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Hi! I am Cy, or Cyan, or Cyanide.
I read the Hobbit and LOTR as a kid. (My favourite bit of LOTR was always Bilbo’s birthday party. An early appreciation for cultural worldbuilding making itself known!). I watched the movies (but not the Hobbit ones yet) as a teenager and read some fanfiction then. Recently (Winter 2024/25) I got back into Tolkien, the Silmarillion specifically, which I never bothered finishing before (I believe I got up to the point where Thingol found out about the Kinslaying). How did I get into it? I happened to read a ROP inspired Saurondriel fic. I think it was by an author I knew? I haven’t actually watched ROP fully yet. I got bored by episode 2.
So that’s the story. Here’s my AO3.
Q&A
Why do you write so much darkfic?
Because I want to. Maybe it’s a way of dealing with some mental health stuff I’ve got going on, maybe it’s an interest in horror fiction in general, maybe I just find it kind of hot. I try to tag things properly, but I can be forgetful so please tell me if I forgot to tag something people might prefer to be warned about.
What about the incest? Clearly you’re an only child…
I have multiple siblings actually. Luckily, I am neither a member of the House of Finwë, or indeed, an elf. So I’m not especially bothered, since I’m not exactly related to any of the characters I’m writing about. Also this is a fandom where the most popular AO3 ship is between half-cousins, and the 8th most popular is between half-brothers. It’s a bit like getting into Greek mythology…
Ok, past all that, what’s your opinion on [fandom discourse issue]?
Whatever it is, I probably don’t care, unless it’s directly connected to IRL issues in some way (eg discourse around people being ‘allowed’ to headcanon characters certain ways). One of the reasons I like the Silm so much is the nuance the characters can have. People make bad decisions IRL all the time. People make decisions with the information they have, which can seem good at first but turn out poorly. That’s part of the fun.
But in X fic you bashed Y character!
All my fics are AU. I’m not a big fan of canon compliance. Sometimes I’ll go with a heavily unfavourable interpretation of a character because that’s what makes the story more interesting. I might then end up writing a fic where the same character is given a much more favourable interpretation. This means sometimes characters may seem ‘OOC’ to how you’re used to seeing them though. But to be honest the original story is pretty open to interpretation in a lot of ways, once you accept the death of the author…
… ok but I noticed a grammatical error or typo in your fic.
If you do, please tell me! I try to look over my fics, but I don’t have a beta reader, and I’m also mildly dyslexic.















