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And more I'm probably forgetting!!
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"Squid" is a nickname stemmed from our mystreet blog, but it originally started way back when that blog was actually a danplan blog! We switched it to mystreet, however kept the username! The username origins are actually a very specific reference to the original fandom lmao 🩵
We are collectively nonhuman!
Due to a high number of nonhuman alters, and more!
I've been using artfight as a way to make art feel like art again instead of work, it's been helpful for battling burn out and falling in love with creativity again!! ❤️
I've done 10 attacks so far, and I have no idea what Im doing at all !! Including with this lil template thingy, did I do that right?? Idk!!
Comms will return soon, but for now Im using this time to practice joy and peace especially with how crazy life has gotten.
I've been using artfight as a way to make art feel like art again instead of work, it's been helpful for battling burn out and falling in love with creativity again!! ❤️
I've done 10 attacks so far, and I have no idea what Im doing at all !! Including with this lil template thingy, did I do that right?? Idk!!
Comms will return soon, but for now Im using this time to practice joy and peace especially with how crazy life has gotten.
I got kicked out of my bedroom and all of my furniture is being removed and taken away from me as well. This includes my bed. Currently, I've been sleeping in the living room in a sleeping bag that doesn't even belong to me, squeezed on our very uncomfortable very tiny couch.
I will be allowed back into my bedroom once I can afford new furniture to put in it, it's been deep cleaned, and thoroughly sprayed for spiders and bugs. For three or four years, I'd been living in a depression room with zero help to keep it livable and safe - clean. I had my trash can taken away, Im not allowed a trash can in my room, I was told to stack my trash and that someone would help me take it out and that never happened. I was completely unable to handle how much had been building up with me only being able to carry and take so much at a time. At points, I was suicidal just because of the state I was living in. My mom was the only person to try and help, but she was always in and out of hospitals and she's equally disabled. Hardly anything ever truly got done at all, my room was Bad.
Im capable of cleaning and keeping a space clean and safe, I have been trying for years. Every single time I got a resource that was helpful, or an aid, or even a trash can or just a simple bag - it was taken. I know myself, and I know myself well enough to know what works and how to do it. At my father's house, I had my own bedroom too, I kept it clean. I had a system that worked, I had aids and I had help, living here? With my grandparents? I have absolutely nothing.
My partners came to visit for a vacation just a few days ago, on their final day here with me they helped get my room to a safer state. The level of help and cleaning that was done is so much more than I've ever received since I've had a bedroom, (I only got a bedroom after turning 16) it's amazing and I am so so very thankful. I love these people so much. Unfortunately, the cleaning had unearthed many many different types of spiders that I cannot identify, and I got kicked out of the room and everything is being taken away and either thrown out or repurposed. My tables are being taken and used in the living room, for example. I will be allowed back into the room and allowed to "prove" that I can follow a cleaning system, if I can buy new furniture and things like a trash can on my own.
I have no money to spend and very very little savings. My family waited to tell me this until after I had spent my money on this vacation, on merchandise for the concert we went to, until I got down to just having my emergency savings - which is barely anything at all. Not even enough to reliably buy food, thank god my mother has been buying food for me using her foodstamps or else I'd be struggling in ways I don't think I'd survive.
I am in need of help.
I am a near 24/7 wheelchair user with several severe physical disabilities that make every little thing harder and harder, I know what my capabilities are and what I can achieve. My grandfather does not understand this and will not listen, any time I have asked for a simple accommodation like just a trash can it's been denied and I've been called an embarrassment. This time, Im getting a chance to prove myself if I can obtain all of the items myself. Which, I cannot do in my financial situation.
My Ko-Fi is open for art comms, donations, and memberships. On top of this, I've made an Amazon wishlist (I wish it was not on Amazon but this was the easiest way I could think of) for the items I am trying to get. If I can make enough money to buy these items, or if anyone is willing to help out in a major way and purchase it from the list, my life will become much safer and easier to live. And I will be eternally grateful for it.
I got kicked out of my bedroom and all of my furniture is being removed and taken away from me as well. This includes my bed. Currently, I've been sleeping in the living room in a sleeping bag that doesn't even belong to me, squeezed on our very uncomfortable very tiny couch.
I will be allowed back into my bedroom once I can afford new furniture to put in it, it's been deep cleaned, and thoroughly sprayed for spiders and bugs. For three or four years, I'd been living in a depression room with zero help to keep it livable and safe - clean. I had my trash can taken away, Im not allowed a trash can in my room, I was told to stack my trash and that someone would help me take it out and that never happened. I was completely unable to handle how much had been building up with me only being able to carry and take so much at a time. At points, I was suicidal just because of the state I was living in. My mom was the only person to try and help, but she was always in and out of hospitals and she's equally disabled. Hardly anything ever truly got done at all, my room was Bad.
