i'm shy

Lover of Heated Rivalry the television show

[schittyfic]

“No one is here now,” Ilya observes, theatrically turning his head left and right and spreading his arms wide. Droplets of water trickle temptingly down the line of his forearms, tracing a stark vein running along his bicep. “Just us.”

“Just us,” Shane echoes, quiet and almost disbelieving.

These days together have melted into one long, sundrenched dream. At any given moment, he half-expects he’ll jolt awake.

-

Or: the day after the ‘I love you’s, Shane still doesn’t quite think this could all be real. A golden afternoon down at the lake helps him believe it. A 1x06 missing scene.

[thisfeebleheart]

Shane + happy post-nut smiles

[dragonmuse]

As a writer, it's more interesting to me to write Hayden and J.J. as good friends to Shane. (I'm talking from a purely TV show angle for this post, I have Feelings about book Pike and J.J. that can go elsewhere).

Do you know one of the easiest way to build bonds with people? Ask them questions about themselves. We joke about Shane's thousands of question to Ilya, but that only fails with Ilya because Shane is unwittingly touching so many pain points. Hayden and J.J. would eat up with a spoon. This generational player wants to know more about them? He's interested in J.J.'s restaurant hobby and Hayden's children? He dryly funny and fantastic at the game you all love? Fucking sold.

Hayden is so excited (tv show here) to get Shane over to his house. He calls Shane to update him about the baby and wants Shane to come with him and the kids to the aquarium. Shane joins family dinners with ease and holds a baby like he does fairly regularly. They're not just co-workers who are kind of friendly. They're genuine friends.

When J.J. sees the X-Squad people, he doesn't hoard the experience, he calls Shane who he must know likes the movies and invites him to come along immediately.

They like Shane a lot! They hype him up and get excited for him when they think he's getting laid. When Hayden figures out Shane is uncomfortable he even re-calibrates the joke (if poorly) to "Get laid weirdo, or NOT, I don't care". Trying to tell Shane as best he can that he knows it's none of his business and he just wants Shane to go have a good time.

The ways that Shane can be awkward don't seem to phase them. When Shane doesn't respond to J.J.'s 'I'll fuck him for you' moment fast enough, Hayden even steps in to turn it around J.J. and draw attention away from Shane. J.J.'s intention in that moment is to tell Shane he has his back anyway. He has no clue how it comes across. Shane is his teammate and friend and if Rozanov is an asshole to him, J.J. will square up, not to worry.

And as how that will play out as things get revealed is way, way more interesting than 'these two always sucked and weren't real friends'. We have plenty of background characters to give that to us. Let's get into the meat of how painful in is when the people who do love and trust us, let you down in crucial moments. And even if it's not true, you can't help but think it's a little your fault. You could never let them get to know you the way you know them.

[soursevenz]

shout out hudson williams for reminding me that i do indeed need to start reading actual books and not just fanfiction about shane hollander getting bent over and busted wide open over and over and over again

[freakeduploser]

can i be honest the way a lot of people talk about the closet in this fandom is quickly becoming a pet peeve for me. as brave as it is to come out, that doesn’t mean it’s cowardly and selfish to not. let’s have a little empathy maybe

[ahotknife]

mom i need you to know that i did really try i tried really hard but i just can’t help it and i’m sorry

[mybloodstream-caffeine]

I'm thinking about how Ilya canonically loves watching it go in,,, I'm thinking about Shane on all fours getting pounded into the fucking mattress, just the way he likes it, whining piteously when Ilya suddenly slows down. I'm thinking about Shane craning his neck, looking over his shoulder through glassy eyes to try and see why Ilya changed the pace. I'm thinking about Ilya not even noticing because he's too slack jawed watching how Shane's stretched rim clings to his thick shaft every time he pulls back, how it clenches desperately around it when he pushes back in, slick lube oozing out, dripping down Shane's taint, getting Ilya's pubes all sticky with it. I'm thinking about Ilya teasing Shane with this slow, grinding pace for aaaages, even as Shane begs and pleads and sobs for more, because he enjoys watching his greedy hole take him too much to stop.

[memyselfandi13531]

i think if ilya ever told svetlana about the tuna meltdown fiasco she'd make him tell her everything that he said word for word and when ilya's finished she's just sitting there like this

[fuckrozanov]

goodmorning this is your assigned shane of the day

[digivolvin]

pining is 100000% the most important aspect of pre-relationship fic for me. good-natured whole-hearted pining filled with lovelorn gazing and chest aching and fluttering touches, that’s my top priority. i was put on this earth to watch characters suffer over the profundity of their love for another person. unrequited love is why god made me. characters finding out that their feelings are reciprocated after long months/years of suffering is why the universe was assembled from nothingness. amen.

[lavenderprose]

Shane Hollander, ten minutes after winning a Stanley Cup, actively being celebrated by his team, soaked in champagne and hornier than he’s ever been in his entire life: I need to text him. I need to text my no strings attached fuckbuddy arch-rival. This reveals nothing deeper about myself. This is just the best moment of my life and I would like to share it with the man whose dick I suck four times a year and who I have no feelings for whatsoever. The only thing that could make this night better is Ilya Rozanov inside me on the day I won a Stanley Cup (Who said that?) but I’m NORMAL and actually I HATE HIM and it means nothing that the only thing I want to do after winning the Stanley Cup is touch Ilya Rozanov’s dick (Who SAID that?) But he’s in FUCKASS BOSTON so instead of celebrating with my team or meeting a hookup to go home with because I just WON A STANLEY CUP I am going to text Ilya. Do you think he’ll sext me (WHO SAID THAT??) I deserve it. I won a Stanley Cup.

[scunthotter]

Inside Shane's head: orgasm ✅️, time for pillow talk, what is the most emotionally devastating question i can ask my casual situationship today?

[sunnypeachyy]

Hudson with glasses ⎚⩊⎚ -✧

[russianblush]

#👁️👄👁️

[gaygoatshane]

shane's big ass smile when ilya squeezes his tit and calls him a pervert is very important to who #myshane is

[eemolu]

don't get me wrong i love the fact that shane and ilya retcon their relationship to be love at first sight. like good for them!! but when i look at the source material im like .. you were charmed. you were jealous. he had everything you wanted (supportive family and his country behind him, able to be big and brash and move through life with ease) and you wanted to see if you could make him feel good (can you debauch the golden boy, can you be good for the man who's had everyone) but the love didn't come until you started to take apart the things that attracted you to this person in the first place. shane fell in love with the ilya who checked in on him and with the sweetness behind the barbs and with the ilya who couldn't stop kissing him in that stairwell. and ilya fell in love with the shane who thinks buffalo is stupid and can barely get his shoes off before he throws himself at ilya and can't tell his parents he's gay because he's suffocating behind his own image not because he thinks they don't love him but because he wants to honor everything they've done for him. and so it's really nice that ilya goes "i loved you from the first time i saw you" but i, omniscient reader, call bullshit. i think you love that boy now because no version of you could ever not love any version of him. but at the time i think you were mostly just curious and then the love grew despite all odds in the most hostile of circumstances because everything you learned about each other made you want more and more and more. and also probably that's even MORE beautiful. so.

[boitterfly]