follow the yellow brick road....

i am dark and light, scorpio through and through, trying to find balance.......here is where i let the nonsense in my head spill out through pictures and whatnot.....

[thoselovelythings]

[anancientheart]

My mom passed away two months ago. We were all with her. The grief feels different every day and I have no idea how to explain it or convey it through any form of communication or medium. How do you explain love and terror and ache and shifting hope? I feel so lost.

I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I have always had a hard time explaining what comes with grief. I don't think most of us know how to talk about it or feel it all the way or ask for what we may need during it. I had my own meeting with grief a few months back and I had a hard time sitting with it. I had a hard time feeling it while still needing to go to work and celebrate things and live my full life. It was hard to make time to get to know it, hard to let it come up and make me feel when it wanted to. So I took out my journal one day and I imagined that grief had a physical form and it came into my home to have a conversation. I wrote it all out as I felt it, as I imagined it would be. Grief took its time sitting next to me. We sat on the couch together. It was quiet, and it respected me. I think it loved me, too. It wasn't mean. Just heavy. It appeared to me in the shape of a person, but it was a dark endless pool of water. I looked into it and saw a deep blue forever. I tried to write out what we would say to each other. I expressed my pain, my anger, asked my questions to it. But it didn't say anything back. It didn't have anything to say. But it was compassionate in its silence. It seemed patient. I don't think much was said on my part either, because what is there to say to grief? The deepest silent feeling. I still don't know how to explain any of it. The bubbling up of love that comes with grief. The intense need to touch something that you can't touch again. The everything that comes with it. Someone once said grief is love in a heavy coat. I don't know who said it but they were right. I'm sorry for the heavy coat you have to wear. I hope you may find the words, at least some of them. <3

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Artist: Miles Johnston

[grayskymorning]

Intimate Barefoot Elopement in the Columbia River Gorge

[aristocrator]

[purplebuddhaproject]

[purplebuddhaproject]

#purplebuddhaproject #quotes #zen #ohm #motivation #quote #happiness #sayings #inspiration #words #literature http://ift.tt/204dpnK

[absinthundrosen]

[thesoutherness]

“May your love for me be like the scent of the evening sea

drifting in through a quiet window

so i do not have to run or chase or fall … to feel you

all i have to do is breathe.”

-Sanober Khan, A Thousand Flamingos

[the-burning-goddess]

I want to unzip your spine until I find a way into every nerve ending, every synapse, every place that makes you feel and think of me.

(via autumnxrayne)

[thenordroom]

Best of 2015: Attic Bedrooms

I’ve posted a lot of gorgeous interiors this year, so I thought about making a ‘Best of 2015′ post series. And the first one is about attic bedrooms, I know how you all love them!

Blog post source: x x x x x x x x x x x

[bey]

Little things

[wordsnquotes]

I’m just dying to say, ‘Hey, do you ever feel like jumping off a bridge?’ or ‘Do you feel an emptiness inside your chest at night that is going to swallow you?’ But you can’t say that at a…party.

Paul Gilmartin, The Mental Illness Happy Hour (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

She had a strange feeling in the pit of her stomach, like when you’re swimming and you want to put your feet down on something solid, but the water’s deeper than you think and there’s nothing there.

Julia Gregson, East of the Sun (via wordsnquotes)

[allanyadiaz]

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[hplyrikz]

You never know what’s around the corner. It could be everything. Or it could be nothing. You keep putting one foot in front of the other, and then one day you look back and you’ve climbed a mountain.

Tom Hiddleston (via hplyrikz)

Clear your mind here

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