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[tetitasdelimon]

top 5 horror movies

-having a job

-not having a job

-applying for jobs

-the job market

-the concept of working my whole life

[socialmaya]

Occasionally forget people genuinely think capitalism is thousands of years old

[sylestial]

One time I was talking about Robin Hood with some coworkers and one guy was like “he was bad because the people he helped learned to expect handouts” and I wanted to be like… okay can you explain how that flawed capitalist propaganda applies to feudalism

[scallioncreamcheesebagel]

reminder that capitalism was literally invented in the 16th century

[tayefeth]

That’s an exaggeration. What was invented in the 16th century was mercantilism. Capitalism really dates for the beginning of the nineteenth century, with the rise of industry and cash crops over artisans and merchants. Vulture capitalism, with the notion that companies have no duties other than generating profit, is even younger.

[antique-scarecrow]

Capitalism is only 200 years old and I have to say, they have not been an impressive 200 years

[downtroddendeity]

I think a lot of this comes from the fact that most people don’t know the formal definition of capitalism. We all know the word, we’ve all seen the jokes, but very few people bother to actually define it unless they’re talking about political theory and philosophy, so it’s easy to end up with the impression that Capitalism = Money Can Be Exchanged For Goods And Services.

Capitalism is the economic system where most of the means of production (i.e. everything people need to have to make the stuff that everyone wants) are owned by private individuals or corporations, who then hire people to provide the labor necessary to produce things, with the intent of selling the output at a profit. It’s the difference between “you’re a carpenter and you make a chair and you sell it” and “you’re Richard Q. Richington who owns a chair factory, and you pay people to sell the chairs you paid other people to make and then all the excess money goes back to you.” There have been Richard Q. Richingtons on and off throughout history, but that being the norm for every single industry is a pretty recent development.

[antiterfbutch]

An alarming amount of people seem to think capitalism = all trade, and I don’t think that’s a coincidence.

[magnesia]

"Can we focus less on love is love this pride month" there are still countries where being in a gay relationship is illegal you fucking piece of shit

[spare-dignity]

every once in a while someone at work will they/them me, and I'm like. huh? did they work on this unit back when I was bepronouned or are they just assuming I'm they/them? I never explicitly said don't use they/them anymore, but I also never object to she/her and feminine terms of address, from staff or from patients. does she think I'm just a GIGANTIC pushover who gave up on being called what I wanted??

[snarp]

There is no "gold standard" for this molecule, it is a molecule. What are you doing to the horse

[snarp]

Wait this is horse Prilosec. The horse picture is there because this is Prilosec for horses to take. The targeted ads successfully figured out that I have acid reflux and take Prilosec for it, but failed to correctly identify my species, which is not "horse" (I'm something else). The targeted ads think there are horses using this web site and that they click on ads with their hoof or nose.

[estrellasrojas]

Young people are too invested in the comically unreasonable dream of having a full time job, making enough money to not waste their life thinking about budgeting for necessities, living in something other than a cardboard shoebox, and having like 3-4 friends who they actually like and who care about them. Instead they should be thinking about networking, producing content, optimizing workflows, and training their body into the perfect commodity

[thoughtcascades]

you are allowed to outgrow the version of yourself everyone else got comfortable with

[spare-dignity]

today's affirmation:

It is both normal and moral to siphon money from my dad. I am correctly diverting funds from men who would like a third vacation this year to women who need food and shelter.

[spare-dignity]

Whenever I run across someone on this hellsite who says they have a "misogyny kink" I do the mental equivalent of sitting down. Like. Are you also going to come out as heterosexual? Because the world is already operating on the assumption that this is part of your sexuality. That's a "kink" that comes free with our society and the centering of it takes serious work to undo no matter your sex or gender.

To say you have a misogyny kink is to say "society has instilled in me the exact sexual responses that benefit capitalism and prevent hetero relationships from ever feeling equal" and expect to be exempted from criticism because you're a progressive, because it's "just fantasy", because sexual proclivities are beyond reproach.

[spare-dignity]

Not to be the "akshualleeee there's nuance 🤓" pedant, but when it comes to transwomen being banned off tumblr there really is nuance. The one post on this blog that's ever been flagged as mature is one where I talk about being detrans and how having been trans impacts my current life as a woman, in a completely SFW manner. There is, to some degree, automodding of posts that contain the words "trans" and "woman". Having a ton of automod-flagged posts combined with the ever-present infighting on trans-focused tumblr means one or two big blogs' followers mass reporting you will get you termed right quick.