Im capable of cleaning and keeping a space clean and safe, I have been trying for years. Every single time I got a resource that was helpful, or an aid, or even a trash can or just a simple bag - it was taken. I know myself, and I know myself well enough to know what works and how to do it. At my father's house, I had my own bedroom too, I kept it clean. I had a system that worked, I had aids and I had help, living here? With my grandparents? I have absolutely nothing.
My partners came to visit for a vacation just a few days ago, on their final day here with me they helped get my room to a safer state. The level of help and cleaning that was done is so much more than I've ever received since I've had a bedroom, (I only got a bedroom after turning 16) it's amazing and I am so so very thankful. I love these people so much. Unfortunately, the cleaning had unearthed many many different types of spiders that I cannot identify, and I got kicked out of the room and everything is being taken away and either thrown out or repurposed. My tables are being taken and used in the living room, for example. I will be allowed back into the room and allowed to "prove" that I can follow a cleaning system, if I can buy new furniture and things like a trash can on my own.
I have no money to spend and very very little savings. My family waited to tell me this until after I had spent my money on this vacation, on merchandise for the concert we went to, until I got down to just having my emergency savings - which is barely anything at all. Not even enough to reliably buy food, thank god my mother has been buying food for me using her foodstamps or else I'd be struggling in ways I don't think I'd survive.
I am in need of help.
I am a near 24/7 wheelchair user with several severe physical disabilities that make every little thing harder and harder, I know what my capabilities are and what I can achieve. My grandfather does not understand this and will not listen, any time I have asked for a simple accommodation like just a trash can it's been denied and I've been called an embarrassment. This time, Im getting a chance to prove myself if I can obtain all of the items myself. Which, I cannot do in my financial situation.
My Ko-Fi is open for art comms, donations, and memberships. On top of this, I've made an Amazon wishlist (I wish it was not on Amazon but this was the easiest way I could think of) for the items I am trying to get. If I can make enough money to buy these items, or if anyone is willing to help out in a major way and purchase it from the list, my life will become much safer and easier to live. And I will be eternally grateful for it.
Not that i expect u to teach me but i feel like the resources i have found are vague or child-focused & i guess i thought id ask u guys. I have been noticing a pattern in myself where i assume that im better than others in, like, loads of ways that ig has been there forever, and idk if its a narcissism thing,,, i guess i just wanted to ask how that tends to look, symptoms and so on, yk? The scope of it seems broader than what i have been explicitly told and i also know its demonised. Love you guys. Really hope your financial situation improves soon 💕
Hello!! Thank you for reaching out, I am happy to help explain some things!! As I've said many times before, I was misdiagnosed with NPD as a teen and put a lot of research into it due to this fact!! With that though, Im not gonna say that everything I say is final and you should definitely bring up these concerns to any professional that you have access to! 🩵
I have a copy of the DSM totally legally saved on my tablet lmao, so let's look over at the NPD criteria in there! This screenshot is not taken from the DSM, however it is the direct wording and writing from it. (i think)
This can be seen as vague and even maybe inaccurate due to how individual and unique every person on earth is, the presentation of narcissism can vary wildly. Let's take a look at this section from Wikipedia, not a great overall source but I feel like it's neat to show!
I feel as if these paragraphs and wordings can be taken as further demonizing the disorder and those that have it, NPD is not some evil manipulation rage disorder - its important to recognize that these traits can be seen in untreated unregulated narcissism but they're not going to be a defining characteristic of everyone who has NPD.
I know plenty of narcissists and they're all very unique in their presentation. I'd say only two out of five narcissists I know present in these types of ways (overtly, rather. I cannot speak for them at all.) One of these people even presents with the grandiose view that they're Worse than and sicker than anyone else, rather than being Better than everyone else.
As said in the DSM - to fit for a diagnosis of NPD, traits must be "inflexible, maladaptive, and persisting, and cause significant functional impairment or subjective distress" honestly I would recommend finding a PDF download very very totally legally and do your own research!!
Of course the DSM is NOT gospel and you should be flexible with your findings within it, Id recommend talking to people who have the disorder and finding community while figuring yourself out !! This pattern you're noticing in yourself could be NPD traits, and it could not be as well, it's up to you to know and truly understand yourself in these ways.
