★. SYNOPSIS : With the promise of having someone that not only understands Donghyun, but will also listen to him, he started to write letters about his high school life and his journey of finding actual friends and love.
★. WARNINGS : Donghyun's mentally unstable and has mommy issues, sensitive topics (homophobia, mentions of suicide), curse words, kys/kms jokes, sexual jokes, mentions of drinking, drugs, kissing and sex (not quite explicit), more to be added if need.
★. STATUS : to be started
★. LUA'S NOTES : hi my loves!! this is my very first au and, as you can see, is heavily inspired by the perks of being a wallflower (my fav movie and book lol). i've been writing the same writing style ever since i started this blog, so this is something new 😸 however, yn is still on the fic and will be a female character. please, don't mind if there's any grammar mistakes, english is not my first language and im just getting back to writing. would also like to let you know that the taglist is open and if you want to be added just lemme know in the comment section or send me an ask! anyways, i hope you enjoy his letters <3
March 2, 2024 ── March 4, 2024 ── more letters to be sent...
I write these words with a broken heart. To those who read this and choose to ignore it, you can simply scroll past, but I am living through the most difficult moments of my life. My husband is slowly dying before my eyes. Due to a severe head and jaw injury, he has been unable to eat or drink for over a week, his weight has dropped to just 39 kilograms, and he is suffering from severe, life-threatening malnutrition.
The doctors confirmed he needs urgent surgery, but we can't afford the operation and treatment. I feel helpless watching him weaken day by day, while time is running out.💔
I'm not asking for the impossible; I'm simply asking for a chance to save his life. Please, if you can't donate, don't hesitate to share our story. It might reach someone who can give him a new lease on life.💔🙏
Seeing people I know and like using AI is making me understand the protagonists of those old time sci fi dystopia's.
"Oh I don't normally use AI, I just wanted it to plan my trip"
You lived on this planet for decades, you know what you like, there are hundreds of websites where you can type into any search engine " things to do in [area]" and have at least a hundred different options.
"Oh I only use it so I can figure out what to make during the week with what I have"
The most popular website as you type in "recipes" into google have sections where you click dinner- quick and easy and those usually rely on staples + 1 or 2 items. I found 30 recipes on chicken alone.
"I had a writing idea, so I typed a few sentences into Chat GPT and I was able to write 20 pages with it."
︵⠀BABYCARE ⠀◌Ⳋ ✧ ── taking care of a baby can be stressing, but it also has its perks.
pairing: seokmin x gn!reader wc: 0.8k words warnings: none
Toys all over the floor, star shaped fruits forgotten on the highchair, infant formula in the baby bottle on the kitchen counter and a crying toddler on your lap as Seokmin shakes the rattle in front of the little girl.
“This isn’t helping, she’s just getting louder.”
“I know,” Seokmin pouts slightly and stops shaking the rattle. “I don’t know what to do anymore, is she hungry? Is she sleepy? Feeling gassy? There’s no way to know!”
By the way he’s running his hand through his hair and his voice’s getting slightly louder as each word leaves his mouth, you know that he’s starting to feel frustrated. It’s rare for Seokmin to get frustrated by children, but no one would remain calm with a baby crying for almost fifteen minutes straight.
Your gaze softens at him and you take a deep breath before mumbling an okay and standing up, fixing the toddler’s position to make her rest her head on your shoulder. “Sing for her, let’s see if she’s sleepy.”
Seokmin nods and starts to sing a lullaby, being careful with his tone so it won’t turn into a shouting competition — the baby’s loud crying and his loud singing. You bounce her little body lightly and try to follow Seokmin’s rhythm, quietly praying for it to help and make the toddler sleep and give you and Seokmin some peace of mind for at least half an hour.
It takes three songs for her to calm down and drift off. When you look down at her and see her fighting against her own body to keep her eyes open, your eyes widen and you look at Seokmin with a surprised yet relieved face. “It’s working, don’t stop,” you whisper.
The tension in Seokmin’s shoulders seems to loosen up instantly and a grin appears on his face as he keeps on singing. When the girl finally falls asleep, you take her to your room and carefully place her in bed, leaving her there to sleep peacefully and closing the bedroom door. Once your eyes land on Seokmin’s figure you smile brightly and run to hug him. “We did it, she’s finally sleeping! The crying is over!”
