random_thoughts_from_Kaito_Rodrigeuz

Random thoughts that I have at random times

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!!

and mens mental health month ofc

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I have questions

Okay friendly females and female aligned beings of tumblr I request some answers to questions my mother just refused to answer for no particular reason

First off: before putting your hair in the towel hat thing, do you like wring out the water or something? I had long hair for a while growing up, and now have a wolf cut tail but like I was never told

Also not a question but I think this is funny

So being forced to be female growing up, i had long hair for a while. Then I cut a lot of it so i had pretty short hair under the excuse of sports. Eventually I let parts of it grow out to my current hair style, but like there goes the convenience of having short hair lol. At this point everyone was used to it so it was fine

Second one: are like bra rashes normal bc I got them a lot growing up

Third: what do you do if you put in a tampon wrong? Like can you reload it or do you just shove it deeper? Asking bc I think i do it wrong sometimes.

Fourth: is it an actual thing where certain hair types are impossible to braid unless wet or did I just fry my hair a lot?

Okayyyy thank you for reading.

love yall

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Bruh i feel like there's something actually special to be considered one of the girls but still a guy y'know?

I've had plenty of female friends growing up, but for a while, I felt more comfortable with males. Fast forward past me realizing that being trans existed and i could just be a guy and neither at the same time, i still had some of the same female friends for a while

It took some time, but i learned, thanks to my male friends with female friends, that being one of the girls didn't make me less of a guy

I learned more about being a girl after I figured out that I wasn't one, and honestly, it's really funny how I interact with my friends because of it

So first off, I'm an older sibling type of person. I'm very protective of people in general, especially if I know you and you're on my good side. Second, the way I joke around with my female vs my male vs my other friends is very different.

No kidding, I was on call with some friends one time, and I don't remember exactly what he said, but it led to the girl in the group telling her little sister to tell me she loves me (my friend loves to glaze people ngl). Obviously, I reply that I love her too, normal behavior for us, and the guy friend who had said something before repeated what I said (being funny, the three of them have known each other for a while), and I immediately just call his name and tell him to shut up.

I'm still protective of the guy, but I'm a lot meaner to him compared to my girl friends. My other friends just get hit with either any mood I'm in, or whichever interaction suits them better.

I'm assuming I'm not the only one, but i feel like I didn't let myself be like this until i truly started accepting myself

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So i was raised kinda in the south of america but I don't call myself very southern or overly american(im well traveled compared to most people i grew up with so i guess that kinda warped the view) but one thing that i do that my friends love to shove in my face is that i can only measure long distances in football fields

American football or football it doesn't matter since they're played on the same field in all of my schooling

But seriously my friends were talking about hectares and I sat there nodding through the entire conversation and then when it's almost over i go

"so imma need someone to tell me how many football fields that is"

I kid you not i got a lot of stares

I do not understand how to picture acres or miles in my head, but I can do football fields, up to 20~ yards, and inches fine

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Yall my cramps are killing me

Anyway! Happy (late) Valentine's day! I was gonna post it at 12:01 on Valentine's day, but then I fell asleep, and then I was with my friends all day, and then I passed out when I got home. Then today I was out again, but whatever!

Super late but if yall didn't get a valentine(or if yours sucked) I'll be your late valentine! (I'll do better next year 😭) bc yall deserve it and deserve to be treasured

Lova ya!

motherfucking cramps

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Yall being a trans guy is so funny sometimes bc growing up with really only some of your close (queer and ally) friends knowing ends up with things like

Friend: "You're not a man!"

Me: :(

Friend: "Uh-i mean, you don't have a pensis!"

Me: 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

(friend in context is genderfluid)

Friend that I barely talk to: "I know what you are..."

