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the victim is evil for being weak
the victim is evil for being a reminder of harm
whatever anyone says, Liu Qingge will always be famous for telling Shen Qingqiu that he can just get a new one after his favourite disciple "died"
#while everyone else was learning basic social skills he was studying the blade tags by @sunderwight
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Shen Qingqiu had known that the demonic cultivation he had practiced under Wu Yanzi had left permanent marks on him. It had crippled a good portion of his potential, leaving him short of ever reaching what he should be capable of. Shen Qingqiu had managed to climb his way up until he was the peak lord of Qing Jing despite all attempts at sabotage anyways.
He had thought that the damage to his cultivation was the worst of it. It haunted him. It left him vulnerable to qi deviations, and he was continually struggling just to keep up. Recently however, Shen Qingqiu had been forced to reconsider.
He carefully cleaned the blood off of his fan. Shen Qingqiu was rather furious that he had been forced to use it to kill the latest demon that had decided to kidnap him to keep as a pretty little wife. Unfortunately this demon had done enough research to force Shen Qingqiu into entirely new robes before choosing to get close. So it was his fan.
At least it wasn't as bad as the demon he had ended up killing by tearing out its throat with his teeth. Shen Qingqiu had had to wash himself very thoroughly and purchase entirely new robes before he was suitable to head back to Cang Qiong.
Finished cleaning up Shen Qingqiu stepped around the corpse. He needed to find some way to purge whatever trace of demonic cultivation was in him that was causing all these demons to come after him. He didn't know what was wrong with them that they all claimed he would make a perfect spouse.
At least he had only been gone a couple days. No one would find out about this humiliating little interval.
I haven't read the new SVSSS extras yet, but I have a theory about them and I need you guys to help me confirm it.
So, 1st Binghe, Bingzhu, was powrful but lonely and shattered his soul to pieces to find love for himself, right? This would mean there were no Shen Qingqius of any way in this first world.
Now, we know that PIDWs world existed and it was a failure for Bingzhu bc Binghe didn't get the love he craved (if he did, he wouldn't have had to keep looking). But, if it was a world crafted by Bingzhu, does that mean OG! SQQ had a system too? And blantanly chose to ignore it for the sake of NOT loving Binghe?
Now, you can tell me "Maybe the Bingzhu's soul shards didn't know yet how to make it work and introduce the system on the next world."
This makes sense as we have that scene where OG! SQQ is given the choice to leave by the system and he does so. So we know system was working even before SY on the second world.
But, wouldn't that mean that, up until that point, Shen Jiu was dealing with Bingzhu's system trying to make him love Binghe--and blantanly ignoring it, again? To the point that the system nogitated with him to bring someone else to fulfill its mission of making Binghe loved bc OG! SQQ was horribly against it?
Idk if I am crazy or this makes sense, what do you think? Even if all the world's are paralleles, Bingzhu's sould had to have some obsession with SQQ to try to make him love Binghe twice, and then being "you know what, I get it this is not for you but let me use your body though".
Bc if the goal is to be lived, it didn't have to be by OG!SQQ, right? So why did it keep on trying?
Amd why did it decide to go with Shen Yuan, then? Bc he was a Binghe die-hard fan? Or could the theories that SY is Sj's sould just without all the trauma?
Idk let me know what you think.
Okay yeah now that I’m really thinking about it (and the initial euphoria is starting to fade) all those neatly tied-off loose ends are bugging me more than they were at the beginning.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love some of the new details (SQH name+appearance reveal, Benben the dog, SY’s brothers texting him a photo of his comatose body) but I don’t disagree with the people who dislike how SJ getting replaced was explained away, or how overly convenient it is that SY can now just slip between his two lives so easily like ten years of repressed grief was all for nothing.
Honestly just in general, I think I prefer the nuance and lingering potential for angst in the original ending. I’ll probably relegate the new extras to a deuterocanonical status and only make use of the bits I like.
