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In my opinion, there are two possible explanations for Loki’s ‘betrayal’ in ‘Thor: Ragnarok’.
The first, is that Loki was actually trying to stop Thor from running off and getting himself killed. Loki had already expressed his concern regarding Hela, knowing how powerful she is.
We also know that Loki has tried to pull Thor back from making ‘reckless’ and dangerous choices before, like on Jotunheim during ‘Thor’.
Laufey tells them to go whilst he ‘still allows it’, Loki speaking up and accepting his “most gracious offer”. Loki is also the one who alerted the guards before they even left Asgard, so Odin would come and (hopefully) help stop Thor do anything worse. How many times has Loki had to do this in the past? It’s likely so woven into their dynamic that it’s second nature to Loki. It made a change when Thor had to be the one to step up and take on that role for Loki at the end of ‘Thor’ and during ‘The Avengers’.
Loki has always been a mediator/diplomat when it comes to politics and escalating violence. It’s only when he feels betrayed and his own emotions are all over the place does he resort to such extreme actions, whereas for Thor, that was always his first instinct: hit first, ask questions later.
So… When we get to ‘Thor: Ragnarok’ and Thor has a plan to leave and return to Asgard to fight and stop Hela… Loki’s old instinct to stop Thor from doing something he deems ‘reckless’ reappears like muscle memory. Loki has tried to express his concern already, and of course, Thor doesn’t listen. He’s stubborn and self-assured. Loki has to find other ways to stop his brother from getting himself hurt, or worse… killed.
Loki wasn’t exactly subtle or slick with his plan of ‘betrayal’, he knew Thor is one of the few people who can see through his illusions (not always, but he’s learnt to spot it), as evidenced in ‘Thor: The Dark World’.
Loki also just… walked away right behind Thor… Not very subtle.
However, what he didn’t anticipate was Thor being a step ahead of him. Loki is so used to being the smartest, sneakiest, in the room, that he didn’t even factor that Thor would play him at his own game — because that’s not how Thor usually operates. But, Thor has changed since Loki had last seen him properly 4 years ago. Loki is genuinely caught off guard.
And, of course, Loki was never going to simply admit that he was worried for Thor, that he was trying to prevent him from getting himself killed… Because that’s means being emotionally vulnerable and honest… And “open communication was never their family’s forte.”
Loki wasn’t truly trying to betray Thor, he was just… playing the role Thor expected of him in an effort to try and stop him from doing something stupid.
The second possible explanation, is that Loki simply felt too exposed after their chat in the elevator and reverted to his cycle of self-destructive behaviour to put distance between himself and Thor — and his own emotions.
This is the most straightforward and emotionally honest Thor has been with Loki in, well, likely a long time. After everything that had happened, Loki truly didn’t expect it. He also had doubts about how Thor viewed him, what he felt and thought about him, and Thor was telling him earnestly that he “thought the world” of him…
Loki doesn’t know what to do with that. It challenges the narrative he had believed and told himself for years, the narrative that he felt kept being solidified and proven time and time again.
And so, what does he do?
He reverts back into the role that is familiar and comfortable and expected of him. He puts distance between them, reverting to his old tricks as a self-preservation mechanism. Because, once again, it’s easier for Loki to do that than admit he feels emotionally exposed and vulnerable. Loki loves to throw up a wall when it comes to people close to him and having vulnerable moments. Another example is his last conversation with Frigga in ‘Thor: The Dark World’.
Loki lashes out, reacts defensively and fulfils the role of the ‘God of Mischief’ in such situations, he insists he lives by the motto that ‘sentiment is a weakness’ — when in reality, he knows that every choice and action he has made has been fuelled by sentiment.
Loki was trying to be the 2D version of himself he projects to the world as a self-defence, a way to take control of the situation and reestablish the ‘rules’.
But in the end…
Sentiment always wins.
(Of course, it’s likely a nice dose of both explanations, I imagine!)
When you separate an entwined particle and you move both parts away from the other, even at opposite ends of the universe, if you alter or affect one, the other will be identically altered or affected.
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