(sidenote my friends didn't know that he knew so that was honestly funnier when they tried to keep my secret)

I've got this gay guy friend who would randomly greet me with "Hello homosexual man" when I'm being depressed and it's awesome

And one of my friends mom is actually really supportive because my friend came out to her and then my friend told her about me and after that she was really careful not to say "girls" when im in the group(it's a mainly girls friend group with one gay guy, a closested gay trans guy, and a primarily presenting female genderfluid) and I thought it was so sweet

^the guy joined after me and the gender fluid didn't mind being called a girl

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Thats sooooo pretty

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Thinking about this time in high school when people kept asking me if I knew what had happened on the bus

So like I was popular and not at the same time

I knew the popular kids decently well(one dude would make people move out of my way if I was blocked from getting somewhere, he pretty cool) but we weren't friends

Still, they let me in on the gossip

One day I'm already pissed at everyone and I keep hearing these girls ask each other if they knew what happened on the bus. All I really hear is that a couple got freaky on the bus(which is ironic since a teacher just got fired for having a sexual relationship with a student 😮‍💨people are dumb) and so I'm not thinking much about it. But then after soccer practice I'm talking to this one girl and she fills me in that actually it was two of my friends that all of ups have kinda been beefing with.

I was like actually mad.

Basically the girl was part of my friend group, didn't date much but started dating this one guy I was friends with like over a year before this entire thing. She broke up with him because she realized she was ace (and aro I think). Months go by and I become friends with this other guy(the dude in the couple) and we bond quickly over anime and having pretty trashy homelifes.

Near the end of the school year those two got really close. I pay no mind but a lot of people start asking me if they're dating. I say no because my friend clearly likes her, but she keeps drawing a friendship line. Then comes summer and that's when something happens. I'm ghosted by this guys, even for two months after we come back to school. Next time he talks to me, he insults my anime taste even though we literally bonded over that. At this point, it's obvious the pair are dating. None of us really cared at first; my friends were all friends with the girl and me and the other guy in my group were friends with the guy. Only, we all get ghosted and friendships literally get ended.

I ghosted the both of them back, and eventually things got sorted out and I started talking to both of them. This is over the span of five months, and that's when we get to the bus thing.

So apparently, the girl had been licking the guys dick on bus completely in public. These buses also have cameras everywhere and mics. They're fucking weird man, especially since the girl made this entire big deal about being ace and hating sex and everything and says she'll never do that, and the guy always says he hates this kind of thing. They both changed so much, and it was bad.

Broskis don't do this shit they were a pretty (negative) hot topic around the school for a while

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Gaydar

Okay so I'm trans(ftm) and gay with zero gaydar so i kinda just assume everyones straight

Its werid since all my friends have it(even the straight ones) and then I'm over here like *no thoughts just anime*

Genuinely i feel like they're shitting with me sometimes when they point out some rando whos apparently queer and im the only one who didn't know

Like is there some social cue that I'm missing?

Or a vibe?

Like I can spot a fellow true sports addict but like that's it

Like to me that has a vibe, but I don't get anything else

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Gifted kid burnout

Below is my personal experience of being a gifted kid burnout and how my childhood basically messed up a lot about me now. This is my experience and won't match many others word for word.

When I was young, my parents got divorced

I was about 8, my brother was about 4

For me, I consider this young because I forced myself to mature so much the following years

By the time I was 12, my comprehension and awareness were much higher than it had any business being

I was often called an adult in a kids body, and as the title of this suggests, a gifted kid

I was extroverted, very naturally intelligent, and could pick up new tricks scary fast

This was originally helped by my effort, but eventually it felt like there was no more point in trying

Luckily, when I was 13 I figured out that not everything would come easy, and slacking off wasn't a good habit to build

I got myself back on track, and I'm doing much better in that department

But still, I'm a gifted kid burnout

I didn't lose that talent i had as a kid, going as far as to constantly overturn claims my teachers set(my science teacher when I was 13 was the one who made me realize this, mainly bc he started by telling us in all of his years teaching, no one got a 100 in his class. I figured I'd by pass that without trying, but forgetting to mark a single unit on an assignment brought my 100 to a 98.86 or something like that, rounding up to a 99. That snapped me out of this lack of effort, and I kept scoring 100 straight for the rest of the year)

My problem was my lack of effort in pursuing things I wanted despite having that as a little kid(before 8 basically)

My emotional intelligence personally isn't where it should be, even now that I'm older. I understand how it should work, but I'm very detached from everything.