This. Sadly, I feel like the extras took away deepnes from the story. Maybe MXTX realized the SVSSS fandom was still alive and blooming and wanted to provide answers. However, the loose ends of the story is what kept many of us obssessed.
nah cause the fact that jane austen wrote a character like emma woodhouse is still insane to me. she threw all the standards out the window and was like hey, here’s this incredibly complex and nuanced character, she’s selfish, privileged, manipulative and arrogant, but she’s also really fucking kind, she would do anything for those she loves (including sacrificing a lot of her liberties), she is able to admit that she’s made a mistake and grow from it, because those things are not mutually exclusive. and i think the reason why everyone is trying to girlbossify their heroines to make them like lizzie bennet (which is an insult to her character but that’s another story) is because they’re scared to write characters like emma. which is understandable, because she’s unlikeable-ish, and they don’t want to take that risk.
honestly the way jane wrote emma is IMPECCABLE and not everyone can pull it off, but i wish female characters with actual flaws were more popular.
Jane Austen is simply one of my fav writers
Throwback thursday to when I was like 12 and I was putting out new writing DAILY...... Like entire Chapters of my then-current wips just, over an afternoon. What the fuck was I on
Nobody:
Me, age 12, just started drinking coffee:
I drew 14 pictures during the day, and wrote 32 pages a night. Now I can’t do shit.
A huge part of this is because you've gotten better! And now, when you're drawing/writing/doing whatever creative task, you're not just mindlessly throwing thoughts at your paper, you're thinking as you do it. Children can churn out a lot more work because it's not yet refined, but when you're older and have more practice, you work with all these thoughts running through your head about form and shape, color palettes or word choice. Now, you're making a dozen decisions with every moment of work, and you're also questioning the decisions you've just made, wondering if you can do it better. Don't beat yourself up about producing less work now than you did back then, because every sentence or shape involves a lot more effort for you now, than it did when you were ten and brand new to this hobby.
Also you have a job now and the never-ending bullshit that is laundry and dishes and feeding yourself.
okay, I actually really needed to hear this
I remember I spent my summer afternoons of middle school holidays borelesly watching TV, but at 1 pm the available programs were just shit. So I had a little notebook and I spent hours and hours to end writing and drawing.
writing badly and cringily is actually an essential part of the writing process, both in terms of individual projects and in gaining voice and confidence as a writer in the long term. there is no way around the cringe. there's no way around the work.
SVSSS fans trying to write a qijiu/bingjiu fix-it
This used to be a part of a post, but I decided to make it into a separate one, because it speaks of crusual things for understanding SVSSS, it's plot and it's characters.
As I found out recently, there's a huge misunderstanding going on in the English-speaking segment, probably dew to an English translation of SVSSS (only a speculation, I myself never had this problem, although I read in several other languages as well, so I can compare) concerning the fact whether or not PIDW was originally planned by Airplane as a yaoi with bingqiu as an OTP. (Spoiler: yes, it was). Some readers are mislead by two quotes, that they take as a contradictory, which in truth, they are NOT.
The first one is from a Chapter "The story begins". It is the last chapter of the novel, after this the extras start. And this particular chapter is a culmination: this is where the truth is reveled. Like in a detective story, where we finally find out, who the killer is. This meant to become a real "bomb", that makes a reader go WOOOW!!! And this is THE KEY for understanding the whole story: the plot and the characters, especially Luo Bing-mei (and Luo Bing-ge). And it speaks about the original INTENTIONS of the Airplane, that he betrayed in order to please the crowd. (original scrapped outline(c))
The second quote on the other hand speaks of an EXISTING PIDW, (original outline(c)), that he actually wrote, but never finished, because he died and woke up in the Universe of the System. And it gives us a glimpse into the way he planned to finish it.
The first quote, from the final chapter:
Shen Qingqiu looked him up and down. “You don’t look crushed at all after all this foolish messing around ended up completely changing your own novel.”
Shang Qinghua said, “You can’t say it like that ah. Maybe you think it’s just all foolish messing around that isn’t worth a damn, but for Bing-ge, your foolish messing around is probably the meaning of this entire world.”
... holy s***, Great God Airplane Shooting Towards the Sky was able to say something like that?!
Shen Qingqiu was terrified. “F***. You didn’t turn back into the original character, did you?”