“Thank God,” Seokmin sighs and hides his face in the crook of your neck, taking deep breaths as if trying to calm himself down. “I thought she was going to keep crying and crying and crying… That was a nightmare.”
“I know,” you chuckle. “At least now we have some time alone and you know what that means, don’t you?”
“Oh I sure know what that means,” Seokmin plants a kiss on your neck before leaning back and looking at you. “Time to clean the house up.”
You flash a tired smile to each other and start to tidy the house up while the girl sleeps. Seokmin takes care of the kitchen while you take care of the living room as you try your best to keep quiet in order to not wake the toddler up and provoke another crying session.
The kid sleeps like a tired person that hasn't slept for more than 24 hours because when Seokmin’s sister and her husband come to pick her up at night she’s still asleep. Seokmin’s sister thanks you for taking care of her daughter for the entire day and leaves along with her husband and daughter, making the usual silence come back to your place — the comfortable silence that doesn’t threaten to be replaced by loud cries.
“It’s over. It’s just the two of us again,” you say as you and Seokmin sit down on the couch, feeling exhausted. “Just like it should be.”
“I always knew that it’s tough taking care of a baby, but I didn’t know it was that hard.”
“But we had good moments as well. Did you remember how cute she looked when she was trying to reach out for the apple you were holding?” Seokmin turns his head to look at you and chuckles, smiling as he thinks of that moment. “And the cute little smiles she gave us almost every five minutes after she was fed? Adorable.”
The atmosphere turns into something quiet and comfortable as you think of all the good parts of taking care of Seokmin’s niece. You turn your head to look at Seokmin and he’s already looking at you with an expression on his face that makes what he’s thinking about become crystal clear because you are looking at him in the exact same way, thinking the exact same thing.
“Later on?”
“Later on,” Seokmin takes your hand and squeezes it gently. “Let’s enjoy the two of us a little bit more before changing our lives completely.”
You smile and nod. “I love you.”
“And I,” he reaches out and brushes his nose against yours. “Love you more. Now let’s get ready to sleep, I have a feeling we’ll sleep at least ten hours straight.”
taglist ! @tkooooop @smiileflower @auroramilaa @livelaughloveseventeen @bbyinni @choco-scoups
𖹭.ᐟ enjoyed the fic? join my taglist to know whenever i'll post another one! have a great day ;)
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
📝. CHAPTER TWENTY !!
✏️. WORD COUNT: 1.4k words
You rested your head on Dongmin’s lap as you laid down on the grass and looked up to the blue sky while listening to his song. Because of Sohee and Jongseob’s replies to your tweet, you knew it was a love song, but nothing could’ve prepared you for this. The song was filled with love in an extension that felt exaggerated, but you knew that every line of the song was nothing but Dongmin’s raw emotions towards you.
He anxiously watched every micro expression on your face, constantly wiping his sweaty and slightly trembling hands on his pants. The truth was that Dongmin had been working on this song’s lyrics ever since you started to get closer to him, even if it was to try to get to his brother and, once you started to go on dates, he got even more excited about the song and decided that once the song was finished, he would let you listen to it before asking you to be his girlfriend.
He prepared everything the night before, he spent hours on the internet searching for the flower shop that had the most beautiful bouquets to buy you one and barely slept thinking about the speech he had prepared for when the song ended. However, he only succeeded on the bouquet since his anxiety and nervousness made him forget everything that he wrote on his notes app and he didn’t want to look like a nervous loser and tell you about his feelings while reading the words on his phone’s screen.
“Got drunk in this dawn
I want to promise eternity
Pulling you into my arms
I hope this night never ends
I need somebody
No, I only need you, come on
Sing ‘I love you’ every day”
Your smile died and you looked up at him. He noticed right away the way your smile faltered and got worried that you didn’t like the song’s bridge, the very specific part of the song that he wanted to be the most impactful one. Your smile disappeared not because you didn’t like it, but because those lines hit you like a truck. The entire song was meaningful and beautiful but listening to him singing those words and knowing that they were for you and you only just hit differently.
Once the song was over, he pressed the stop button on the Soundcloud and pressed his lips together while looking down at you. “So, what did you think?”
“Dongmin…” You were speechless, no words seemed to hold the powerful feelings you were feeling at that exact moment, “I don’t even know what to say.”
