loey

🍒 and i will make myself so beautiful 🍒 ed posting | 20 | she/they | block, don't report!

[skeletalcrayfish]

intro post 🌙

last active - february 2026

my name is loey and my pronouns are she/they

i'm 20 and i've been struggling with anorexia nervosa on and off since i was 11. i also have issues with substances (mainly opiates) and used to suffer from a binge eating disorder, both of which i may discuss on this blog. i'm also a bpd girly (because of course i am), i have adhd and quite possibly autism (looking into it lol)

my latest ed relapse was october 21st 2024

i'm not pro anything!! i'm just here to feel less alone with my ed and hopefully make some of you feel a little less alone too. and I'm not just saying that. all i want to do here is express my feelings to people who understand them and hopefully do some harm reduction along the way.

weight tracking 💐

sw: 190 lbs

cw: 175 lbs

gw: 170 lbs

ugw: 110 lbs

(sw is from the beginning of this blog)

fasting 🌷

current streak: ---

longest streak: 43 hours

[shesnake]

hello august you piece of shit

[shesnake]

goodbye august you piece of shit

[luvuz4life]

Here are some quick fasting tips to help make it easier:

Stay Hydrated: Drink plenty of water, herbal teas, or black coffee to stay hydrated and curb hunger.

Start Slow: If you’re new to fasting, begin with shorter fasts and gradually increase the duration as your body adapts.

Keep Busy: Stay active and distracted to keep your mind off food during fasting periods.

Eat Balanced Meals: When you break your fast, eat nutrient-dense, balanced meals with protein, healthy fats, and veggies.

Avoid Sugary Drinks: Stick to non-caloric beverages (water, black coffee, tea) to avoid breaking your fast.

Listen to Your Body: If you feel weak or unwell, it’s okay to stop fasting. Your health should always come first.

Sleep Well: Good sleep helps with hunger control and energy levels during fasting.

Be Consistent: Fasting can get easier with consistency, so try to stick to a schedule.

[the-muppet-joker]

I need me some Nonbinary Strap from a They/Them Muppet

[strange-aeons]

[skeletalcrayfish]

Back back back back back again and I gained 5lbs so it's fucking crunch time

[tacticianofylisse]

so im trying to decipher this chart on wikipedia that has common vampire weaknesses in it and

a ‘green/yes’ is a weakness, a ‘red/no’ is something that isnt a weakness, and a ‘?’ is something that has never been addressed but fucking riddle me this

in what lore are vampires weak to getting soggy in milk

[tacticianofylisse]

i scrolled over to check to see what this could possibly be and

places a hand on me cheek

[glitter6ug-deactivated20190325]

happy halloween month time for my favourite post of all time

[skeletalcrayfish]

When I manifested weight loss I did NOT mean my ass!!!

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

bpd is so embarrassing it’s just being 13 forever

[exitwound]

you are not a wasteland you just need ibuprofen and a hot bath and a shower and a nutritious meal and some water and some fresh air and to do something productive and to do something creative and to do something that takes physical exertion and to do something social

[sugarfreefairy]

i feel like i feel too much. i love people and get attached too easily. i go out of my way to show people i love them and make sure they know i care. a lot of the time i wish i didn’t, all it does is hurt me

but i also love loving people. it’s just that sometimes id like a little bit of that love in return

[the-muppet-joker]

I'm not a violent muppet... I don't know why I bite

[skeletalcrayfish]

The new situationship is escalating and I fear it's giving me a reason to be beautiful

This is both phenomenal and horrifying :)

[cats-healing-diary]

The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful

[graveyardmouth]

there should be a hug button where you can tell your mutuals its going to be okay instead of liking their vent post and hoping they realize ur not agreeing that they should die

[skeletalcrayfish]

My dad: please stop joking about wanting to kill yourself

Me:

[skeletalcrayfish]

I want to be 14 again

I want to listen almost exclusively to nu metal

I want to collect can tabs

I want to put unnecessary spikes on everything

I want to watch 90s talk shows about goths and punks on repeat

I want to be up at 4am doing a painting of trent reznor

I want to fucking feel again man