Shang Qinghua said seriously, “Don’t be like that. I’m also a young person with literary ideals. Of course, I have my own reflections and emotions.”
Shen Qingqiu laughed coldly. “What literary ideals? How come all I saw in the original work was shameless fanservice?” Not to mention his hand speed that could produce ten thousand words a day, and the courage to even occasionally explode with twenty thousand. If he didn’t have such equipment, there was no way 《Proud Immortal Demon Way》 would have been able to hold out before it was serialized!
Shang Qinghua spread his hands. “You think that I always wrote shameless content that lacked any integrity from the very start? I’ve also written belles-lettres4 before, but they were all unpopular, so I had no choice but to go down a path that catered to the masses. It must be said that writing novels is a very lonely undertaking. Rather than writing a stallion male protagonist who’ll be stereotypical in the end, it’s more in line with my philosophy for writing to create the current Bing-ge━this kind of weirdo male protagonist whose character is a bit more complicated, has contradictions and conflicts, and has a rough destiny.”
Shen Qingqiu concluded, “So, your philosophy for writing is to write about gay guys?”
Shang Qinghua: “Do you look down upon gay male protagonists? Works of art and artists all like to create gay guys. Belles-lettres favors gays, do you know that?”
He waved his arms wildly and passionately. “Cucumber Bro, if the System hadn’t chosen you, this faithful die-hard reader, perhaps the plot wouldn’t have deviated so thoroughly, thoroughly to the point that it deviated all the way back to my original scrapped outline. Even though the me back in reality━who couldn’t endure the loneliness and was under financial pressure━chose to finish writing 《Proud Immortal Demon Way》 according to other people’s preferences and what they found cool... now, all thanks to you, essentially everything that I wanted to write has already unfolded in front of my eyes. Cucumber Bro!”
He patted Shen Qingqiu’s shoulders with deep sentiment and solemnity. “You... are the chosen one; as for my career, I have no more regrets!”
... why did it sound like the System and this world were both products of Shang Qinghua’s resentment over scrapping that outline and going with what was mainstream?
Shen Qingqiu, who shamefully became this kind of “chosen one”: “Who’s your faithful die-hard reader?”
Shang Qinghua waved his hand and one-sidedly declared his victory. “I’m not going to talk to you; you’re an anti-fan.”
Shen Qingqiu was about to say, “I’m only an anti, not a fan!” when he suddenly heard Shang Qinghua starting crooning something like, “Emotions are warm, kindness hard to bear, lips moving together, desires turning the evening to the next morning, never resting from dawn to dusk.” The crucial point was that melody, which sounded extremely familiar to the point that it made Shen Qingqiu’s hands and teeth itch. He pointed at him and said, “Shang Qinghua, what are you singing?”
Shang Qinghua continued to croon. “The warmth of emotions makes gratitude hard to bear. Lips to lips, locked in a kiss. Let this night linger ‘til tomorrow’s dawn. Day after day, night after night; never to end. Will tomorrow be another today? When ‘til Zheng Yang reaches its zenith? As Zheng Yang ascends, the voice of Autumn stirs. A sheathless Xiu Ya, a spurt of cold nectar. Tragic pleas amidst choked sobs, thus in vain; for he rises again5...”
Shen Qingqiu was in disbelief. “F*** you—why don’t you just try and sing another line?”
Shang Qinghua said, “Great Lord Shen, why aren’t you listening to what I’m saying? You must never go around casually f***ing people. Bing-ge will go crazy. I’m telling you, this Resentment of Chunshan is equivalent to Shi Ba Mo6. You two are the legendary national homos, do you understand? I have no problems with you shutting me up, but ultimately it’s useless. You can’t possibly make all the countless people in the world shut up...” (NB, Ch 81)
The second quote, from the extras:
【 Basic completion of Proud Immortal Demon Way’s original outline achieved (slight deviation in romance plotline); objective complete. Retrieving function to return to original world; download complete. Activate Return Home sequence? 】 Basic completion of the original outline? That he agreed with. All the holes that needed to be filled had been filled. But this “slight deviation of romance plot” wasn’t quite right. Bing-ge was now fully gay; how could you say that was a “slight deviation”? Ah, fine, fine, in fact, in his original outline, Bing-ge hadn’t even had a romance plotline; he had been doomed to fade away, alone and unaging forever. If you insisted on adding a romance plotline, all right, that was whatever, so putting aside all the System’s rambling…this meant he could return to his original world?! (Seven Seas, Ch. 26)
Basic completion of the original outline and filling it's plotholes - THIS is what's talked about in this quote! Not the scrapped original outline!
