Shadow Dazed

|Chronically Ill not chronically Online| ~ |Lvl 23| ~ |Drink your water today| ~ |Ask about my current reads|

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Cause I can't help myself when it comes to my hair. Bye bye long half black, half colored. Hello to the shorter, money piece. In love

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People always wondering why I have such high standards when I read romance and see how those men treat their woman. And the fact I had men (before I met my fiance) telling me things like this based off of a few pictures and little blips on my profile 😮‍💨 I didn't settle for shit. Worship me like its a dark romance and burn the world for me 🔥🔥

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I can't go one day without scrolling through my communities and seeing pornbots 😭 I just wanna see the stuff I'm in the communities for man

[spookshollow]

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I did it again 🤗🤗

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Apparently I did my own hair so good, I got pulled into doing my moms hair for her 🤣 which I don't mind. I've never gotten my hair done professionally, too expensive, too time consuming. When I do it myself, I can do it cheaper, with products I like that are good on my hair, and I can be as messy with it as I want, knowing how to get the dye off my skin. (I also cut my own hair because how do you mess up so bad, that my hair is not the same length 😭) But anyways, trimmed her dead ends off, thinned it a bit since her hair is superrrr thick, bleached it and dyed it. And her hair is so soft still (she was worried the bleach would kill her hair, but I found one that's more gentle than most bleached) and smells amazing since the dyes I use smell awesome and don't dry your hair out. I ain't gonna lie, I was a little concerned at first that it wasn't gonna end up looking good, but it turned out pretty damn good. 2 shades of orange, one shade of purple and one shade of green

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I usually do my own hair. Cutting it, dying it. Usually Im simple with it. The most I've done was dye it blonde with pink roots, or what I usually do is leave one side black and dye the other side one color and for the longest time my go to color was red, so I'd rock half black and half red. I've finally went in deep with a multi color. Red, 2 shades of purple and 2 shades of blue. I ain't gonna lie, I was soooo scared it wasn't gonna turn out good, I had to keep telling myself to trust the process. But I am absolutely in love with it! I mean yeah there's a few little spots that I'll need to add dye to tomorrow but other than that, it turned out amazing!!

[famousfishathletecookie]

[deborah22]

Just had to post this y'all 🙂

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Ive finally caved and used something other than blonde dye on my hair to lighten. I was debating between bleach and color oops since I did have color in it. Ended up using color oops. One thing I know is I'm never usi g it again. Not because if his it worked, but because of how bad it smells 😭💀 its so terrible 😭 it also said I have to rise for TWENTY minutes before shampooing 💀😭

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Ugh, I know I've posted this before, but oh my god! I now have 4 bots that are getting popular! It still genuinely surprises me everytime I see this. At first it was just one and now its 4! Like, ahhh! So happy others are enjoying them

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My dog is something else, not in like a bad way. She has her harness and goes out on a lead at night to go to the bathroom, stays out for like 20 minutes or so as long as its not too cold/hot, or storming. She tells us when she's ready to come in by pouncing on the screen door because it makes a noise, that's how she tells us she's ready to come in. I let her out on her lead (she has a habit of trying to chase the raccoons around, or stand there and bark at the possums while they just look at her like she's crazy) I go to let her in even tho she hadn't pounced on the door yet, these second I open the door she pounced on it, naked with no harness, soaked and all of a sudden has super energy. Not sure how she got out of the harness, I mean she's smaller, but I just fixed the harness to make sure it was on right, now I'm thinking I didn't tighten it enough cause I didn't want it to be too tight on her and hurt her. Also why is she wet, It wasn't raining, so that only leaves with her going down the driveway to the tiny stream which I don't think she would cause she's afraid of horses (specifically ponies for some reason, but adult horses she doesn't mind) which she knows not to go that far, or she figured out when my fiance was doing some landscaping there's a part of the yard that we use as a parking area now holds water and last time it poured (I think two or three days ago) it collected there and make a big puddle. Also why did she have such an energy burst, she usually runs it off outside then comes in, snacks and lays down with me on the bed to sleep. She's running through the house, sliding, pouncing, barking, just out of nowhere 🤣 never a dull moment with her, I swear and people sometimes wonder about one of her nicknames. Gremlin 🤣 she's such a big baby and cuddler

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These two are getting really popular. I'm so glad people are enjoying some of the bots I've created!! Like I've said before, I usually create them thinking I'd be the only one to enjoy the storylines, not expecting others to interact with them, so seeing that two of my creations are being used and loved makes me so happy! 🫶🫶

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Mini rant!:

