Have you ever met someone on the internet that you liked so much that you sometimes sit there and think āOh man there are people who are lucky enough to see this person IN THE FLESH ON A REGULAR BASIS and I wonder if they realize how LUCKY they areā
Life is soooo crazy. One minute you have the earth shattering realization that all of ur relationships are hollow and ur actually acutely alone in the world and that nobody Knows you. and the next minute ur like. Eating a kit kat
A few weeks had gone by and you hadnāt seen the Pogues since the morning after the argument with Kie. You didnāt speak to Kie, but you occasionally spoke with JJ and the others every so often. Kie would never realize but you felt like shit ever since her outburst and you werenāt sure why but you didnāt feel good enough to hang around the Pogues anymore.
Anonymous asked:
Can i request where reader feels she's no longer good enough to be around the pogues because kiara doesn't like her and is jealous of how she is with them?
Summary: Kiara had always been jealous of Y/N, whether it be the way she looked, talked, carried herself, or the way she was perceived by the island. One thing Kiara could never get over was how she was with the other pogues. She had been around longer, leaving her closer to all of them making Kiara feel as though she was always missing some inside joke. After a night of drinking Kiara explodes, leaving an awkward tension between the group.
"Are you coming to the Boneyard tonight?" Joh B asked, breaking you from your thoughts.
"Uh, I'm honestly not sure. Promised I'd be home at a reasonable time tonight." You said with a slight laugh.
"Oh, come on what's one more day being out late?" JJ asked slinging his arm across your shoulders.
"J, you know how my mom gets when I break promises."
"Yeah guys, just let her stay home if she doesn't want to come. It's just one party." Kie said uninterested.
You shot a confused look to the guys and then looked at Kie.
"Don't sound so happy I won't go." You said with a laugh.
"No, no, no that's not what I meant at all," Kie said quickly.
"I'm just kidding Kie."
"But really, you should come if you can Y/N/N," Pope said as JB pulled into Kie's dock.
"Y/N just let me know if stay at John B's tonight. I don't mind you going out, I'm gonna have an early night anyway." Your mom said.
"I will mom, I love you."
"Love you too, let us know if you need anything."
You nodded your head and headed to your room to change. You weren't exactly in the most party mood, so you just opted for a pair of sweat shorts and a swimsuit top.
By the time you had gotten to the Boneyard the party was in full swing. Everyone was drunk or having a good time with other substances.
You laughed to yourself as you went in search of your friends. Spotting JJ and Pope first you smiled and ran up to them.
"Hey, you made it!" Pope said hugging you.
"Yeah, my mom decided she was going to bed early, didn't want me to miss the fun."
"Well good, we're gonna have a bonfire after this back at the Chateau," JJ said.
"Alright cool." You said with a smile.
Your smile quickly vanished as your eyes laid on Kie, who was completely hammered and crying.
"Kie! What's wrong?" You asked quickly, helping the girl to sit.
"Like you don't know." She said with a bitter laugh.
"What?" You asked removing your hand from her back.
"Gosh you are so damn oblivious aren't you? You are what's wrong."
Your eyebrows scrunched together as you looked at your friends for help.
"Kie she didn't do anything." John B said coming to your defense.
"This is my issue! You all defend her and she has no faults does she?!" Kie screamed.
"Kiara, stop." Pope tried.
"NO! You can't tell me I need to stop! She's the reason you all make me feel like I'm missing something, some kind of inside joke. Little miss perfect everything makes me feel like I'm not good enough and never will be. I wish I could have the relationship she has with all of you, but that could only be accomplished by her having met you after me. Just another pogue born who met you guys first. I donāt like her.ā She spat.
"Alright, I've had enough." You muttered turning to walk away.
"What? You can't stand to hear this because you know it's true? I'm sure you do it on purpose. You want the whole island to know of you like this cool, chill girl and that makes them think I'm stuck up because I'm not just like you."
"You sound so stupid right now! You don't have to be me, jealousy is a hell of a thing. If you listened at all while we were best friends instead of picking out everything about me that makes you feel terrible, you would know my life is far from perfect. I don't try and make you feel bad. Kie everyone has their struggles, especially with comparing themselves to other girls. This is by no means fair to just assume that you are the only one out of us who has them." You said and walked away this time done with the conversation at hand.
"Hey, where are you going?" JJ asked, running to grab your hand.
"I'm going home. I knew I should've stayed there. I'll see you guys tomorrow or something." You said with a sigh.
"No. She doesn't get to chase you off. She does not get the power. Let's go to the Chateau and lay down. I'm not letting you drive in this emotional state." JJ said looking at you worriedly.
He watched you carefully as your eyes filled with tears.
"It's fine J, go enjoy the party. My house is like 10 minutes away. I'll call my mom and have her watcha movie with me when I get home."
"I already know you were just going to sit in your room and ignore everyone for a week while you bottle up your emotions." He said taking the car keys from your hand.
You sighed and allowed him to help you into the passenger side. He gripped your hand after he got into the driver's side and began the short drive back to the Chateau. The conversation he tried to start quickly fell into an unanswered silence as you stared ahead at the road.