The English translation, which I only read recently, in my opinion is not very clear, in comparison to, for example, Russian translations, and not just the most popular version by Псой и Сысой, for ex: there are more than one, and they all pretty much nailed it. 感情线 used in original (that's what, apparently, caused the doubts for some reason, in spite that the quote itself absolutely clearly speaks of 《Proud Immortal Demon Way》’s original outline, the one big "error of a novel", that needed to be redressed, and not the scrapped original outline that never saw the daylight) itself refers to a "romantic plotline". So the author himself tells you, that his original Bing-ge had none. But how come? Why is that? Bing-ge, as we know, has got a huge harem, he for sure cannot be the case of dying alone without love!.. Or can he? Apparently, this is exactly his fate - no love. And the Airplane, the way he planned the original scrapped outline, knows better than anyone else - there's, well, none. The Protagonist's harem is nothing to do with romance whatsoever (see the quote below from the forum as an example, what the readers of PIDW themselves think of the relationship between Bing-ge and his harem). It all has to do with protagonists coolness and power and getting everything, including all the women, because he is super powerful and he is the center of that universe. It's about power, it's about lust, it's about influence and control, and showing, who the real boss is. But not love or romance. PIDW is not a romantic novel in a slightest: its a third rate pornography and a ode to toxic masculinity, so distasteful and disgusting, that the resentment of it's author with his own creation was powerful enough to create the whole new universe (The System) just to correct it! And this particular quote speaks of Bing-ge not having ANY SIGNIFICANT RELATIONSHIP, LOVE. Псой и Сысой for translating 感情线 in this particular case use much more explicit and profound "заслуживающие упоминания эмоциональные привязанности" ("the emotional connections worth mentioning"), rather than abstract "romantic plotline". Because the only significant person in his life pushed Bing-ge away. (And we know, who that person is, thanks to the System Universe - his shizhun.) Romance has nothing to do with the amount of partners he fucks - they are not of any romantic or emotional significance for Bing-ge. This is how his relationship with the harem is described by the PIDW reader's forum in the novel:
"Airplane really doesn’t know how to write romance plotlines, best if he just doesn’t. I feel like Luo Binghe doesn’t have feelings for any of his wives, he just wants to use them. And I can’t see any of those women with real moving emotion for him. "(NB, Ch. 73)
So - no romance for Bing-ge in PIDW, the Airplane didn't grant him this privilege and happiness. And yes - the ending for the tyrant he's become in PIDW is not happy in a slightest.
So, binqui did not appear out of nowhere, and yes - it has always been there from a beginning, in the core of everything. Implied. This is not only canon: it is the exact essence of it, the base, the foundation, which explaines everything that happens in the novel and even beyond - in PIDW, where the mighty protagonist that has everything, except the only one thing he really needs - the love of his shizun - is doomed to an eternal unhappiness and loneliness.
"All those empty rooms
We could have been anywhere, anywhere else
Instead, I made a bed with apathy
My heart knew the weight
Ten years worth of dust and neglect
We made our peace with weariness and let it be..."
(Song: The Moon will Sing by the Crane Wives)
You know that quote "I'm gentle in the same way herding dogs are gentle to the sheep that they kill wolves for" or something like that.
That's Yue Qingyuan to me
Lately, I've been thinking a fic idea, but I don't think I'll carry it to life cause I don't have the time. But here it is.
Warning: it's sad. And it's Bingjiu.