“Is that a bad thing? Because y’know I put my heart into this song, but if you didn’t like it and don’t feel comfortable with it being released I can take it out and pretend that I never released it at all. I just thought that it would be nice…”
“Don’t you even dare to take it out! I loved it, Dongmin, I really did.”
“But- but your smile faltered when you listened to the bridge! You don’t have to lie to me in order to not hurt my feelings, Y/N, I can handle the truth.” He lied, if you really didn’t like it he would mask his disappointment, but he would probably cry himself to sleep that night.
“Because I wasn’t expecting such a deep confession!” You chuckled, “you left me speechless with ‘I want to promise eternity’. Come on,” you sat up and fixed his hair, looking at him in an endearing way. “No one ever made me a love song before, let alone saying that the person wants to promise eternity. I was amazed to say the least!”
Dongmin let out a deep breath in relief and placed his hand on his chest. “Thank God… I was scared that you didn’t like it.”
“Didn’t like it? I’m literally doing my best to hold back my tears. You always showed your interest and love for me in a clear and loud way, so I couldn’t be more happy to know that not only you love me that much but also that I was your muse for this song.”
Dongmin chuckled and hid his face in the crook of your neck, planting a small kiss on your skin and breathing in your scent before leaning back and looking at you with so much love in his eyes that almost felt overwhelming.
“You’re not the muse of this song only, Y/N,” he took your hands in his and caressed the back of them with his thumbs, not daring to break eye contact. He may have forgotten all the words of his very much practiced speech, but he knew how to talk about his feelings like the words were on the tip of his tongue. “You’re the muse of every love song I released and every lyric of songs I never recorded. I have plenty of songs talking about how I think you’re the coolest and most magnificent person out there and I know that it might sound like it’s an obsession and like I’m a weird guy, but I’ve been liking you, loving you for a really long time and taking this love and turning into art was the only way I found to not drown myself in the overwhelming sensation of being in love with someone so incredible and that was always so close yet so far for years. Now that we got closer and are more than friends I thought that things would calm down, but they didn’t because everytime I have an idea for a new song the idea comes from a thought of you, from something you said to me, from the way I perceive you in this world.”
You didn’t even try to stop him, the words were leaving his mouth like they were trapped in for decades — because maybe they were, not for more than a decade, but ten years are long enough — and his lips just wouldn’t stop moving and his eyes wouldn’t look anywhere else but your face.
“You’re the source of my creativity because you are all that matters in this life. Of course I have some other things in life that makes me glad to be alive, but you…” he chuckled and shook his head. “You’re different, Y/N. It seems like every road I can take in this life leads me to the same thing: loving you. This isn’t what I originally planned to say to you, but it’s the truth, I just opened my heart to you and with that being said,” he took a deep breath and gave you a small yet sweet smile, “would you be my girlfriend?”
You didn’t say anything back, you couldn’t. Nothing you could possibly say would beat this rushed, sentimental confession, so you just smiled and leaned in to kiss him, trying to reciprocate his feelings with that kiss. Dongmin responded to your kiss as soon as your lips touched his, tilting his head to deepen the kiss as soon as possible. He understood why you went for a kiss instead of saying something back to him and he was more than happy with your response to his heartfelt words.
His breath came out hot on your skin, making you shiver and lean into his touch when he placed a hand on the back of your neck and wrapped his arm around your waist, pulling you closer to his body while your hands found his chest. The kiss was desperate, but not in a sexual way, it was a desperate attempt to make each other feel the love the one felt for the other. When you broke the kiss due to the breathless feeling becoming too much for both of you, Dongmin let out a shaky breath and flashed you a smile. “Gonna.. take this… as a yes.”
You chuckled and rested your head on his shoulder. “Yes for what, my handsome and lovely boyfriend?”
His face turned red and he tried to hide it with his hands, but you held one of his wrists and your action acted like magic because once your fingers wrapped around his wrist Dongmin took his hands to his lap. “I’m telling you, you’re gonna kill me someday. I’m going to get killed by my own girlfriend.”
“The first and only.”
