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unmasking blog || please block, don't report || 23, he/him

[radosnie]

Quick intro / About me

I'm Mika • 23 • he/him

Miejsce, w którym mogę bez ograniczeń dzielić się moimi kontrowersyjnymi przemyśleniami.

This is an unmasking blog. (+ occasional vents)

I am diagnosed with bpd & aspd. I have npd traits, as well — just for the record.

If you take offense with what I post, tell me on anon or keep it to yourself.

Probably won't follow back.

[evrenull]

people pleasers irritate me i think they're pathetic losers but that's just cus i don't think anybody even deserves my time. unless you serve me somehow you're genuinely worthless to me i couldn't care less if you died or some shit. like if somebody vented to me randomly id just be like hey i did not fucking give you permission. and if they went and killed themselves id be like ok. lol. ur fault not mine. do you really think you're entitled to my time and effort? who the fuck do you think you are???

[twistedangelboness]

having friends is cool until they worry too much and get in the way of your self-destructive tendencies

[jupitertears3]

of course you’re allowed to have other friends

but why does it hurt when you choose to talk to them instead of me…

[antisocial-pd-culture-is]

ASPD culture is getting mad at nothing burger situations 🫩🫩🫩🫩

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[autopsyfreak]

all interactions are transactional, it must benefit me in some way.

i live by quid pro quo in a sense, you do something beneficial to me and i might entertain conversation with you a while. tit for tat.

[skyrages]

Does anyone know if the lying about random things for no apparent reason without thinking about it is something most prosocials do as well and does anyone know the reason for it regardless

[radosnie]

I don't think they do.

Being a pathological liar (which is what you've described) is not something typically associated with pro-socials.

It is, actually, most often associated with cluster b personality disorders. In the DSM-5, pathological lying is understood to be included in "deceitfulness", for example.

It has Neurobiological explanations, which link it to a lack the cognitive control. That said, it also suggests that socioaffective networks (which are required for inhibiting truthful responses, monitoring behaviour & believability, etc.) may be more efficient.

It's also an item of the PCL-R.

[peerless-outlaw]

Sometimes, when people get overly moral and care too much about discrimination and inequality, it involuntarily makes me really mad because I don't see the point in worrying about others who aren't me or the people I care about.

This used to cause a lot issues because I would snap and end up criticizing positions and opinions that I would otherwise agree with, but I've thankfully learned to take a step back and release that anger before I actually do anything.

I don't particularly care about being immoral, but I do hate losing control over myself and becoming irrational due to my own feelings, no matter which ones. It makes me feel like I'm one of those people who can't do anything without being driven by their emotions, and I despise that.

[peerless-outlaw]

The thing about ASPD is that I can't even guilt trip myself into keeping up with my responsibilities because I really just do not care.

[alice-aspd1]

What if killing someone doesn't make this terrible feeling of boredom and pressure go away? What if there's no relief for this? Its terrible to think about.

[dziurawat3tnicaa]

When it’s getting so bad you start imagining how everyone would react if you do it.

[egotripenigma]

My ultimate way of coping is by scrolling so I forget why I was upset in the first place.

[sunshinesystem20]

AHHHHH I'M TIRED OF DOING MASKING I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING I CARE ABOUT EVERYONE'S EMOTIONAL WELL-BEING I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING TO HAVE EMPATHY IT'S EXHAUSTING TO PRETEND TO BE NEUROTYPICAL

[bugicidal]

It’s a double—edged sword because on one hand , I wish I could care about how other people felt && what they want . . but on the other hand , why the fuck would I care lmao .

[hopethesillyheartwitch]

I think if your response to someone saying "Hey I think people with NPD/BPD/ASPD are treated badly" is "So you're saying people with NPD/BPD/ASPD can't be abusers?", I think that says more about you than it does me.

[a-hospital--for-souls]

"Suicide is selfish!" - stfu! Do you know what's selfish? Forcing someone to stay alive for others because other people don't want to deal with a loss.

[niitroglycerin]

it feels like i got the life sucked out of me