He can twerk. Very well. Apparently J.J. taught him?? Shane does NOT consider it dancing and usually doesn’t mention it, but one day the question “who here can actually twerk” came up and yeah, he can. Ilya is still begging him for a repeat performance.

• Sometimes he seems sincere and a little clueless. He is not. He is, in fact, committing to a bit solely to annoy Ilya. The best part: it works every time.

• He is a grumpy morning person. Silent. Judging. Once he drinks one of his absolutely cursed smoothies he suddenly turns into a functioning human again. Nobody who has tried the smoothies understands why.

• He believes in fair play. Strongly. Passionately. Except when he doesn’t. He has Rules about it. Rule #1: Nothing is off-limits if it’s against Ilya. This has included, but is not limited to, distracting Ilya mid–arm wrestling match by kissing him.

[goldturnedgray]

@stickerqueer incredible take, completely obsessed

[shilyas]

Shane always thinking about breaking things off but then completely forgetting about it when they’d meet up or Ilya thinking about breaking things off between them after Shane’s accident is so funny to me bc although Shane was constantly thinking about this before their encounters, Ilya was always thinking, “surely this is the summer Shane is going to break things off. he’s going to really do it this time” every summer for like 4 years straight, but then he’d text Shane his hotel number, Shane would show up & then they’d both melt into puddles. like, I’m sorry, but I truly don’t think either of them would’ve gone through w/ ending things. I don’t even want to believe Ilya when he thought about ending things in the hospital room when he kept waiting for Shane to do it first, he was in too deep so early on & at that point? no. fucking. chance. this was so destined in a way they couldn’t even begin to comprehend & I love that for them. I love my deniers. I love my liars. I love my hollanov that never ended it <3

[gayhockeyshow]

“You feel it too, don’t you?” Shane is the bravest boy in the world

[deletiaclementine]

“Come here” “no you come here” as they’re staggering across the room honestly it’s lucky these two fucking dweebs found each other so early

[ticklefighthockey]

I still think it’s so funny that shane was assigned gay by rose landry and his reaction was WHEW! thank god someone else decided that for me. anyway I’m off to get my man I can sense that he’s making bad decisions in a club somewhere

[ticklefighthockey]

rose: do you want me to set you up with my gay friend?

shane distractedly: what? no I’m obviously already embroiled in a years-long situationship with a disaster bisexual who is physically incapable of expressing a feeling out loud. and I’m positive he’s off being a nightmare somewhere so now that I’m gay for sure I need to track him down and greet him with such awkward but well-meaning compassion he ends up sobbing in my arms

[hauntedfictionland]

“I never want to come back here again. I fucking hate it here. And they all fucking hate me. I pay for everything. I make sure everyone has clothes they like. I make sure the food is perfect. That father is buried next to his parents, that the tomb is perfect. And the only fucking word I ever hear is: i want more Ilya, i need more Ilya. More, more, more, more, more. And I have nothing for these people. I give them everything.. but I feel fucking empty. They don't care, they look at me and see a bank. Or an enemy. Or I don't even know what. My brother, he always hated me. And I know why... but it kills me. And it kills me that he took care of my father and I didn't. But I couldn't. I wasn't here. I still paid for it all. And he will never forgive me. For any of it. For existing. And it means... I have no one now. Well not no one, I have Svetlana. She loves me, and I love her. But not like... fuck me. But not like I love you. That's the worst fucking part of all this is. That all I want is you. It's always you. I'm so in love with you and I don't know what to do about it.

HEATED RIVALRY (2025) Ilya's russian monologue to Shane.