“Yeah,” he kissed the tip of your nose and chuckled. “The first and only.”
lua's final words: and with that, wrong locker, wrong brother comes to an end! i want to thank every single person that took their time to read and engage with my work, i also want to apologize for the long hiatus i took while the series wasnt done yet, i have lost the sparkle in writing for a while and then life just got busy :// but i hope u still were able to enjoy the smau!! i posted the first chapter for wlwb on my soulmate's bday and after a year (lmao) i am posting the final chapter. im working on some works for leehan, riwoo and seokmin, so if you liked wlwb or any of my works, stay tuned ;) (just hope college doesnt come in the way lmao..) sendin love to everyone <333
tyyy @mytwinsung for tagging me !! 🤍 (granted like a week ago...)
last song: sun has set - beabadoobee (I WON THE FREAKING TICKETMASTER)
currently watching: never ending summer, it's this c-drama that i keep seeing everywhere but i haven't watched it yet but i'm planning to soon :p
current obsession: photography 👀 i just love when my feed looks clean and aesthetic like it just makes me happy inside, sooo i've been experimenting with different digis
currently reading: re-reading the percy jackson series 😛 (I CANT WAIT FOR SEASON 3 AND FOR THE EPIC THE MUSICAL MOVIE)
currently working on: riki's part of lens unfocused... I'LL GET IT OUT SOON I SWEAR I'VE JUST BEEN SO BUSY 😭😭
currently wearing: a thin tank top and jorts because it's so FREAKING HOT. house slippers too ig
last google search: the weather... 💀 donno why i keep searching that when i KNOW theres a freaking heatwave everyday 💔💔
fav flower: magnolias ^^ they’re so big and pretty and they smell good and they look so delicate andand (or lilies for the same reasons lol)
✿ tagging: @noirellee @veorise @whiskimsy (im too shy to tag 10 people...)
currently watching : love island usa (I’m sorry ts is genuinely all i breathe)
current obsession : love island, and cinnamon holy shit someone stop me from adding cinnamon to everything also true crime documentaries for some reason.
currently working on : social circles ( i swear I’m writing it I’m SORRY💔💔)
currently wearing : sleepwear because it is time to SLEEP.
last google search : i hate this but John Wayne Gacy because i was watching the Netflix documentary about him today
currently watching : i dont watch anything rn!! i just cant find good series, so i keep rewatching the big bang theory😭 over and over and over and over again
current obsession : i always have a lot... but lately ive been very fixated on mental illnesses and what causes them in the brain so ive been writing down them in my notebook. (bro even studies in summer break what a fucking loser)
currently reading : i just finished reading ward d by freida mcfadden like 5 minutes ago and im about to start the inmate!!
currently wearing : uh green socks with toasters on them, black pants and black oversized shirt that says 'ramen' even though ive never eaten ramen before
currently working on : my tyunning teacher x teacher fic!! its a fic im very excited for because its been ages since i wrote member x member stuff, even though im more confident in writing those + the male perspective😅 also need a little break from tumblr (so sorry) and a break from straight fics
last google search : paranoid schizophrenia
favorite flowers : genuinely idk im not a flower person😭
tyy for the tag @hoongsf :33 (also hiii new mootie :p)
last song: White Noise - holly humberstone
currently watching: nothing 😭😭😭 (exams hv been kicking my ass)
current obssession: writing (~ ̄▽ ̄)~
currently reading: Katabasis by RF Kuang, My Friends by Fredrick Backman (holyshit this one made me sob)
currently working on: new fic 👀👀👀
currently wearing: a jersey and shorts :p
last google search: toxic personality traits... 💀💀
fav flower: orange cosmos!
tags: @tobiotaesan (i already know you hehe) @cottonauroras @sunishake @i2sunric @noirellee @siyalogue ok yeah... idk who else to tag who hasn't been tagged already
lowk cant believe i got tagged in a game eee
@nefariouspanda134 this btch MY PRECIOUS NEWBORN, SHAKESPEARE tagged me 🫶
last song: raining in manila by lola amour (ingat po sa mga apektado ng bagyo, stay safe and pls dont leave ur pets behind!)
currently watching: ouran (LMAOSJIAHDJCN) and kumusta (i love cooking shows lol)
current obssession: lowkey tadc cus i just finished it (JAX💔) and park sungho
currently reading: the indio and the impaler by wincy aquino ong, finally started it 7 months after receiving lol (rizal is such a fckng menace lmao)
currently working on: jaehyun ouran yaoi and mayor leehan au
currently wearing: lotso pajama set...with a lotso bear on my side, a lotso plushie on my back, lying down on my bed with lotso bedsheets and a lotso lego figure on the desk beside me (pink bear from toy story)
last google search: my university student portal
fav flower: carnations...?