What if, by some chance, Shen Jiu fell in the Abyss while he was Wu Yanzi's disciple. And, in thid Au, Shen Yuan also exists. So Luo Binghe falls into the abyss, and runs into his Shizun's look-alike, only considerably jumpy and much mire bitchy. And Shen Jiu runs into the first human-like creature in years. So, they decide to get together and try and leave the hell hole.
Luo Binghe is not as cruel as Bingge, but he just got betrayed by Shen Yuan, his dear Shizun, and he feels he can no longer trust cultivator sects and their righterous path. Shen Jiu is Shen Jiu, so he was never much righterous to begin with. Cue to Shen Jiu and Luo Binghe, both betrayed by the ones they loved and deeply flawed, grow close.
Even before finding Xin Mo, he's often doing, well, Luo Binghe shit and satiatying his need with demonesses. Shen Jiu blatantly refuses every advance: he'll only sleep with the man he marries. An issue arises, though, when Lbg gets cursed with a sex pollen like plant. Shen Jiu saves his life, only after forcing Lbg to promise him that he'll never leave his side. And Lbg, who's grown increadibly fond with this man who's as beautiful as his Shizun, but as wretched as he himself is, accepts.
Lbg and Shen Jiu escape the Abyss, and Binghe becomes demon emperor, making Shen Jiu his wife.
Once they leave the abyss, Lbg gets Shen Jiu to a hostel room, and sets him in a bed. Then, he places a pair of shoes in his battered up feet. Shen Jiu, orphan, then slave, then rogue demon cultivator, had never in his life worn shoes before.
Shen Jiu never cultivated in this life, so he's extreamely weak, almost human like, and his nasty actitude makes it easy for others to hate him. This was never an issue for them-until Lbg has a court, and an empire tu rule, and a pissy empress to protect.
Shit hits the fan when the sects hear about the new emperor, and invite him for a meeting. Luo Binghe is wierdly eager, Shen Jiu notices.
He is, of course, eager to see his Shizun. But he also wishes for Shen Jiu to reunite with, who probably is, his only lasting family member, maybe a long lost brother.
However an unexpected party appears at the meeting, ans that is Qiu Haitang. The woman accuses the Demon Empress for having murdered her entire family. And Shen Jiu, poor street kid with no education, doesn't react properly.
And if that were not enough, Sect Leader Yue Qingyuan was no other than his long lost childhood best friend.
Meanwhile, Luo Binghe seems distracted and distant, much more focused on the relationship with the sects than if what's happening inside his court.
The one who doesn't miss the chance if visiting, though, is Yue Qingyuan. It is from him that Sj learns about Shen Yuan, his he's probably his brother, and that he was Lbg's máster. Yqy tries to convide Xiao Jiu that Lbg isn't a good guy, that he wasn't good while he was in rhe sect, and that he has an eerie obsession with his máster, Shen Yuan.
However, Shen Jiu isn't willing to listen.
The sects demand that only giving Qiu Haitang her family back will serve as compensation, and that Lbg must take her as concubine. This is a plot from Hua Huan Palace to gain power. Qiu Haitang enters the palace, even if she isn't married yet.
Shen Jiu doesn't like it one bit. With the help of Ling Guan Jun, he plotes the murder of Qiu Haitang. The attempt fails, though, and Luo Binghe is furious: all his efforts in protecting Sj go down the drain.
He places Sj in house arrest, as he tries to appase the cultivation world. Sj is furious.
Why is Lbg treating him as if he was in the wrong? Why was what he had been doing all the time they were in the Abyss suddenly useless?
It is then that Shen Yuan comes to visit. Lbg allowed him to enter, and his former Shizun takes the ocassion for finally talking with his long lost brother. Sj won't deny he's curious.
But, as he makes tea, Shen Yuan falls immediately after drinking it. And Luo Binghe enters, just to find his Shizun convulsing due to poison in front of his wife.
Luo Binghe takes Sy, and orders guards to trap Sj, and not let anyone in.
He couldn't let his Shizun die, bc he gave him so much, but also bc he was Shen Jiu's only family.
