i swear i thought i dreamed her

terfs don’t follow/interact • kate • 25 • nonbinary lesbian • she/they

[aftonfamilyvalues]

[cy-lindric]

Due to its surprising popularity on the many places it's been posted and reposted to, I decided to finally complete this little wlw sketch that I had kind of given up on. I'm hoping to have it riso printed soon !

[krasnoarmeyets]

well i didn’t play any videogames as a kid and developed an inclination towards violence anyway

[senatortedcruz]

Sorry you’re gonna have to drag me kicking and screaming off the thirty year old social reject woman website. These are my people

[cilantrhoes]

[catmask]

also, i know this might sound corny but like.... please be nice to other people online. not even trying to say this in a like a, 'oh because you never know what they might be going throughhhh' kind of way just like. be nice man. stop hate following along with things. be more patient with strangers. stop trying to get off cunty one liners for your five seconds of smirking like a dreamworks poster protag.

ive said it before but as a tool and a 'place', i really love the internet, genuinely. i dont like the resignation that it has to be, and stay, a place thats full of misery and fighting. ive met a lot of really wonderful people here, and i think we could all have a nice time together if everyone did their part to make it so that was possible. im not speaking down to you as someone whos never made these mistakes, im asking as someone whos also made them alongside you.

[s-ol4psismmmmmmmm]

mhhmmm yea

[strawblebby]

i say this as someone who is disabled and who has no intentions of harming themselves, but:

i really really wish that there was a cure for my physical pain. having a genetic disorder wreak havoc on my body is so so difficult.

the amount of times i’ve gone to the doctor because i was in serious pain just to be told “oh, it’s because of your EDS” and “take ibuprofen! it’ll help!” (after me telling them i have to take 800mg at once to feel anything) is the reason why i haven’t sought help in almost two years.

but my body is getting worse. and yes, i am partially to blame.

but i blame the dozen or so doctors who i brought my pain up to, and they refused to do anything of substance. i blame the doctor who told me i needed a year’s worth of shoulder PT before he would consider an MRI, and told me i should try illicit substances knowing the HMO i was seeing him under drug tested me. i blame the doctors who let me build up a tolerance to ibuprofen at such an early age. i blame the doctors who fall back on me having a genetic disorder so they can pass the blame without actually having to do anything about it. i blame the doctors who saw a young girl in pain and decided her pain wasn’t worth their time. i blame the doctor who held me as i cried and then proceeded to prescribe me ✨prescription strength ibuprofen✨ in the exact dosage i was taking and said that it would help my pain. i blame the doctor who tried to pass off my symptoms as fibromyalgia, despite me not meeting the diagnostic criteria.

i am tired of carrying this weight. i am tired of constantly having to scream, shriek, wail just to be heard. i am tired of writing scripts to recite to my doctors just to have my words willfully misinterpreted. i have a goddamn english degree; i know how to speak well. it’s not just that i no longer want the burden, but that i wish the burden never existed.

i say all of this knowing that once my health insurance kicks in next month, i will start it back up. i will subject myself to the pokes and prods, to having the validity of my dx questioned due to a very small population of teenagers on tiktok. i will subject myself to having to relive my trauma in front of someone who may or may not care—or who may or may not inflict further trauma.

and i do it alone. that’s not to say i don’t have people who care, because i do. that is to say that i don’t know a single person in my real life who has EDS. none of my family members qualify for a diagnosis, and i recently moved across the country and am starting up the process of making friends. i haven’t come across anyone in my day to day life with EDS, though.

i will continue alone, down a path designed to have travelers give up.

[strawblebby]

hi friends. i made this post in late 2023 and am here in mid 2026 with an update.

i did have to do all of these things. i got established with a healthcare provider, i continued to seek care, despite the previous failures and trauma i’d experienced.

it was so worth it.

that’s not to say the journey hasn’t had ups and downs. but, the positives far outweighed the negatives.

i finally got the MRI of my shoulder i was denied, and got PT with someone actually knowledgeable in hEDS, and it was sooooo helpful. i got established with a gynecologic surgeon, and am scheduled for surgery in about a month to finally figure out what’s going on.

i finally met someone with hEDS! i work with her and she’s absolutely lovely.

the biggest thing to happen to me so far is that for ten straight workweeks, i’ve gone to the gym after work and done at least a 20 minute workout.

this isn’t to say that it wasn’t hard, but it did end up looking up.

[scribefindegil]

The "Save me X" meme is such an integrated part of my brain now that I just go around chanting it in my head constantly. Save me nice clean sheets. Save me YouTube drawing tutorial. Save me Aldi's frozen Bavarian pretzel. And you know what? They do.

[un-monstre]

Disability will have you thinking shit like “I’m not even that disabled. I can manage as long as I limit myself to very specific careers, never go shopping for more than an hour or two at a time, keep my plans open so I can cancel and stay in if need be, and only go out a few nights per week at the most”

[rijinks]

So I've been binge playing Hades; above dialog is not canon (but the vibes are)

[c0nt8ct-deactivated20211225]

If you like socialism so much, move to Lazytown and see how much you actually like it. Fucking idiot.

[an-internet-introvert]

Things I am normal about

[bewbin]

if you need us the missus and me will be in the other room having a duel with old flintlock pistols missing each other with every shot not only because we love each other but also because we both are dog shit at this

[thenarator]

as someone with a bachelor’s degree in english, i am inexpressibly tired of people telling me to get highly specific jobs that often require highly specific degrees. “just go write for a magazine!” you need a journalism degree for that. “just teach!” you need a teaching certificate, and also fuck you. “just go work at a tutoring place!” tutoring children with learning disabilities, which make up the majority of the clientele at those places, requires not only a teaching certificate but a specialized master’s degree. “just go work at a library!” you need a master’s degree in library science to be a librarian. it is actually a highly skilled and extremely competitive field. you don’t just “go work at a library,” you train for years in the vain hope that you will get one of handful of available jobs. “just go work at a library.” the nerve. the unmitigated gall. “just go work at a library.” ugh.

[t4timekeeper]

dinosaur sprinkles. look at this post with your eyes if you agree

[t4timekeeper]

[ryebreadgf]

”ass or tits” the memory of a summer’s day when i was seven