When your truck pulled into the Chateau's drive and JJ came and helped you out again even though you were more than capable of doing it on your own.
"Let's go get ready for bed." He mumbled against your ear, leading you to the spare room. You sighed when you knew the night would finally be drama-free.
"Want tea? Water? Beer?" JJ asked, causing you to shake your head in response.
You turned your back to JJ and unclipped your swimsuit top, bending down to grab one of his discarded T-shirts. Your shorts quickly followed suit of your top and you climbed into bed. Taking your phone you texted your mom to let her know you were staying at John Bās.
āHey donāt shut me out,ā JJ said reaching for your shoulder.
āI just donāt get it. I would never make Kie feel like that on purpose. I just I donāt know J.ā
āJust try and get some sleep. Weāll figure it out in the morning. Sound good?ā
You nodded your head despite knowing you would go home tomorrow morning.
You woke up and groaned. You didnāt want to deal with Kie or have to face the tension she created in the group. Tugging JJās arm off your waist, you stood up and looked around for some of your clothes. It was a mess of things thrown around on the floor.
āHey whatāre you doin,ā JJ asked sitting up.
āGoing home,ā you replied.
JJās face contorted in confusion before he climbed out of bed.
āHey. Look at me.ā He said as he grabbed your chin.
āJ I canāt right now, okay?ā
āShe doesnāt get this power of you. We can all make our own decisions.ā
āI get that but I need to go home and see my mom. Iāll text you guys I promise. Can you help me find some clothes though? This place is a shit show.ā
He chuckled and dug around before tossing you a bra and one of your shirts. You pulled out a pair of your panties and your shorts from the night before and headed to the bathroom.
Once you were changed you went to the kitchen to see John B leaning against the counter.
āSup,ā he said watching you.
āHey.ā
āWhere ya going?ā
āHome. My mom was expecting me home last night but J wouldnāt let me drive.ā You said pulling your shoes on.
āJust so you know there are no harsh feelings towards you itās towards Kie for acting like that.ā
You nodded and looked at the floor. You felt him embrace you and you reluctantly hugged him back.
āI mean it, so stop beating yourself up for what she said and what she feels, okay?ā He asked pushing you to an arm's length.
āYeah, I got it.ā You mumbled, āIāll see yāall later.ā
After being home for a while you went upstairs to be by yourself since youād sat with your mom for advice and to watch a random show with her.
Your phone was seemingly vibrating to no end when you arrived in your room. Picking it up you were getting a FaceTime call from the boys.
Deciding to pick up you saw them smiling at you.
āWe couldnāt get you to answer any of our texts we thought we were gonna have to bust in your house,ā Pope said with a laugh.
āYeah sorry I left my phone in my room while I was with my mom. Whatās up?ā
āWe wanted to have the bonfire tonight since it didnāt work out last night,ā JB spoke.
āIām okay, invite Kie though. Sure sheād love to have you guys all to herself. Maybe sheāll even replace my friendship.ā You said sarcastically.
āShut up, you know she canāt, itās a different friendship between us and you and us and her,ā JJ said with a glare.
āYe-ā you started but you were stopped by your mom calling for you.
āGotta go guys, but yeah wonāt be able to make it out tonight. Love you!ā You said before hanging up.
You sighed knowing that you were just making the decision easier for them by distancing yourself. If Kie didnāt like you and didnāt want you around you would be busy when they wanted to hang out.
A few weeks had gone by and you hadnāt seen the Pogues since the morning after the argument with Kie. You didnāt speak to Kie, but you occasionally spoke with JJ and the others every so often. Kie would never realize but you felt like shit ever since her outburst and you werenāt sure why but you didnāt feel good enough to hang around the Pogues anymore. It was obvious none of the other Pogues felt the way as Kie, they would have booted you from the friend group long before, but there was just the feeling that you could not shake.
Your days were pretty normal, helping your mom run her shop, surfing in the evening or in the mornings, fixing up various parts of your house, and sometimes going to the beach to relax and tan. This day however was not relaxing at all, all of the Pogues decided to make an appearance, Kie included. You looked in their direction before picking up your stuff and beginning to head home.
You were beginning to walk over the dune when Kie called out to you, causing you to turn and look at the girl. Folding your arms you waited for the group to approach. Kie greeted you with a smile, which you glared at.
"Glad to see you're happy you got what you wanted." You sneered at her.
"This isn't what I wanted." Kie defended.
"Yeah, I'm sure it's not. I gotta go," You said and turned away from her.
Kiara grabbed your arm and you began to pull your arm away from her.
"Do not touch me," You seethed, glaring at the brunette girl.
"What is your issue?" Kiara groaned, looking to the guys for defense.
"You are my problem, sorry to use your own words against you. You made me feel like I couldn't come around my friends, the people I treat and call my family because I make you feel like shit! Now I'm the one left feeling like they aren't good enough. So congrats Kie, you got what you always wanted! Them to yourself." You stated and with that, you walked away.