Shen Jiu didn't know better, but he would. He would stop his sketchy ways one day, and become a better person. Luo Binghe was sure of that. But for it to happen, Shen Yuan needed to be there, too. He knew Sj, and he knew that, once the rage subsided, he'd never get over having poisoned his own brother. Bc Sj was much more sensible than he showed.
So he uses his blood parasites to cure Sy, even if he ends uo having to use too many.
The poison was increadibly strong, and leaves him almost unable to sence his mites.
That's he doesn't realize that Shen Jiu had drunk the poison, too.
It had been placed in his favorite tea, Shen Jiu realices, and his error had been deciding to share something precious to him with his long lost brother.
Shen Jiu would never harm his own brother, even if he envied him. Ever since they'd come to the castle, it seemed that Shen Jiu only commited mistakes. Shen Yuan wasn't like thag. He walked with pose and elegant, and smiled freely to others while Shen Jiu only knew how to throw nasty words. Maybe that's why Luo Binghe loved him.
After all, Shen Jiu was only a nasty slave that had tricked him into marrying him. Luo Binghe had never taken him seriously until his life had been in danger, and after that he'd never touched him again.
Maybe it was true what everyone said, that the Emperor's crazy wife made his the Demon's life miserable. Maybe it was truth what Yue Qingyuan implied, that he was only a Shen Yuan look alike Luo Binghe had recurred to when he believed he'd never leave the Abyss alive.
So Shen Jiu served himself a cup of tea, and drank it as he reminisced the day Luo Binghe bought him his first pair of shoes.
And he hoped that, from now on, Luo Binghe could be happy without a slave kid dragging him down.
Now I love Shen Qingqiu even more 🥲🩷
At first I wanted to do it all to one person, but no one was quite right. Then I drew parallels where SQQ denies everything, but in fact he loves, he cares, he will wait...
I suffer with him and you suffer with me
Bingyuan fans are so pissy cause they just come to bing jiu tag to throw shit. If you don't like a ship maybe don't read it??? Do you think just bc you say "Luo Binghe would never love Shen Jiu!" We're just going to be like "Omg dude you're right, I never realized it! Let me delete all the fics I've written".
That's not going to happen mate so keep on walking.
PIDW is sus in regards to what was actually going on, because by MXTX standards from the other novel that did cultivation sect stuff in detail, the things that happened to Luo Binghe at Qing Jing were... actually pretty light? By in-universe standard?
As for the thing at the end regarding punishments and what not: PIDW is told from Luo Binghe's POV, it's going to be biased. We know from other MTXT novels that beating Disciples for the slightest of infractions is not uncommon. How many times did both Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian get hit with wooden paddles just for being out past curfew? By modern standards a lot of what would happen to Disciples on a cultivation peak are horrific. What Shen Jiu does to Luo Binghe is also pretty bad, but still in keeping with that 'reasonable' standard for the worldsetting. It's only framed as unreasonable because its coming from Binghe's POV. Kind of like how he viewed Shen Jiu as lecherous and pedophilic despite the fact that the extras revealed he was just awkwardly trying to show parental affection to Ning Yingying but not knowing how because he never had a parent, or frequenting brothels purely to hang out with a bunch of aunties and get a good night's sleep. The novels state that Binghe's physical punishments were kneeling and getting beaten by other disciples, and manual labour at this point. I don't remember if the punishments escalate though but I'm pretty sure the 'whipping' in the woodshed thing was a fanon invention - a bit like how Qiu Jianluo was incestuous for his sister. He didn't want her to leave the household but I don't remember there being anything sexual said regarding it, and there's nothing on the wikia about it either.
Just to be clear, I'm not condoning anything, I'm just saying: LBH's POV is biased and flawed as fuck.
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I love sj, don't get me wrong, but his abuse was never justified, bc in the extras sj directly expresses that he wanted to KILL luo binghe. He wanted the kid gone. And the fake manual is the best example.
Also i wouldn't call Lbh an unrealiable narrator. You can't call everyone unreliable narrators simply for being emotional about things. His view on sj is biased because he is a literal victim. Everything he lived at the hands of shen qingqiu was real. It's his perspective.
Sy IS an unrealiable narrator bc he lies to himself and sees the reality through a lens.