tags: absolutely no pressure! u can ignore me its fine 🫶 @wingzyyy (do this after ur exams, goodluck!!!) @cinnamorollhyuka (additional question for you or you can change the fave flower question, favorite marine species!) @ivehan (addtnl question for you! fave bnd ship) @kazukazukiiii (always on my tl but havent really interacted with 🫶) @starriniqhts (tagging u just bcus i miss u) thats all i have 😔😔
ty to my loves steby (IMYT), fae @ivehan, maya @mirouie (ty i think ur cute too hehe), and kathy @dat-town (ty!!!!!!) for the tags !!!
⟡ last song: everything i wanted (billie eilish)
⟡ currently watching: s3 of avatar: the last airbender (zuko lock the fawk in) and s3 of the bear (carmy lock the fawk in)
⟡ current obsession: lowk obsessed with songs,,, been looping why'd you only call me when you're high (arctic monkeys) and born to die (lana del rey) lately!
⟡ currently reading: pride and prejudice by jane austen
⟡ currently working on: 100 follower event fics (either a jaehyun or leehan one next!), plotting an apocalypse!bnd series, and brainstorming orange retelling but bnd ver lol
⟡ currently wearing: red esnupi shirt and cargo jeans
⟡ last google search: side eye reaction pic
⟡ fav flower: ough i lowk don't know... i like baby's breath! and lavender and lilies! and violets! and forget-me-nots! guys i just think they're all pretty i fear
np tags! i fear most of my moots have been tagged already lol the bndblr village truly is small but!! @chrrific @niiqv @lusayyawnn @nemoihan @seokmn i'd love to get to know u all better!! and @tanghuyuj just for funsies (my apologies if any of u have already been tagged...)
when you have too many fic ideas at the same time so you dont know which one you should bring to life first then you panick and end up not writing anything ❤️
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
📝. CHAPTER NINETEEN !!
✏️. WORD COUNT: 1k words
Dongmin let out a subtle chuckle while shoving his phone into his pocket and you looked at him amused. “What’s funny? I wanna laugh too.”
“Oh, nothing,” he kept walking beside you. “It’s just that a guy that likes my songs replied to my tweet saying that it’s mad crazy watching me get into a relationship in real time and that he wishes me the best and all the success I deserve.”
“Yeah? And did you say something?” You glanced at him, trying to maintain a cool facade even though your heart was starting to beat faster due to anxiety.
“Told him the truth,” he shrugged. “We’re not in a relationship.”
“Yet?”
Dongmin tilted his head and furrowed his eyebrows slightly. “What you mean?”
“We’re not in a relationship… yet?”
His ear turned red and it seemed like his legs were starting to fail him, because he stopped in his tracks and you could’ve sworn that he stumbled on himself. He opened his mouth and closed right after, then looked at you like he was staring at your soul and laughed.
“You’re dangerous, Y/N,” Dongmin kept laughing. “Joking with me like that… It’s kinda funny, I’mma give it to you.”
“I’m not joking, Dongmin,” you bit your lower lip anxiously and played with your hands as you looked at his surprised face. “I’ve realized that you don’t need to try to win me over anymore, you’ve got me already. I’m in love with you, you don’t need any of your silly flirts or tricks any more.”
As the last word left your lips, Dongmin reacted right away by reaching out to you and crashing his lips against yours as his trembling hands went to your cheeks, stroking them with his thumbs. He waited for you to lean into his touch before he tilted his head to deepen the kiss and, as you did so, he smiled against your mouth. You couldn’t help but to mirror his action and kiss him back with the same intensity as his.
When you were both breathless, he broke the kiss and leaned back to look at your flushed face. The sight of you panting a little and giving him a small and shy smile made him feel like he was in Heaven already and was being greeted by the most ethereal angel and, unable to keep his distance, Dongmin began to pepper your entire face.
“It tickles, Dongmin!” You laughed, but let him continue his kissing attack.