I know y'all have pet peeves when gaming. I most definitely have a few of my own. I play Call of Duty. A lot. Am I good? Sure. I'm by no means a pro, but I can usually hold myself on Warzone. Yes, I am a female who plays. No, I'm not worse than half the males. Idk where anyone got the idea that females can't be good at stuff like COD. I've noticed a lot of females are better than most males rgat say stuff like that. I will admit a lot of times I usually do carry my team whether it's with friends or randoms. I haven't met too many people that can keep up with me or better, but I enjoy when I do. Hell, I enjoy just having people to play with, you don't have to be good as long as you can have fun. Again tho, yes I am a female that plays, but that doesn't mean I don't know what I'm doing. I run into a lot of people that try to tell me how to play the game (half the time they're dead in game trying to tell me to do something I know will get me killed without my team) I know how to play, as long as we are working as a team like we're supposed to. Especially when it's the final circles and they're dead talking and talking. I cannot stand that. They're people that hate when its done to them but do it to others. Like please be quiet so I can hear the game and don't die because I can't hear footsteps. Just let me do my thing, I promise il give it my effort as long as I can hear what's going on. On to my next pet peeve. When males ignore me because I am a female playing COD. I genuinely hate that. If you cannot play with randoms that are females then don't play with squad fill on! I tell them where they are, how many, where to watch, if they should go back for their stuff or not after dying just to be ignored and them to end up getting killed because they didn't take my advice or listen to what I was saying or my pings. If you're a male and cannot handle the fact that you were killed by a female in game or the fact there's a female in general, it does not mean you can say obscene stuff. If there is a female in the game it does not mean you can “flirt” with her and harras her. We are not here to be flirted with or harassed! We're here to enjoy a game! There is a difference between talking trash for funsies and just talking shit because you're offended. I'm down with regular shit talk, but once you cross a line with stuff you say, my mouth doesn't have a filter. Most guys I run into are chill, but there are those ones that just piss me off

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Holy mother of fuck😅 I usually make these for myself, not expecting people to actually interact with them. I was scrolling through them cause I forgot what ones I made and deciding which one to mess with to see the one got really popular. I just made that bot last night, maybe the night before and it's got 2.5k messages?! I haven't even interacted with that one myself yet, holy shit. Super cool tho!

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Mini personal rant:

(Includes stuff about physical health/chronic illness)

I don’t understand what’s going on with me anymore. I’ve always been one to get sick with no explanation or diagnosis and I fought through a lot to get diagnosed after years of so much pain and random symptoms that never added up together. Like the “alopecia” I had for only a few months and hasn’t come back. A “skin condition” where I had a skin biopsy from my back sent to a lab that didn’t even come back with a definitive answer, but instead came back with multiple options of what it could’ve been. Terrible headaches and migraines and some cause pain in my neck so I have to lay a certain way to help alleviate some pain in my head. An issue with passing out that no one can figure out a reason why it happens. An unknown heart issue that they couldn’t figure out what it was that gave me a lot of pains in my chest, a strange palpitation that would stay for hours to days at a time. (They thought maybe the passing out and heart things may have been connected.) Stomach issues that I had an upper endoscopy done where they took multiple skin biopsy’s from my throat and stomach, with no answers. Endless X-rays and CT scans that usually came back with nothing. A hidascan on my gallbladder that apparently wasn’t concerning even tho there was inflammation and “sludge” in my gallbladder bladder that did and still caused me pain in my gallbladder bladder. For them to diagnose me with Addison disease where I go into the endocrinology every 1-3 months with blood work before every appointment and then telling me that my cortisol levels are reading at normal when I hold my meds before my blood work and the doctor even telling me “I’m not really sure what’s going on with you now” so they dropped my dosage and went from there and haven’t been told much else since. Multiple MRI’s, one linked with the addisons diagnoses to check the glands in my brain to make sure they hadn’t shifted and I was so sick when I was admitted those two weeks that I couldn’t lay in the MRI machine to get it done without getting extremely nausea, so they had the Anasthesiologist team come down and put me under long enough to do an MRI. (So they had me sedated basically 2 times during that stay since they did the upper endoscopy during that stay too) Not to mention I have osteoarthritis in my knees from a lack of calcium from being in the depo-provera shot that made the calcium leak out of my bones. Cysts and other symptoms that my endocrinologist said added up with PCOS and could be something I might have and could be why I have irregular and super painful periods. (I had cysts so bad o couldn’t get out of bed and was bawling my eyes out to be taken to the er and given extremely strong pain meds while I was there and a doctor who actually listened to me for once and was super helpful) I have thouroghly confused myself and almost all of my doctors and they’re running out of things to do to try to figure out what is going on. And from the sounds of it were going to have to restart the whole process of fighting for a diagnoses again to cartoon point what’s going on. At this point I have almost every doctor imaginable from this lengthy journey and process and I’m worried my fiancé is starting to get tired of the endless loops we’ve been going through with everything and all the medications they have me on that for some reason hasn’t been getting covered by my insurance when it’s always been covered, so that’s another thing I have to figure out again and it’s hard to do anything with my insurance without a laptop and mine picked the wrong time to finally die and not turn on anymore

[shadow-dazed-101]

Mini personal rant:

What do we do when your wedding was set for October of 2026, but nothing had been booked and no money was saved for the budget like it was supposed to be (when your fiancé is the one that picked the year and was supposed to be putting back more money for the fund)? You sit here and be upset about the fact it’s being pushed, again, while also still planning it and ordering samples for save the dates, invites, and even sample fabrics for dresses and suits for the wedding party. This about the 4th time it’s been pushed because of the same things, (and he keeps saying he’ll book a day to just be married at the courthouse and hasn’t done that either even tho I want a wedding) and I refuse to change anything but the year now for it. I’m sure when the new sample I’ve ordered get here, he may get the hint knowing the wedding is supposed to be in slightly less than a year. (Yes I’ve been planning it by myself, but he said he was okay with whatever I wanted to do for the wedding, but he did help decided on a “theme” we wanted for it and the type of venue.) He still barely has a guest list for hi side of the family too, and it’s hard to pin down who he wants there, let alone who he wants as his best man and his grooms men. Lowkey salty over here

[shadow-dazed-101]

Absolutely excited for this one! The first one was sooo good, I cannot wait to start this one!