I genuinely hate doing this, and it really feels like its all I've ever been doing recently, but I really don't know what else to do at the moment and I'm honestly terrified. I was not prepared for this situation in the slightest.
I'm in desperate need of help. A whole lot is due to be paid, but my primary concern is rent, being at $1,095. Everything else I can easily pay for at a later date without too much concern.
The explanation is long, so I'll type it out under the Read More, but I could use all the help I can get to raise this in such short notice.
Paypal, Chime, Venmo, Cashapp.. Anything is appreciated.
I live with my mother as basically her in-home care taker, and in recent months, it's been insanely difficult for me to hold down a proper job because of her declining mental and physical well-being. If I leave for even an hour, she'll forget where I went and start panicking that she was abandoned or something similar to that effect. I have no one else to help me take care of her, and no family I can trust to help me in just about any respect.
For years, a vast majority of money that we've been living off of and paying for a majority of our bills (rent, electric, etc) has been paid with her disability payments she gets every month. However, this month, she hasn't received that payment.
I'm not entirely sure why that is, and I've currently sent an email to the people that pay it out as I have no other direct line of communication with the woman that handle's my mother's case since I don't know her extension number within her company, just her name.
And while I wait for her to email me back, hopefully in a timely manner, I'm stuck in limbo trying to figure out what to do to not get us evicted from our apartment... All while trying to keep the situation under wraps so that my mother doesn't find out just how bad things have gotten and she doesn't start panicking worse will just put myself into an even worse state..
On Saturday I said to my partner, as I have said for months, "A ten thousand dollar a year raise would solve so many of my problems."
As of this morning I was reluctantly looking for jobs because I love my job and don't want to leave it, but see: $10k raise problem solver.
As of noon today this was no longer an issue, because my boss called me with the news that I was getting a $10K merit raise.
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. This is roughly $200 extra per paycheck. Enough to pay off debt faster, rebuild my savings, and spend a weekend a month in Milwaukee getting obscenely laid. The sex I'm going to have on $200 extra per paycheck. You can't even.
May all of you get the $10K raise your soul has yearned for. And whatever level of sex you can be satisfied with for $200.
A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.
I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.
All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."
But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.
It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.
I reblogged her late last year and my 2024 has been very satisfying work-wise and (secure enough to not stress out) money-wise so far. Money Snake is wise and good.
Soo I have a blood kink... someone reported a post about it like this one time and I got a message from tumblr asking if I was okay and how to get help if I needed it. Was actually cool I didn't know it was a thing that tumblr would do and until now didn't know exactly why that had happened other than something with that post but not that they had this whole set up
I'm sorry. This isn't something I'd normally share, but I'm in one hell of a pinch right now.
My embroidery machine--which is by far the biggest functioning tool of the physical end of this business--is in desperate need of multiple repairs. (And may, in fact, need to be replaced if they can't find suitable parts for it). But in all honesty? I just don't have this kind of money for repairs right now. And… Well. I need my machine. This is how I make the bulk of my income right now.
Please--even if you can't donate, consider sharing this!
https://gofund.me/fb87ae826
The reality is that my business is in danger of falling apart, just because of a bloody repair need.
Are you curious about what I make/do? I create custom plushies, mini plushies, tee-shirts, hoodies and other cosy comfort character creations. I design them, embroider them, and sew them up before shipping them out to their forever homes.
I love that the modern-day tumblr post equivalent of chain emails only requires me to reblog a relatively pleasant image instead of forward an email to a bunch of my friends and family members to quell my raging anxiety.
btw… important PSA: cutting off the mold on the surface of food does nothing. you can only see the spores on the surface, but mold itself has spread and grown roots into the food. by the time you can actually *see* the spores, that piece of food is completely full of it. youre still eating mold.
many of which are poisonous and have been shown to cause cancer. youre not even supposed to sniff it, because that can get spores into your lungs. like if you look up the health and safety guidelines for mold they barely stop short of telling you to put on a hazmat suit.
like produce is okay as long as you cut around it at least an inch, but cooked foods? you gonna die. stop eating mold people