[jimmysownworld]

yuna getting really lovely, thoughtful, sometimes extravagant mothers day and birthday gifts from ilya never really understanding why hes going through all this effort even if she does appreciate it and thinks hes so so sweet for it all, even after the boys tell her and david about ilyas mother and the irina foundation it doesnt fully click for a while. it only comes together on some random day, ilya has a game later that night and he’s had lunch with yuna and david planned for a while and he shows up with the good vodka david likes and this small package of candies that ilya hands to her very shyly for the first time probably in his life, definitely since shes known him, and he explains with shaking hands that they were his mama’s favorite, and it was her birthday today.

yuna feels her heart break a little bit when he tells her that she would have been younger than her, maybe too young for how old her children are considering he had an older brother, but he thought about his mama when he was happy in the hollander home, and wanted to share his mamas favorite candy with the woman who was mama to his favorite person in the world. like they got to meet, in a way. and yuna realizes very suddenly that he does the birthdays and mothers days for both her and irina because she is the closest thing he has to a mother, and she looks at him and realizes with it that he is in some ways still 12, finding his mother, and she has never met a little boy so tall and tired when she pulls him into a hug and doesnt let go till david suggests they get inside for lunch.

[mythmagicetc]

ilya on his couch trying so hard to sound nonchalant: so is there a mrs real estate

[knownqueerbaiter]

shane in 15 years as one of those husbands/dads who insists he doesn’t care about those silly reality tv shows ilya and their kids are watching and then standing in the living room with his arms crossed the whole time

[penandinkprincess]

thinking tasty scrumptious thoughts about what a mindfuck it has to be for ilya to actually have to put serious thought into what his future looks like longterm.

because he now has. a future. and one?? he even wants?? what the FUCK?? that's allowed???

i don't think he's as reckless as he would like to give the impression of being so i don't think he gave NO thought to the basics of a future (saving SOME amount of money that he could squirrel away from his family. putting a few investments in place. etc.), but i don't think it ever felt real. he didn't really need to put thought to what a future would actually look like because he couldn't picture it actually happening. maybe something in him just figured he'd die tragically young or something. (maybe something in him didn't hate the idea of that, too.)

but now?? there is a future?? and he WANTS a future??

but that's also fucking TERRIFYING?? oh my god? he has so many decisions he has to actually think about now?? he has to make plans about at least the rough framework of what five, ten, fifteen years from now looks like? and it's exciting because shane's there, in his future, but it's also terrifying because it wasn't going to ever actually happen for him and now. it is.

[my-2nd-account]

It's so important to me that everyone who meets Ilya feels safe around him. Shane at age 19 trusting him with his body and his sexuality and his reputation therefore his whole career. Svetlana who left home and could've gone anywhere but chose to move to Boston because guess who also lives there. Every person he's ever hooked up with because that's 100+ of people trusting him and saying yes. Yuna and David who spent less than an hour around him (Ilyushka not Rozanov) and accepted him as Shane's boyfriend even though they've spent the last decade hating him on Shane's behalf. Jackie trusting him with her kids after only meeting him once. Harris's family inviting him over so many times. His neighbors' kids making it a habit to wish him good luck before games. Troy coming out to him when it's his first time saying it out loud. Luca asking him for advice because he's finding it hard to "meet people". Coach Wiebe coming out to him and telling him about the guy he was in love with.

He's the safe space he needed growing up. He's the comfort person he wished for when he felt like he had no one. He's the familiar warm presence who has so much love to give to make up for all the love that was taken away from him.

[sabotage-on-mercury]

The deadset determination with which Shane starts to persue Ilya once he allows himself to actually feel his emotions is nothing short of poetic. Shane is an immovable object until he becomes the unstoppable force. All the time he held himself back by compartmentalisation and represssion, but once the switch is flicked, his love for Ilya drives him forward, steadily and so bravely. He gets on his mission to get his man back in Tampa. Gently but persistently works his way through Ilya's emotional barriers. Doesn't even let a concussion stop him from inviting Ilya to his cottage, bravely sharing his sacred privacy. Making plans for Ilya, himself and their future, while honoring Irina. Stands shaking and afraid infront of his parents and tells them he loves Ilya. Shane is deeply commited to Ilya and he would move the world for him.

[medrawawi]

gimme kiss 😙

[hudconvent]

i really am tickled by the idea of scott hunter being canonically only 3 yrs older than ilya and catching stray after stray for being old. yet also in my mind cliff is fully in his mid 30s when ilya is a rookie and whenever they get drunk together cliff gets emotional and is like “do you think im washed lil bro…..” and ilya is like “NO are you kidding me……you are stud…..just now in your prime…..”