you made a post on october 12th about your abandonment fears and you included the bullet point "I have a dumb fear that anytime I share something with you, it will be one weird thing too many for you to want to date me (I have issues with abandonment)".
this just happened to me. a trans girl i had been dating for a few months learned about my DID and immediately did a 180 on me. we were super affectionate and cute together to the point of annoying other people, and then i got too comfortable and casually let slip i have alters and she immediately went cold. i'm fucking beside myself.
this was after i had avoided entering into any relationships because a year ago two relationships i had imploded at the same time after a sh relapse. i dont know what to do anymore. i feel hopeless. i feel broken and unlovable.
sorry for venting in your ask box like this, you're a perfect stranger and everything. i just have no one else to talk to and i saw your post on my recommended posts today and when i got to that bulletpoint i sobbed. why do people do this to us
referenced abandonment fears post
I'm so sorry this happened to you. I've been trying to be up-front about a lot of things about me early on in relationships now, especially things that caused problems in previous ones that I wasn't aware of at the time (like being AuDHD and grey ace).
This doesn't really help where you're at right now though. It sounds so hard, and I hope you'd be able to get support from someone. Since you're writing to me and said you have no one else to talk to, I'm guessing you don't. Ugh that sucks so much. It will be hard, but you can get through this. <3
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