“Go to a room!” An old man spat while walking by you. “These young people these days…”
Dongmin’s lips immediately left the softness of your skin as he turned to the old man and bowed. “I’m sorry, sir!” He turned to you and smiled as soon as he saw you holding back your laughter after apologizing as well. “Don’t laugh, it’s not funny,” he said, already laughing. “Come on, I’ll walk you home and we can talk about what you said before.”
“You know, I was thinking that maybe I could tell my parents that I’ll be sleeping at Sumin’s place so we can have more time together… Only if you want to.”
“Y/N, you naughty little thing!” He let out a dramatic gasp and slid his arm around your shoulder. “You just confessed to me and are already planning on sleeping at my place? Or are you planning to sleep with me?” He teased you, pouting his lips exaggeratedly.
“Ew! Don’t do that!” You laughed out loud. “I just don’t want to say goodbye to you yet.”
“You’re clingier than I thought. I loved it.” He kissed your temple and began to walk along with you towards his place. “When did you find out that you were in love with me?”
“I don’t really know,” you let out a sigh and smiled at him. “We’ve been hanging out and talking on the phone so much… But I took a picture of you yesterday and when I looked at it I just knew it.”
“And once again, my charms never fail. You did it again, Han Dongmin.”
You shook your head, but didn’t contradict him, after all, his charms indeed didn’t fail.
“But seriously now, I’m more than happy to know that you feel the same way I’ve been feeling for you since God knows when. Honestly, it feels like I didn’t quite process the situation, so I might freak out in a few minutes or days, who knows.”
“It’s okay,” you chuckled. “It doesn’t feel real that I actually confessed to you. I was so nervous, even though I knew that it was impossible for you to deny my feelings.”
“Cocky, huh?” He pecked your lips.
You smiled and shrugged your shoulders. The walk to his place was filled with small promises that Dongmin would randomly tell you and date plans he already had in mind and, for the first time in your life, you felt loved by someone you’re in love with and the feeling couldn’t be any better.
“Y’know, you said that I don’t need to try to win you over or use my silly flirts and tricks with you, but I disagree. What I really wanna do is to win you over and make you fall in love with me even more and every single day.”
“Stop it,” you looked down to avoid his gaze. “You don’t mean it.”
“I do mean it,” he took your hand and squeezed a little. “And by the way, let’s not be out there saying that we’re boyfriend and girlfriend for now, is that okay?”
“What?!” You turned your head to his direction as fast as the speed of light. “Why do you want to keep it a secret?”
“I don’t want to keep it a secret, silly. It’s just that I kinda had a plan in mind already about how I would ask you to be my girlfriend and I was already working on it, so I just wanted to stick with the plan.”
“Oh…” You smiled and nodded slowly. “Okay… Yeah, sure. I’ll wait, but don’t let me wait for too long, I get impatient faster than you could imagine.”
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
im doing okayyy wbu?? i got into college and am currently on my break!! by the end of last year i went through a huge writing slump, it was hard for me to even to write on my journal lmao i was studying for the national exam and some college entrance exams so i was drained OUT 😅 but everythings fine now and im so happy being a college student (at least for now)!! WHAT ABOUT YOU LOVE?? WHAT WERE YOU UPTO?? missed uuu
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
📝. CHAPTER SIXTEEN !!
✏️. WORD COUNT: 1.1k words
“Okay, so you basically stared at him and you wanted to end the night? That was it?” Sohee asked. He was sitting on the floor with his head resting on the couch while you were sitting on the couch and Jongseob was laid down with his head on your lap.
“No,” you groaned and started to play with Seob’s hair. “He spent the whole night testing and teasing me, then when he laughed at me I just couldn’t take my eyes off of him. It was like he got me under some type of crazy spell.”
“Love is what this spell is called.”
Sohee gasped and looked at Seob and then at you. “Oh my god, are you finally in love with Dongmin?”
“What?! No!” You slapped his arm. “And what do you mean by ‘finally’? I’m not in love with him and will never be.”
“So he’s just a friend that you find attractive and catch yourself staring at him and feeling funny things?”
“I never said I find him attractive.”
“But you do find him attractive,” Sohee spoke up. “We know that, Y/N, you don’t have to lie. I don’t know why you’re denying this and your feelings if you’re finally getting what you always wanted, so why are you being a little pussy?”
You scoffed and threw a cushion on him, which he caught before reaching his face. Jongseob chuckled and looked up at you as if silently asking you to answer Sohee’s question.
