Words Are A Way Of Life

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Lost with Open Eyes

The bed is growing too large Or am I just shrinking? Shrinking into my thoughts and feelings. All alone and nothing but quiet. I’m at home but feeling lost. Locked all the door but not feeling safe. I close my eyes and see one face….yours

Those brown eyes fixated on my face. The same ones I can get lost in. That smile that makes me warm all over. Those lips with the gentlest of kisses. The ones I can’t get enough of. I open my eyes and am alone. All of this is what I miss.

The bed growing uncontrollably. I’m alone and confused. Still lost in the familiar place. Far from being safe. Reality is too much to chew. Wrap my covers tight around me. I close my eyes and see one body….yours.

That chest large enough to lay on. Listening to your heart beat. Arms wrapped around me. Keeping me close and warm. Now I am home and safe. Legs intertwined in knots. Making us one instead of two.

Fall asleep in the dreams and bliss Because I am with you. Happy and warm where I belong Because you have found me. Transported to my world Because that’s where you are....my home.

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Hidden or Free

Look at me and tell me what you see An outer shell that hides the deepest secrets from the world Away from public view with a facade that fools many You’ll see what I want you to see and nothing more.

Do you want to know me?

Peer into my eyes and you’ll see my soul Not pure but well traveled and wise Peer into my mind and you’ll see my thoughts Not innocent but full of life and dreams Peer into my heart and you’ll see my truest form Not whole but mended with love and care

Break that outer shell and you’ll see me for who I am Break that barrier and with you I shall be free

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Hopeless Yet Romantic??

People who proclaim to be hopeless romantics only see way to indulge the one they love. Going way up over and above to show what they feel and ensure the other knows it’s real.

Grand gestures filled with heart because they don’t dare be apart. They don’t always have a personal touch And are sometimes too much. When words and simple things will do hopeless romantics just don’t have a clue.

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Feelings of doubt I’m down and out Giving up on this day There is nothing to say That could make me smile.

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The soft cool sand beneath my feet. The crash of the ocean waves. The warmth of the sun rays. The cool breeze blowing thru my hair. The glow of sun kissed skin. The tranquility and peacefulness. My paradise….I’m about that summer life.

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In life you must always have multiple modes of transportation to get to your destination. You never know when you’ll need to utilize another strategy or exit plan. Be prepared.

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Breathe in; Take a hit Escape to my world for a bit Feel the breeze Put my mind at ease Place the bottle to my lip Take a nice long sip Close my eyes and slip away

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I never seem to choose the right time To open up and let my feelings unwind. Always when you have to go or I can’t stay Is when my words want to release. But when I have the chance I’d rather let my actions show And not let the words take over.

My actions are so suddle they need help But words and time never match up. One of these days ill let it all out Get over any fear or doubt And spill it all til my face turns blue. Say everything I feel for you.

Until that day ill write it all down. Shed some tears cause every single word is true And straight from the heart. I’d never lie or stretch what I feel. So hopefully when that time comes And the words flow like a raging river You will know that I am being 100% real.

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Late at night Laying in bed A thought of you A sigh of happiness

A vibration noise A dim light shines A text with your name An instant grab of the phone

My heart skips a beat My breath escapes me My eyes shed a tear.

A quick conversation. A huge smile on my face. A few more tears shed.

A tug of the sheets A squeeze of my teddy A wish for tomorrow

A smile of happiness A feeling of numbness A thought of greatness to come

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Laying in bed while my mind clutters. Moonlight shines through the window Casting shadows on the walls. My eyes cast their gaze over the shadows And for a moment my mind entertains the shapes.

My mind breaks free as I stare at the stars. I listen to my heartbeat and feel its thumping. Close my eyes and I see your face And in this moment I am transported.

My heart beats faster. A smile creeps across my face. I can feel your touch, so soft and comforting. I can hear your voice, so calm and soothing.

My blankets become your arms wrapped around me tight. My pillows become your chest that I lay my head on. My heartbeat has become yours that I listen to and feel. In this moment I am happy in the most pure and organic way. I am safe and untouchable, floating on the highest of clouds.

In the simplest of words….tonight you’re on my mind. My mind takes the reality and submerges it into my memories Smooshing them into all this world I’m in. I realize its because of three little words….I miss you.

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Just another night here thinking of you. Always thinking happy and never blue. Nothing about this is new But telling you how I feel is overdue.

What I would do to be in your arms wrapped tight. Always give you a hug and kiss goodnight. Everything about that sounds and feels so right. Instead I lay alone and just write.

To be with you would be absolutely grand. To always reach out and hold your hand. Knowing on the ground I won’t land But to be caught and helped made to stand.

I know my feelings came fast and deep. But they are not something from you I wish to keep. Nothing to lose so I’ll take the leap. And hope next to you soon I’ll sleep.

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A gorgeous day off; well ill be damned. Ocean side at the beach is where I will land. Got my drink in my hand. My toes dig into the warm sand.

Body nice and tanned. Sitting in traffic now jammed. So carefree I turn up my favorite band Cause in the end it doesn’t even matter.

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I wish I could tell you exactly how I fell It is soo crazy and yet soo real But my emotions stay locked with a seal I write it down in the moonlight where I kneel

Since I’ve met you, you’re always on my mind So loving, so affectionate and so kind You open my eyes when I am blind I wrote it all down, dated and signed

Your smile lights a room when you walk in Immediately as reflex I begin to grin Feelin this was about you should be a sin My heart runs a race and will always win.

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Hallowed Out Self

Feeling broken and empty; these tears I shed. Rolling down my sad face; cheeks no longer red. Nothing but hurt and pain inside Everything in my might I have tried. To douse this hurt and pain Won’t even work to stand in the rain.

Alone and cold I now feel. The gravity of my feelings so truely real. Losing what I didn’t even know I had Makes me feel immensely sad. Close my eyes and wish it away Like the sunset and the end of the day.

Nothing left to say or do That would help me from feelin blue. It is now all very clear. The end has come; it’s finally here. Empty and hallow is how I shall stay. And eternally at rest I will lay.

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Been waiting for that text all day But nothing came; not even a hey. There is something that I must’ve done. The pressure on me weighs a ton.

Hope I’m just overreacting And the stress will be an old thing. I’ll see his name pop on my phone Or maybe hear the ringtone.

A smile to my face when I see his name. I get all giddy but have to stay tame. For his text I’ve waited all day But to him I won’t admit or say

That I’ve missed him the past two nights. And dream of him when I turn out the lights. Look at his pictures to get me thru These crazy thoughts that make me blue.

But I’ve fallen hard and fast. I just wish that this will last. I hope at the bottom he will catch me. And not let me fall to the ground free.

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I want to feel his arms around me His strength and his touch The safety and soothingness he radiates

I want to feel his lips against mine The warmth of his kiss The feeling that nothing else exists

The freedom to be me without judgement The trust to tell it all without fail The nervousness about being so open with him

The warm numbness that climbs through my limbs The butterflies that tickle my tummy The glowing smile that takes over my face Knowing he’s the one that causes my happiness

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Look into my eyes. They are the windows to my heart. There you will find your name scrawled in permanent pen. My smile is the happiness radiating from within that your name will be there eternally.