Do I think the tw getting termed are angels who never broke TOS? Absolutely not. But there's a grain of truth to the judgment standards being harsher for them.

[kushblazer666]

[threedollarsdotcom]

working on our autobiography

PART ONE

i cant tell you any of that stuf

THE ENT

[bgm05]

I feel my kidneys vibrate at night when I sleep like a princess

[loki-zen]

has anyone considered that it was probably her house too. where else was she supposed to put her chintz?

[mtndewpitchblack]

[kiefbowl]

[ferrethaver]

i love you lesbians and bisexual women in my phone you make my days brighter happy pride

[female-eren]

Aging is horrific actually I'm sorry feminism. The thought of being unable to move properly, muscle tissue wasting away, bones wasting away, losing sight and hearing, taking 500 medications a day, just hanging around like a corpse that hasn't died yet.... I think I'll just kill myself at like 70

[virgoiscariot]

Becoming medically fragile with old age is not a given!!! Weight bearing exercise, regular cardio, a healthy diet, and an engaged mind do wonders to keep you healthy well into your 80s and 90s! In my career I have taken care of plenty of old people who passed away peacefully from age after a life well lived. Some parts of aging are inevitable, like increased risk of cancer(due to accumulating cell damage) but many “normal” parts of the aging process are absolutely preventable or at least able to be reduced. Don’t lose hope and take care of yourself!

[kittyit]

link / archive

[marbleguard]

I’m going to say something that might sound crazy. Suicide and suicide attempts are sort of a societal alarm bell that says “something is very wrong with the environment this individual was in.” A living being choosing to take themselves out of existence is the most extreme act of distress there is. The state stepping in to silence this alarm bell by funneling suicidal people into a state sanctioned euthanasia program, normalizing this act through a socially accepted bureaucratic system, is not a good thing. It goes hand in hand with the state’s interest in maintaining the status quo at the expense of the population and the psychiatric industry’s interest in individualizing societal problems to extract profit and aid the existing system. It’s saying “there are no complaints here, just people with sick brains, carry on.”

[kittyit]

it does not sound crazy

[the-rad-menace]

Nineteen is so incredibly young.

I suffered from depression and suicidal ideation from the age of eight. The few times I brought myself to ask my parents for help, they deflected, insisting that I was just sensitive, shy, a deep thinker. I did well in school and I obeyed my parents, so they didn't think it was a problem. At my worst points, I couldn't be alone with my thoughts at all. Hundreds of times I day, I thought about how much of a worthless burden I was, that I and everyone in my life would be better off if I was dead and gone.

As an adult, I tried numerous medications and treatment plans, some of which alleviated the depression briefly, but it wasn't until I sought out a psychologist that could do ketamine therapy/electroconvulsive therapy as last resort options, that she recognized/diagnosed me with ADHD. It's commonly overlooked in women and girls and often manifests as long-term, treatment resistant depression. I now take a combination of Vyvanse and Auvelity and my suicidal ideation is almost non-existent. Weeks and even months go by without me thinking about dying/killing myself.

The state of the world, especially for women and girls, is harrowing, but giving up on finding the right medication/treatments for a nineteen year old is unbelievably cruel. If my parents or any of the professionals I'd seen over the years had said, "Yes, you're right. It would be for the best if you were dead, and here's how to do it," I would not be alive now.

I was 26 when I was diagnosed, and I'm turning 32 in a few days.

[spare-dignity]

My story is just like yours, but with supportive parents. From age 13 I was in therapy and from age 14 I was being tried on medications, and nothing worked. Eating disorder, gender dysphoria, seizure disorder, alcohol abuse; things kept getting worse on top of my treatment-resistant depression and anxiety. I spent the night before my 19th birthday on a hellish short-term psych unit because the talk about killing myself was too constant and serious to ignore.

At age 28 I switched psychiatrists, and after another suicidal crisis was put on Adderall. I don't have suicidal thoughts anymore. It took 15 years to get to the root of the problem - I don't regret living any of them, horrible as they could sometimes be, and now I have so many more to look forward to.

Letting the mentally tortured girl I was at 13, or 16, or 19 do what she wanted would have been an awful mistake and thrown away a perfectly livable life.