“He’s my friend and it’d be weird for me to fall in love with him after all that drama with Minho.” As soon as you said those last words you felt the need to beat yourself up. Jongseob didn’t know the truth about why you had moved on from Minho.
“All the drama? What drama?”
“You cannot tell anyone this, okay? Like, anyone,” you glanced at Sohee. “I caught Minho and Jisung making out when I went to Dongmin’s place.”
“Oh,” he hissed and nodded a few seconds later. “But it kinda makes sense if you think about it. He’s always with Jisung and they do seem a little flirty sometimes."
“Well, I was too immersed in my obsession to notice such a thing. And I didn’t even like him for real, once I saw him kissing Jisung my ‘feelings’ for him were gone.”
“And that’s why I don’t get why it’d be weird to be in love with Dongmin, especially because he’s in love with you as well.”
“Dongmin’s in love with you?!?”
“Right… I forgot to tell you that too,” you chuckled awkwardly while looking at Seob’s annoyed face. “He confessed his feelings to me basically right after we caught Minho and Jisung.”
“Why did you lie on the groupchat? I can’t believe you’re just dropping bombs after bombs! What now? Did Dongmin kiss you after confessing?”
Sohee cleared his throat and looked away, making Jongseob sit up in response and look at you with wide open eyes. “He kissed you?!”
“No! Sohee is playing with you!” You basically shouted and Sohee started to laugh out loud.
“You should’ve seen your face! You were like,” he imitated Seob’s reaction before laughing hard once again. “This shit is just too funny!”
You rolled your eyes and patted your lap, signaling Jongseob to put his head on your lap again. “I didn’t tell the truth on the groupchat because people don’t really know about them being together, and if people don’t know about their relationship, then it must be a secret or really private. Not even Dongmin knew about them.”
“Yeah, and now you can go on double dates with them!”
“I am not going on double dates with them because I do not like Dongmin, Sohee,” you spoke firmly and paused for a moment. “At least I don’t think so…”
“Okay,” Sohee sighed and looked at you. “Let’s find out.”
“How?”
“Just answer my questions. First one, when you felt like you were under that weird spell, did you like it? Was it a good feeling?”
You frowned and thought really hard about it before answering. “Deep down I like it,” you nodded. “It felt warm, like I was drinking hot tea on a winter day.”
“Okay. Great. Now, how often do you think about him and when you do think about him what are you usually thinking of?”
“I don’t know, I never counted how many times I think about him, but when I do, it’s usually wondering what he’s doing, how he’s feeling or thinking that he would like something that I saw or heard, like a book, a song or something like that.”
“Close your eyes.”
You looked at Jongseob confused, but closed your eyes.
“Now imagine you and him in any scenario and doing whatever comes to your mind.”
You mumbled an ‘okay’ and worked on your imagination. Your mind instantly gave you a view of you and Dongmin laying down on the sand while stargazing, your head resting on his chest while he caressed your hair. A smile formed on your lips without you even noticing.
“Yeah, you definitely like him. You don’t even have to tell us what you’re thinking of.”
When Seob’s words hit your ears the scenario vanished from your mind and your smile faltered. You opened your eyes and saw Sohee smirking and Jongseob smiling softly.
“You were smiling like a little child.”
“I was not…”
“Yes you were,” Sohee stood up and got closer to you. “Dongmin and Y/N sitting in a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g!”
Jongseob laughed and joined Sohee, singing the song like two fifth graders. You groaned and tried to cover your ears, but Jongseob held your wrists and kept singing.
“Stop! This is torture!”
“Then admit that you like Dongmin!”
“I can’t! I’m scared I’ll hurt him!”
Jongseob and Sohee’s playful manner died and they looked at you with sad eyes. Seob released your wrists and Sohee sighed before lifting Seob’s legs to sit down on the couch next to you.
“What if I’m just tricking my mind again like it happened with Minho? I don’t want to break his heart.”
“You’re overthinking, again.”
“And last time I was overthinking I was right.”
“But that doesn’t mean you’ll always be right. Why can’t you just accept love?”
“What if you talk to him and ask him to try it out, but go slow? Because at the moment that Dongmin confessed his love to you he already had in mind that there was a possibility of you saying no to him and his feelings.”
“I guess you have a point…”
“You will never stop thinking about this if you don’t take action and be honest with him. So you should definitely do that.”