Nowadays, i end up listening to a lot of ASMR where I can pretend to give up control and just obey

I've found some comfort in being called puppy and good boy, genuinely I break down inside hearing bits of affection because my family couldn't understand that I wasn't meant to be a girl

Before anyone asks, I've tried therapy multiple times and it has yet to do anything but make me spiral more

Basically the mix of the trauma dump i was for people throughout my childhood(my friends suicidal thoughts and self hate, my parents after divorce) and developing that lack of motivation from always being called gifted messed me up

Overall, it greatly influenced my personality as a grownup, even if I had tried building better habits

It is insane that what seemed like so little spiraled into so much that I couldn't shake, and personally I blame this on being called a gifted kid

I lost my motivation, and i very much lost a lot of myself

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Birthmarks

SO

I found this random post on Pinterest a few days ago(i would link it but I'm too lazy to find it) talking about how according to some old legend birthmarks mark how you died in your past life

Earlier I was showering and I randomly noticed two small marks on the middle of my chest

That got me twisted around trying to locate every one of my birthmarks

I found:

-the two on my chest

-one (large) to the right side of the small of my back

-one (tiny) on the inside of my ankle

-a couple ones on my shins

-a couple (tiny) on the bottom of my feet

-one (tiny) dead center of the front of my neck

I'm now very curious what happened in my past life according to that myth

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Chat, I stopped playing Obey Me! for a while because I got busy

Guys, what's going on?!!?!? I haven't even finished the first game and I hop on here and suddenly I don't know half the characters.

I'm just laughing at myself trying to read anything because I'm so far behind

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(Related to my post about my cat from earlier)

Another thing, my cats play fetch.

My dogs literally refuse to play fetch(except for when we throw a certain buoy or a certain pair of tennis balls, which only one out of four return) so this is the funniest thing ever.

I've sent my cats flying through the house chasing a random bracelet that was lying on the ground.

Like, c'mon, how could anyone hate them?

They're more social than my dogs too

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I swear my cat is so fucking weird, like

I have four dogs and they refuse to be anywhere near each other, so they're in the living room while my cat goes between my room and the bathroom.

I watched him lapping at the barely leaking faucet while he had a fucking FULL BOWL OF FREASH WATER!!

HE ISN"T THE ONLY ONE TOO

MY OTHER CATS DO THIS!

THESE ARE THE ANIMALS SUPPOSED TO BE THE VILLAINS?!?!

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I found out one of my friends hasn't listened to so many musicals I like and so we started listening to Hadestown

We simplified how Orpheus meets Eurydice

Orpheus: Mr. Hermes! I want to talk to her!

Hermes: Alright but don't come on too strong

Orpheus: I'm the man who's gonna marry you!

Eurydice: Is he always like this?

Hermes: Yes

We only got to 29/40 and so far have 2 maybe 3 other musicals

Wish him luck lol

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Texts between me and my friend are very weird sometimes

Like they can go from this:

Me: I told Alexa to shuffle songs by Stray Kids and the first song that comes on is Red Lights

Me: Update; my brother and his friend came into my room and started singing along

Me: Update; they left because I scared them by dropping my voice

Her: So I'm just gonna on with my life with the information that two 8-year-olds know the lyrics to Red Lights

To this:

Me: Make sure not to eat too much candy, you have cheer and extra band tomorrow

Her: the fact you know my schedule better then me is unnerving

To this:

Her: I got Han?!?!

Me: I got Seungmin and (friend) got Felix

Me: (other friend) got Hyunjin

Morgan: Perfect, a drama queen for a drama queen

I just think it's funny how our dynamic can change so quickly

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This was actually based on something me and my friend were gonna send to my mom but it never recorded

*Sending a voice message*

Katio: Do you realize how long it’s takes for the bus to get there?

Kaito: …

Kaito: Wait Kenna did I miss my stop?

Kenna: Uh, no?

*A few seconds of silence*

Kaito: We’re coming upon it

Kenna: Upon? Who says upon?

Kaito: I say upon

Kenna: You’re weird

Kaito: We already knew that

Kenna: I’m restating that fact

*Message ends*