the gay disappointment

A | 25 | they/them | general personal blog, occasionally used as a public anonymous journal

[valtsv]

self destruction really is such a fascinating human response to various factors both external and internal. what if sisyphus could leave at any time but kept rolling the boulder up the hill just to watch it roll back down anyway. what if he kept pushing it even as the rock cut into his palms and his legs began to ache with the desire to rest for even a moment and his body became a canvas of bruises and cuts that never have time to heal. what if he did it because it's the only thing he knows how to do. the only thing that gives him a sense of certainty and control in a world that takes both and offers neither.

[valtsv]

& needless to say this trait is a lot more fun to observe in fiction than it is in you. or your mother.

[norse-naiad]

Krobus is enjoying the new waterfalls...

[bbyygirll20-deactivated20250715]

“That’s my girl”

“My good/pretty girl”

“My baby”

“You’re mine”

[fuckyeahchinesegarden]

xihu西湖/west lake in hangzhou, zhejiang province after Typhoon Bebinca （cr 三七, 低头吃饭）

[catasters]

[thiefking]

actually you know what that's exactly it i would rather someone add 5 parantheticals after every sentence than use tone indicators it's 1. accomplishing SO much more in terms of clarity 2. extremely funny to look at depending on how they're used

[thiefking]

observe:

"is this real? /gen" — i thought /gen meant "general" for ages. i would not be able to understand this on first sight a few years ago and is thus ineffective

"is this real? (genuine question)" — i fully understand this without issue

"is this real? (genuine question) (can't tell) (very realistic) (looks real) (scary) (photoshop?)" — is not only incredibly clear it's also very funny to read all of these thoughts stapled together while also in their own parentheses. it's also the most useful because now i can actually address all parts of what they are asking me with as much specificity as BOTH of us need

[lady-sanguis]

parentheses my beloved (they are for bonus thoughts) (and questions) ( and sidetracks) (like a 2nd conversation on top of the first)

[communismsnoopdogg]

this is a picture of karl marx

[bsideheart]

[image ID: a picture of Snoop Dogg. end ID]

[thepunkpanther]

my all-time favourite movies ↳ THE HOLDOVERS (2023) dir. Alexander Payne

"Because no one is his own father. I'm not my dad. No matter how hard he tried to beat that idea into me. I find the world a bitter and complicated place, and it seems to feel the same way about me. I think you and I have this in common. But don't get me wrong, you have your challenges. You're erratic and belligerant and gigantic pain in the balls, but you're not your father. You're your own man. Man, no. You're just a kid. You're just beginning. And you're smart. You've got time to turn things around. Yes, I know that Greeks had the idea that the steps you take to avoid your fate are the very steps that lead you to it, but that's just a literary conceit. In real life, your history does not have to dictate your destiny."

[kiwimintlime]

I need you people to realize that you can be friends with people older than you. like, much older than you. like, decades older than you. you can be friends with these people. regular friends, just like anyone your age. it is possible.

[redvelvetrevolver]

[roaldamundsen]

she okay yayed too close to the sun

[milksockets]

haute couture ateliers: the artisans of fashion - hélène farnault (2014)

[keraleda]

“Lighten Up” by Ronald Wimberly

Beautifuly written- and drawn.

[brittlife]

Damn. Really powerful and beautifully drawn.

[charl0ttan]

anyone else just constantly feel like you fucked something up and you dont know what it is but youre just waiting for the repercussions to happen

[strawberry-crocodile]

something i miss about being 14ish was that being on my ipod touch or ds late at night felt taboo and transgressive. i was hiding it from my parents and Breaking The Rules. now im just acutely aware of how im ruining my sleep cycle.

[bluraycharles]

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

more people would exercise if this culture didn't make it absolute hell

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

I teach martial arts. we play games with the little kids. they swordfight with noodles and throw foam balls at each other. in the summer, we take them out into the parking lot with water guns. in the winter, we have snowball fights.

the teenagers get swords and staffs and practice knives. we teach them moves from marvel movies that they ask about. they get squirt guns and snowball fights too. we let them goof off and climb the support beams and charge directly at each other in padded suits.

sometimes parents say they miss doing things like that. I tell them, "stay for an adult class. just try it out." we build obstacle courses and let them mess around with training rifles. they chat while sparring. we scream and cheer for them when they're in the middle of a circle. and then we send them out to the parking lot with squirt guns and snowballs.

it's exercise. it's healthy. it's an important life skill. and it's fun as fuck.

[sailor-kaiju]

This is one of the forgotten but imo super harmful symptoms of diet culture-exercise being relegated to weight loss rather than jist enjoying using and being in your body.

Don’t like the gym? Ok, go find a line dancing club. A Tai Chi class. Play Just Dance every day. Arrange a tag football team. Go to a trampoline park.

Using our bodies shouldn’t be a chore assigned in shame.

[thesoftboiledegg]