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HEATED RIVALRY — DAY 1

Recalling the first day of filming, Tierney says that after seeing the pair excel in the emotional wringer, his own “nerves were out the window, I knew I could throw anything at those guys.”

shanebug

bedlund

the thing about shane hollander is taht he's my little gu[remembers he's huge] hes my Big Guy

boitterfly

let’s all remember that ilya professed his love to shane twice in a whispered rush and then in a hoarse tearful confession and then shane hit him with the holy shit and i love you too in his startled flat affect and then ilya’s entire face crumpled and he collapsed on top of him and shane held his head in both his big hands and kissed him on the forehead twice. let’s hold on to that ok

carnationhes

most annoying man ever invented. He is everything to me

#art

adhdevankinard

I haven’t seen this discussed yet but it always make my heart ache when, during the first part of the post-funeral talk on the phone with Shane, Ilya says, “My brother is, I don’t know, scared. It makes him terrible.”

Not “My brother is terrible”

It’s “My brother is scared” and it’s because he’s scared that he acts terrible.

From what the audience has seen of his brother, he doesn’t deserve that kind of grace from Ilya. And yet, Ilya can look beyond his brother’s actions and words and see what’s at the core of him: a scared boy.

And then Ilya says, “It makes me terrible back.” Ilya doesn’t give himself the grace of saying something like, “I’m scared too. And it makes me terrible back.” Only that he acted terribly back at his brother. Yet all we’ve seen from Ilya is give his brother chance after chance and the only time we’ve seen him snap was when his brother insulted Svetlana.

something, something, Ilya can forgive anyone as long as it’s not himself.

themoonandmyman

This is also demonstrated in how Ilya took so much of Alexei’s abuse at the wake, because he believes he deserves it, but the second he insulted Svetlana, Ilya punched him.

Another example is saying his mother wasn’t weak for committing suicide but in TLG he regards his mental illness as something he needs to ‘fix’ to be good enough for Shane.

‘set myself on fire to keep you warm’ ass character

#ah. pain

manhasetardis

"The world is changed because you are made of ivory and gold. The curves of your lips rewrite history." - Oscar Wilde

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anything by adrianne lenker

#a fave song of mine #really lovely #see also later in the song:#You held me the whole way through #But I couldn't say the words like you #I was scared indigo but I wanted to #about ilyas POV on the conversation in tampa to me

closetfascination

Heated Rivalry Week Day 3: Favourite Kiss/Hug

#like. ilya needed to be held so bad #there's such a release in this scene it makes me emotional #how long has it been since someone cared enough to get to know him & he trusted them enough to let them in

twig-the-escaped-cephalopod

i am Thinkimg . about the Character. and listening to a Song. i a m sure this will not have repercussions

ticklefighthockey

the real fantasy of heated rivalry isn’t that the hot cocky sex god will fall in love with the uptight socially awkward virgin… the real fantasy is that you can be sooooooo fucking annoying & avoidant & allergic to intimacy and someone who is securely attached will nevertheless doggedly pursue you, make you feel your feelings, and then marry you

#🫠#don't @ me like this op

miscelium

shane riding it crazy style in a backwards baseball hat is like level up of white crew socks as lingerie. i think it would give ilya a nosebleed

no bc shane bouncing and moaning on it in just the white crew socks and backwards baseball hat and maybe his smartwatch notifying him he's hit his cardio goal for the day would give me a nosebleed too