Raeve

25 She/Her Sexuality is a Spectrum and I'm... Somewhere? On it.

[fostershyperfixator]

My local library had a days since James Patterson last published counter.

[official-library-posts]

official library post

[intothestacks]

I need non-librarians to understand that this is not a celebratory counter. It's a plea for help.

[raebiis]

I remember when my library had a sale to prevent just throwing away old books- as many as you can fit into a bag for $1. I went in, a wee lass, hoping for some scores. Nay, for the selection revealed itself upon me as entirely comprised of Patterson books. Terry not, good friends, for after much toiling and fraught searching, my eyes did landeth upon a singular box containing 5 copies of the xxx-holic manga. T'was a fruitful day, in spite of the truly mountainous piles that would have robbed me of such- with their deceitful, hidden ways.

[raebiis]

When I was a kid, my mom used to take my sister and I to a little charity shop set up in a house on the bank of a lake. Like, I was 3 apples tall.

Anyway, it closed down years ago. I was probably 5 apples tall.

But a couple weeks ago I had a dream of visiting it again. Mentioned it to my mom and sister a little later and guess what? It re-opened and those whores went without me, literally on the day I had the dream.

Anyway, I'm psychic but only when someone ik doesn't invite me to do what I love most. Buying things.

[raebiis]

It hurt in the way a gasp hurts- that little choked one you make as you watch something,

Something out of reach,

Something precious, priceless in a way you couldn't begin to conceptualize to others,

Begin to fall.

And you know it's going to shatter, ruined

And some might say "kintsugi",

The practice of gathering all those pieces and using gold to repair,

To fix all the breaks, cracks

And somehow make it more valuable? Beautiful? For having been broken before

Because they say there's a beauty in the breaking, in the act of repairing

But you know, you know that that's only to the outsiders, the new comers

The people who only know it after the fact

They see the gold and are blinded to the sharp edges hidden under it, smothered.

But you are here, now, looking at all the shattered pieces

Scattered everywhere

And you try to gather them but some have been made into dust

Some small gaps exist where you couldn't find the microscopic shards

Lost on the floor, ready to be found by an unsuspecting foot, stepping blindly

Or maybe carelessless

Or hopefully.

And you are repairing it, filling those spaces with gold, and you look at your creation

And are left disgusted

Because it's not the same

It's hideous

You know what it used to be

What it can never be again.

How unsatisfying,

Being left with the yearning,

The aching left behind by that peculiar sensation

Of looking at the thing you love

And knowing it's gone

Ruined

Changed beyond recognition.

Where is the beauty in that?

The breaking?

The repairing?

The longing for what used to be?

[escuerzoresucitado]

[boldlyawkward]

I made stew. It was awesome. I love potatoes.

[potato]

i luv u too

[potato]

wait what was in the stew

[raebiis]

Humanity reached peak comedy when Adventure Time aired the episode about the Demon Cat who has "approximate knowledge" about "many things".

And he just generally has decent guesses about information he technically shouldn't really know.

I think about you often, Demon Cat, especially during exams when I get to embody your ability to be just left of correct.

[toastbutteregg]

[iinsawdious]

"this movie doesn't hold up bcos of dated special effects :(" to you, maybe. i would clap at a bat on a string

[iinsawdious]

reblogs are back on for october! limited edition

[pisshandkerchief]

i must not kill myself . killing myself is the myself killer

[angel-derangement]

this post has been in my head so here is a pinterest quote version of it thanks op

[cockmcstuffins]

bella was lucky she didn’t have a cell phone of any kind because you know ya boi edward would be blowing up that phone 24-7 going “saw a snail today…. effervescent” or some shit equivalent

[skodasforge]

*Valley Girl voice*: I must, like, not fear. Fear is literally the mind-killer. Like it’s basically the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will totally face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me, and? When it’s gone? I’m gonna like turn the inner eye to see its path! Where the fear has gone there will be literally nothing. Only I will remain.

[oneheadtoanother]

[raebiis]

Guys, I keep telling you- we CANNOT have PLASTIC DECORATIONS for the intervention. Paper only or nothing at all! We want to support him, not enable him.

[raebiis]

Watched Soldier's Girl and boy oh boy I fear I'm just setting myself up for a depressing end of year.

But Lee Pace was so cunt and I need to see him play more roles like Calpernia.

[redstonedust]

you ever have those ships where its actually imperitive to the appeal that they do NOT get together in any timeline. i ship them as the one that got away. the tragic missed connection. the doomed yuri. etc.

[halondrus]

[catchymemes]