Find community, seek the perspective of people who have first hand experience and knowledge, read up on some research documents!! Learning is fun, if you fit the criteria or not 🩵
And we love you too!!! Thank you for the well wishes, I hope you have an amazing day and i hope you find answers!! 🫂🫂
I got kicked out of my bedroom and all of my furniture is being removed and taken away from me as well. This includes my bed. Currently, I've been sleeping in the living room in a sleeping bag that doesn't even belong to me, squeezed on our very uncomfortable very tiny couch.
I will be allowed back into my bedroom once I can afford new furniture to put in it, it's been deep cleaned, and thoroughly sprayed for spiders and bugs. For three or four years, I'd been living in a depression room with zero help to keep it livable and safe - clean. I had my trash can taken away, Im not allowed a trash can in my room, I was told to stack my trash and that someone would help me take it out and that never happened. I was completely unable to handle how much had been building up with me only being able to carry and take so much at a time. At points, I was suicidal just because of the state I was living in. My mom was the only person to try and help, but she was always in and out of hospitals and she's equally disabled. Hardly anything ever truly got done at all, my room was Bad.
Im capable of cleaning and keeping a space clean and safe, I have been trying for years. Every single time I got a resource that was helpful, or an aid, or even a trash can or just a simple bag - it was taken. I know myself, and I know myself well enough to know what works and how to do it. At my father's house, I had my own bedroom too, I kept it clean. I had a system that worked, I had aids and I had help, living here? With my grandparents? I have absolutely nothing.
My partners came to visit for a vacation just a few days ago, on their final day here with me they helped get my room to a safer state. The level of help and cleaning that was done is so much more than I've ever received since I've had a bedroom, (I only got a bedroom after turning 16) it's amazing and I am so so very thankful. I love these people so much. Unfortunately, the cleaning had unearthed many many different types of spiders that I cannot identify, and I got kicked out of the room and everything is being taken away and either thrown out or repurposed. My tables are being taken and used in the living room, for example. I will be allowed back into the room and allowed to "prove" that I can follow a cleaning system, if I can buy new furniture and things like a trash can on my own.
I have no money to spend and very very little savings. My family waited to tell me this until after I had spent my money on this vacation, on merchandise for the concert we went to, until I got down to just having my emergency savings - which is barely anything at all. Not even enough to reliably buy food, thank god my mother has been buying food for me using her foodstamps or else I'd be struggling in ways I don't think I'd survive.
I am in need of help.
I am a near 24/7 wheelchair user with several severe physical disabilities that make every little thing harder and harder, I know what my capabilities are and what I can achieve. My grandfather does not understand this and will not listen, any time I have asked for a simple accommodation like just a trash can it's been denied and I've been called an embarrassment. This time, Im getting a chance to prove myself if I can obtain all of the items myself. Which, I cannot do in my financial situation.
My Ko-Fi is open for art comms, donations, and memberships. On top of this, I've made an Amazon wishlist (I wish it was not on Amazon but this was the easiest way I could think of) for the items I am trying to get. If I can make enough money to buy these items, or if anyone is willing to help out in a major way and purchase it from the list, my life will become much safer and easier to live. And I will be eternally grateful for it.
Officially back from my very fun very amazing vacation!! Went to a 5SOS concert, met my partner and one of my girlfriends irl for the very first time, and it was absolutely amazing and so much fun!! I will continue comms and work ASAP, I promise!!
As a side note, comms and donations are OPEN still and will remain that way!! I would really love to get a new commission and have something fresh and new to work on alongside the existing ones, a little motivation boost, so please feel free to toss one over if you're able to and interested!!! 🩵🩵
plans made it out of the group chat,, met two of my partners in person for the very first time and i think this is the most peaceful life has felt in so long :3
not everyone could make it, but there will always be a next time,, it's always possible.
actually liking your friends is so embarrassing but so necessary. like im really over here smiling and laughing at texts. on a discord call while we sit in silence doing our own things. talking for literal hours and not even realizing. platonically head-over-heels.
& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!
show: "And with this incredible technology, these characters' consciousnesses are transferred to a virtual body."
me when I have the chronic affliction: "Does the character's chronic affliction come too? Does it come too or does the virtual body cure it."
show: "This character is immortal. Watch as their entire destroyed body rebuilds itself via immortality."
me when I have the chronic affliction: "Does immortality cure the chronic affliction? Do they come back together and the affliction is just fixed? Is that part of immortality healing?"
show: "In a cyberpunk world, people actually build new bodies and place their minds inside--"
me when I have the chronic affliction: "Do they still have the affliction"