“Gosh,” you sighed. “I hate when you’re right.”
“That’s why we are your actual anti-delulu and keep-your-feet-on-the-ground pills.”
“Now can we play some board games and order some pizzas? You need to forget a little bit about Dongmin.”
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
📝. CHAPTER FIFTEEN !!
✏️. WORD COUNT: 0.6k words
“This feels way too romantic.” you said as you looked at the picnic towel on the grass with strawberries, chocolate, wine, pink lemonade and bread. You turned to look at Dongmin with a confused expression and saw that Dongmin was looking nervous.
He quickly messed up the food’s placement, trying to make it look less romantic. “I swear I’m not trying to make this a date. I just thought that it would be nice to have a picnic at night because I know you like to stargaze and…”
“How do you know I like to stargaze?”
Dongmin froze and looked at you. He bit his lower lip and opened his mouth to speak, but closed it right away, pressing his lips together before opening his mouth once again. “One day at school the teacher asked what we like to do when we’re feeling down and you said you like to stargaze because it gives you peace of mind and you tweet about it from time to time,” he chuckled awkwardly and shortly. “I just remember things, y’know?”
Even if you tried, you couldn’t hide the smile forming on your lips. You didn’t even remember saying that in class, but Dongmin did. And you were grateful he did.
“Yeah, you just remember things,” you sat up and patted the grass beside you, silently asking him to sit next to you. “Thank you for remembering it. I see you also remembered that pink lemonade is my favorite drink.”
Dongmin smiled shyly and sat down next to you, already reaching out for the pink lemonade and pouring it on a plastic cup for you. “I remember a lot of things, Y/N.”
You chuckled and nodded before grabbing a piece of bread and taking a bite of it. Dongmin handed the pink lemonade to you and you took it. “This is making me feel bad, actually. You know so many things about me and I barely know things about you.”
“You’ll get to know me eventually. It’s not that easy to know things about me, at least not as easy as it is to know about you. You’re very extroverted and like to talk about your interests, but not in a way that you’re viewed as self centered.”
“You really think so?” You smiled faintly and Dongmin nodded before grabbing a strawberry and eating it. “Yeah, I really think so.”
Your cheeks heated up and you felt your heart beat a little bit faster. “Well, then tell me more about you.”
You and Dongmin talked for a really long time, but it felt like minutes. He told you about everything you asked him, he told you about when he found out his passion for music, when he started to write songs, the things that he loves and that he hates.
While he was talking about a trip he went to with his family when he was a kid, he opened the bottle of wine and poured a cup of it to himself. Your eyes landed at his arms and his veins were popping out, you pressed your lips together and tried to look away, but it seemed impossible. To try to calm your nerves down, you reached out for your drink, but when you took a sip, you ended up spilling it on your jacket. “Shit.”
Dongmin looked at you and at your jacket that at the moment had a pink spot and started to laugh hard, his fist hiding his smile. You looked up at him and started to laugh as well.
“Don’t laugh at me! My jacket is white, I ruined it!” You said mid laugh, but taking aim at him laughing so hard, yet hiding his smile, made your laugh falter and suddenly you had forgotten about your dirty jacket. Your hand found Dongmin’s wrist and slowly lowered it, making his fist stop covering his mouth.
Dongmin stopped laughing and looked at you with furrowed brows, not quite understanding why you were lowering his hand out of nowhere, but the butterflies on his stomach were definitely there.
“Why do you hide your smile? I think it’s so pretty.”
Dongmin’s eyes were wide open as he choked on his own saliva. “T-thanks…”
You kept looking intently at him while he fought demons to maintain eye contact with you. When you finally realized what you were doing you cleared your throat and chuckled. “You shouldn’t hide your smile, that’s all… Anyways, it’s getting late, so we should probably get going, right?”
“Ah,” he nodded and flashed you a sad smile. “Yes, let’s go. I’ll walk you to your dorm.”
SYNOPSIS : You are in love with Han Minho, Han Dongmin's older brother, and decided to leave love notes in his locker. Little did you know that Minho's locker is actually Dongmin's locker.
📝. CHAPTER FOURTEEN !!
🌙. LUA'S NOTE: sorry for delaying the chapter, my insulin resistance and low iron got the best of me :// hopefully it wont happen again!